<h2>CHAPTER I</h2>
<p>You must go back with me to the autumn of 1827.</p>
<p>My father, as you know, was a sort of gentleman farmer in
—shire; and I, by his express desire, succeeded him in the
same quiet occupation, not very willingly, for ambition urged me
to higher aims, and self-conceit assured me that, in disregarding
its voice, I was burying my talent in the earth, and hiding my
light under a bushel. My mother had done her utmost to
persuade me that I was capable of great achievements; but my
father, who thought ambition was the surest road to ruin, and
change but another word for destruction, would listen to no
scheme for bettering either my own condition, or that of my
fellow mortals. He assured me it was all rubbish, and
exhorted me, with his dying breath, to continue in the good old
way, to follow his steps, and those of his father before him, and
let my highest ambition be to walk honestly through the world,
looking neither to the right hand nor to the left, and to
transmit the paternal acres to my children in, at least, as
flourishing a condition as he left them to me.</p>
<p>‘Well!—an honest and industrious farmer is one of
the most useful members of society; and if I devote my talents to
the cultivation of my farm, and the improvement of agriculture in
general, I shall thereby benefit, not only my own immediate
connections and dependants, but, in some degree, mankind at
large:—hence I shall not have lived in vain.’
With such reflections as these I was endeavouring to console
myself, as I plodded home from the fields, one cold, damp, cloudy
evening towards the close of October. But the gleam of a
bright red fire through the parlour window had more effect in
cheering my spirits, and rebuking my thankless repinings, than
all the sage reflections and good resolutions I had forced my
mind to frame;—for I was young then, remember—only
four-and-twenty—and had not acquired half the rule over my
own spirit that I now possess—trifling as that may be.</p>
<p>However, that haven of bliss must not be entered till I had
exchanged my miry boots for a clean pair of shoes, and my rough
surtout for a respectable coat, and made myself generally
presentable before decent society; for my mother, with all her
kindness, was vastly particular on certain points.</p>
<p>In ascending to my room I was met upon the stairs by a smart,
pretty girl of nineteen, with a tidy, dumpy figure, a round face,
bright, blooming cheeks, glossy, clustering curls, and little
merry brown eyes. I need not tell you this was my sister
Rose. She is, I know, a comely matron still, and,
doubtless, no less lovely—in your eyes—than on the
happy day you first beheld her. Nothing told me then that
she, a few years hence, would be the wife of one entirely unknown
to me as yet, but destined hereafter to become a closer friend
than even herself, more intimate than that unmannerly lad of
seventeen, by whom I was collared in the passage, on coming down,
and well-nigh jerked off my equilibrium, and who, in correction
for his impudence, received a resounding whack over the sconce,
which, however, sustained no serious injury from the infliction;
as, besides being more than commonly thick, it was protected by a
redundant shock of short, reddish curls, that my mother called
auburn.</p>
<p>On entering the parlour we found that honoured lady seated in
her arm-chair at the fireside, working away at her knitting,
according to her usual custom, when she had nothing else to
do. She had swept the hearth, and made a bright blazing
fire for our reception; the servant had just brought in the
tea-tray; and Rose was producing the sugar-basin and tea-caddy
from the cupboard in the black oak side-board, that shone like
polished ebony, in the cheerful parlour twilight.</p>
<p>‘Well! here they both are,’ cried my mother,
looking round upon us without retarding the motion of her nimble
fingers and glittering needles. ‘Now shut the door,
and come to the fire, while Rose gets the tea ready; I’m
sure you must be starved;—and tell me what you’ve
been about all day;—I like to know what my children have
been about.’</p>
<p>‘I’ve been breaking in the grey colt—no easy
business that—directing the ploughing of the last wheat
stubble—for the ploughboy has not the sense to direct
himself—and carrying out a plan for the extensive and
efficient draining of the low meadowlands.’</p>
<p>‘That’s my brave boy!—and Fergus, what have
you been doing?’</p>
<p>‘Badger-baiting.’</p>
<p>And here he proceeded to give a particular account of his
sport, and the respective traits of prowess evinced by the badger
and the dogs; my mother pretending to listen with deep attention,
and watching his animated countenance with a degree of maternal
admiration I thought highly disproportioned to its object.</p>
<p>‘It’s time you should be doing something else,
Fergus,’ said I, as soon as a momentary pause in his
narration allowed me to get in a word.</p>
<p>‘What can I do?’ replied he; ‘my mother
won’t let me go to sea or enter the army; and I’m
determined to do nothing else—except make myself such a
nuisance to you all, that you will be thankful to get rid of me
on any terms.’</p>
<p>Our parent soothingly stroked his stiff, short curls. He
growled, and tried to look sulky, and then we all took our seats
at the table, in obedience to the thrice-repeated summons of
Rose.</p>
<p>‘Now take your tea,’ said she; ‘and
I’ll tell you what I’ve been doing. I’ve
been to call on the Wilsons; and it’s a thousand pities you
didn’t go with me, Gilbert, for Eliza Millward was
there!’</p>
<p>‘Well! what of her?’</p>
<p>‘Oh, nothing!—I’m not going to tell you
about her;—only that she’s a nice, amusing little
thing, when she is in a merry humour, and I shouldn’t mind
calling her—’</p>
<p>‘Hush, hush, my dear! your brother has no such
idea!’ whispered my mother earnestly, holding up her
finger.</p>
<p>‘Well,’ resumed Rose; ‘I was going to tell
you an important piece of news I heard there—I have been
bursting with it ever since. You know it was reported a
month ago, that somebody was going to take Wildfell
Hall—and—what do you think? It has actually
been inhabited above a week!—and we never knew!’</p>
<p>‘Impossible!’ cried my mother.</p>
<p>‘Preposterous!!!’ shrieked Fergus.</p>
<p>‘It has indeed!—and by a single lady!’</p>
<p>‘Good gracious, my dear! The place is in
ruins!’</p>
<p>‘She has had two or three rooms made habitable; and
there she lives, all alone—except an old woman for a
servant!’</p>
<p>‘Oh, dear! that spoils it—I’d hoped she was
a witch,’ observed Fergus, while carving his inch-thick
slice of bread and butter. ‘Nonsense, Fergus!
But isn’t it strange, mamma?’</p>
<p>‘Strange! I can hardly believe it.’</p>
<p>‘But you may believe it; for Jane Wilson has seen
her. She went with her mother, who, of course, when she
heard of a stranger being in the neighbourhood, would be on pins
and needles till she had seen her and got all she could out of
her. She is called Mrs. Graham, and she is in
mourning—not widow’s weeds, but slightish
mourning—and she is quite young, they say,—not above
five or six and twenty,—but so reserved! They tried
all they could to find out who she was and where she came from,
and, all about her, but neither Mrs. Wilson, with her
pertinacious and impertinent home-thrusts, nor Miss Wilson, with
her skilful manoeuvring, could manage to elicit a single
satisfactory answer, or even a casual remark, or chance
expression calculated to allay their curiosity, or throw the
faintest ray of light upon her history, circumstances, or
connections. Moreover, she was barely civil to them, and
evidently better pleased to say ‘good-by,’ than
‘how do you do.’ But Eliza Millward says her father
intends to call upon her soon, to offer some pastoral advice,
which he fears she needs, as, though she is known to have entered
the neighbourhood early last week, she did not make her
appearance at church on Sunday; and she—Eliza, that
is—will beg to accompany him, and is sure she can succeed
in wheedling something out of her—you know, Gilbert, she
can do anything. And we should call some time, mamma;
it’s only proper, you know.’</p>
<p>‘Of course, my dear. Poor thing! How lonely
she must feel!’</p>
<p>‘And pray, be quick about it; and mind you bring me word
how much sugar she puts in her tea, and what sort of caps and
aprons she wears, and all about it; for I don’t know how I
can live till I know,’ said Fergus, very gravely.</p>
<p>But if he intended the speech to be hailed as a master-stroke
of wit, he signally failed, for nobody laughed. However, he
was not much disconcerted at that; for when he had taken a
mouthful of bread and butter and was about to swallow a gulp of
tea, the humour of the thing burst upon him with such
irresistible force, that he was obliged to jump up from the
table, and rush snorting and choking from the room; and a minute
after, was heard screaming in fearful agony in the garden.</p>
<p>As for me, I was hungry, and contented myself with silently
demolishing the tea, ham, and toast, while my mother and sister
went on talking, and continued to discuss the apparent or
non-apparent circumstances, and probable or improbable history of
the mysterious lady; but I must confess that, after my
brother’s misadventure, I once or twice raised the cup to
my lips, and put it down again without daring to taste the
contents, lest I should injure my dignity by a similar
explosion.</p>
<p>The next day my mother and Rose hastened to pay their
compliments to the fair recluse; and came back but little wiser
than they went; though my mother declared she did not regret the
journey, for if she had not gained much good, she flattered
herself she had imparted some, and that was better: she had given
some useful advice, which, she hoped, would not be thrown away;
for Mrs. Graham, though she said little to any purpose, and
appeared somewhat self-opinionated, seemed not incapable of
reflection,—though she did not know where she had been all
her life, poor thing, for she betrayed a lamentable ignorance on
certain points, and had not even the sense to be ashamed of
it.</p>
<p>‘On what points, mother?’ asked I.</p>
<p>‘On household matters, and all the little niceties of
cookery, and such things, that every lady ought to be familiar
with, whether she be required to make a practical use of her
knowledge or not. I gave her some useful pieces of
information, however, and several excellent receipts, the value
of which she evidently could not appreciate, for she begged I
would not trouble myself, as she lived in such a plain, quiet
way, that she was sure she should never make use of them.
“No matter, my dear,” said I; “it is what every
respectable female ought to know;—and besides, though you
are alone now, you will not be always so; you have been married,
and probably—I might say almost certainly—will be
again.” “You are mistaken there,
ma’am,” said she, almost haughtily; “I am
certain I never shall.”—But I told her I knew
better.’</p>
<p>‘Some romantic young widow, I suppose,’ said I,
‘come there to end her days in solitude, and mourn in
secret for the dear departed—but it won’t last
long.’</p>
<p>‘No, I think not,’ observed Rose; ‘for she
didn’t seem very disconsolate after all; and she’s
excessively pretty—handsome rather—you must see her,
Gilbert; you will call her a perfect beauty, though you could
hardly pretend to discover a resemblance between her and Eliza
Millward.’</p>
<p>‘Well, I can imagine many faces more beautiful than
Eliza’s, though not more charming. I allow she has
small claims to perfection; but then, I maintain that, if she
were more perfect, she would be less interesting.’</p>
<p>‘And so you prefer her faults to other people’s
perfections?’</p>
<p>‘Just so—saving my mother’s
presence.’</p>
<p>‘Oh, my dear Gilbert, what nonsense you talk!—I
know you don’t mean it; it’s quite out of the
question,’ said my mother, getting up, and bustling out of
the room, under pretence of household business, in order to
escape the contradiction that was trembling on my tongue.</p>
<p>After that Rose favoured me with further particulars
respecting Mrs. Graham. Her appearance, manners, and dress,
and the very furniture of the room she inhabited, were all set
before me, with rather more clearness and precision than I cared
to see them; but, as I was not a very attentive listener, I could
not repeat the description if I would.</p>
<p>The next day was Saturday; and, on Sunday, everybody wondered
whether or not the fair unknown would profit by the vicar’s
remonstrance, and come to church. I confess I looked with
some interest myself towards the old family pew, appertaining to
Wildfell Hall, where the faded crimson cushions and lining had
been unpressed and unrenewed so many years, and the grim
escutcheons, with their lugubrious borders of rusty black cloth,
frowned so sternly from the wall above.</p>
<p>And there I beheld a tall, lady-like figure, clad in
black. Her face was towards me, and there was something in
it which, once seen, invited me to look again. Her hair was
raven black, and disposed in long glossy ringlets, a style of
coiffure rather unusual in those days, but always graceful and
becoming; her complexion was clear and pale; her eyes I could not
see, for, being bent upon her prayer-book, they were concealed by
their drooping lids and long black lashes, but the brows above
were expressive and well defined; the forehead was lofty and
intellectual, the nose, a perfect aquiline and the features, in
general, unexceptionable—only there was a slight hollowness
about the cheeks and eyes, and the lips, though finely formed,
were a little too thin, a little too firmly compressed, and had
something about them that betokened, I thought, no very soft or
amiable temper; and I said in my heart—‘I would
rather admire you from this distance, fair lady, than be the
partner of your home.’</p>
<p>Just then she happened to raise her eyes, and they met mine; I
did not choose to withdraw my gaze, and she turned again to her
book, but with a momentary, indefinable expression of quiet
scorn, that was inexpressibly provoking to me.</p>
<p>‘She thinks me an impudent puppy,’ thought
I. ‘Humph!—she shall change her mind before
long, if I think it worth while.’</p>
<p>But then it flashed upon me that these were very improper
thoughts for a place of worship, and that my behaviour, on the
present occasion, was anything but what it ought to be.
Previous, however, to directing my mind to the service, I glanced
round the church to see if any one had been observing
me;—but no,—all, who were not attending to their
prayer-books, were attending to the strange lady,—my good
mother and sister among the rest, and Mrs. Wilson and her
daughter; and even Eliza Millward was slily glancing from the
corners of her eyes towards the object of general
attraction. Then she glanced at me, simpered a little, and
blushed, modestly looked at her prayer-book, and endeavoured to
compose her features.</p>
<p>Here I was transgressing again; and this time I was made
sensible of it by a sudden dig in the ribs, from the elbow of my
pert brother. For the present, I could only resent the
insult by pressing my foot upon his toes, deferring further
vengeance till we got out of church.</p>
<p>Now, Halford, before I close this letter, I’ll tell you
who Eliza Millward was: she was the vicar’s younger
daughter, and a very engaging little creature, for whom I felt no
small degree of partiality;—and she knew it, though I had
never come to any direct explanation, and had no definite
intention of so doing, for my mother, who maintained there was no
one good enough for me within twenty miles round, could not bear
the thoughts of my marrying that insignificant little thing, who,
in addition to her numerous other disqualifications, had not
twenty pounds to call her own. Eliza’s figure was at
once slight and plump, her face small, and nearly as round as my
sister’s,—complexion, something similar to hers, but
more delicate and less decidedly blooming,—nose,
retroussé,—features, generally irregular; and,
altogether, she was rather charming than pretty. But her
eyes—I must not forget those remarkable features, for
therein her chief attraction lay—in outward aspect at
least;—they were long and narrow in shape, the irids black,
or very dark brown, the expression various, and ever changing,
but always either preternaturally—I had almost said
diabolically—wicked, or irresistibly bewitching—often
both. Her voice was gentle and childish, her tread light
and soft as that of a cat:—but her manners more frequently
resembled those of a pretty playful kitten, that is now pert and
roguish, now timid and demure, according to its own sweet
will.</p>
<p>Her sister, Mary, was several years older, several inches
taller, and of a larger, coarser build—a plain, quiet,
sensible girl, who had patiently nursed their mother, through her
last long, tedious illness, and been the housekeeper, and family
drudge, from thence to the present time. She was trusted
and valued by her father, loved and courted by all dogs, cats,
children, and poor people, and slighted and neglected by
everybody else.</p>
<p>The Reverend Michael Millward himself was a tall, ponderous
elderly gentleman, who placed a shovel hat above his large,
square, massive-featured face, carried a stout walking-stick in
his hand, and incased his still powerful limbs in knee-breeches
and gaiters,—or black silk stockings on state
occasions. He was a man of fixed principles, strong
prejudices, and regular habits, intolerant of dissent in any
shape, acting under a firm conviction that his opinions were
always right, and whoever differed from them must be either most
deplorably ignorant, or wilfully blind.</p>
<p>In childhood, I had always been accustomed to regard him with
a feeling of reverential awe—but lately, even now,
surmounted, for, though he had a fatherly kindness for the
well-behaved, he was a strict disciplinarian, and had often
sternly reproved our juvenile failings and peccadilloes; and
moreover, in those days, whenever he called upon our parents, we
had to stand up before him, and say our catechism, or repeat,
‘How doth the little busy bee,’ or some other hymn,
or—worse than all—be questioned about his last text,
and the heads of the discourse, which we never could
remember. Sometimes, the worthy gentleman would reprove my
mother for being over-indulgent to her sons, with a reference to
old Eli, or David and Absalom, which was particularly galling to
her feelings; and, very highly as she respected him, and all his
sayings, I once heard her exclaim, ‘I wish to goodness he
had a son himself! He wouldn’t be so ready with his
advice to other people then;—he’d see what it is to
have a couple of boys to keep in order.’</p>
<p>He had a laudable care for his own bodily health—kept
very early hours, regularly took a walk before breakfast, was
vastly particular about warm and dry clothing, had never been
known to preach a sermon without previously swallowing a raw
egg—albeit he was gifted with good lungs and a powerful
voice,—and was, generally, extremely particular about what
he ate and drank, though by no means abstemious, and having a
mode of dietary peculiar to himself,—being a great despiser
of tea and such slops, and a patron of malt liquors, bacon and
eggs, ham, hung beef, and other strong meats, which agreed well
enough with his digestive organs, and therefore were maintained
by him to be good and wholesome for everybody, and confidently
recommended to the most delicate convalescents or dyspeptics,
who, if they failed to derive the promised benefit from his
prescriptions, were told it was because they had not persevered,
and if they complained of inconvenient results therefrom, were
assured it was all fancy.</p>
<p>I will just touch upon two other persons whom I have
mentioned, and then bring this long letter to a close.
These are Mrs. Wilson and her daughter. The former was the
widow of a substantial farmer, a narrow-minded, tattling old
gossip, whose character is not worth describing. She had
two sons, Robert, a rough countrified farmer, and Richard, a
retiring, studious young man, who was studying the classics with
the vicar’s assistance, preparing for college, with a view
to enter the church.</p>
<p>Their sister Jane was a young lady of some talents, and more
ambition. She had, at her own desire, received a regular
boarding-school education, superior to what any member of the
family had obtained before. She had taken the polish well,
acquired considerable elegance of manners, quite lost her
provincial accent, and could boast of more accomplishments than
the vicar’s daughters. She was considered a beauty
besides; but never for a moment could she number me amongst her
admirers. She was about six and twenty, rather tall and
very slender, her hair was neither chestnut nor auburn, but a
most decided bright, light red; her complexion was remarkably
fair and brilliant, her head small, neck long, chin well turned,
but very short, lips thin and red, eyes clear hazel, quick, and
penetrating, but entirely destitute of poetry or feeling.
She had, or might have had, many suitors in her own rank of life,
but scornfully repulsed or rejected them all; for none but a
gentleman could please her refined taste, and none but a rich one
could satisfy her soaring ambition. One gentleman there
was, from whom she had lately received some rather pointed
attentions, and upon whose heart, name, and fortune, it was
whispered, she had serious designs. This was Mr. Lawrence,
the young squire, whose family had formerly occupied Wildfell
Hall, but had deserted it, some fifteen years ago, for a more
modern and commodious mansion in the neighbouring parish.</p>
<p>Now, Halford, I bid you adieu for the present. This is
the first instalment of my debt. If the coin suits you,
tell me so, and I’ll send you the rest at my leisure: if
you would rather remain my creditor than stuff your purse with
such ungainly, heavy pieces,—tell me still, and I’ll
pardon your bad taste, and willingly keep the treasure to
myself.</p>
<p style="text-align: right">Yours immutably,<br/>
<span class="smcap">Gilbert Markham</span>.</p>
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