<h2 id="id01887" style="margin-top: 4em">CHAPTER XXXII.</h2>
<h5 id="id01888">DISCOVERIES.</h5>
<p id="id01889" style="margin-top: 2em">On arriving at Washington, our party drove immediately to the Mansion<br/>
House, where they had previously secured rooms.<br/></p>
<p id="id01890">The city was full of strangers from all parts of the country, drawn
together by the approaching inauguration of one of the most popular
Presidents that ever occupied the White House.</p>
<p id="id01891">As soon as our party made known their arrival to their friends, they
were inundated with calls and invitations. Brother clergymen called upon
Mr. Willcoxen, and pressed upon him the freedom of their houses. Alice
Morris and Mrs. Moulton, the relative with whom she was staying, called
upon Miriam, and insisted that she should go home with them, to remain
until after the wedding. But these offers of hospitality were gratefully
declined by the little set, who preferred to remain together at their
hotel.</p>
<p id="id01892">The whole scene of metropolitan life, in its most stirring aspect, was
entirely new and highly interesting to our rustic beauty. Amusements of
every description were rife. The theatres, exhibition halls, saloons and
concert rooms held out their most attractive temptations, and night
after night were crowded with the gay votaries of fashion and of
pleasure. While the churches, and lyceums, and lecture-rooms had greater
charms for the more seriously inclined. The old and the young, the grave
and the gay, found no lack of occupation, amusement and instruction to
suit their several tastes or varying moods. The second week of their
visit, the marriage of Alice Morris and Oliver Murray came off, Miriam
serving as bridesmaid, Dr. Douglass as groomsman, and Mr. Willcoxen as
officiating minister.</p>
<p id="id01893">But it is not with these marriage festivities that we have to do, but
with the scenes that immediately succeed them.</p>
<p id="id01894">From the time of Mr. Willcoxen's arrival in the city, he had not ceased
to exercise his sacred calling. His fame had long before preceded him to
the capital, and since his coming he had been frequently solicited to
preach and to lecture.</p>
<p id="id01895">Not from love of notoriety—not from any such ill-placed, vain glory,
but from the wish to relieve some overtasked brother of the heat and
burden of at least one day; and possibly by presenting truth in a newer
and stronger light to do some good, did Thurston Willcoxen, Sabbath
after Sabbath, and evening after evening, preach in the churches or
lecture before the lyceum. Crowds flocked to hear him, the press spoke
highly of his talents and his eloquence, the people warmly echoed the
opinion, and Mr. Willcoxen, against his inclination, became the clerical
celebrity of the day.</p>
<p id="id01896">But from all this unsought world-worship he turned away a weary,
sickened, sorrowing man.</p>
<p id="id01897">There was but one thing in all "the world outside" that strongly
interested him—it was a "still small voice," a low-toned, sweet music,
keeping near the dear mother earth and her humble children, yet echoed
and re-echoed from sphere to sphere—it was the name of a lady, young,
lovely, accomplished and wealthy, who devoted herself, her time, her
talents and her fortune, to the cause of suffering humanity.</p>
<p id="id01898">This young lady, whose beauty, goodness, wisdom, eloquence and powers of
persuasion were rumored to be almost miraculous, had founded schools and
asylums, and had collected by subscription a large amount of money, with
which she was coming to America, to select and purchase a tract of land
to settle a colony of the London poor. This angel girl's name and fame
was a low, sweet echo, as I said before—never noisy, never rising
high—keeping near the ground. People spoke of her in quiet places, and
dropped their voices to gentle tones in mentioning her and her works.
Such was the spell it exercised over them. This lady's name possessed
the strangest fascination for Thurston Willcoxen; he read eagerly
whatever was written of her; he listened with interest to whatever was
spoken of her. Her name! it was that of his loved and lost Marian!—that
in itself was a spell, but that was not the greatest charm—her
character resembled that of his Marian!</p>
<p id="id01899">"How like my Marian?" would often be the language of his heart, when
hearing of her deeds. "Even so would my Marian have done—had she been
born to fortune, as this lady was."</p>
<p id="id01900">The name was certainly common enough, yet the similarity of both names
and natures inclined him to the opinion that this angel-woman must be
some distant and more fortunate relative of his own lost Marian. He felt
drawn toward the unknown lady by a strong and almost irresistible
attraction; and he secretly resolved to see and know her, and pondered
in his heart ways and means by which he might, with propriety, seek her
acquaintance.</p>
<p id="id01901">While thus he lived two lives—the outer life of work and usefulness,
and the inner life of thought and suffering—the young people of his
party, hoping and believing him to be enjoying the honors heaped upon
him, yielded themselves up to the attractions of society.</p>
<p id="id01902">Miriam spent much of her time with her friend, Alice Murray.</p>
<p id="id01903">One morning, when she called on Alice, the latter invited her visitor up
into her own chamber, and seating her there, said, with a mysterious
air:</p>
<p id="id01904">"Do you know, Miriam, that I have something—the strangest thing that
ever was—that I have been wanting to tell you for three or four days,
only I never got an opportunity to do so, because Olly or some one was
always present? But now Olly has gone to court, and mother has gone to
market, and you and I can have a cozy chat to ourselves."</p>
<p id="id01905">She stopped to stir the fire, and Miriam quietly waited for her to
proceed.</p>
<p id="id01906">"Now, why in the world don't you ask me for my secret? I declare you
take so little interest, and show so little curiosity, that it is not a
bit of fun to hint a mystery to you. Do you want to hear, or don't you?
I assure you it is a tremendous revelation, and it concerns you, too!"</p>
<p id="id01907">"What is it, then? I am anxious to hear?"</p>
<p id="id01908">"Oh! you do begin to show a little interest; and now, to punish you, I
have a great mind not to tell you; however, I will take pity upon your
suspense; but first, you must promise never, never, n-e-v-e-r to mention
it again—will you promise?"</p>
<p id="id01909">"Yes."</p>
<p id="id01910">"Well, then, listen. Stop! get a good place to faint first, and then
listen. Are you ready? One, two, three, fire. The Rev. Thurston
Willcoxen is a married man!"</p>
<p id="id01911">"What!"</p>
<p id="id01912">"Mr. Thurston Willcoxen has been married for eight years past."</p>
<p id="id01913">"Pshaw!"</p>
<p id="id01914">"Mr. Willcoxen was married eight years ago this spring at a little<br/>
Methodist chapel near the navy yard of this city, and by an old<br/>
Methodist preacher, of the name of John Berry."<br/></p>
<p id="id01915">"You are certainly mad!"</p>
<p id="id01916">"I am not mad, most noble 'doubter,' but speak the words of truth and
soberness. Mr. Willcoxen was married privately, when and where I said,
to a beautiful, fair-haired lady, whose name heard in the ritual was
Marian. And my husband, Olly Murray, was the secret witness of that
private marriage."</p>
<p id="id01917">A wild scream, that seemed to split the heart from whence it arose,
broke from the lips of Miriam; springing forward, she grasped the wrist
of Alice, and with her wild eyes starting, straining from their sockets,
gazed into he face, crying:</p>
<p id="id01918">"Tell me! tell me! that you have jested! tell me that you have lied?<br/>
Speak! speak!"<br/></p>
<p id="id01919">"I told you the Lord's blessed truth, and Oily knows it. But Miriam, for
goodness sake don't look that way—you scare me almost to death! And,
whatever you do, never let anybody know that I told you this; because,
if you did, Olly would be very much grieved at me; for he confided it to
me as a dead secret, and bound me up to secrecy, too; but I thought as
it concerned you so much, it would be no harm to tell you, if you would
not tell it again; and so when I was promising, I made a mental
reservation in favor of yourself. And so I have told you; and now you
mustn't betray me, Miriam."</p>
<p id="id01920">"It is false! all that you have told me is false! say that It is false!
tell me so! speak! speak!" cried Miriam, wildly.</p>
<p id="id01921">"It is not false—it is true as Gospel, every word of it—nor is it any
mistake. Because Olly saw the whole thing, and told me all about it. The
way of it was, that Olly overheard them in the Congressional Library
arranging the marriage—the gentleman was going to depart for Europe,
and wished to secure the lady's hand before he went—and at the same
time, for some reason or other, he wished the marriage to be kept
secret. Olly owns that it was none of his business, but that curiosity
got the upper hand of him, so he listened, and he heard them call each
other 'Thurston' and 'Marian'—and when they left the library, he
followed them—and so, unseen, he witnessed the private marriage
ceremony, at which they still answered to the names of 'Thurston' and
'Marian.' He did not hear their surnames. He never saw the bride again;
and he never saw the bridegroom until he saw Mr. Willcoxen at our
wedding. The moment Olly saw him he knew that he had seen him before,
but could not call to mind when or where; and the oftener he looked at
him, the more convinced he became that he had seen him first under some
very singular circumstances. And when at last lie heard his first name
called 'Thurston,' the whole truth flashed on him at once. He remembered
everything connected with the mysterious marriage. I wonder what Mr.
Willcoxen has done with his Marian? or whether she died or whether she
lives? or where he hides her? Well, some men are a mystery—don't you
think so, Miriam?"</p>
<p id="id01922">But only deep and shuddering groans, upheaving from the poor girl's
bosom, answered her.</p>
<p id="id01923">"Miriam! Oh, don't go on so! what do you mean? Indeed you alarm me! oh,
don't take it so to heart! indeed, I wouldn't, if I were you! I should
think it the funniest kind of fun? Miriam, I say!"</p>
<p id="id01924">She answered not—she had sunk down on the floor, utterly crushed by the
weight of misery that had fallen upon her.</p>
<p id="id01925">"Miriam! now what in the world do you mean by this? Why do you yield so?
I would not do it. I know it is bad to be disappointed of an expected
inheritance, and to find out that some one else has a greater claim,
but, indeed, I would not take it to heart so, if I were you. Why, if he
is married, he may not have a family, and even if he has, he may not
utterly disinherit you, and even if he should, I would not grieve myself
to death about it if I were you! Miriam, look up, I say!"</p>
<p id="id01926">But the hapless girl replied not, heard not, heeded not; deaf, blind,
insensible was she to all—everything but to that sharp, mental grief,
that seemed so like physical pain; that fierce anguish of the breast,
that, like an iron band, seemed to clutch and close upon her heart,
tighter, tighter, tighter, until it stopped the current of her blood,
and arrested her breath, and threw her into convulsions.</p>
<p id="id01927">Alice sprang to raise her, then ran down-stairs to procure restoratives
and assistance. In the front hall she met Dr. Douglass, who had just
been admitted by the waiter. To his pleasant greeting, she replied
hastily, breathlessly:</p>
<p id="id01928">"Oh, Paul! come—come quickly up stairs! Miriam has fallen into
convulsions, and I am frightened out of my senses!"</p>
<p id="id01929">"What caused her illness?" asked Paul, in alarm and anxiety, as he ran
up stairs, preceded by Alice.</p>
<p id="id01930">"Oh, I don't know!" answered Alice, but thought to herself: "It could
not have been what I said to her, and if it was, I must not tell."</p>
<p id="id01931">The details of sickness are never interesting. I shall not dwell upon
Miriam's illness of several weeks; the doctors pronounced it to be
<i>angina pectoris</i>—a fearful and often fatal complaint, brought on in
those constitutionally predisposed to it, by any sudden shock to mind or
body. What could have caused its attack upon Miriam, they could not
imagine. And Alice Murray, in fear and doubt, held her tongue and kept
her own counsel. In all her illness, Miriam's reason was not for a
moment clouded—it seemed preternaturally awake; but she spoke not, and
it was observed that if Mr. Willcoxen, who was overwhelmed with distress
by her dreadful illness, approached her bedside and touched her person,
she instantly fell into spasms. In grief and dismay, Thurston's eyes
asked of all around an explanation of this strange and painful
phenomenon; but none could tell him, except the doctor, who pronounced
it the natural effect of the excessive nervous irritability attending
her disease, and urged Mr. Willcoxen to keep away from her chamber. And
Thurston sadly complied.</p>
<p id="id01932">Youth, and an elastic constitution, prevailed over disease, and Miriam
was raised from the bed of death; but so changed in person and in
manner, that you would scarcely have recognized her. She was thinner,
but not paler—an intense consuming fire burned in and out upon her
cheek, and smouldered and flashed from her eye. Self-concentrated and
reserved, she replied not at all, or only in monosyllables, to the words
addressed to her, and withdrew more into herself.</p>
<p id="id01933">At length, Dr. Douglass advised their return home. And therefore they
set out, and upon the last of March, approached Dell-Delight.</p>
<p id="id01934">The sky was overcast, the ground was covered with snow, the weather was
damp, and very cold for the last of March. As evening drew on, and the
leaden sky lowered, and the chill damp penetrated the comfortable
carriage in which they traveled, Mr. Willcoxen redoubled his attentions
to Miriam, carefully wrapping her cloak and furs about her, and letting
down the leathern blinds and the damask hangings, to exclude the cold;
but Miriam shrank from his touch, and shivered more than before, and
drew closely into her own corner.</p>
<p id="id01935">"Poor child, the cold nips and shrivels her as it does a tropical
flower," said Thurston, desisting from his efforts after he had tucked a
woolen shawl around her feet.</p>
<p id="id01936">"It is really very unseasonable weather—there is snow in the
atmosphere. I don't wonder it pinches Miriam," said Paul Douglass.</p>
<p id="id01937">Ah! they did not either of them know that it was a spiritual fever and
ague alternately burning and freezing her very heart's blood—hope and
fear, love and loathing, pity and horror, that striving together made a
pandemonium of her young bosom. Like a flight of fiery arrows came the
coincidences of the tale she had heard, and the facts she knew. That
spring, eight years before, Mr. Murray said he had, unseen, witnessed
the marriage of Thurston Willcoxen and Marian. That spring, eight years
before, she knew Mr. Willcoxen and Miss Mayfield had been together on a
visit to the capital. Thurston had gone to Europe, Marian had returned
home, but had never seemed the same since her visit to the city. The
very evening of the house-warming at Luckenough, where Marian had
betrayed so much emotion, Thurston had suddenly returned, and presented
himself at that mansion. Yet in all the months that followed she had
never seen Thurston and Marian together, Thurston was paying marked and
constant attention to Miss Le Roy, while Marian's heart was consuming
with a secret sorrow and anxiety that she refused to communicate even to
Edith. How distinctly came back to her mind those nights when, lying by
Marian's side, she had put her hand over upon her face and felt the
tears on her cheeks. Those tears! The recollection of them now, and in
this connection, filled her heart with indescribable emotion. Her
mother, too, had died in the belief that Marian had fallen by the hands
of her lover or her husband. Lastly, upon the same night of Marian's
murder, Thurston Willcoxen had been unaccountably absent, during the
whole night, from the deathbed of his grandfather. And then his
incurable melancholy from that day to this—his melancholy augmented to
anguish at the annual return of this season.</p>
<p id="id01938">And then rising, in refutation of all this evidence, was his own
irreproachable life and elevated character.</p>
<p id="id01939">Ah! but she had, young, as she was, heard of such cases before—how in
some insanity of selfishness or frenzy of passion, a crime had been
perpetrated by one previously and afterward irreproachable in conduct.
Piercing wound after wound smote these thoughts like swift coming
arrows.</p>
<p id="id01940">A young, immature woman, a girl of seventeen, in whose warm nature
passion and imagination so largely predominated over intellect, was but
too liable to have her reason shaken from its seat by the ordeal through
which she was forced to go.</p>
<p id="id01941">As night descended, and they drew near Dell-Delight, the storm that had
been lowering all the afternoon came upon them. The wind, the hail, and
the snow, and the snow-drifts continually forming, rendered the roads,
that were never very good, now nearly impassable.</p>
<p id="id01942">More and more obstructed, difficult and unrecognizable became their way,
until at last, when within an eighth of a mile from the house, the
horses stepped off the road into a covered gully, and the carriage was
over-turned and broken.</p>
<p id="id01943">"Miriam! dear Miriam! dear child, are you hurt?" was the first anxious
exclamation of both gentlemen.</p>
<p id="id01944">No one was injured; the coach lay upon its left side, and the right side
door was over their heads. Paul climbed out first, and then gave his
hand to Miriam, whom Mr. Willcoxen assisted up to the window. Lastly
followed Thurston. The horses had kicked themselves free of the carriage
and stood kicking yet.</p>
<p id="id01945">"Two wheels and the pole are broken—nothing can be done to remove the
carriage to-night. You had better leave the horses where they are, Paul,
and let us hurry on to get Miriam under shelter first, then we can send
some one to fetch them home."</p>
<p id="id01946">They were near the park gate, and the road from there to the mansion was
very good. Paul was busy in bundling Miriam up in her cloak, shawls and
furs. And then Mr. Willcoxen approached to raise her in his arms, and
take her through the snow; but—</p>
<p id="id01947">"No! no!" said Miriam, shuddering and crouching closely to Paul. Little
knowing her thoughts, Mr. Willcoxen slightly smiled, and pulling his hat
low over his eyes, and turning up his fur collar and wrapping his cloak
closely around him, he strode on rapidly before them. The snow was
blowing in their faces, but drawing Miriam fondly to his side, Paul
hurried after him.</p>
<p id="id01948">When they reached the park gate, Thurston was laboring to open it
against the drifted snow. He succeeded, and pushed the gate back to let
them pass. Miriam, as she went through, raised her eyes to his form.</p>
<p id="id01949">There he stood, in night and storm, his tall form shrouded in the long
black cloak—the hat drawn over his eyes, the faint spectral gleam of
the snow striking upward to his clear-cut profile, the peculiar fall of
ghostly light and shade, the strong individuality of air and attitude.</p>
<p id="id01950">With a half-stifled shriek, Miriam recognized the distinct picture of
the man she had seen twice before with Marian.</p>
<p id="id01951">"What is the matter, love? Were you near falling? Give me your arm,
Miriam—you need us both to help you through this storm," said Thurston,
approaching her.</p>
<p id="id01952">But with a shiver that ran through all her frame, Miriam shrank closer
to Paul, who, with affectionate pride, renewed his care, and promised
that she should not slip again.</p>
<p id="id01953">So link after link of the fearful evidence wound itself around her
consciousness, which struggled against it, like Laocoon in the fatal
folds of the serpent.</p>
<p id="id01954">Now cold as if the blood were turned to ice in her veins, now burning as
if they ran fire, she was hurried on into the house.</p>
<p id="id01955">They were expected home, and old Jenny had fires in all the occupied
rooms, and supper ready to go on the table, that was prepared in the
parlor.</p>
<p id="id01956">But Miriam refused all refreshment, and hurried to her room. It was
warmed and lighted by old Jenny's care, and the good creature followed
her young mistress with affectionate proffers of aid.</p>
<p id="id01957">"Wouldn't she have a strong cup of tea? Wouldn't she have a hot bath?
Wouldn't she have her bed warmed? Wouldn't she have a bowl of nice hot
mulled wine? Dear, dear! she was so sorry, but it would have frightened
herself to death if the carriage had upset with her, and no wonder Miss
Miriam was knocked up entirely."</p>
<p id="id01958">"No, no, no!"</p>
<p id="id01959">Miriam would have nothing, and old Jenny reluctantly left her—to
repose? Ah, no! with fever in her veins, to walk up and down and up and
down the floor of her room with fearful unrest. Up and down, until the
candle burned low, and sunk drowned in its socket; until the fire on the
hearth smouldered and went out; until the stars in the sky waned with
the coming day; until the rising sun kindled all the eastern horizon;
and then, attired as she was, she sank upon the outside of her bed and
fell into a heavy sleep of exhaustion.</p>
<p id="id01960">She arose unrefreshed, and after a hasty toilet descended to the
breakfast-parlor, where she knew the little family awaited her.</p>
<p id="id01961">"The journey and the fright have been too much for you, love; you look
very weary; you should have rested longer this morning," said Mr.
Willcoxen, affectionately, as he arose and met her and led her to the
most comfortable seat near the fire.</p>
<p id="id01962">His fine countenance, elevated, grave and gentle in expression, his kind
and loving manner, smote all the tender chords of Miriam's heart.</p>
<p id="id01963">Could that man be guilty of the crime she had dared to suspect him of?</p>
<p id="id01964">Oh, no, no, no! never! Every lineament of his face, every inflection of
his voice, as well as every act of his life, and every trait of his
character, forbade the dreadful imputation!</p>
<p id="id01965">But then the evidence—the damning evidence! Her reeled with the doubt
as she sank into the seat he offered her.</p>
<p id="id01966">"Ring for breakfast, Paul! Our little housekeeper will feel better when
she gets a cup of coffee."</p>
<p id="id01967">But Miriam sprang up to anticipate him, and drew her chair to the table,
and nervously began to arrange the cups and put sugar and cream into
them, with the vague feeling that she must act as usual to avoid calling
observation upon herself, for if questioned, how could she answer
inquiries, and whom could she make a confidant in her terrible
suspicions?</p>
<p id="id01968">And so through the breakfast scene, and so through the whole day she
sought to exercise self-control. But could her distress escape the
anxious, penetrating eyes of affection? That evening after tea, when Mr.
Willcoxen had retired to his own apartments and the waiter had
replenished the fire and trimmed the lamps and retired, leaving the
young couple alone in the parlor—Miriam sitting on one side of the
circular work-table bending over her sewing, and Paul on the other side
with a book in his hand, he suddenly laid the volume down, and went
round and drew a chair to Miriam's side and began to tell her how much
he loved her, how dear her happiness was to him, and so entreat her to
tell him the cause of her evident distress. As he spoke, she became
paler than death, and suddenly and passionately exclaimed:</p>
<p id="id01969">"Oh, Paul! Paul! do not question me! You know not what you ask."</p>
<p id="id01970">"My own Miriam, what mean you? I ought to know."</p>
<p id="id01971">"Oh, Paul! Paul! I am one foredoomed to bring misery and destruction
upon all who love me; upon all whom I love."</p>
<p id="id01972">"My own dearest, you are ill, and need change, and you shall have it,
Miriam," he said, attempting to soothe her with that gentle, tender,
loving manner he ever used toward her.</p>
<p id="id01973">But shuddering sighs convulsed her bosom, and—</p>
<p id="id01974">"Oh, Paul! Paul!" was all she said.</p>
<p id="id01975">"Is it that promise that weighs upon your mind, Miriam? Cast it out; you
cannot fulfill it; impossibilities are not duties."</p>
<p id="id01976">"Oh, Paul! would Heaven it were impossible! or that I were dead."</p>
<p id="id01977">"Miriam! where are those letters you wished to show me?"</p>
<p id="id01978">"Oh! do not ask me, Paul! not yet! not yet! I dread to see them. And
yet—who knows? they may relieve this dreadful suspicion! they may point
to another probability," she said, incoherently.</p>
<p id="id01979">"Just get me those letters, dear Miriam," he urged, gently.</p>
<p id="id01980">She arose, tottering, and left the room, and after an absence of fifteen
minutes returned with the packet in her hand.</p>
<p id="id01981">"These seals have not been broken since my mother closed them," said<br/>
Miriam, as she proceeded to open the parcel.<br/></p>
<p id="id01982">The first she came to was the bit of a note, without date or signature,
making the fatal appointment.</p>
<p id="id01983">"This, Paul," she said, mournfully, "was found in the pocket of the
dress Marian wore at Luckenough, but changed at home before she went out
to walk the evening of her death. Mother always believed that she went
out to meet the appointment made in that note."</p>
<p id="id01984">Paul took the paper with eager curiosity to examine it. He looked at
it, started slightly, turned pale, shuddered, passed his hand once or
twice across his eyes, as if to clear his vision, looked again, and then
his cheeks blanched, his lips gradually whitened and separated, his eyes
started, and his whole countenance betrayed consternation and horror.</p>
<p id="id01985">Miriam gazed upon him in a sort of hushed terror—then exclaimed:</p>
<p id="id01986">"Paul! Paul! what is the matter? You look as if you had been turned to
stone by gazing on the Gorgon's head; Paul! Paul!"</p>
<p id="id01987">"Miriam, did your mother know this handwriting?" he asked, in a husky,
almost inaudible voice.</p>
<p id="id01988">"No!"</p>
<p id="id01989">"Did she suspect it?"</p>
<p id="id01990">"No!"</p>
<p id="id01991">"Did you know or suspect it?"</p>
<p id="id01992">"No! I was a child when I received it, remember. I have never seen it
since."</p>
<p id="id01993">"Not when you put it in my hand, just now?"</p>
<p id="id01994">"No, I never looked at the writing?"</p>
<p id="id01995">"That was most strange that you should not have glanced at the
handwriting when you handed it to me. Why didn't you? Were you afraid to
look at it? Miram! why do you turn away your head? Miriam! answer me—do
you know the handwriting?"</p>
<p id="id01996">"No, Paul, I do not know it—do you?"</p>
<p id="id01997">"No! no! how should I? But Miriam, your head is still averted. Your very
voice is changed. Miriam! what mean you? Tell me once for all. Do you
suspect the handwriting?"</p>
<p id="id01998">"How should I? Do you, Paul?"</p>
<p id="id01999">"No! no! I don't suspect it."</p>
<p id="id02000">They seemed afraid to look each other in the face; and well they might
be, for the written agony on either brow; they seemed afraid to hear the
sound of each other's words; and well they might be, for the hollow,
unnatural sound of either voice.</p>
<p id="id02001">"It cannot be! I am crazy, I believe. Let me clear my—oh, Heaven!
Miriam! did—was—do you know whether there was any one in particular on
familiar terms with Miss Mayfield?"</p>
<p id="id02002">"No one out of the family, except Miss Thornton."</p>
<p id="id02003">"'Out of the family'—out of what family?"</p>
<p id="id02004">"Ours, at the cottage."</p>
<p id="id02005">"Was—did—I wonder if my brother knew her intimately?"</p>
<p id="id02006">"I do not know; I never saw them in each other's company but twice in my
life."</p>
<p id="id02007">The youth breathed a little freer.</p>
<p id="id02008">"Why did you ask, Paul?"</p>
<p id="id02009">"No matter, Miriam. Oh! I was a wretch, a beast to think—"</p>
<p id="id02010">"What, Paul?"</p>
<p id="id02011">"There are such strange resemblances in—in—in—What are you looking at
me so for, Miriam?"</p>
<p id="id02012">"To find your meaning. In what, Paul—strange resemblances in what?"</p>
<p id="id02013">"Why, in faces."</p>
<p id="id02014">"Why, then, so there are—and in persons, also; and sometimes in fates;
but we were talking of handwritings, Paul."</p>
<p id="id02015">"Were we? Oh, true. I am not quite right, Miriam. I believe I have
confined myself too much, and studied too hard. I am really out of
sorts; never mind me! Please hand me those foreign letters, love."</p>
<p id="id02016">Miriam was unfolding and examining them; but all in a cold, stony,
unnatural way.</p>
<p id="id02017">"Paul," she asked, "wasn't it just eight years this spring since your
brother went to Scotland to fetch you?"</p>
<p id="id02018">"Yes; why?"</p>
<p id="id02019">"Wasn't it to Glasgow that he went?"</p>
<p id="id02020">"Yes; why?"</p>
<p id="id02021">"Were not you there together in March and April, 182-?"</p>
<p id="id02022">"Once more, yes! Why do you inquire?"</p>
<p id="id02023">"Because all these foreign letters directed to Marian are postmarked<br/>
Glasgow, and dated March or April, 182-."<br/></p>
<p id="id02024">With a low, stifled cry, and a sudden spring, he snatched the packet
from her hand, tore open the first letter that presented itself, and ran
his strained, bloodshot eyes down the lines. Half-suppressed, deep
groans like those wrung by torture from a strong man's heart, burst from
his pale lips, and great drops of sweat gathered on his agonized
forehead. Then he crushed the letters together in his hand and held them
tightly, unconsciously, while his starting eyes were fixed on vacancy
and his frozen lips muttered:</p>
<p id="id02025">"In a fit of frantic passion, anger, jealousy—even he might have been
maddened to the pitch of doing such a thing! But as an act of base
policy, as an act of forethought, oh! never, never, never!"</p>
<p id="id02026">"Paul! Paul! speak to me, Paul. Tell me what you think. I have had
foreshadowings long. I can bear silence and uncertainty no longer. What
find you in those letters? Oh, speak, or my heart will burst, Paul."</p>
<p id="id02027">He gave no heed to her or her words, but remained like one impaled;
still, fixed, yet writhing, his features, his whole form and expression
discolored, distorted with inward agony.</p>
<p id="id02028">"Paul! Paul!" cried Miriam, starting up, standing before him, gazing on
him. "Paul! speak to me. Your looks kill me. Speak, Paul! even though
you can tell me little new. I know it all, Paul; or nearly all. Weeks
ago I received the shock! it overwhelmed me for the time; but I survived
it! But you, Paul—you! Oh! how you look! Speak to your sister, Paul!
Speak to your promised wife."</p>
<p id="id02029">But he gave no heed to her. She was not strong or assured—she felt
herself tottering on the very verge of death or madness. But she could
not bear to see him looking so. Once more she essayed to engage his
attention.</p>
<p id="id02030">"Give me those letters, Paul—I can perhaps make out the meaning."</p>
<p id="id02031">As he did not reply, she gently sought to take them from his hand. But
at her touch he suddenly started up and threw the packet into the fire.
With a quick spring, Miriam darted forward, thrust her hand into the
fire and rescued the packet, scorched and burning, but not destroyed.</p>
<p id="id02032">She began to put it out, regardless of the pain to her hands. He looked
as if he were tempted to snatch it from her, but she exclaimed:</p>
<p id="id02033">"No, Paul! no! You will not use force to deprive me of this that I must
guard as a sacred trust."</p>
<p id="id02034">Still Paul hesitated, and eyed the packet with a gloomy glance.</p>
<p id="id02035">"Remember honor, Paul, even in this trying moment," said Miriam; "let
honor be saved, if all else be lost."</p>
<p id="id02036">"What do you mean to do with that parcel?" he asked in a hollow voice.</p>
<p id="id02037">"Keep them securely for the present."</p>
<p id="id02038">"And afterward?"</p>
<p id="id02039">"I know not."</p>
<p id="id02040">"Miriam, you evade my questions. Will you promise me one thing?"</p>
<p id="id02041">"What is that?"</p>
<p id="id02042">"Promise me to do nothing with those letters until you have further
evidence."</p>
<p id="id02043">"I promise you that."</p>
<p id="id02044">Then Paul took up a candle and left the room, as if to go to his
sleeping apartment; but on reaching the hall, he threw down and
extinguished the light and rushed as if for breath out into the open
air.</p>
<p id="id02045">The night was keen and frosty, the cold, slaty sky was thickly studded
with sparkling stars, the snow was crusted over—it was a fine, fresh,
clear, wintry night; at another time it would have invigorated and
inspired him; now the air seemed stifling, the scene hateful.</p>
<p id="id02046">The horrible suspicion of his brother's criminality had entered his
heart for the first time, and it had come with the shock of certainty.
The sudden recognition of the handwriting, the strange revelations of
the foreign letters, had not only in themselves been a terrible
disclosure, but had struck the whole "electric chain" of memory and
association, and called up in living force many an incident and
circumstance heretofore strange and incomprehensible; but now only too
plain and indicative. The whole of Thurston's manner the fatal day of
the assassination—his abstraction, his anxious haste to get away on the
plea of most urgent business in Baltimore—business that never was
afterward heard of; his mysterious absence of the whole night from his
grandfather's deathbed—provoking conjecture at the time, and
unaccounted for to this day; his haggard and distracted looks upon
returning late the next morning; his incurable sorrow; his habit of
secluding himself upon the anniversary of that crime—and now the
damning evidence in these letters! Among them, and the first he looked
at, was the letter Thurston had written Marian to persuade her to
accompany him to France, in the course of which his marriage with her
was repeatedly acknowledged, being incidentally introduced as an
argument in favor of her compliance with his wishes.</p>
<p id="id02047">Yet Paul could not believe the crime ever premeditated—it was sudden,
unintentional, consummated in a lover's quarrel, in a fit of jealousy,
rage, disappointment, madness! Stumbling upon half the truth, he said to
himself:</p>
<p id="id02048">"Perhaps failing to persuade her to fly with him to France, he had
attempted to carry her off, and being foiled, had temporarily lost his
self-control, his very sanity. That would account for all that had
seemed so strange in his conduct the day and night of the assassination
and the morning after."</p>
<p id="id02049">There was agony—there was madness in the pursuit of the investigation.
Oh, pitying Heaven! how thought and grief surged and seethed in aching
heart and burning brain!</p>
<p id="id02050">And Miriam's promise to her dying mother—Miriam's promise to bring the
criminal to justice! Would she—could she now abide by its obligations?
Could she prosecute her benefactor, her adopted brother, for murder?
Could her hand be raised to hurl him down from his pride of place to
shame and death? No, no, no, no! the vow must be broken, must be evaded;
the right, even if it were the right, must be transgressed, heaven
offended—anything! anything! anything but the exposure and sacrifice of
their brother! If he had sinned, had he not repented? Did he not suffer?
What right had she, his ward, his <i>protégé</i>, his child, to punish him?
"Vengeance is mine—I will repay, saith the Lord." No, Miriam must not
keep her vow! She must! she must! she must, responded the moral sense,
slow, measured, dispassionate, as the regular fall of a clock's hammer.
"I will myself prevent her; I will find means, arguments and persuasions
to act upon her. I will so appeal to her affections, her gratitude, her
compassion, her pride, her fears, her love for me—I will so work upon
her heart that she will not find courage to keep her vow." She will! she
will! responded the deliberate conscience.</p>
<p id="id02051">And so he walked up and down; vainly the fresh wind fanned his fevered
brow; vainly the sparkling stars glanced down from holy heights upon
him; he found no coolness for his fever in the air, no sedative for his
anxiety in the stillness, no comfort for his soul in the heavens; he
knew not whether he were indoors or out, whether it were night or day,
summer or winter, he knew not, wrapped as he was in the mantle of his
own sad thoughts, suffering as he was in the purgatory of his inner
life.</p>
<p id="id02052">While Paul walked up and down, like a maniac, Miriam returned to her
room to pace the floor until nearly morning, when she threw herself,
exhausted, upon the bed, fell into a heavy sleep, and a third time,
doubtless from nervous excitement or prostration, suffered a repetition
of her singular vision, and awoke late in the morning, with the words,
"perform thy vow," ringing in her ears.</p>
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