<h2>CHAPTER XIII</h2>
<p>For two months the fugitives remained absent; in those two months, Mrs. Linton
encountered and conquered the worst shock of what was denominated a brain
fever. No mother could have nursed an only child more devotedly than Edgar
tended her. Day and night he was watching, and patiently enduring all the
annoyances that irritable nerves and a shaken reason could inflict; and, though
Kenneth remarked that what he saved from the grave would only recompense his
care by forming the source of constant future anxiety—in fact, that his
health and strength were being sacrificed to preserve a mere ruin of
humanity—he knew no limits in gratitude and joy when Catherine’s
life was declared out of danger; and hour after hour he would sit beside her,
tracing the gradual return to bodily health, and flattering his too sanguine
hopes with the illusion that her mind would settle back to its right balance
also, and she would soon be entirely her former self.</p>
<p>The first time she left her chamber was at the commencement of the following
March. Mr. Linton had put on her pillow, in the morning, a handful of golden
crocuses; her eye, long stranger to any gleam of pleasure, caught them in
waking, and shone delighted as she gathered them eagerly together.</p>
<p>“These are the earliest flowers at the Heights,” she exclaimed.
“They remind me of soft thaw winds, and warm sunshine, and nearly melted
snow. Edgar, is there not a south wind, and is not the snow almost gone?”</p>
<p>“The snow is quite gone down here, darling,” replied her husband;
“and I only see two white spots on the whole range of moors: the sky is
blue, and the larks are singing, and the becks and brooks are all brim full.
Catherine, last spring at this time, I was longing to have you under this roof;
now, I wish you were a mile or two up those hills: the air blows so sweetly, I
feel that it would cure you.”</p>
<p>“I shall never be there but once more,” said the invalid;
“and then you’ll leave me, and I shall remain for ever. Next spring
you’ll long again to have me under this roof, and you’ll look back
and think you were happy to-day.”</p>
<p>Linton lavished on her the kindest caresses, and tried to cheer her by the
fondest words; but, vaguely regarding the flowers, she let the tears collect on
her lashes and stream down her cheeks unheeding. We knew she was really better,
and, therefore, decided that long confinement to a single place produced much
of this despondency, and it might be partially removed by a change of scene.
The master told me to light a fire in the many-weeks’ deserted parlour,
and to set an easy-chair in the sunshine by the window; and then he brought her
down, and she sat a long while enjoying the genial heat, and, as we expected,
revived by the objects round her: which, though familiar, were free from the
dreary associations investing her hated sick chamber. By evening she seemed
greatly exhausted; yet no arguments could persuade her to return to that
apartment, and I had to arrange the parlour sofa for her bed, till another room
could be prepared. To obviate the fatigue of mounting and descending the
stairs, we fitted up this, where you lie at present—on the same floor
with the parlour; and she was soon strong enough to move from one to the other,
leaning on Edgar’s arm. Ah, I thought myself, she might recover, so
waited on as she was. And there was double cause to desire it, for on her
existence depended that of another: we cherished the hope that in a little
while Mr. Linton’s heart would be gladdened, and his lands secured from a
stranger’s gripe, by the birth of an heir.</p>
<p>I should mention that Isabella sent to her brother, some six weeks from her
departure, a short note, announcing her marriage with Heathcliff. It appeared
dry and cold; but at the bottom was dotted in with pencil an obscure apology,
and an entreaty for kind remembrance and reconciliation, if her proceeding had
offended him: asserting that she could not help it then, and being done, she
had now no power to repeal it. Linton did not reply to this, I believe; and, in
a fortnight more, I got a long letter, which I considered odd, coming from the
pen of a bride just out of the honeymoon. I’ll read it: for I keep it
yet. Any relic of the dead is precious, if they were valued living.</p>
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<p>D<small>EAR</small> E<small>LLEN</small>, it begins,—I came last night to
Wuthering Heights, and heard, for the first time, that Catherine has been, and
is yet, very ill. I must not write to her, I suppose, and my brother is either
too angry or too distressed to answer what I sent him. Still, I must write to
somebody, and the only choice left me is you.</p>
<p>Inform Edgar that I’d give the world to see his face again—that my
heart returned to Thrushcross Grange in twenty-four hours after I left it, and
is there at this moment, full of warm feelings for him, and Catherine! <i>I
can’t follow it though</i>—(these words are underlined)—they
need not expect me, and they may draw what conclusions they please; taking
care, however, to lay nothing at the door of my weak will or deficient
affection.</p>
<p>The remainder of the letter is for yourself alone. I want to ask you two
questions: the first is,—How did you contrive to preserve the common
sympathies of human nature when you resided here? I cannot recognise any
sentiment which those around share with me.</p>
<p>The second question I have great interest in; it is this—Is Mr.
Heathcliff a man? If so, is he mad? And if not, is he a devil? I
sha’n’t tell my reasons for making this inquiry; but I beseech you
to explain, if you can, what I have married: that is, when you call to see me;
and you must call, Ellen, very soon. Don’t write, but come, and bring me
something from Edgar.</p>
<p>Now, you shall hear how I have been received in my new home, as I am led to
imagine the Heights will be. It is to amuse myself that I dwell on such
subjects as the lack of external comforts: they never occupy my thoughts,
except at the moment when I miss them. I should laugh and dance for joy, if I
found their absence was the total of my miseries, and the rest was an unnatural
dream!</p>
<p>The sun set behind the Grange as we turned on to the moors; by that, I judged
it to be six o’clock; and my companion halted half an hour, to inspect
the park, and the gardens, and, probably, the place itself, as well as he
could; so it was dark when we dismounted in the paved yard of the farmhouse,
and your old fellow-servant, Joseph, issued out to receive us by the light of a
dip candle. He did it with a courtesy that redounded to his credit. His first
act was to elevate his torch to a level with my face, squint malignantly,
project his under-lip, and turn away. Then he took the two horses, and led them
into the stables; reappearing for the purpose of locking the outer gate, as if
we lived in an ancient castle.</p>
<p>Heathcliff stayed to speak to him, and I entered the kitchen—a dingy,
untidy hole; I daresay you would not know it, it is so changed since it was in
your charge. By the fire stood a ruffianly child, strong in limb and dirty in
garb, with a look of Catherine in his eyes and about his mouth.</p>
<p>“This is Edgar’s legal nephew,” I reflected—“mine
in a manner; I must shake hands, and—yes—I must kiss him. It is
right to establish a good understanding at the beginning.”</p>
<p>I approached, and, attempting to take his chubby fist, said—“How do
you do, my dear?”</p>
<p>He replied in a jargon I did not comprehend.</p>
<p>“Shall you and I be friends, Hareton?” was my next essay at
conversation.</p>
<p>An oath, and a threat to set Throttler on me if I did not “frame
off” rewarded my perseverance.</p>
<p>“Hey, Throttler, lad!” whispered the little wretch, rousing a
half-bred bull-dog from its lair in a corner. “Now, wilt thou be
ganging?” he asked authoritatively.</p>
<p>Love for my life urged a compliance; I stepped over the threshold to wait till
the others should enter. Mr. Heathcliff was nowhere visible; and Joseph, whom I
followed to the stables, and requested to accompany me in, after staring and
muttering to himself, screwed up his nose and replied—“Mim! mim!
mim! Did iver Christian body hear aught like it? Mincing un’ munching!
How can I tell whet ye say?”</p>
<p>“I say, I wish you to come with me into the house!” I cried,
thinking him deaf, yet highly disgusted at his rudeness.</p>
<p>“None o’ me! I getten summut else to do,” he answered, and
continued his work; moving his lantern jaws meanwhile, and surveying my dress
and countenance (the former a great deal too fine, but the latter, I’m
sure, as sad as he could desire) with sovereign contempt.</p>
<p>I walked round the yard, and through a wicket, to another door, at which I took
the liberty of knocking, in hopes some more civil servant might show himself.
After a short suspense, it was opened by a tall, gaunt man, without
neckerchief, and otherwise extremely slovenly; his features were lost in masses
of shaggy hair that hung on his shoulders; and <i>his</i> eyes, too, were like
a ghostly Catherine’s with all their beauty annihilated.</p>
<p>“What’s your business here?” he demanded, grimly. “Who
are you?”</p>
<p>“My name <i>was</i> Isabella Linton,” I replied.
“You’ve seen me before, sir. I’m lately married to Mr.
Heathcliff, and he has brought me here—I suppose by your
permission.”</p>
<p>“Is he come back, then?” asked the hermit, glaring like a hungry
wolf.</p>
<p>“Yes—we came just now,” I said; “but he left me by the
kitchen door; and when I would have gone in, your little boy played sentinel
over the place, and frightened me off by the help of a bull-dog.”</p>
<p>“It’s well the hellish villain has kept his word!” growled my
future host, searching the darkness beyond me in expectation of discovering
Heathcliff; and then he indulged in a soliloquy of execrations, and threats of
what he would have done had the “fiend” deceived him.</p>
<p>I repented having tried this second entrance, and was almost inclined to slip
away before he finished cursing, but ere I could execute that intention, he
ordered me in, and shut and re-fastened the door. There was a great fire, and
that was all the light in the huge apartment, whose floor had grown a uniform
grey; and the once brilliant pewter-dishes, which used to attract my gaze when
I was a girl, partook of a similar obscurity, created by tarnish and dust. I
inquired whether I might call the maid, and be conducted to a bedroom! Mr.
Earnshaw vouchsafed no answer. He walked up and down, with his hands in his
pockets, apparently quite forgetting my presence; and his abstraction was
evidently so deep, and his whole aspect so misanthropical, that I shrank from
disturbing him again.</p>
<p>You’ll not be surprised, Ellen, at my feeling particularly cheerless,
seated in worse than solitude on that inhospitable hearth, and remembering that
four miles distant lay my delightful home, containing the only people I loved
on earth; and there might as well be the Atlantic to part us, instead of those
four miles: I could not overpass them! I questioned with myself—where
must I turn for comfort? and—mind you don’t tell Edgar, or
Catherine—above every sorrow beside, this rose pre-eminent: despair at
finding nobody who could or would be my ally against Heathcliff! I had sought
shelter at Wuthering Heights, almost gladly, because I was secured by that
arrangement from living alone with him; but he knew the people we were coming
amongst, and he did not fear their intermeddling.</p>
<p>I sat and thought a doleful time: the clock struck eight, and nine, and still
my companion paced to and fro, his head bent on his breast, and perfectly
silent, unless a groan or a bitter ejaculation forced itself out at intervals.
I listened to detect a woman’s voice in the house, and filled the interim
with wild regrets and dismal anticipations, which, at last, spoke audibly in
irrepressible sighing and weeping. I was not aware how openly I grieved, till
Earnshaw halted opposite, in his measured walk, and gave me a stare of
newly-awakened surprise. Taking advantage of his recovered attention, I
exclaimed—“I’m tired with my journey, and I want to go to
bed! Where is the maid-servant? Direct me to her, as she won’t come to
me!”</p>
<p>“We have none,” he answered; “you must wait on
yourself!”</p>
<p>“Where must I sleep, then?” I sobbed; I was beyond regarding
self-respect, weighed down by fatigue and wretchedness.</p>
<p>“Joseph will show you Heathcliff’s chamber,” said he;
“open that door—he’s in there.”</p>
<p>I was going to obey, but he suddenly arrested me, and added in the strangest
tone—“Be so good as to turn your lock, and draw your
bolt—don’t omit it!”</p>
<p>“Well!” I said. “But why, Mr. Earnshaw?” I did not
relish the notion of deliberately fastening myself in with Heathcliff.</p>
<p>“Look here!” he replied, pulling from his waistcoat a
curiously-constructed pistol, having a double-edged spring knife attached to
the barrel. “That’s a great tempter to a desperate man, is it not?
I cannot resist going up with this every night, and trying his door. If once I
find it open he’s done for; I do it invariably, even though the minute
before I have been recalling a hundred reasons that should make me refrain: it
is some devil that urges me to thwart my own schemes by killing him. You fight
against that devil for love as long as you may; when the time comes, not all
the angels in heaven shall save him!”</p>
<p>I surveyed the weapon inquisitively. A hideous notion struck me: how powerful I
should be possessing such an instrument! I took it from his hand, and touched
the blade. He looked astonished at the expression my face assumed during a
brief second: it was not horror, it was covetousness. He snatched the pistol
back, jealously; shut the knife, and returned it to its concealment.</p>
<p>“I don’t care if you tell him,” said he. “Put him on
his guard, and watch for him. You know the terms we are on, I see: his danger
does not shock you.”</p>
<p>“What has Heathcliff done to you?” I asked. “In what has he
wronged you, to warrant this appalling hatred? Wouldn’t it be wiser to
bid him quit the house?”</p>
<p>“No!” thundered Earnshaw; “should he offer to leave me,
he’s a dead man: persuade him to attempt it, and you are a murderess! Am
I to lose <i>all</i>, without a chance of retrieval? Is Hareton to be a beggar?
Oh, damnation! I <i>will</i> have it back; and I’ll have <i>his</i> gold
too; and then his blood; and hell shall have his soul! It will be ten times
blacker with that guest than ever it was before!”</p>
<p>You’ve acquainted me, Ellen, with your old master’s habits. He is
clearly on the verge of madness: he was so last night at least. I shuddered to
be near him, and thought on the servant’s ill-bred moroseness as
comparatively agreeable. He now recommenced his moody walk, and I raised the
latch, and escaped into the kitchen. Joseph was bending over the fire, peering
into a large pan that swung above it; and a wooden bowl of oatmeal stood on the
settle close by. The contents of the pan began to boil, and he turned to plunge
his hand into the bowl; I conjectured that this preparation was probably for
our supper, and, being hungry, I resolved it should be eatable; so, crying out
sharply, “<i>I’ll</i> make the porridge!” I removed the
vessel out of his reach, and proceeded to take off my hat and riding-habit.
“Mr. Earnshaw,” I continued, “directs me to wait on myself: I
will. I’m not going to act the lady among you, for fear I should
starve.”</p>
<p>“Gooid Lord!” he muttered, sitting down, and stroking his ribbed
stockings from the knee to the ankle. “If there’s to be fresh
ortherings—just when I getten used to two maisters, if I mun hev’ a
<i>mistress</i> set o’er my heead, it’s like time to be flitting. I
niver <i>did</i> think to see t’ day that I mud lave th’ owld
place—but I doubt it’s nigh at hand!”</p>
<p>This lamentation drew no notice from me: I went briskly to work, sighing to
remember a period when it would have been all merry fun; but compelled speedily
to drive off the remembrance. It racked me to recall past happiness and the
greater peril there was of conjuring up its apparition, the quicker the thible
ran round, and the faster the handfuls of meal fell into the water. Joseph
beheld my style of cookery with growing indignation.</p>
<p>“Thear!” he ejaculated. “Hareton, thou willn’t sup thy
porridge to-neeght; they’ll be naught but lumps as big as my neive.
Thear, agean! I’d fling in bowl un’ all, if I wer ye! There, pale
t’ guilp off, un’ then ye’ll hae done wi’t. Bang, bang.
It’s a mercy t’ bothom isn’t deaved out!”</p>
<p>It <i>was</i> rather a rough mess, I own, when poured into the basins; four had
been provided, and a gallon pitcher of new milk was brought from the dairy,
which Hareton seized and commenced drinking and spilling from the expansive
lip. I expostulated, and desired that he should have his in a mug; affirming
that I could not taste the liquid treated so dirtily. The old cynic chose to be
vastly offended at this nicety; assuring me, repeatedly, that “the barn
was every bit as good” as I, “and every bit as wollsome,” and
wondering how I could fashion to be so conceited. Meanwhile, the infant ruffian
continued sucking; and glowered up at me defyingly, as he slavered into the
jug.</p>
<p>“I shall have my supper in another room,” I said. “Have you
no place you call a parlour?”</p>
<p>“<i>Parlour</i>!” he echoed, sneeringly, “<i>parlour</i>!
Nay, we’ve noa <i>parlours</i>. If yah dunnut loike wer company,
there’s maister’s; un’ if yah dunnut loike maister,
there’s us.”</p>
<p>“Then I shall go upstairs,” I answered; “show me a
chamber.”</p>
<p>I put my basin on a tray, and went myself to fetch some more milk. With great
grumblings, the fellow rose, and preceded me in my ascent: we mounted to the
garrets; he opened a door, now and then, to look into the apartments we passed.</p>
<p>“Here’s a rahm,” he said, at last, flinging back a cranky
board on hinges. “It’s weel eneugh to ate a few porridge in.
There’s a pack o’ corn i’ t’ corner, thear, meeterly
clane; if ye’re feared o’ muckying yer grand silk cloes, spread yer
hankerchir o’ t’ top on’t.”</p>
<p>The “rahm” was a kind of lumber-hole smelling strong of malt and
grain; various sacks of which articles were piled around, leaving a wide, bare
space in the middle.</p>
<p>“Why, man,” I exclaimed, facing him angrily, “this is not a
place to sleep in. I wish to see my bed-room.”</p>
<p>“<i>Bed-rume</i>!” he repeated, in a tone of mockery.
“Yah’s see all t’ <i>bed-rumes</i> thear is—yon’s
mine.”</p>
<p>He pointed into the second garret, only differing from the first in being more
naked about the walls, and having a large, low, curtainless bed, with an
indigo-coloured quilt, at one end.</p>
<p>“What do I want with yours?” I retorted. “I suppose Mr.
Heathcliff does not lodge at the top of the house, does he?”</p>
<p>“Oh! it’s Maister <i>Hathecliff’s</i> ye’re
wanting?” cried he, as if making a new discovery. “Couldn’t
ye ha’ said soa, at onst? un’ then, I mud ha’ telled ye, baht
all this wark, that that’s just one ye cannut see—he allas keeps it
locked, un’ nob’dy iver mells on’t but hisseln.”</p>
<p>“You’ve a nice house, Joseph,” I could not refrain from
observing, “and pleasant inmates; and I think the concentrated essence of
all the madness in the world took up its abode in my brain the day I linked my
fate with theirs! However, that is not to the present purpose—there are
other rooms. For heaven’s sake be quick, and let me settle
somewhere!”</p>
<p>He made no reply to this adjuration; only plodding doggedly down the wooden
steps, and halting before an apartment which, from that halt and the superior
quality of its furniture, I conjectured to be the best one. There was a
carpet—a good one, but the pattern was obliterated by dust; a fireplace
hung with cut-paper, dropping to pieces; a handsome oak-bedstead with ample
crimson curtains of rather expensive material and modern make; but they had
evidently experienced rough usage: the vallances hung in festoons, wrenched
from their rings, and the iron rod supporting them was bent in an arc on one
side, causing the drapery to trail upon the floor. The chairs were also
damaged, many of them severely; and deep indentations deformed the panels of
the walls. I was endeavouring to gather resolution for entering and taking
possession, when my fool of a guide announced,—“This here is
t’ maister’s.” My supper by this time was cold, my appetite
gone, and my patience exhausted. I insisted on being provided instantly with a
place of refuge, and means of repose.</p>
<p>“Whear the divil?” began the religious elder. “The Lord bless
us! The Lord forgie us! Whear the <i>hell</i> wold ye gang? ye marred,
wearisome nowt! Ye’ve seen all but Hareton’s bit of a
cham’er. There’s not another hoile to lig down in i’
th’ hahse!”</p>
<p>I was so vexed, I flung my tray and its contents on the ground; and then seated
myself at the stairs’-head, hid my face in my hands, and cried.</p>
<p>“Ech! ech!” exclaimed Joseph. “Weel done, Miss Cathy! weel
done, Miss Cathy! Howsiver, t’ maister sall just tum’le o’er
them brocken pots; un’ then we’s hear summut; we’s hear how
it’s to be. Gooid-for-naught madling! ye desarve pining fro’ this
to Churstmas, flinging t’ precious gifts uh God under fooit i’ yer
flaysome rages! But I’m mista’en if ye shew yer sperrit lang. Will
Hathecliff bide sich bonny ways, think ye? I nobbut wish he may catch ye
i’ that plisky. I nobbut wish he may.”</p>
<p>And so he went on scolding to his den beneath, taking the candle with him; and
I remained in the dark. The period of reflection succeeding this silly action
compelled me to admit the necessity of smothering my pride and choking my
wrath, and bestirring myself to remove its effects. An unexpected aid presently
appeared in the shape of Throttler, whom I now recognised as a son of our old
Skulker: it had spent its whelphood at the Grange, and was given by my father
to Mr. Hindley. I fancy it knew me: it pushed its nose against mine by way of
salute, and then hastened to devour the porridge; while I groped from step to
step, collecting the shattered earthenware, and drying the spatters of milk
from the banister with my pocket-handkerchief. Our labours were scarcely over
when I heard Earnshaw’s tread in the passage; my assistant tucked in his
tail, and pressed to the wall; I stole into the nearest doorway. The
dog’s endeavour to avoid him was unsuccessful; as I guessed by a scutter
downstairs, and a prolonged, piteous yelping. I had better luck: he passed on,
entered his chamber, and shut the door. Directly after Joseph came up with
Hareton, to put him to bed. I had found shelter in Hareton’s room, and
the old man, on seeing me, said,—“They’s rahm for boath ye
un’ yer pride, now, I sud think i’ the hahse. It’s empty; ye
may hev’ it all to yerseln, un’ Him as allas maks a third, i’
sich ill company!”</p>
<p>Gladly did I take advantage of this intimation; and the minute I flung myself
into a chair, by the fire, I nodded, and slept. My slumber was deep and sweet,
though over far too soon. Mr. Heathcliff awoke me; he had just come in, and
demanded, in his loving manner, what I was doing there? I told him the cause of
my staying up so late—that he had the key of our room in his pocket. The
adjective <i>our</i> gave mortal offence. He swore it was not, nor ever should
be, mine; and he’d—but I’ll not repeat his language, nor
describe his habitual conduct: he is ingenious and unresting in seeking to gain
my abhorrence! I sometimes wonder at him with an intensity that deadens my
fear: yet, I assure you, a tiger or a venomous serpent could not rouse terror
in me equal to that which he wakens. He told me of Catherine’s illness,
and accused my brother of causing it; promising that I should be Edgar’s
proxy in suffering, till he could get hold of him.</p>
<p>I do hate him—I am wretched—I have been a fool! Beware of uttering
one breath of this to any one at the Grange. I shall expect you every
day—don’t disappoint me!—<small>ISABELLA</small>.</p>
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