<p>Ten years at an English public school do not encourage dreaming. Georgie
won his growth and chest measurement, and a few other things which did not
appear in the bills, under a system of cricket, foot-ball, and
paper-chases, from four to five days a week, which provided for three
lawful cuts of a ground-ash if any boy absented himself from these
entertainments. He became a rumple-collared, dusty-hatted fag of the Lower
Third, and a light half-back at Little Side foot-ball; was pushed and
prodded through the slack backwaters of the Lower Fourth, where the raffle
of a school generally accumulates; won his "second-fifteen" cap at
foot-ball, enjoyed the dignity of a study with two companions in it, and
began to look forward to office as a sub-prefect. At last he blossomed
into full glory as head of the school, ex-officio captain of the games;
head of his house, where he and his lieutenants preserved discipline and
decency among seventy boys from twelve to seventeen; general arbiter in
the quarrels that spring up among the touchy Sixth—and intimate
friend and ally of the Head himself. When he stepped forth in the black
jersey, white knickers, and black stockings of the First Fifteen, the new
match-ball under his arm, and his old and frayed cap at the back of his
head, the small fry of the lower forms stood apart and worshipped, and the
"new caps" of the team talked to him ostentatiously, that the world might
see. And so, in summer, when he came back to the pavilion after a slow but
eminently safe game, it mattered not whether he had made nothing or, as
once happened, a hundred and three, the school shouted just the same, and
women-folk who had come to look at the match looked at Cottar—Cottar,
major; "that's Cottar!" Above all, he was responsible for that thing
called the tone of the school, and few realise with what passionate
devotion a certain type of boy throws himself into this work. Home was a
faraway country, full of ponies and fishing and shooting, and men-visitors
who interfered with one's plans; but school was the real world, where
things of vital importance happened, and crises arose that must be dealt
with promptly and quietly. Not for nothing was it written, "Let the
Consuls look to it that the Republic takes no harm," and Georgie was glad
to be back in authority when the holidays ended. Behind him, but not too
near, was the wise and temperate Head, now suggesting the wisdom of the
serpent, now counselling the mildness of the dove; leading him on to see,
more by half-hints than by any direct word, how boys and men are all of a
piece, and how he who can handle the one will assuredly in time control
the other.</p>
<p>For the rest, the school was not encouraged to dwell on its emotions, but
rather to keep in hard condition, to avoid false quantities, and to enter
the army direct, without the help of the expensive London crammer, under
whose roof young blood learns too much. Cottar, major, went the way of
hundreds before him. The Head gave him six months' final polish, taught
him what kind of answers best please a certain kind of examiners, and
handed him over to the properly constituted authorities, who passed him
into Sandhurst. Here he had sense enough to see that he was in the Lower
Third once more, and behaved with respect toward his seniors, till they in
turn respected him, and he was promoted to the rank of corporal, and sat
in authority over mixed peoples with all the vices of men and boys
combined. His reward was another string of athletic cups, a good-conduct
sword, and, at last, Her Majesty's commission as a subaltern in a
first-class line regiment. He did not know that he bore with him from
school and college a character worth much fine gold, but was pleased to
find his mess so kindly. He had plenty of money of his own; his training
had set the public school mask upon his face, and had taught him how many
were the "things no fellow can do." By virtue of the same training he kept
his pores open and his mouth shut.</p>
<p>The regular working of the Empire shifted his world to India, where he
tasted utter loneliness in subaltern's quarters,—one room and one
bullock-trunk,—and, with his mess, learned the new life from the
beginning. But there were horses in the land-ponies at reasonable price;
there was polo for such as could afford it; there were the disreputable
remnants of a pack of hounds; and Cottar worried his way along without too
much despair. It dawned on him that a regiment in India was nearer the
chance of active service than he had conceived, and that a man might as
well study his profession. A major of the new school backed this idea with
enthusiasm, and he and Cottar accumulated a library of military works, and
read and argued and disputed far into the nights. But the adjutant said
the old thing: "Get to know your men, young un, and they 'll follow you
anywhere. That's all you want—know your men." Cottar thought he knew
them fairly well at cricket and the regimental sports, but he never
realised the true inwardness of them till he was sent off with a
detachment of twenty to sit down in a mud fort near a rushing river which
was spanned by a bridge of boats. When the floods came they went forth and
hunted strayed pontoons along the banks. Otherwise there was nothing to
do, and the men got drunk, gambled, and quarrelled. They were a sickly
crew, for a junior subaltern is by custom saddled with the worst men.
Cottar endured their rioting as long as he could, and then sent
down-country for a dozen pairs of boxing-gloves.</p>
<p>"I wouldn't blame you for fightin'," said he, "if you only knew how to use
your hands; but you don't. Take these things, and I'll show you." The men
appreciated his efforts. Now, instead of blaspheming and swearing at a
comrade, and threatening to shoot him, they could take him apart, and
soothe themselves to exhaustion. As one explained whom Cottar found with a
shut eye and a diamond-shaped mouth spitting blood through an embrasure:
"We tried it with the gloves, sir, for twenty minutes, and that done us no
good, sir. Then we took off the gloves and tried it that way for another
twenty minutes, same as you showed us, sir, an' that done us a world o'
good. 'T wasn't fightin', sir; there was a bet on."</p>
<p>Cottar dared not laugh, but he invited his men to other sports, such as
racing across country in shirt and trousers after a trail of torn paper,
and to single-stick in the evenings, till the native population, who had a
lust for sport in every form, wished to know whether the white men
understood wrestling. They sent in an ambassador, who took the soldiers by
the neck and threw them about the dust; and the entire command were all
for this new game. They spent money on learning new falls and holds, which
was better than buying other doubtful commodities; and the peasantry
grinned five deep round the tournaments.</p>
<p>That detachment, who had gone up in bullock-carts, returned to
headquarters at an average rate of thirty miles a day, fair heel-and-toe;
no sick, no prisoners, and no court martials pending. They scattered
themselves among their friends, singing the praises of their lieutenant
and looking for causes of offense.</p>
<p>"How did you do it, young un?" the adjutant asked.</p>
<p>"Oh, I sweated the beef off 'em, and then I sweated some muscle on to 'em.
It was rather a lark."</p>
<p>"If that's your way of lookin' at it, we can give you all the larks you
want. Young Davies isn't feelin' quite fit, and he's next for detachment
duty. Care to go for him?"</p>
<p>"'Sure he wouldn't mind? I don't want to shove myself forward, you know."</p>
<p>"You needn't bother on Davies's account. We'll give you the sweepin's of
the corps, and you can see what you can make of 'em."</p>
<p>"All right," said Cottar. "It's better fun than loafin' about
cantonments."</p>
<p>"Rummy thing," said the adjutant, after Cottar had returned to his
wilderness with twenty other devils worse than the first. "If Cottar only
knew it, half the women in the station would give their eyes—confound
'em!—to have the young un in tow."</p>
<p>"That accounts for Mrs. Elery sayin' I was workin' my nice new boy too
hard," said a wing commander.</p>
<p>"Oh, yes; and 'Why doesn't he come to the bandstand in the evenings?' and
'Can't I get him to make up a four at tennis with the Hammon girls?'" the
adjutant snorted. "Look at young Davies makin' an ass of himself over
mutton-dressed-as-lamb old enough to be his mother!"</p>
<p>"No one can accuse young Cottar of runnin' after women, white or black,"
the major replied thoughtfully. "But, then, that's the kind that generally
goes the worst mucker in the end."</p>
<p>"Not Cottar. I've only run across one of his muster before—a fellow
called Ingles, in South Africa. He was just the same hard trained,
athletic-sports build of animal. Always kept himself in the pink of
condition. Didn't do him much good, though. 'Shot at Wesselstroom the week
before Majuba. Wonder how the young un will lick his detachment into
shape."</p>
<p>Cottar turned up six weeks later, on foot, with his pupils. He never told
his experiences, but the men spoke enthusiastically, and fragments of it
leaked back to the colonel through sergeants, batmen, and the like.</p>
<p>There was great jealousy between the first and second detachments, but the
men united in adoring Cottar, and their way of showing it was by sparing
him all the trouble that men know how to make for an unloved officer. He
sought popularity as little as he had sought it at school, and therefore
it came to him. He favoured no one—not even when the company sloven
pulled the company cricket-match out of the fire with an unexpected
forty-three at the last moment. There was very little getting round him,
for he seemed to know by instinct exactly when and where to head off a
malingerer; but he did not forget that the difference between a dazed and
sulky junior of the upper school and a bewildered, browbeaten lump of a
private fresh from the depot was very small indeed. The sergeants, seeing
these things, told him secrets generally hid from young officers. His
words were quoted as barrack authority on bets in canteen and at tea; and
the veriest shrew of the corps, bursting with charges against other women
who had used the cooking-ranges out of turn, forbore to speak when Cottar,
as the regulations ordained, asked of a morning if there were "any
complaints."</p>
<p>"I'm full o' complaints," said Mrs. Corporal Morrison, "an' I'd kill
O'Halloran's fat sow of a wife any day, but ye know how it is. 'E puts 'is
head just inside the door, an' looks down 'is blessed nose so bashful, an'
'e whispers, 'Any complaints' Ye can't complain after that. I want to kiss
him. Some day I think I will. Heigh-ho! she'll be a lucky woman that gets
Young Innocence. See 'im now, girls. Do ye blame me?"</p>
<p>Cottar was cantering across to polo, and he looked a very satisfactory
figure of a man as he gave easily to the first excited bucks of his pony,
and slipped over a low mud wall to the practice-ground. There were more
than Mrs. Corporal Morrison who felt as she did. But Cottar was busy for
eleven hours of the day. He did not care to have his tennis spoiled by
petticoats in the court; and after one long afternoon at a garden-party,
he explained to his major that this sort of thing was "futile priffle,"
and the major laughed. Theirs was not a married mess, except for the
colonel's wife, and Cottar stood in awe of the good lady. She said "my
regiment," and the world knows what that means. None the less when they
wanted her to give away the prizes after a shooting-match, and she refused
because one of the prize-winners was married to a girl who had made a jest
of her behind her broad back, the mess ordered Cottar to "tackle her," in
his best calling-kit. This he did, simply and laboriously, and she gave
way altogether.</p>
<p>"She only wanted to know the facts of the case," he explained. "I just
told her, and she saw at once."</p>
<p>"Ye-es," said the adjutant. "I expect that's what she did. Comin' to the
Fusiliers' dance to-night, Galahad?"</p>
<p>"No, thanks. I've got a fight on with the major." The virtuous apprentice
sat up till midnight in the major's quarters, with a stop-watch and a pair
of compasses, shifting little painted lead-blocks about a four-inch map.</p>
<p>Then he turned in and slept the sleep of innocence, which is full of
healthy dreams. One peculiarity of his dreams he noticed at the beginning
of his second hot weather. Two or three times a month they duplicated or
ran in series. He would find himself sliding into dreamland by the same
road—a road that ran along a beach near a pile of brushwood. To the
right lay the sea, sometimes at full tide, sometimes withdrawn to the very
horizon; but he knew it for the same sea. By that road he would travel
over a swell of rising ground covered with short, withered grass, into
valleys of wonder and unreason. Beyond the ridge, which was crowned with
some sort of street-lamp, anything was possible; but up to the lamp it
seemed to him that he knew the road as well as he knew the parade-ground.
He learned to look forward to the place; for, once there, he was sure of a
good night's rest, and Indian hot weather can be rather trying. First,
shadowy under closing eyelids, would come the outline of the
brushwood-pile; next the white sand of the beach-road, almost overhanging
the black, changeful sea; then the turn inland and uphill to the single
light. When he was unrestful for any reason, he would tell himself how he
was sure to get there—sure to get there—if he shut his eyes
and surrendered to the drift of things. But one night after a foolishly
hard hour's polo (the thermometer was 94� in his quarters at ten o'clock),
sleep stood away from him altogether, though he did his best to find the
well-known road, the point where true sleep began. At last he saw the
brushwood-pile, and hurried along to the ridge, for behind him he felt was
the wide-awake, sultry world. He reached the lamp in safety, tingling with
drowsiness, when a policeman—a common country policeman—sprang
up before him and touched him on the shoulder ere he could dive into the
dim valley below. He was filled with terror,—the hopeless terror of
dreams,—for the policeman said, in the awful, distinct voice of
dream-people, "I am Policeman Day coming back from the City of Sleep. You
come with me." Georgie knew it was true—that just beyond him in the
valley lay the lights of the City of Sleep, where he would have been
sheltered, and that this Policeman-Thing had full power and authority to
head him back to miserable wakefulness. He found himself looking at the
moonlight on the wall, dripping with fright; and he never overcame that
horror, though he met the Policeman several times that hot weather, and
his coming was the forerunner of a bad night.</p>
<p>But other dreams-perfectly absurd ones-filled him with an incommunicable
delight. All those that he remembered began by the brushwood-pile. For
instance, he found a small clockwork steamer (he had noticed it many
nights before) lying by the sea-road, and stepped into it, whereupon it
moved with surpassing swiftness over an absolutely level sea. This was
glorious, for he felt he was exploring great matters; and it stopped by a
lily carved in stone, which, most naturally, floated on the water. Seeing
the lily was labelled "Hong-Kong," Georgie said: "Of course. This is
precisely what I expected Hong-Kong would be like. How magnificent!"
Thousands of miles farther on it halted at yet another stone lily,
labelled "Java."; and this, again, delighted him hugely, because he knew
that now he was at the world's end. But the little boat ran on and on till
it lay in a deep fresh-water lock, the sides of which were carven marble,
green with moss. Lilypads lay on the water, and reeds arched above. Some
one moved among the reeds—some one whom Georgie knew he had
travelled to this world's end to reach. Therefore everything was entirely
well with him. He was unspeakably happy, and vaulted over the ship's side
to find this person. When his feet touched that still water, it changed,
with the rustle of unrolling maps, to nothing less than a sixth quarter of
the globe, beyond the most remote imagining of man—a place where
islands were coloured yellow and blue, their lettering strung across their
faces. They gave on unknown seas, and Georgie's urgent desire was to
return swiftly across this floating atlas to known bearings. He told
himself repeatedly that it was no good to hurry; but still he hurried
desperately, and the islands slipped and slid under his feet; the straits
yawned and widened, till he found himself utterly lost in the world's
fourth dimension, with no hope of return. Yet only a little distance away
he could see the old world with the rivers and mountain-chains marked
according to the Sandhurst rules of mapmaking. Then that person for whom
he had come to the Lily Lock (that was its name) ran up across unexplored
territories, and showed him away. They fled hand in hand till they reached
a road that spanned ravines, and ran along the edge of precipices, and was
tunnelled through mountains. "This goes to our brushwood-pile," said his
companion; and all his trouble was at an end. He took a pony, because he
understood that this was the Thirty-Mile Ride and he must ride swiftly,
and raced through the clattering tunnels and round the curves, always
downhill, till he heard the sea to his left, and saw it raging under a
full moon, against sandy cliffs. It was heavy going, but he recognised the
nature of the country, the dark-purple downs inland, and the bents that
whistled in the wind. The road was eaten away in places, and the sea
lashed at him-black, foamless tongues of smooth and glossy rollers; but he
was sure that there was less danger from the sea than from "Them," whoever
"They" were, inland to his right. He knew, too, that he would be safe if
he could reach the down with the lamp on it. This came as he expected: he
saw the one light a mile ahead along the beach, dismounted, turned to the
right, walked quietly over to the brushwood-pile, found the little steamer
had returned to the beach whence he had unmoored it, and—must have
fallen asleep, for he could remember no more. "I'm gettin' the hang of the
geography of that place," he said to himself, as he shaved next morning.
"I must have made some sort of circle. Let's see. The Thirty-Mile Ride
(now how the deuce did I know it was called the Thirty-Mile, Ride?) joins
the sea-road beyond the first down where the lamp is. And that
atlas-country lies at the back of the Thirty-Mile Ride, somewhere out to
the right beyond the hills and tunnels. Rummy things, dreams. 'Wonder what
makes mine fit into each other so?"</p>
<p>He continued on his solid way through the recurring duties of the seasons.
The regiment was shifted to another station, and he enjoyed road-marching
for two months, with a good deal of mixed shooting thrown in, and when
they reached their new cantonments he became a member of the local Tent
Club, and chased the mighty boar on horseback with a short stabbing-spear.
There he met the mahseer of the Poonch, beside whom the tarpon is as a
herring, and he who lands him can say that he is a fisherman. This was as
new and as fascinating as the big-game shooting that fell to his portion,
when he had himself photographed for the mother's benefit, sitting on the
flank of his first tiger.</p>
<p>Then the adjutant was promoted, and Cottar rejoiced with him, for he
admired the adjutant greatly, and marvelled who might be big enough to
fill his place; so that he nearly collapsed when the mantle fell on his
own shoulders, and the colonel said a few sweet things that made him
blush. An adjutant's position does not differ materially from that of head
of the school, and Cottar stood in the same relation to the colonel as he
had to his old Head in England. Only, tempers wear out in hot weather, and
things were said and done that tried him sorely, and he made glorious
blunders, from which the regimental sergeant-major pulled him with a loyal
soul and a shut mouth. Slovens and incompetents raged against him; the
weak-minded strove to lure him from the ways of justice; the small-minded—yea,
men whom Cottar believed would never do "things no fellow can do"—imputed
motives mean and circuitous to actions that he had not spent a thought
upon; and he tasted injustice, and it made him very sick. But his
consolation came on parade, when he looked down the full companies, and
reflected how few were in hospital or cells, and wondered when the time
would come to try the machine of his love and labour.</p>
<p>But they needed and expected the whole of a man's working-day, and maybe
three or four hours of the night. Curiously enough, he never dreamed about
the regiment as he was popularly supposed to. The mind, set free from the
day's doings, generally ceased working altogether, or, if it moved at all,
carried him along the old beach-road to the downs, the lamp-post, and,
once in a while, to terrible Policeman Day. The second time that he
returned to the world's lost continent (this was a dream that repeated
itself again and again, with variations, on the same ground) he knew that
if he only sat still the person from the Lily Lock would help him, and he
was not disappointed. Sometimes he was trapped in mines of vast depth
hollowed out of the heart of the world, where men in torment chanted
echoing songs; and he heard this person coming along through the
galleries, and everything was made safe and delightful. They met again in
low-roofed Indian railway-carriages that halted in a garden surrounded by
gilt-and-green railings, where a mob of stony white people, all
unfriendly, sat at breakfast-tables covered with roses, and separated
Georgie from his companion, while underground voices sang deep-voiced
songs. Georgie was filled with enormous despair till they two met again.
They foregathered in the middle of an endless, hot tropic night, and crept
into a huge house that stood, he knew, somewhere north of the
railway-station where the people ate among the roses. It was surrounded
with gardens, all moist and dripping; and in one room, reached through
leagues of whitewashed passages, a Sick Thing lay in bed. Now the least
noise, Georgie knew, would unchain some waiting horror, and his companion
knew it, too; but when their eyes met across the bed, Georgie was
disgusted to see that she was a child—a little girl in strapped
shoes, with her black hair combed back from her forehead.</p>
<p>"What disgraceful folly!" he thought. "Now she could do nothing whatever
if Its head came off."</p>
<p>Then the Thing coughed, and the ceiling shattered down in plaster on the
mosquito-netting, and "They" rushed in from all quarters. He dragged the
child through the stifling garden, voices chanting behind them, and they
rode the Thirty-Mile Ride under whip and spur along the sandy beach by the
booming sea, till they came to the downs, the lamp-post, and the
brushwood-pile, which was safety. Very often dreams would break up about
them in this fashion, and they would be separated, to endure awful
adventures alone. But the most amusing times were when he and she had a
clear understanding that it was all make-believe, and walked through
mile-wide roaring rivers without even taking off their shoes, or set light
to populous cities to see how they would burn, and were rude as any
children to the vague shadows met in their rambles. Later in the night
they were sure to suffer for this, either at the hands of the Railway
People eating among the roses, or in the tropic uplands at the far end of
the Thirty-Mile Ride. Together, this did no much affright them; but often
Georgie would hear her shrill cry of "Boy! Boy!" half a world away, and
hurry to her rescue before "They" maltreated her.</p>
<p>He and she explored the dark-purple downs as far inland from the
brushwood-pile as they dared, but that was always a dangerous matter. The
interior was filled with "Them," and "They" went about singing in the
hollows, and Georgie and she felt safer on or near the seaboard. So
thoroughly had he come to know the place of his dreams that even waking he
accepted it as a real country, and made a rough sketch of it. He kept his
own counsel, of course; but the permanence of the land puzzled him. His
ordinary dreams were as formless and as fleeting as any healthy dreams
could be, but once at the brushwood-pile he moved within known limits and
could see where he was going. There were months at a time when nothing
notable crossed his sleep. Then the dreams would come in a batch of five
or six, and next morning the map that he kept in his writing case would be
written up to date, for Georgie was a most methodical person. There was,
indeed, a danger—his seniors said so—of his developing into a
regular "Auntie Fuss" of an adjutant, and when an officer once takes to
old-maidism there is more hope for the virgin of seventy than for him.</p>
<p>But fate sent the change that was needed, in the shape of a little winter
campaign on the Border, which, after the manner of little campaigns,
flashed out into a very ugly war; and Cottar's regiment was chosen among
the first.</p>
<p>"Now," said a major, "this'll shake the cobwebs out of us all—especially
you, Galahad; and we can see what your hen-with-one-chick attitude has
done for the regiment."</p>
<p>Cottar nearly wept with joy as the campaign went forward. They were fit—physically
fit beyond the other troops; they were good children in camp, wet or dry,
fed or unfed; and they followed their officers with the quick suppleness
and trained obedience of a first-class foot-ball fifteen. They were cut
off from their apology for a base, and cheerfully cut their way back to it
again; they crowned and cleaned out hills full of the enemy with the
precision of well-broken dogs of chase; and in the hour of retreat, when,
hampered with the sick and wounded of the column, they were persecuted
down eleven miles of waterless valley, they, serving as rearguard, covered
themselves with a great glory in the eyes of fellow-professionals. Any
regiment can advance, but few know how to retreat with a sting in the
tail. Then they turned to made roads, most often under fire, and
dismantled some inconvenient mud redoubts. They were the last corps to be
withdrawn when the rubbish of the campaign was all swept up; and after a
month in standing camp, which tries morals severely, they departed to
their own place in column of fours, singing:</p>
<p>"'E's goin' to do without 'em—<br/>
Don't want 'em any more;<br/>
'E's goin' to do without 'em,<br/>
As 'e's often done before.<br/>
'E's goin' to be a martyr<br/>
On a 'ighly novel plan,<br/>
An' all the boys and girls will say,<br/>
'Ow! what a nice young man-man-man!<br/>
Ow! what a nice young man!'"<br/></p>
<p>There came out a "Gazette" in which Cottar found that he had been behaving
with "courage and coolness and discretion" in all his capacities; that he
had assisted the wounded under fire, and blown in a gate, also under fire.
Net result, his captaincy and a brevet majority, coupled with the
Distinguished Service Order.</p>
<p>As to his wounded, he explained that they were both heavy men, whom he
could lift more easily than any one else. "Otherwise, of course, I should
have sent out one of my men; and, of course, about that gate business, we
were safe the minute we were well under the walls." But this did not
prevent his men from cheering him furiously whenever they saw him, or the
mess from giving him a dinner on the eve of his departure to England. (A
year's leave was among the things he had "snaffled out of the campaign," I
to use his own words.) The doctor, who had taken quite as much as was good
for him, quoted poetry about "a good blade carving the casques of men,"
and so on, and everybody told Cottar that he was an excellent person; but
when he rose to make his maiden speech they shouted so that he was
understood to say, "It isn't any use tryin' to speak with you chaps
rottin' me like this. Let's have some pool."</p>
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