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<h2> XXXII. MRS. BELDEN'S NARRATIVE </h2>
<p>"Cursed, destructive Avarice,<br/>
Thou everlasting foe to Love and Honor."<br/>
—Trap's Atram.<br/>
<br/>
"Mischief never thrives<br/>
Without the help of Woman."<br/>
—The Same.<br/></p>
<p>IT will be a year next July since I first saw Mary Leavenworth. I was
living at that time a most monotonous existence. Loving what was
beautiful, hating what was sordid, drawn by nature towards all that was
romantic and uncommon, but doomed by my straitened position and the
loneliness of my widowhood to spend my days in the weary round of plain
sewing, I had begun to think that the shadow of a humdrum old age was
settling down upon me, when one morning, in the full tide of my
dissatisfaction, Mary Leavenworth stepped across the threshold of my door
and, with one smile, changed the whole tenor of my life.</p>
<p>This may seem exaggeration to you, especially when I say that her errand
was simply one of business, she having heard I was handy with my needle;
but if you could have seen her as she appeared that day, marked the look
with which she approached me, and the smile with which she left, you would
pardon the folly of a romantic old woman, who beheld a fairy queen in this
lovely young lady. The fact is, I was dazzled by her beauty and her
charms. And when, a few days after, she came again, and crouching down on
the stool at my feet, said she was so tired of the gossip and tumult down
at the hotel, that it was a relief to run away and hide with some one who
would let her act like the child she was, I experienced for the moment, I
believe, the truest happiness of my life. Meeting her advances with all
the warmth her manner invited, I found her ere long listening eagerly
while I told her, almost without my own volition, the story of my past
life, in the form of an amusing allegory.</p>
<p>The next day saw her in the same place; and the next; always with the
eager, laughing eyes, and the fluttering, uneasy hands, that grasped
everything they touched, and broke everything they grasped.</p>
<p>But the fourth day she was not there, nor the fifth, nor the sixth, and I
was beginning to feel the old shadow settling back upon me, when one
night, just as the dusk of twilight was merging into evening gloom, she
came stealing in at the front door, and, creeping up to my side, put her
hands over my eyes with such a low, ringing laugh, that I started.</p>
<p>"You don't know what to make of me!" she cried, throwing aside her cloak,
and revealing herself in the full splendor of evening attire. "I don't
know what to make of myself. Though it seems folly, I felt that I must run
away and tell some one that a certain pair of eyes have been looking into
mine, and that for the first time in my life I feel myself a woman as well
as a queen." And with a glance in which coyness struggled with pride, she
gathered up her cloak around her, and laughingly cried:</p>
<p>"Have you had a visit from a flying sprite? Has one little ray of
moonlight found its way into your prison for a wee moment, with Mary's
laugh and Mary's snowy silk and flashing diamonds? Say!" and she patted my
cheek, and smiled so bewilderingly, that even now, with all the dull
horror of these after-events crowding upon me, I cannot but feel something
like tears spring to my eyes at the thought of it.</p>
<p>"And so the Prince has come for you?" I whispered, alluding to a story I
had told her the last time she had visited me; a story in which a girl,
who had waited all her life in rags and degradation for the lordly knight
who was to raise her from a hovel to a throne, died just as her one lover,
an honest peasant-lad whom she had discarded in her pride, arrived at her
door with the fortune he had spent all his days in amassing for her sake.</p>
<p>But at this she flushed, and drew back towards the door. "I don't know; I
am afraid not. I—I don't think anything about that. Princes are not
so easily won," she murmured.</p>
<p>"What! are you going?" I said, "and alone? Let me accompany you."</p>
<p>But she only shook her fairy head, and replied: "No, no; that would be
spoiling the romance, indeed. I have come upon you like a sprite, and like
a sprite I will go." And, flashing like the moonbeam she was, she glided
out into the night, and floated away down the street.</p>
<p>When she next came, I observed a feverish excitement in her manner, which
assured me, even plainer than the coy sweetness displayed in our last
interview, that her heart had been touched by her lover's attentions.
Indeed, she hinted as much before she left, saying in a melancholy tone,
when I had ended my story in the usual happy way, with kisses and
marriage, "I shall never marry!" finishing the exclamation with a
long-drawn sigh, that somehow emboldened me to say, perhaps because I knew
she had no mother:</p>
<p>"And why? What reason can there be for such rosy lips saying their
possessor will never marry?"</p>
<p>She gave me one quick look, and then dropped her eyes. I feared I had
offended her, and was feeling very humble, when she suddenly replied, in
an even but low tone, "I said I should never marry, because the one man
who pleases me can never be my husband."</p>
<p>All the hidden romance in my nature started at once into life. "Why not?
What do you mean? Tell me."</p>
<p>"There is nothing to tell," said she; "only I have been so weak as to"—she
would not say, fall in love, she was a proud woman—"admire a man
whom my uncle will never allow me to marry."</p>
<p>And she rose as if to go; but I drew her back. "Whom your uncle will not
allow you to marry!" I repeated. "Why? because he is poor?"</p>
<p>"No; uncle loves money, but not to such an extent as that. Besides, Mr.
Clavering is not poor. He is the owner of a beautiful place in his own
country——"</p>
<p>"Own country?" I interrupted. "Is he not an American?"</p>
<p>"No," she returned; "he is an Englishman."</p>
<p>I did not see why she need say that in just the way she did, but,
supposing she was aggravated by some secret memory, went on to inquire:
"Then what difficulty can there be? Isn't he—" I was going to say
steady, but refrained.</p>
<p>"He is an Englishman," she emphasized in the same bitter tone as before.
"In saying that, I say it all. Uncle will never let me marry an
Englishman."</p>
<p>I looked at her in amazement. Such a puerile reason as this had never
entered my mind.</p>
<p>"He has an absolute mania on the subject," resumed she. "I might as well
ask him to allow me to drown myself as to marry an Englishman."</p>
<p>A woman of truer judgment than myself would have said: "Then, if that is
so, why not discard from your breast all thought of him? Why dance with
him, and talk to him, and let your admiration develop into love?" But I
was all romance then, and, angry at a prejudice I could neither understand
nor appreciate, I said:</p>
<p>"But that is mere tyranny! Why should he hate the English so? And why, if
he does, should you feel yourself obliged to gratify him in a whim so
unreasonable?"</p>
<p>"Why? Shall I tell you, auntie?" she said, flushing and looking away.</p>
<p>"Yes," I returned; "tell me everything."</p>
<p>"Well, then, if you want to know the worst of me, as you already know the
best, I hate to incur my uncle's displeasure, because—because—I
have always been brought up to regard myself as his heiress, and I know
that if I were to marry contrary to his wishes, he would instantly change
his mind, and leave me penniless."</p>
<p>"But," I cried, my romance a little dampened by this admission, "you tell
me Mr. Clavering has enough to live upon, so you would not want; and if
you love—"</p>
<p>Her violet eyes fairly flashed in her amazement.</p>
<p>"You don't understand," she said; "Mr. Clavering is not poor; but uncle is
rich. I shall be a queen—" There she paused, trembling, and falling
on my breast. "Oh, it sounds mercenary, I know, but it is the fault of my
bringing up. I have been taught to worship money. I would be utterly lost
without it. And yet"—her whole face softening with the light of
another emotion, "I cannot say to Henry Clavering, 'Go! my prospects are
dearer to me than you!' I cannot, oh, I cannot!"</p>
<p>"You love him, then?" said I, determined to get at the truth of the matter
if possible.</p>
<p>She rose restlessly. "Isn't that a proof of love? If you knew me, you
would say it was." And, turning, she took her stand before a picture that
hung on the wall of my sitting-room.</p>
<p>"That looks like me," she said.</p>
<p>It was one of a pair of good photographs I possessed.</p>
<p>"Yes," I remarked, "that is why I prize it."</p>
<p>She did not seem to hear me; she was absorbed in gazing at the exquisite
face before her. "That is a winning face," I heard her say. "Sweeter than
mine. I wonder if she would ever hesitate between love and money. I do not
believe she would," her own countenance growing gloomy and sad as she said
so; "she would think only of the happiness she would confer; she is not
hard like me. Eleanore herself would love this girl."</p>
<p>I think she had forgotten my presence, for at the mention of her cousin's
name she turned quickly round with a half suspicious look, saying lightly:</p>
<p>"My dear old Mamma Hubbard looks horrified. She did not know she had such
a very unromantic little wretch for a listener, when she was telling all
those wonderful stories of Love slaying dragons, and living in caves, and
walking over burning ploughshares as if they were tufts of spring grass?"</p>
<p>"No," I said, taking her with an irresistible impulse of admiring
affection into my arms; "but if I had, it would have made no difference. I
should still have talked about love, and of all it can do to make this
weary workaday world sweet and delightful."</p>
<p>"Would you? Then you do not think me such a wretch?"</p>
<p>What could I say? I thought her the winsomest being in the world, and
frankly told her so. Instantly she brightened into her very gayest self.
Not that I thought then, much less do I think now, she partially cared for
my good opinion; but her nature demanded admiration, and unconsciously
blossomed under it, as a flower under the sunshine.</p>
<p>"And you will still let me come and tell you how bad I am,—that is,
if I go on being bad, as I doubtless shall to the end of the chapter? You
will not turn me off?"</p>
<p>"I will never turn you off."</p>
<p>"Not if I should do a dreadful thing? Not if I should run away with my
lover some fine night, and leave uncle to discover how his affectionate
partiality had been requited?"</p>
<p>It was lightly said, and lightly meant, for she did not even wait for my
reply. But its seed sank deep into our two hearts for all that. And for
the next few days I spent my time in planning how I should manage, if it
should ever fall to my lot to conduct to a successful issue so enthralling
a piece of business as an elopement. You may imagine, then, how delighted
I was, when one evening Hannah, this unhappy girl who is now lying dead
under my roof, and who was occupying the position of lady's maid to Miss
Mary Leavenworth at that time, came to my door with a note from her
mistress, running thus:</p>
<p>"Have the loveliest story of the season ready for me tomorrow; and<br/>
let the prince be as handsome as—as some one you have heard of,<br/>
and the princess as foolish as your little yielding pet,<br/>
<br/>
"MARY."<br/></p>
<p>Which short note could only mean that she was engaged. But the next day
did not bring me my Mary, nor the next, nor the next; and beyond hearing
that Mr. Leavenworth had returned from his trip I received neither word
nor token. Two more days dragged by, when, just as twilight set in, she
came. It had been a week since I had seen her, but it might have been a
year from the change I observed in her countenance and expression. I could
scarcely greet her with any show of pleasure, she was so unlike her former
self.</p>
<p>"You are disappointed, are you not?" said she, looking at me. "You
expected revelations, whispered hopes, and all manner of sweet
confidences; and you see, instead, a cold, bitter woman, who for the first
time in your presence feels inclined to be reserved and uncommunicative."</p>
<p>"That is because you have had more to trouble than encourage you in your
love," I returned, though not without a certain shrinking, caused more by
her manner than words.</p>
<p>She did not reply to this, but rose and paced the floor, coldly at first,
but afterwards with a certain degree of excitement that proved to be the
prelude to a change in her manner; for, suddenly pausing, she turned to me
and said: "Mr. Clavering has left R——, Mrs. Belden."</p>
<p>"Left!"</p>
<p>"Yes, my uncle commanded me to dismiss him, and I obeyed."</p>
<p>The work dropped from my hands, in my heartfelt disappointment. "Ah! then
he knows of your engagement to Mr. Clavering?"</p>
<p>"Yes; he had not been in the house five minutes before Eleanore told him."</p>
<p>"Then <i>she</i> knew?"</p>
<p>"Yes," with a half sigh. "She could hardly help it. I was foolish enough
to give her the cue in my first moment of joy and weakness. I did not
think of the consequences; but I might have known. She is so
conscientious."</p>
<p>"I do not call it conscientiousness to tell another's secrets," I
returned.</p>
<p>"That is because you are not Eleanore."</p>
<p>Not having a reply for this, I said, "And so your uncle did not regard
your engagement with favor?"</p>
<p>"Favor! Did I not tell you he would never allow me to marry an Englishman?
He said he would sooner see me buried."</p>
<p>"And you yielded? Made no struggle? Let the hard, cruel man have his way?"</p>
<p>She was walking off to look again at that picture which had attracted her
attention the time before, but at this word gave me one little sidelong
look that was inexpressibly suggestive.</p>
<p>"I obeyed him when he commanded, if that is what you mean."</p>
<p>"And dismissed Mr. Clavering after having given him your word of honor to
be his wife?"</p>
<p>"Why not, when I found I could not keep my word."</p>
<p>"Then you have decided not to marry him?"</p>
<p>She did not reply at once, but lifted her face mechanically to the
picture.</p>
<p>"My uncle would tell you that I had decided to be governed wholly by his
wishes!" she responded at last with what I felt was self-scornful
bitterness.</p>
<p>Greatly disappointed, I burst into tears. "Oh, Mary!" I cried, "Oh, Mary!"
and instantly blushed, startled that I had called her by her first name.</p>
<p>But she did not appear to notice.</p>
<p>"Have you any complaint to make?" she asked. "Is it not my manifest duty
to be governed by my uncle's wishes? Has he not brought me up from
childhood? lavished every luxury upon me? made me all I am, even to the
love of riches which he has instilled into my soul with every gift he has
thrown into my lap, every word he has dropped into my ear, since I was old
enough to know what riches meant? Is it for me now to turn my back upon
fostering care so wise, beneficent, and free, just because a man whom I
have known some two weeks chances to offer me in exchange what he pleases
to call his love?"</p>
<p>"But," I feebly essayed, convinced perhaps by the tone of sarcasm in which
this was uttered that she was not far from my way of thinking after all,
"if in two weeks you have learned to love this man more than everything
else, even the riches which make your uncle's favor a thing of such moment—"</p>
<p>"Well," said she, "what then?"</p>
<p>"Why, then I would say, secure your happiness with the man of your choice,
if you have to marry him in secret, trusting to your influence over your
uncle to win the forgiveness he never can persistently deny."</p>
<p>You should have seen the arch expression which stole across her face at
that. "Would it not be better," she asked, creeping to my arms, and laying
her head on my shoulder, "would it not be better for me to make sure of
that uncle's favor first, before undertaking the hazardous experiment of
running away with a too ardent lover?"</p>
<p>Struck by her manner, I lifted her face and looked at it. It was one
amused smile.</p>
<p>"Oh, my darling," said I, "you have not, then dismissed Mr. Clavering?"</p>
<p>"I have sent him away," she whispered demurely.</p>
<p>"But not without hope?"</p>
<p>She burst into a ringing laugh.</p>
<p>"Oh, you dear old Mamma Hubbard; what a matchmaker you are, to be sure!
You appear as much interested as if you were the lover yourself."</p>
<p>"But tell me," I urged.</p>
<p>In a moment her serious mood returned. "He will wait for me," said she.</p>
<p>The next day I submitted to her the plan I had formed for her clandestine
intercourse with Mr. Clavering. It was for them both to assume names, she
taking mine, as one less liable to provoke conjecture than a strange name,
and he that of LeRoy Robbins. The plan pleased her, and with the slight
modification of a secret sign being used on the envelope, to distinguish
her letters from mine, was at once adopted.</p>
<p>And so it was I took the fatal step that has involved me in all this
trouble. With the gift of my name to this young girl to use as she would
and sign what she would, I seemed to part with what was left me of
judgment and discretion. Henceforth, I was only her scheming, planning,
devoted slave; now copying the letters which she brought me, and enclosing
them to the false name we had agreed upon, and now busying myself in
devising ways to forward to her those which I received from him, without
risk of discovery. Hannah was the medium we employed, as Mary felt it
would not be wise for her to come too often to my house. To this girl's
charge, then, I gave such notes as I could not forward in any other way,
secure in the reticence of her nature, as well as in her inability to
read, that these letters addressed to Mrs. Amy Belden would arrive at
their proper destination without mishap. And I believe they always did. At
all events, no difficulty that I ever heard of arose out of the use of
this girl as a go-between.</p>
<p>But a change was at hand. Mr. Clavering, who had left an invalid mother in
England, was suddenly summoned home. He prepared to go, but, flushed with
love, distracted by doubts, smitten with the fear that, once withdrawn
from the neighborhood of a woman so universally courted as Mary, he would
stand small chance of retaining his position in her regard, he wrote to
her, telling his fears and asking her to marry him before he went.</p>
<p>"Make me your husband, and I will follow your wishes in all things," he
wrote. "The certainty that you are mine will make parting possible;
without it, I cannot go; no, not if my mother should die without the
comfort of saying good-bye to her only child."</p>
<p>By some chance she was in my house when I brought this letter from the
post-office, and I shall never forget how she started when she read it.
But, from looking as if she had received an insult, she speedily settled
down into a calm consideration of the subject, writing and delivering into
my charge for copying a few lines in which she promised to accede to his
request, if he would agree to leave the public declaration of the marriage
to her discretion, and consent to bid her farewell at the door of the
church or wherever the ceremony of marriage should take place, never to
come into her presence again till such declaration had been made. Of
course this brought in a couple of days the sure response: "Anything, so
you will be mine."</p>
<p>And Amy Belden's wits and powers of planning were all summoned into
requisition for the second time, to devise how this matter could be
arranged without subjecting the parties to the chance of detection. I
found the thing very difficult. In the first place, it was essential that
the marriage should come off within three days, Mr. Clavering having, upon
the receipt of her letter, secured his passage upon a steamer that sailed
on the following Saturday; and, next, both he and Miss Leavenworth were
too conspicuous in their personal appearance to make it at all possible
for them to be secretly married anywhere within gossiping distance of this
place. And yet it was desirable that the scene of the ceremony should not
be too far away, or the time occupied in effecting the journey to and from
the place would necessitate an absence from the hotel on the part of Miss
Leavenworth long enough to arouse the suspicions of Eleanore; something
which Mary felt it wiser to avoid. Her uncle, I have forgotten to say, was
not here—having gone away again shortly after the apparent dismissal
of Mr. Clavering. F——, then, was the only town I could think
of which combined the two advantages of distance and accessibility.
Although upon the railroad, it was an insignificant place, and had, what
was better yet, a very obscure man for its clergyman, living, which was
best of all, not ten rods from the depot. If they could meet there? Making
inquiries, I found that it could be done, and, all alive to the romance of
the occasion, proceeded to plan the details.</p>
<p>And now I am coming to what might have caused the overthrow of the whole
scheme: I allude to the detection on the part of Eleanore of the
correspondence between Mary and Mr. Clavering. It happened thus. Hannah,
who, in her frequent visits to my house, had grown very fond of my
society, had come in to sit with me for a while one evening. She had not
been in the house, however, more than ten minutes, before there came a
knock at the front door; and going to it I saw Mary, as I supposed, from
the long cloak she wore, standing before me. Thinking she had come with a
letter for Mr. Clavering, I grasped her arm and drew her into the hall,
saying, "Have you got it? I must post it to-night, or he will not receive
it in time."</p>
<p>There I paused, for, the panting creature I had by the arm turning upon
me, I saw myself confronted by a stranger.</p>
<p>"You have made a mistake," she cried. "I am Eleanore Leavenworth, and I
have come for my girl Hannah. Is she here?"</p>
<p>I could only raise my hand in apprehension, and point to the girl sitting
in the corner of the room before her. Miss Leavenworth immediately turned
back.</p>
<p>"Hannah, I want you," said she, and would have left the house without
another word, but I caught her by the arm.</p>
<p>"Oh, miss—" I began, but she gave me such a look, I dropped her arm.</p>
<p>"I have nothing to say to you!" she cried in a low, thrilling voice. "Do
not detain me." And, with a glance to see if Hannah were following her,
she went out.</p>
<p>For an hour I sat crouched on the stair just where she had left me. Then I
went to bed, but I did not sleep a wink that night. You can imagine, then,
my wonder when, with the first glow of the early morning light, Mary,
looking more beautiful than ever, came running up the steps and into the
room where I was, with the letter for Mr. Clavering trembling in her hand.</p>
<p>"Oh!" I cried in my joy and relief, "didn't she understand me, then?"</p>
<p>The gay look on Mary's face turned to one of reckless scorn. "If you mean
Eleanore, yes. She is duly initiated, Mamma Hubbard. Knows that I love Mr.
Clavering and write to him. I couldn't keep it secret after the mistake
you made last evening; so I did the next best thing, told her the truth."</p>
<p>"Not that you were about to be married?"</p>
<p>"Certainly not. I don't believe in unnecessary communications."</p>
<p>"And you did not find her as angry as you expected?"</p>
<p>"I will not say that; she was angry enough. And yet," continued Mary, with
a burst of self-scornful penitence, "I will not call Eleanore's lofty
indignation anger. She was grieved, Mamma Hubbard, grieved." And with a
laugh which I believe was rather the result of her own relief than of any
wish to reflect on her cousin, she threw her head on one side and eyed me
with a look which seemed to say, "Do I plague you so very much, you dear
old Mamma Hubbard?"</p>
<p>She did plague me, and I could not conceal it. "And will she not tell her
uncle?" I gasped.</p>
<p>The naive expression on Mary's face quickly changed. "No," said she.</p>
<p>I felt a heavy hand, hot with fever, lifted from my heart. "And we can
still go on?"</p>
<p>She held out the letter for reply.</p>
<p>The plan agreed upon between us for the carrying out of our intentions was
this. At the time appointed, Mary was to excuse herself to her cousin upon
the plea that she had promised to take me to see a friend in the next
town. She was then to enter a buggy previously ordered, and drive here,
where I was to join her. We were then to proceed immediately to the
minister's house in F——, where we had reason to believe we
should find everything prepared for us. But in this plan, simple as it
was, one thing was forgotten, and that was the character of Eleanore's
love for her cousin. That her suspicions would be aroused we did not
doubt; but that she would actually follow Mary up and demand an
explanation of her conduct, was what neither she, who knew her so well,
nor I, who knew her so little, ever imagined possible. And yet that was
just what occurred. But let me explain. Mary, who had followed out the
programme to the point of leaving a little note of excuse on Eleanore's
dressing-table, had come to my house, and was just taking off her long
cloak to show me her dress, when there came a commanding knock at the
front door. Hastily pulling her cloak about her I ran to open it,
intending, you may be sure, to dismiss my visitor with short ceremony,
when I heard a voice behind me say, "Good heavens, it is Eleanore!" and,
glancing back, saw Mary looking through the window-blind upon the porch
without.</p>
<p>"What shall we do?" I cried, in very natural dismay.</p>
<p>"Do? why, open the door and let her in; I am not afraid of Eleanore."</p>
<p>I immediately did so, and Eleanore Leavenworth, very pale, but with a
resolute countenance, walked into the house and into this room,
confronting Mary in very nearly the same spot where you are now sitting.
"I have come," said she, lifting a face whose expression of mingled
sweetness and power I could not but admire, even in that moment of
apprehension, "to ask you without any excuse for my request, if you will
allow me to accompany you upon your drive this morning?"</p>
<p>Mary, who had drawn herself up to meet some word of accusation or appeal,
turned carelessly away to the glass. "I am very sorry," she said, "but the
buggy holds only two, and I shall be obliged to refuse."</p>
<p>"I will order a carriage."</p>
<p>"But I do not wish your company, Eleanore. We are off on a pleasure trip,
and desire to have our fun by ourselves."</p>
<p>"And you will not allow me to accompany you?"</p>
<p>"I cannot prevent your going in another carriage."</p>
<p>Eleanore's face grew yet more earnest in its expression. "Mary," said she,
"we have been brought up together. I am your sister in affection if not in
blood, and I cannot see you start upon this adventure with no other
companion than this woman. Then tell me, shall I go with you, as a sister,
or on the road behind you as the enforced guardian of your honor against
your will?"</p>
<p>"My honor?"</p>
<p>"You are going to meet Mr. Clavering."</p>
<p>"Well?"</p>
<p>"Twenty miles from home."</p>
<p>"Well?"</p>
<p>"Now is it discreet or honorable in you to do this?"</p>
<p>Mary's haughty lip took an ominous curve. "The same hand that raised you
has raised me," she cried bitterly.</p>
<p>"This is no time to speak of that," returned Eleanore.</p>
<p>Mary's countenance flushed. All the antagonism of her nature was aroused.
She looked absolutely Juno-like in her wrath and reckless menace.
"Eleanore," she cried, "I am going to F—— to marry Mr.
Clavering! <i>Now</i> do you wish to accompany me?"</p>
<p>"I do."</p>
<p>Mary's whole manner changed. Leaping forward, she grasped her cousin's arm
and shook it. "For what reason?" she cried. "What do you intend to do?"</p>
<p>"To witness the marriage, if it be a true one; to step between you and
shame if any element of falsehood should come in to affect its legality."</p>
<p>Mary's hand fell from her cousin's arm. "I do not understand you," said
she. "I thought you never gave countenance to what you considered wrong."</p>
<p>"Nor do I. Any one who knows me will understand that I do not give my
approval to this marriage just because I attend its ceremonial in the
capacity of an unwilling witness."</p>
<p>"Then why go?"</p>
<p>"Because I value your honor above my own peace. Because I love our common
benefactor, and know that he would never pardon me if I let his darling be
married, however contrary her union might be to his wishes, without
lending the support of my presence to make the transaction at least a
respectable one."</p>
<p>"But in so doing you will be involved in a world of deception—which
you hate."</p>
<p>"Any more so than now?"</p>
<p>"Mr. Clavering does not return with me, Eleanore."</p>
<p>"No, I supposed not."</p>
<p>"I leave him immediately after the ceremony."</p>
<p>Eleanore bowed her head.</p>
<p>"He goes to Europe." A pause.</p>
<p>"And I return home."</p>
<p>"There to wait for what, Mary?"</p>
<p>Mary's face crimsoned, and she turned slowly away.</p>
<p>"What every other girl does under such circumstances, I suppose. The
development of more reasonable feelings in an obdurate parent's heart."</p>
<p>Eleanore sighed, and a short silence ensued, broken by Eleanore's suddenly
falling upon her knees, and clasping her cousin's hand. "Oh, Mary," she
sobbed, her haughtiness all disappearing in a gush of wild entreaty,
"consider what you are doing! Think, before it is too late, of the
consequences which must follow such an act as this. Marriage founded upon
deception can never lead to happiness. Love—but it is not that. Love
would have led you either to have dismissed Mr. Clavering at once, or to
have openly accepted the fate which a union with him would bring. Only
passion stoops to subterfuge like this. And you," she continued, rising
and turning toward me in a sort of forlorn hope very touching to see, "can
you see this young motherless girl, driven by caprice, and acknowledging
no moral restraint, enter upon the dark and crooked path she is planning
for herself, without uttering one word of warning and appeal? Tell me,
mother of children dead and buried, what excuse you will have for your own
part in this day's work, when she, with her face marred by the sorrows
which must follow this deception, comes to you——"</p>
<p>"The same excuse, probably," Mary's voice broke in, chill and strained,
"which you will have when uncle inquires how you came to allow such an act
of disobedience to be perpetrated in his absence: that she could not help
herself, that Mary would gang her ain gait, and every one around must
accommodate themselves to it."</p>
<p>It was like a draught of icy air suddenly poured into a room heated up to
fever point. Eleanore stiffened immediately, and drawing back, pale and
composed, turned upon her cousin with the remark:</p>
<p>"Then nothing can move you?"</p>
<p>The curling of Mary's lips was her only reply.</p>
<p>Mr. Raymond, I do not wish to weary you with my feelings, but the first
great distrust I ever felt of my wisdom in pushing this matter so far came
with that curl of Mary's lip. More plainly than Eleanore's words it showed
me the temper with which she was entering upon this undertaking; and,
struck with momentary dismay, I advanced to speak when Mary stopped me.</p>
<p>"There, now, Mamma Hubbard, don't you go and acknowledge that you are
frightened, for I won't hear it. I have promised to marry Henry Clavering
to-day, and I am going to keep my word—if I don't love him," she
added with bitter emphasis. Then, smiling upon me in a way which caused me
to forget everything save the fact that she was going to her bridal, she
handed me her veil to fasten. As I was doing this, with very trembling
fingers, she said, looking straight at Eleanore:</p>
<p>"You have shown yourself more interested in my fate than I had any reason
to expect. Will you continue to display this concern all the way to F——,
or may I hope for a few moments of peace in which to dream upon the step
which, according to you, is about to hurl upon me such dreadful
consequences?"</p>
<p>"If I go with you to F——," Eleanore returned, "it is as a
witness, no more. My sisterly duty is done."</p>
<p>"Very well, then," Mary said, dimpling with sudden gayety; "I suppose I
shall have to accept the situation. Mamma Hubbard, I am so sorry to
disappoint you, but the buggy <i>won't</i> hold three. If you are good you
shall be the first to congratulate me when I come home to-night." And,
almost before I knew it, the two had taken their seats in the buggy that
was waiting at the door. "Good-by," cried Mary, waving her hand from the
back; "wish me much joy—of my ride."</p>
<p>I tried to do so, but the words wouldn't come. I could only wave my hand
in response, and rush sobbing into the house.</p>
<p>Of that day, and its long hours of alternate remorse and anxiety, I cannot
trust myself to speak. Let me come at once to the time when, seated alone
in my lamp-lighted room, I waited and watched for the token of their
return which Mary had promised me. It came in the shape of Mary herself,
who, wrapped in her long cloak, and with her beautiful face aglow with
blushes, came stealing into the house just as I was beginning to despair.</p>
<p>A strain of wild music from the hotel porch, where they were having a
dance, entered with her, producing such a weird effect upon my fancy that
I was not at all surprised when, in flinging off her cloak, she displayed
garments of bridal white and a head crowned with snowy roses.</p>
<p>"Oh, Mary!" I cried, bursting into tears; "you are then——"</p>
<p>"Mrs. Henry Clavering, at your service. I'm a bride, Auntie."</p>
<p>"Without a bridal," I murmured, taking her passionately into my embrace.</p>
<p>She was not insensible to my emotion. Nestling close to me, she gave
herself up for one wild moment to a genuine burst of tears, saying between
her sobs all manner of tender things; telling me how she loved me, and how
I was the only one in all the world to whom she dared come on this, her
wedding night, for comfort or congratulation, and of how frightened she
felt now it was all over, as if with her name she had parted with
something of inestimable value.</p>
<p>"And does not the thought of having made some one the proudest of men
solace you?" I asked, more than dismayed at this failure of mine to make
these lovers happy.</p>
<p>"I don't know," she sobbed. "What satisfaction can it be for him to feel
himself tied for life to a girl who, sooner than lose a prospective
fortune, subjected him to such a parting?"</p>
<p>"Tell me about it," said I.</p>
<p>But she was not in the mood at that moment. The excitement of the day had
been too much for her. A thousand fears seemed to beset her mind.
Crouching down on the stool at my feet, she sat with her hands folded and
a glare on her face that lent an aspect of strange unreality to her
brilliant attire. "How shall I keep it secret! The thought haunts me every
moment; how can I keep it secret!"</p>
<p>"Why, is there any danger of its being known?" I inquired. "Were you seen
or followed?"</p>
<p>"No," she murmured. "It all went off well, but——"</p>
<p>"Where is the danger, then?"</p>
<p>"I cannot say; but some deeds are like ghosts. They will not be laid; they
reappear; they gibber; they make themselves known whether we will or not.
I did not think of this before. I was mad, reckless, what you will. But
ever since the night has come, I have felt it crushing upon me like a pall
that smothers life and youth and love out of my heart. While the sunlight
remained I could endure it; but now—oh, Auntie, I have done
something that will keep me in constant fear. I have allied myself to a
living apprehension. I have destroyed my happiness."</p>
<p>I was too aghast to speak.</p>
<p>"For two hours I have played at being gay. Dressed in my bridal white, and
crowned with roses, I have greeted my friends as if they were
wedding-guests, and made believe to myself that all the compliments
bestowed upon me—and they are only too numerous—were just so
many congratulations upon my marriage. But it was no use; Eleanore knew it
was no use. She has gone to her room to pray, while I—I have come
here for the first time, perhaps for the last, to fall at some one's feet
and cry,—' God have mercy upon me!'"</p>
<p>I looked at her in uncontrollable emotion. "Oh, Mary, have I only
succeeded, then, in making you miserable?"</p>
<p>She did not answer; she was engaged in picking up the crown of roses which
had fallen from her hair to the floor.</p>
<p>"If I had not been taught to love money so!" she said at length. "If, like
Eleanore, I could look upon the splendor which has been ours from
childhood as a mere accessory of life, easy to be dropped at the call of
duty or affection! If prestige, adulation, and elegant belongings were not
so much to me; or love, friendship, and domestic happiness more! If only I
could walk a step without dragging the chain of a thousand luxurious
longings after me. Eleanore can. Imperious as she often is in her
beautiful womanhood, haughty as she can be when the delicate quick of her
personality is touched too rudely, I have known her to sit by the hour in
a low, chilly, ill-lighted and ill-smelling garret, cradling a dirty child
on her knee, and feeding with her own hand an impatient old woman whom no
one else would consent to touch. Oh, oh! they talk about repentance and a
change of heart! If some one or something would only change mine! But
there is no hope of that! no hope of my ever being anything else than what
I am: a selfish, wilful, mercenary girl."</p>
<p>Nor was this mood a mere transitory one. That same night she made a
discovery which increased her apprehension almost to terror. This was
nothing less than the fact that Eleanore had been keeping a diary of the
last few weeks. "Oh," she cried in relating this to me the next day, "what
security shall I ever feel as long as this diary of hers remains to
confront me every time I go into her room? And she will not consent to
destroy it, though I have done my best to show her that it is a betrayal
of the trust I reposed in her. She says it is all she has to show in the
way of defence, if uncle should ever accuse her of treachery to him and
his happiness. She promises to keep it locked up; but what good will that
do! A thousand accidents might happen, any of them sufficient to throw it
into uncle's hands. I shall never feel safe for a moment while it exists."</p>
<p>I endeavored to calm her by saying that if Eleanore was without malice,
such fears were groundless. But she would not be comforted, and seeing her
so wrought up, I suggested that Eleanore should be asked to trust it into
my keeping till such time as she should feel the necessity of using it.
The idea struck Mary favorably. "O yes," she cried; "and I will put my
certificate with it, and so get rid of all my care at once." And before
the afternoon was over, she had seen Eleanore and made her request.</p>
<p>It was acceded to with this proviso, that I was neither to destroy nor
give up all or any of the papers except upon their united demand. A small
tin box was accordingly procured, into which were put all the proofs of
Mary's marriage then existing, viz.: the certificate, Mr. Clavering's
letters, and such leaves from Eleanore's diary as referred to this matter.
It was then handed over to me with the stipulation I have already
mentioned, and I stowed it away in a certain closet upstairs, where it has
lain undisturbed till last night.</p>
<p>Here Mrs. Belden paused, and, blushing painfully, raised her eyes to mine
with a look in which anxiety and entreaty were curiously blended.</p>
<p>"I don't know what you will say," she began, "but, led away by my fears, I
took that box out of its hiding-place last evening and, notwithstanding
your advice, carried it from the house, and it is now——"</p>
<p>"In my possession," I quietly finished.</p>
<p>I don't think I ever saw her look more astounded, not even when I told her
of Hannah's death. "Impossible!" she exclaimed. "I left it last night in
the old barn that was burned down. I merely meant to hide it for the
present, and could think of no better place in my hurry; for the barn is
said to be haunted—a man hung himself there once—and no one
ever goes there. I—I—you cannot have it!" she cried, "unless——"</p>
<p>"Unless I found and brought it away before the barn was destroyed," I
suggested.</p>
<p>Her face flushed deeper. "Then you followed me?"</p>
<p>"Yes," said I. Then, as I felt my own countenance redden, hastened to add:
"We have been playing strange and unaccustomed parts, you and I. Some
time, when all these dreadful events shall be a mere dream of the past, we
will ask each other's pardon. But never mind all this now. The box is
safe, and I am anxious to hear the rest of your story."</p>
<p>This seemed to compose her, and after a minute she continued:</p>
<p>Mary seemed more like herself after this. And though, on account of Mr.
Leavenworth's return and their subsequent preparations for departure, I
saw but little more of her, what I did see was enough to make me fear
that, with the locking up of the proofs of her marriage, she was indulging
the idea that the marriage itself had become void. But I may have wronged
her in this.</p>
<p>The story of those few weeks is almost finished. On the eve of the day
before she left, Mary came to my house to bid me good-by. She had a
present in her hand the value of which I will not state, as I did not take
it, though she coaxed me with all her prettiest wiles. But she said
something that night that I have never been able to forget. It was this. I
had been speaking of my hope that before two months had elapsed she would
find herself in a position to send for Mr. Clavering, and that when that
day came I should wish to be advised of it; when she suddenly interrupted
me by saying:</p>
<p>"Uncle will never be won upon, as you call it, while he lives. If I was
convinced of it before, I am sure of it now. Nothing but his death will
ever make it possible for me to send for Mr. Clavering." Then, seeing me
look aghast at the long period of separation which this seemed to betoken,
blushed a little and whispered: "The prospect looks somewhat dubious,
doesn't it? But if Mr. Clavering loves me, he can wait."</p>
<p>"But," said I, "your uncle is only little past the prime of life and
appears to be in robust health; it will be years of waiting, Mary."</p>
<p>"I don't know," she muttered, "I think not. Uncle is not as strong as he
looks and—" She did not say any more, horrified perhaps at the turn
the conversation was taking. But there was an expression on her
countenance that set me thinking at the time, and has kept me thinking
ever since.</p>
<p>Not that any actual dread of such an occurrence as has since happened came
to oppress my solitude during the long months which now intervened. I was
as yet too much under the spell of her charm to allow anything calculated
to throw a shadow over her image to remain long in my thoughts. But when,
some time in the fall, a letter came to me personally from Mr. Clavering,
filled with a vivid appeal to tell him something of the woman who, in
spite of her vows, doomed him to a suspense so cruel, and when, on the
evening of the same day, a friend of mine who had just returned from New
York spoke of meeting Mary Leavenworth at some gathering, surrounded by
manifest admirers, I began to realize the alarming features of the affair,
and, sitting down, I wrote her a letter. Not in the strain in which I had
been accustomed to talk to her,—I had not her pleading eyes and
trembling, caressing hands ever before me to beguile my judgment from its
proper exercise,—but honestly and earnestly, telling her how Mr.
Clavering felt, and what a risk she ran in keeping so ardent a lover from
his rights. The reply she sent rather startled me.</p>
<p>"I have put Mr. Robbins out of my calculations for the present, and advise
you to do the same. As for the gentleman himself, I have told him that
when I could receive him I would be careful to notify him. That day has
not yet come.</p>
<p>"But do not let him be discouraged," she added in a postscript. "When he
does receive his happiness, it will be a satisfying one."</p>
<p><i>When, </i>I thought. Ah, it is that <i>when</i> which is likely to ruin
all! But, intent only upon fulfilling her will, I sat down and wrote a
letter to Mr. Clavering, in which I stated what she had said, and begged
him to have patience, adding that I would surely let him know if any
change took place in Mary or her circumstances. And, having despatched it
to his address in London, awaited the development of events.</p>
<p>They were not slow in transpiring. In two weeks I heard of the sudden
death of Mr. Stebbins, the minister who had married them; and while yet
laboring under the agitation produced by this shock, was further startled
by seeing in a New York paper the name of Mr. Clavering among the list of
arrivals at the Hoffman House; showing that my letter to him had failed in
its intended effect, and that the patience Mary had calculated upon so
blindly was verging to its end. I was consequently far from being
surprised when, in a couple of weeks or so afterwards, a letter came from
him to my address, which, owing to the careless omission of the private
mark upon the envelope, I opened, and read enough to learn that, driven to
desperation by the constant failures which he had experienced in all his
endeavors to gain access to her in public or private, a failure which he
was not backward in ascribing to her indisposition to see him, he had made
up his mind to risk everything, even her displeasure; and, by making an
appeal to her uncle, end the suspense under which he was laboring,
definitely and at once. "I want you," he wrote; "dowered or dowerless, it
makes little difference to me. If you will not come of yourself, then I
must follow the example of the brave knights, my ancestors; storm the
castle that holds you, and carry you off by force of arms."</p>
<p>Neither can I say I was much surprised, knowing Mary as I did, when, in a
few days from this, she forwarded to me for copying, this reply: "If Mr.
Robbins ever expects to be happy with Amy Belden, let him reconsider the
determination of which he speaks. Not only would he by such an action
succeed in destroying the happiness of her he professes to love, but run
the greater risk of effectually annulling the affection which makes the
tie between them endurable."</p>
<p>To this there was neither date nor signature. It was the cry of warning
which a spirited, self-contained creature gives when brought to bay. It
made even me recoil, though I had known from the first that her pretty
wilfulness was but the tossing foam floating above the soundless depths of
cold resolve and most deliberate purpose.</p>
<p>What its real effect was upon him and her fate I can only conjecture. All
I know is that in two weeks thereafter Mr. Leavenworth was found murdered
in his room, and Hannah Chester, coming direct to my door from the scene
of violence, begged me to take her in and secrete her from public inquiry,
as I loved and desired to serve Mary Leavenworth.</p>
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