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<h2> XXXI </h2>
<p>"Well?" questioned Arobin, who had remained with Edna after the others had
departed.</p>
<p>"Well," she reiterated, and stood up, stretching her arms, and feeling the
need to relax her muscles after having been so long seated.</p>
<p>"What next?" he asked.</p>
<p>"The servants are all gone. They left when the musicians did. I have
dismissed them. The house has to be closed and locked, and I shall trot
around to the pigeon house, and shall send Celestine over in the morning
to straighten things up."</p>
<p>He looked around, and began to turn out some of the lights.</p>
<p>"What about upstairs?" he inquired.</p>
<p>"I think it is all right; but there may be a window or two unlatched. We
had better look; you might take a candle and see. And bring me my wrap and
hat on the foot of the bed in the middle room."</p>
<p>He went up with the light, and Edna began closing doors and windows. She
hated to shut in the smoke and the fumes of the wine. Arobin found her
cape and hat, which he brought down and helped her to put on.</p>
<p>When everything was secured and the lights put out, they left through the
front door, Arobin locking it and taking the key, which he carried for
Edna. He helped her down the steps.</p>
<p>"Will you have a spray of jessamine?" he asked, breaking off a few
blossoms as he passed.</p>
<p>"No; I don't want anything."</p>
<p>She seemed disheartened, and had nothing to say. She took his arm, which
he offered her, holding up the weight of her satin train with the other
hand. She looked down, noticing the black line of his leg moving in and
out so close to her against the yellow shimmer of her gown. There was the
whistle of a railway train somewhere in the distance, and the midnight
bells were ringing. They met no one in their short walk.</p>
<p>The "pigeon house" stood behind a locked gate, and a shallow parterre that
had been somewhat neglected. There was a small front porch, upon which a
long window and the front door opened. The door opened directly into the
parlor; there was no side entry. Back in the yard was a room for servants,
in which old Celestine had been ensconced.</p>
<p>Edna had left a lamp burning low upon the table. She had succeeded in
making the room look habitable and homelike. There were some books on the
table and a lounge near at hand. On the floor was a fresh matting, covered
with a rug or two; and on the walls hung a few tasteful pictures. But the
room was filled with flowers. These were a surprise to her. Arobin had
sent them, and had had Celestine distribute them during Edna's absence.
Her bedroom was adjoining, and across a small passage were the dining-room
and kitchen.</p>
<p>Edna seated herself with every appearance of discomfort.</p>
<p>"Are you tired?" he asked.</p>
<p>"Yes, and chilled, and miserable. I feel as if I had been wound up to a
certain pitch—too tight—and something inside of me had
snapped." She rested her head against the table upon her bare arm.</p>
<p>"You want to rest," he said, "and to be quiet. I'll go; I'll leave you and
let you rest."</p>
<p>"Yes," she replied.</p>
<p>He stood up beside her and smoothed her hair with his soft, magnetic hand.
His touch conveyed to her a certain physical comfort. She could have
fallen quietly asleep there if he had continued to pass his hand over her
hair. He brushed the hair upward from the nape of her neck.</p>
<p>"I hope you will feel better and happier in the morning," he said. "You
have tried to do too much in the past few days. The dinner was the last
straw; you might have dispensed with it."</p>
<p>"Yes," she admitted; "it was stupid."</p>
<p>"No, it was delightful; but it has worn you out." His hand had strayed to
her beautiful shoulders, and he could feel the response of her flesh to
his touch. He seated himself beside her and kissed her lightly upon the
shoulder.</p>
<p>"I thought you were going away," she said, in an uneven voice.</p>
<p>"I am, after I have said good night."</p>
<p>"Good night," she murmured.</p>
<p>He did not answer, except to continue to caress her. He did not say good
night until she had become supple to his gentle, seductive entreaties.</p>
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<h2> XXXII </h2>
<p>When Mr. Pontellier learned of his wife's intention to abandon her home
and take up her residence elsewhere, he immediately wrote her a letter of
unqualified disapproval and remonstrance. She had given reasons which he
was unwilling to acknowledge as adequate. He hoped she had not acted upon
her rash impulse; and he begged her to consider first, foremost, and above
all else, what people would say. He was not dreaming of scandal when he
uttered this warning; that was a thing which would never have entered into
his mind to consider in connection with his wife's name or his own. He was
simply thinking of his financial integrity. It might get noised about that
the Pontelliers had met with reverses, and were forced to conduct their
menage on a humbler scale than heretofore. It might do incalculable
mischief to his business prospects.</p>
<p>But remembering Edna's whimsical turn of mind of late, and foreseeing that
she had immediately acted upon her impetuous determination, he grasped the
situation with his usual promptness and handled it with his well-known
business tact and cleverness.</p>
<p>The same mail which brought to Edna his letter of disapproval carried
instructions—the most minute instructions—to a well-known
architect concerning the remodeling of his home, changes which he had long
contemplated, and which he desired carried forward during his temporary
absence.</p>
<p>Expert and reliable packers and movers were engaged to convey the
furniture, carpets, pictures—everything movable, in short—to
places of security. And in an incredibly short time the Pontellier house
was turned over to the artisans. There was to be an addition—a small
snuggery; there was to be frescoing, and hardwood flooring was to be put
into such rooms as had not yet been subjected to this improvement.</p>
<p>Furthermore, in one of the daily papers appeared a brief notice to the
effect that Mr. and Mrs. Pontellier were contemplating a summer sojourn
abroad, and that their handsome residence on Esplanade Street was
undergoing sumptuous alterations, and would not be ready for occupancy
until their return. Mr. Pontellier had saved appearances!</p>
<p>Edna admired the skill of his maneuver, and avoided any occasion to balk
his intentions. When the situation as set forth by Mr. Pontellier was
accepted and taken for granted, she was apparently satisfied that it
should be so.</p>
<p>The pigeon house pleased her. It at once assumed the intimate character of
a home, while she herself invested it with a charm which it reflected like
a warm glow. There was with her a feeling of having descended in the
social scale, with a corresponding sense of having risen in the spiritual.
Every step which she took toward relieving herself from obligations added
to her strength and expansion as an individual. She began to look with her
own eyes; to see and to apprehend the deeper undercurrents of life. No
longer was she content to "feed upon opinion" when her own soul had
invited her.</p>
<p>After a little while, a few days, in fact, Edna went up and spent a week
with her children in Iberville. They were delicious February days, with
all the summer's promise hovering in the air.</p>
<p>How glad she was to see the children! She wept for very pleasure when she
felt their little arms clasping her; their hard, ruddy cheeks pressed
against her own glowing cheeks. She looked into their faces with hungry
eyes that could not be satisfied with looking. And what stories they had
to tell their mother! About the pigs, the cows, the mules! About riding to
the mill behind Gluglu; fishing back in the lake with their Uncle Jasper;
picking pecans with Lidie's little black brood, and hauling chips in their
express wagon. It was a thousand times more fun to haul real chips for old
lame Susie's real fire than to drag painted blocks along the banquette on
Esplanade Street!</p>
<p>She went with them herself to see the pigs and the cows, to look at the
darkies laying the cane, to thrash the pecan trees, and catch fish in the
back lake. She lived with them a whole week long, giving them all of
herself, and gathering and filling herself with their young existence.
They listened, breathless, when she told them the house in Esplanade
Street was crowded with workmen, hammering, nailing, sawing, and filling
the place with clatter. They wanted to know where their bed was; what had
been done with their rocking-horse; and where did Joe sleep, and where had
Ellen gone, and the cook? But, above all, they were fired with a desire to
see the little house around the block. Was there any place to play? Were
there any boys next door? Raoul, with pessimistic foreboding, was
convinced that there were only girls next door. Where would they sleep,
and where would papa sleep? She told them the fairies would fix it all
right.</p>
<p>The old Madame was charmed with Edna's visit, and showered all manner of
delicate attentions upon her. She was delighted to know that the Esplanade
Street house was in a dismantled condition. It gave her the promise and
pretext to keep the children indefinitely.</p>
<p>It was with a wrench and a pang that Edna left her children. She carried
away with her the sound of their voices and the touch of their cheeks. All
along the journey homeward their presence lingered with her like the
memory of a delicious song. But by the time she had regained the city the
song no longer echoed in her soul. She was again alone.</p>
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<h2> XXXIII </h2>
<p>It happened sometimes when Edna went to see Mademoiselle Reisz that the
little musician was absent, giving a lesson or making some small necessary
household purchase. The key was always left in a secret hiding-place in
the entry, which Edna knew. If Mademoiselle happened to be away, Edna
would usually enter and wait for her return.</p>
<p>When she knocked at Mademoiselle Reisz's door one afternoon there was no
response; so unlocking the door, as usual, she entered and found the
apartment deserted, as she had expected. Her day had been quite filled up,
and it was for a rest, for a refuge, and to talk about Robert, that she
sought out her friend.</p>
<p>She had worked at her canvas—a young Italian character study—all
the morning, completing the work without the model; but there had been
many interruptions, some incident to her modest housekeeping, and others
of a social nature.</p>
<p>Madame Ratignolle had dragged herself over, avoiding the too public
thoroughfares, she said. She complained that Edna had neglected her much
of late. Besides, she was consumed with curiosity to see the little house
and the manner in which it was conducted. She wanted to hear all about the
dinner party; Monsieur Ratignolle had left so early. What had happened
after he left? The champagne and grapes which Edna sent over were TOO
delicious. She had so little appetite; they had refreshed and toned her
stomach. Where on earth was she going to put Mr. Pontellier in that little
house, and the boys? And then she made Edna promise to go to her when her
hour of trial overtook her.</p>
<p>"At any time—any time of the day or night, dear," Edna assured her.</p>
<p>Before leaving Madame Ratignolle said:</p>
<p>"In some way you seem to me like a child, Edna. You seem to act without a
certain amount of reflection which is necessary in this life. That is the
reason I want to say you mustn't mind if I advise you to be a little
careful while you are living here alone. Why don't you have some one come
and stay with you? Wouldn't Mademoiselle Reisz come?"</p>
<p>"No; she wouldn't wish to come, and I shouldn't want her always with me."</p>
<p>"Well, the reason—you know how evil-minded the world is—some
one was talking of Alcee Arobin visiting you. Of course, it wouldn't
matter if Mr. Arobin had not such a dreadful reputation. Monsieur
Ratignolle was telling me that his attentions alone are considered enough
to ruin a woman s name."</p>
<p>"Does he boast of his successes?" asked Edna, indifferently, squinting at
her picture.</p>
<p>"No, I think not. I believe he is a decent fellow as far as that goes. But
his character is so well known among the men. I shan't be able to come
back and see you; it was very, very imprudent to-day."</p>
<p>"Mind the step!" cried Edna.</p>
<p>"Don't neglect me," entreated Madame Ratignolle; "and don't mind what I
said about Arobin, or having some one to stay with you.</p>
<p>"Of course not," Edna laughed. "You may say anything you like to me." They
kissed each other good-by. Madame Ratignolle had not far to go, and Edna
stood on the porch a while watching her walk down the street.</p>
<p>Then in the afternoon Mrs. Merriman and Mrs. Highcamp had made their
"party call." Edna felt that they might have dispensed with the formality.
They had also come to invite her to play vingt-et-un one evening at Mrs.
Merriman's. She was asked to go early, to dinner, and Mr. Merriman or Mr.
Arobin would take her home. Edna accepted in a half-hearted way. She
sometimes felt very tired of Mrs. Highcamp and Mrs. Merriman.</p>
<p>Late in the afternoon she sought refuge with Mademoiselle Reisz, and
stayed there alone, waiting for her, feeling a kind of repose invade her
with the very atmosphere of the shabby, unpretentious little room.</p>
<p>Edna sat at the window, which looked out over the house-tops and across
the river. The window frame was filled with pots of flowers, and she sat
and picked the dry leaves from a rose geranium. The day was warm, and the
breeze which blew from the river was very pleasant. She removed her hat
and laid it on the piano. She went on picking the leaves and digging
around the plants with her hat pin. Once she thought she heard
Mademoiselle Reisz approaching. But it was a young black girl, who came
in, bringing a small bundle of laundry, which she deposited in the
adjoining room, and went away.</p>
<p>Edna seated herself at the piano, and softly picked out with one hand the
bars of a piece of music which lay open before her. A half-hour went by.
There was the occasional sound of people going and coming in the lower
hall. She was growing interested in her occupation of picking out the
aria, when there was a second rap at the door. She vaguely wondered what
these people did when they found Mademoiselle's door locked.</p>
<p>"Come in," she called, turning her face toward the door. And this time it
was Robert Lebrun who presented himself. She attempted to rise; she could
not have done so without betraying the agitation which mastered her at
sight of him, so she fell back upon the stool, only exclaiming, "Why,
Robert!"</p>
<p>He came and clasped her hand, seemingly without knowing what he was saying
or doing.</p>
<p>"Mrs. Pontellier! How do you happen—oh! how well you look! Is
Mademoiselle Reisz not here? I never expected to see you."</p>
<p>"When did you come back?" asked Edna in an unsteady voice, wiping her face
with her handkerchief. She seemed ill at ease on the piano stool, and he
begged her to take the chair by the window.</p>
<p>She did so, mechanically, while he seated himself on the stool.</p>
<p>"I returned day before yesterday," he answered, while he leaned his arm on
the keys, bringing forth a crash of discordant sound.</p>
<p>"Day before yesterday!" she repeated, aloud; and went on thinking to
herself, "day before yesterday," in a sort of an uncomprehending way. She
had pictured him seeking her at the very first hour, and he had lived
under the same sky since day before yesterday; while only by accident had
he stumbled upon her. Mademoiselle must have lied when she said, "Poor
fool, he loves you."</p>
<p>"Day before yesterday," she repeated, breaking off a spray of
Mademoiselle's geranium; "then if you had not met me here to-day you
wouldn't—when—that is, didn't you mean to come and see me?"</p>
<p>"Of course, I should have gone to see you. There have been so many things—"
he turned the leaves of Mademoiselle's music nervously. "I started in at
once yesterday with the old firm. After all there is as much chance for me
here as there was there—that is, I might find it profitable some
day. The Mexicans were not very congenial."</p>
<p>So he had come back because the Mexicans were not congenial; because
business was as profitable here as there; because of any reason, and not
because he cared to be near her. She remembered the day she sat on the
floor, turning the pages of his letter, seeking the reason which was left
untold.</p>
<p>She had not noticed how he looked—only feeling his presence; but she
turned deliberately and observed him. After all, he had been absent but a
few months, and was not changed. His hair—the color of hers—waved
back from his temples in the same way as before. His skin was not more
burned than it had been at Grand Isle. She found in his eyes, when he
looked at her for one silent moment, the same tender caress, with an added
warmth and entreaty which had not been there before the same glance which
had penetrated to the sleeping places of her soul and awakened them.</p>
<p>A hundred times Edna had pictured Robert's return, and imagined their
first meeting. It was usually at her home, whither he had sought her out
at once. She always fancied him expressing or betraying in some way his
love for her. And here, the reality was that they sat ten feet apart, she
at the window, crushing geranium leaves in her hand and smelling them, he
twirling around on the piano stool, saying:</p>
<p>"I was very much surprised to hear of Mr. Pontellier's absence; it's a
wonder Mademoiselle Reisz did not tell me; and your moving—mother
told me yesterday. I should think you would have gone to New York with
him, or to Iberville with the children, rather than be bothered here with
housekeeping. And you are going abroad, too, I hear. We shan't have you at
Grand Isle next summer; it won't seem—do you see much of
Mademoiselle Reisz? She often spoke of you in the few letters she wrote."</p>
<p>"Do you remember that you promised to write to me when you went away?" A
flush overspread his whole face.</p>
<p>"I couldn't believe that my letters would be of any interest to you."</p>
<p>"That is an excuse; it isn't the truth." Edna reached for her hat on the
piano. She adjusted it, sticking the hat pin through the heavy coil of
hair with some deliberation.</p>
<p>"Are you not going to wait for Mademoiselle Reisz?" asked Robert.</p>
<p>"No; I have found when she is absent this long, she is liable not to come
back till late." She drew on her gloves, and Robert picked up his hat.</p>
<p>"Won't you wait for her?" asked Edna.</p>
<p>"Not if you think she will not be back till late," adding, as if suddenly
aware of some discourtesy in his speech, "and I should miss the pleasure
of walking home with you." Edna locked the door and put the key back in
its hiding-place.</p>
<p>They went together, picking their way across muddy streets and sidewalks
encumbered with the cheap display of small tradesmen. Part of the distance
they rode in the car, and after disembarking, passed the Pontellier
mansion, which looked broken and half torn asunder. Robert had never known
the house, and looked at it with interest.</p>
<p>"I never knew you in your home," he remarked.</p>
<p>"I am glad you did not."</p>
<p>"Why?" She did not answer. They went on around the corner, and it seemed
as if her dreams were coming true after all, when he followed her into the
little house.</p>
<p>"You must stay and dine with me, Robert. You see I am all alone, and it is
so long since I have seen you. There is so much I want to ask you."</p>
<p>She took off her hat and gloves. He stood irresolute, making some excuse
about his mother who expected him; he even muttered something about an
engagement. She struck a match and lit the lamp on the table; it was
growing dusk. When he saw her face in the lamp-light, looking pained, with
all the soft lines gone out of it, he threw his hat aside and seated
himself.</p>
<p>"Oh! you know I want to stay if you will let me!" he exclaimed. All the
softness came back. She laughed, and went and put her hand on his
shoulder.</p>
<p>"This is the first moment you have seemed like the old Robert. I'll go
tell Celestine." She hurried away to tell Celestine to set an extra place.
She even sent her off in search of some added delicacy which she had not
thought of for herself. And she recommended great care in dripping the
coffee and having the omelet done to a proper turn.</p>
<p>When she reentered, Robert was turning over magazines, sketches, and
things that lay upon the table in great disorder. He picked up a
photograph, and exclaimed:</p>
<p>"Alcee Arobin! What on earth is his picture doing here?"</p>
<p>"I tried to make a sketch of his head one day," answered Edna, "and he
thought the photograph might help me. It was at the other house. I thought
it had been left there. I must have packed it up with my drawing
materials."</p>
<p>"I should think you would give it back to him if you have finished with
it."</p>
<p>"Oh! I have a great many such photographs. I never think of returning
them. They don't amount to anything." Robert kept on looking at the
picture.</p>
<p>"It seems to me—do you think his head worth drawing? Is he a friend
of Mr. Pontellier's? You never said you knew him."</p>
<p>"He isn't a friend of Mr. Pontellier's; he's a friend of mine. I always
knew him—that is, it is only of late that I know him pretty well.
But I'd rather talk about you, and know what you have been seeing and
doing and feeling out there in Mexico." Robert threw aside the picture.</p>
<p>"I've been seeing the waves and the white beach of Grand Isle; the quiet,
grassy street of the Cheniere; the old fort at Grande Terre. I've been
working like a machine, and feeling like a lost soul. There was nothing
interesting."</p>
<p>She leaned her head upon her hand to shade her eyes from the light.</p>
<p>"And what have you been seeing and doing and feeling all these days?" he
asked.</p>
<p>"I've been seeing the waves and the white beach of Grand Isle; the quiet,
grassy street of the Cheniere Caminada; the old sunny fort at Grande
Terre. I've been working with a little more comprehension than a machine,
and still feeling like a lost soul. There was nothing interesting."</p>
<p>"Mrs. Pontellier, you are cruel," he said, with feeling, closing his eyes
and resting his head back in his chair. They remained in silence till old
Celestine announced dinner.</p>
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<p>The dining-room was very small. Edna's round mahogany would have almost
filled it. As it was there was but a step or two from the little table to
the kitchen, to the mantel, the small buffet, and the side door that
opened out on the narrow brick-paved yard.</p>
<p>A certain degree of ceremony settled upon them with the announcement of
dinner. There was no return to personalities. Robert related incidents of
his sojourn in Mexico, and Edna talked of events likely to interest him,
which had occurred during his absence. The dinner was of ordinary quality,
except for the few delicacies which she had sent out to purchase. Old
Celestine, with a bandana tignon twisted about her head, hobbled in and
out, taking a personal interest in everything; and she lingered
occasionally to talk patois with Robert, whom she had known as a boy.</p>
<p>He went out to a neighboring cigar stand to purchase cigarette papers, and
when he came back he found that Celestine had served the black coffee in
the parlor.</p>
<p>"Perhaps I shouldn't have come back," he said. "When you are tired of me,
tell me to go."</p>
<p>"You never tire me. You must have forgotten the hours and hours at Grand
Isle in which we grew accustomed to each other and used to being
together."</p>
<p>"I have forgotten nothing at Grand Isle," he said, not looking at her, but
rolling a cigarette. His tobacco pouch, which he laid upon the table, was
a fantastic embroidered silk affair, evidently the handiwork of a woman.</p>
<p>"You used to carry your tobacco in a rubber pouch," said Edna, picking up
the pouch and examining the needlework.</p>
<p>"Yes; it was lost."</p>
<p>"Where did you buy this one? In Mexico?"</p>
<p>"It was given to me by a Vera Cruz girl; they are very generous," he
replied, striking a match and lighting his cigarette.</p>
<p>"They are very handsome, I suppose, those Mexican women; very picturesque,
with their black eyes and their lace scarfs."</p>
<p>"Some are; others are hideous, just as you find women everywhere."</p>
<p>"What was she like—the one who gave you the pouch? You must have
known her very well."</p>
<p>"She was very ordinary. She wasn't of the slightest importance. I knew her
well enough."</p>
<p>"Did you visit at her house? Was it interesting? I should like to know and
hear about the people you met, and the impressions they made on you."</p>
<p>"There are some people who leave impressions not so lasting as the imprint
of an oar upon the water."</p>
<p>"Was she such a one?"</p>
<p>"It would be ungenerous for me to admit that she was of that order and
kind." He thrust the pouch back in his pocket, as if to put away the
subject with the trifle which had brought it up.</p>
<p>Arobin dropped in with a message from Mrs. Merriman, to say that the card
party was postponed on account of the illness of one of her children.</p>
<p>"How do you do, Arobin?" said Robert, rising from the obscurity.</p>
<p>"Oh! Lebrun. To be sure! I heard yesterday you were back. How did they
treat you down in Mexique?"</p>
<p>"Fairly well."</p>
<p>"But not well enough to keep you there. Stunning girls, though, in Mexico.
I thought I should never get away from Vera Cruz when I was down there a
couple of years ago."</p>
<p>"Did they embroider slippers and tobacco pouches and hat-bands and things
for you?" asked Edna.</p>
<p>"Oh! my! no! I didn't get so deep in their regard. I fear they made more
impression on me than I made on them."</p>
<p>"You were less fortunate than Robert, then."</p>
<p>"I am always less fortunate than Robert. Has he been imparting tender
confidences?"</p>
<p>"I've been imposing myself long enough," said Robert, rising, and shaking
hands with Edna. "Please convey my regards to Mr. Pontellier when you
write."</p>
<p>He shook hands with Arobin and went away.</p>
<p>"Fine fellow, that Lebrun," said Arobin when Robert had gone. "I never
heard you speak of him."</p>
<p>"I knew him last summer at Grand Isle," she replied. "Here is that
photograph of yours. Don't you want it?"</p>
<p>"What do I want with it? Throw it away." She threw it back on the table.</p>
<p>"I'm not going to Mrs. Merriman's," she said. "If you see her, tell her
so. But perhaps I had better write. I think I shall write now, and say
that I am sorry her child is sick, and tell her not to count on me."</p>
<p>"It would be a good scheme," acquiesced Arobin. "I don't blame you; stupid
lot!"</p>
<p>Edna opened the blotter, and having procured paper and pen, began to write
the note. Arobin lit a cigar and read the evening paper, which he had in
his pocket.</p>
<p>"What is the date?" she asked. He told her.</p>
<p>"Will you mail this for me when you go out?"</p>
<p>"Certainly." He read to her little bits out of the newspaper, while she
straightened things on the table.</p>
<p>"What do you want to do?" he asked, throwing aside the paper. "Do you want
to go out for a walk or a drive or anything? It would be a fine night to
drive."</p>
<p>"No; I don't want to do anything but just be quiet. You go away and amuse
yourself. Don't stay."</p>
<p>"I'll go away if I must; but I shan't amuse myself. You know that I only
live when I am near you."</p>
<p>He stood up to bid her good night.</p>
<p>"Is that one of the things you always say to women?"</p>
<p>"I have said it before, but I don't think I ever came so near meaning it,"
he answered with a smile. There were no warm lights in her eyes; only a
dreamy, absent look.</p>
<p>"Good night. I adore you. Sleep well," he said, and he kissed her hand and
went away.</p>
<p>She stayed alone in a kind of reverie—a sort of stupor. Step by step
she lived over every instant of the time she had been with Robert after he
had entered Mademoiselle Reisz's door. She recalled his words, his looks.
How few and meager they had been for her hungry heart! A vision—a
transcendently seductive vision of a Mexican girl arose before her. She
writhed with a jealous pang. She wondered when he would come back. He had
not said he would come back. She had been with him, had heard his voice
and touched his hand. But some way he had seemed nearer to her off there
in Mexico.</p>
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<p>The morning was full of sunlight and hope. Edna could see before her no
denial—only the promise of excessive joy. She lay in bed awake, with
bright eyes full of speculation. "He loves you, poor fool." If she could
but get that conviction firmly fixed in her mind, what mattered about the
rest? She felt she had been childish and unwise the night before in giving
herself over to despondency. She recapitulated the motives which no doubt
explained Robert's reserve. They were not insurmountable; they would not
hold if he really loved her; they could not hold against her own passion,
which he must come to realize in time. She pictured him going to his
business that morning. She even saw how he was dressed; how he walked down
one street, and turned the corner of another; saw him bending over his
desk, talking to people who entered the office, going to his lunch, and
perhaps watching for her on the street. He would come to her in the
afternoon or evening, sit and roll his cigarette, talk a little, and go
away as he had done the night before. But how delicious it would be to
have him there with her! She would have no regrets, nor seek to penetrate
his reserve if he still chose to wear it.</p>
<p>Edna ate her breakfast only half dressed. The maid brought her a delicious
printed scrawl from Raoul, expressing his love, asking her to send him
some bonbons, and telling her they had found that morning ten tiny white
pigs all lying in a row beside Lidie's big white pig.</p>
<p>A letter also came from her husband, saying he hoped to be back early in
March, and then they would get ready for that journey abroad which he had
promised her so long, which he felt now fully able to afford; he felt able
to travel as people should, without any thought of small economies—thanks
to his recent speculations in Wall Street.</p>
<p>Much to her surprise she received a note from Arobin, written at midnight
from the club. It was to say good morning to her, to hope she had slept
well, to assure her of his devotion, which he trusted she in some faintest
manner returned.</p>
<p>All these letters were pleasing to her. She answered the children in a
cheerful frame of mind, promising them bonbons, and congratulating them
upon their happy find of the little pigs.</p>
<p>She answered her husband with friendly evasiveness,—not with any
fixed design to mislead him, only because all sense of reality had gone
out of her life; she had abandoned herself to Fate, and awaited the
consequences with indifference.</p>
<p>To Arobin's note she made no reply. She put it under Celestine's
stove-lid.</p>
<p>Edna worked several hours with much spirit. She saw no one but a picture
dealer, who asked her if it were true that she was going abroad to study
in Paris.</p>
<p>She said possibly she might, and he negotiated with her for some Parisian
studies to reach him in time for the holiday trade in December.</p>
<p>Robert did not come that day. She was keenly disappointed. He did not come
the following day, nor the next. Each morning she awoke with hope, and
each night she was a prey to despondency. She was tempted to seek him out.
But far from yielding to the impulse, she avoided any occasion which might
throw her in his way. She did not go to Mademoiselle Reisz's nor pass by
Madame Lebrun's, as she might have done if he had still been in Mexico.</p>
<p>When Arobin, one night, urged her to drive with him, she went—out to
the lake, on the Shell Road. His horses were full of mettle, and even a
little unmanageable. She liked the rapid gait at which they spun along,
and the quick, sharp sound of the horses' hoofs on the hard road. They did
not stop anywhere to eat or to drink. Arobin was not needlessly imprudent.
But they ate and they drank when they regained Edna's little dining-room—which
was comparatively early in the evening.</p>
<p>It was late when he left her. It was getting to be more than a passing
whim with Arobin to see her and be with her. He had detected the latent
sensuality, which unfolded under his delicate sense of her nature's
requirements like a torpid, torrid, sensitive blossom.</p>
<p>There was no despondency when she fell asleep that night; nor was there
hope when she awoke in the morning.</p>
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