<h2>CHAPTER XXII</h2>
<p>Summer drew to an end, and early autumn: it was past Michaelmas, but the
harvest was late that year, and a few of our fields were still uncleared. Mr.
Linton and his daughter would frequently walk out among the reapers; at the
carrying of the last sheaves they stayed till dusk, and the evening happening
to be chill and damp, my master caught a bad cold, that settled obstinately on
his lungs, and confined him indoors throughout the whole of the winter, nearly
without intermission.</p>
<p>Poor Cathy, frightened from her little romance, had been considerably sadder
and duller since its abandonment; and her father insisted on her reading less,
and taking more exercise. She had his companionship no longer; I esteemed it a
duty to supply its lack, as much as possible, with mine: an inefficient
substitute; for I could only spare two or three hours, from my numerous diurnal
occupations, to follow her footsteps, and then my society was obviously less
desirable than his.</p>
<p>On an afternoon in October, or the beginning of November—a fresh watery
afternoon, when the turf and paths were rustling with moist, withered leaves,
and the cold blue sky was half hidden by clouds—dark grey streamers,
rapidly mounting from the west, and boding abundant rain—I requested my
young lady to forego her ramble, because I was certain of showers. She refused;
and I unwillingly donned a cloak, and took my umbrella to accompany her on a
stroll to the bottom of the park: a formal walk which she generally affected if
low-spirited—and that she invariably was when Mr. Edgar had been worse
than ordinary, a thing never known from his confession, but guessed both by her
and me from his increased silence and the melancholy of his countenance. She
went sadly on: there was no running or bounding now, though the chill wind
might well have tempted her to race. And often, from the side of my eye, I
could detect her raising a hand, and brushing something off her cheek. I gazed
round for a means of diverting her thoughts. On one side of the road rose a
high, rough bank, where hazels and stunted oaks, with their roots half exposed,
held uncertain tenure: the soil was too loose for the latter; and strong winds
had blown some nearly horizontal. In summer Miss Catherine delighted to climb
along these trunks, and sit in the branches, swinging twenty feet above the
ground; and I, pleased with her agility and her light, childish heart, still
considered it proper to scold every time I caught her at such an elevation, but
so that she knew there was no necessity for descending. From dinner to tea she
would lie in her breeze-rocked cradle, doing nothing except singing old
songs—my nursery lore—to herself, or watching the birds, joint
tenants, feed and entice their young ones to fly: or nestling with closed lids,
half thinking, half dreaming, happier than words can express.</p>
<p>“Look, Miss!” I exclaimed, pointing to a nook under the roots of
one twisted tree. “Winter is not here yet. There’s a little flower
up yonder, the last bud from the multitude of bluebells that clouded those turf
steps in July with a lilac mist. Will you clamber up, and pluck it to show to
papa?”</p>
<p>Cathy stared a long time at the lonely blossom trembling in its earthy shelter,
and replied, at length—“No, I’ll not touch it: but it looks
melancholy, does it not, Ellen?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” I observed, “about as starved and sackless as you:
your cheeks are bloodless; let us take hold of hands and run. You’re so
low, I daresay I shall keep up with you.”</p>
<p>“No,” she repeated, and continued sauntering on, pausing at
intervals to muse over a bit of moss, or a tuft of blanched grass, or a fungus
spreading its bright orange among the heaps of brown foliage; and, ever and
anon, her hand was lifted to her averted face.</p>
<p>“Catherine, why are you crying, love?” I asked, approaching and
putting my arm over her shoulder. “You mustn’t cry because papa has
a cold; be thankful it is nothing worse.”</p>
<p>She now put no further restraint on her tears; her breath was stifled by sobs.</p>
<p>“Oh, it <i>will</i> be something worse,” she said. “And what
shall I do when papa and you leave me, and I am by myself? I can’t forget
your words, Ellen; they are always in my ear. How life will be changed, how
dreary the world will be, when papa and you are dead.”</p>
<p>“None can tell whether you won’t die before us,” I replied.
“It’s wrong to anticipate evil. We’ll hope there are years
and years to come before any of us go: master is young, and I am strong, and
hardly forty-five. My mother lived till eighty, a canty dame to the last. And
suppose Mr. Linton were spared till he saw sixty, that would be more years than
you have counted, Miss. And would it not be foolish to mourn a calamity above
twenty years beforehand?”</p>
<p>“But Aunt Isabella was younger than papa,” she remarked, gazing up
with timid hope to seek further consolation.</p>
<p>“Aunt Isabella had not you and me to nurse her,” I replied.
“She wasn’t as happy as Master: she hadn’t as much to live
for. All you need do, is to wait well on your father, and cheer him by letting
him see you cheerful; and avoid giving him anxiety on any subject: mind that,
Cathy! I’ll not disguise but you might kill him if you were wild and
reckless, and cherished a foolish, fanciful affection for the son of a person
who would be glad to have him in his grave; and allowed him to discover that
you fretted over the separation he has judged it expedient to make.”</p>
<p>“I fret about nothing on earth except papa’s illness,”
answered my companion. “I care for nothing in comparison with papa. And
I’ll never—never—oh, never, while I have my senses, do an act
or say a word to vex him. I love him better than myself, Ellen; and I know it
by this: I pray every night that I may live after him; because I would rather
be miserable than that he should be: that proves I love him better than
myself.”</p>
<p>“Good words,” I replied. “But deeds must prove it also; and
after he is well, remember you don’t forget resolutions formed in the
hour of fear.”</p>
<p>As we talked, we neared a door that opened on the road; and my young lady,
lightening into sunshine again, climbed up and seated herself on the top of the
wall, reaching over to gather some hips that bloomed scarlet on the summit
branches of the wild-rose trees shadowing the highway side: the lower fruit had
disappeared, but only birds could touch the upper, except from Cathy’s
present station. In stretching to pull them, her hat fell off; and as the door
was locked, she proposed scrambling down to recover it. I bid her be cautious
lest she got a fall, and she nimbly disappeared. But the return was no such
easy matter: the stones were smooth and neatly cemented, and the rosebushes
and blackberry stragglers could yield no assistance in re-ascending. I, like a
fool, didn’t recollect that, till I heard her laughing and
exclaiming—“Ellen! you’ll have to fetch the key, or else I
must run round to the porter’s lodge. I can’t scale the ramparts on
this side!”</p>
<p>“Stay where you are,” I answered; “I have my bundle of keys
in my pocket: perhaps I may manage to open it; if not, I’ll go.”</p>
<p>Catherine amused herself with dancing to and fro before the door, while I tried
all the large keys in succession. I had applied the last, and found that none
would do; so, repeating my desire that she would remain there, I was about to
hurry home as fast as I could, when an approaching sound arrested me. It was
the trot of a horse; Cathy’s dance stopped also.</p>
<p>“Who is that?” I whispered.</p>
<p>“Ellen, I wish you could open the door,” whispered back my
companion, anxiously.</p>
<p>“Ho, Miss Linton!” cried a deep voice (the rider’s),
“I’m glad to meet you. Don’t be in haste to enter, for I have
an explanation to ask and obtain.”</p>
<p>“I sha’n’t speak to you, Mr. Heathcliff,” answered
Catherine. “Papa says you are a wicked man, and you hate both him and me;
and Ellen says the same.”</p>
<p>“That is nothing to the purpose,” said Heathcliff. (He it was.)
“I don’t hate my son, I suppose; and it is concerning him that I
demand your attention. Yes; you have cause to blush. Two or three months since,
were you not in the habit of writing to Linton? making love in play, eh? You
deserved, both of you, flogging for that! You especially, the elder; and less
sensitive, as it turns out. I’ve got your letters, and if you give me any
pertness I’ll send them to your father. I presume you grew weary of the
amusement and dropped it, didn’t you? Well, you dropped Linton with it
into a Slough of Despond. He was in earnest: in love, really. As true as I
live, he’s dying for you; breaking his heart at your fickleness: not
figuratively, but actually. Though Hareton has made him a standing jest for six
weeks, and I have used more serious measures, and attempted to frighten him out
of his idiocy, he gets worse daily; and he’ll be under the sod before
summer, unless you restore him!”</p>
<p>“How can you lie so glaringly to the poor child?” I called from the
inside. “Pray ride on! How can you deliberately get up such paltry
falsehoods? Miss Cathy, I’ll knock the lock off with a stone: you
won’t believe that vile nonsense. You can feel in yourself it is
impossible that a person should die for love of a stranger.”</p>
<p>“I was not aware there were eavesdroppers,” muttered the detected
villain. “Worthy Mrs. Dean, I like you, but I don’t like your
double-dealing,” he added aloud. “How could <i>you</i> lie so
glaringly as to affirm I hated the ‘poor child’? and invent bugbear
stories to terrify her from my door-stones? Catherine Linton (the very name
warms me), my bonny lass, I shall be from home all this week; go and see if I
have not spoken truth: do, there’s a darling! Just imagine your father in
my place, and Linton in yours; then think how you would value your careless
lover if he refused to stir a step to comfort you, when your father himself
entreated him; and don’t, from pure stupidity, fall into the same error.
I swear, on my salvation, he’s going to his grave, and none but you can
save him!”</p>
<p>The lock gave way and I issued out.</p>
<p>“I swear Linton is dying,” repeated Heathcliff, looking hard at me.
“And grief and disappointment are hastening his death. Nelly, if you
won’t let her go, you can walk over yourself. But I shall not return till
this time next week; and I think your master himself would scarcely object to
her visiting her cousin.”</p>
<p>“Come in,” said I, taking Cathy by the arm and half forcing her to
re-enter; for she lingered, viewing with troubled eyes the features of the
speaker, too stern to express his inward deceit.</p>
<p>He pushed his horse close, and, bending down, observed—</p>
<p>“Miss Catherine, I’ll own to you that I have little patience with
Linton; and Hareton and Joseph have less. I’ll own that he’s with a
harsh set. He pines for kindness, as well as love; and a kind word from you
would be his best medicine. Don’t mind Mrs. Dean’s cruel cautions;
but be generous, and contrive to see him. He dreams of you day and night, and
cannot be persuaded that you don’t hate him, since you neither write nor
call.”</p>
<p>I closed the door, and rolled a stone to assist the loosened lock in holding
it; and spreading my umbrella, I drew my charge underneath: for the rain began
to drive through the moaning branches of the trees, and warned us to avoid
delay. Our hurry prevented any comment on the encounter with Heathcliff, as we
stretched towards home; but I divined instinctively that Catherine’s
heart was clouded now in double darkness. Her features were so sad, they did
not seem hers: she evidently regarded what she had heard as every syllable
true.</p>
<p>The master had retired to rest before we came in. Cathy stole to his room to
inquire how he was; he had fallen asleep. She returned, and asked me to sit
with her in the library. We took our tea together; and afterwards she lay down
on the rug, and told me not to talk, for she was weary. I got a book, and
pretended to read. As soon as she supposed me absorbed in my occupation, she
recommenced her silent weeping: it appeared, at present, her favourite
diversion. I suffered her to enjoy it a while; then I expostulated: deriding
and ridiculing all Mr. Heathcliff’s assertions about his son, as if I
were certain she would coincide. Alas! I hadn’t skill to counteract the
effect his account had produced: it was just what he intended.</p>
<p>“You may be right, Ellen,” she answered; “but I shall never
feel at ease till I know. And I must tell Linton it is not my fault that I
don’t write, and convince him that I shall not change.”</p>
<p>What use were anger and protestations against her silly credulity? We parted
that night—hostile; but next day beheld me on the road to Wuthering
Heights, by the side of my wilful young mistress’s pony. I couldn’t
bear to witness her sorrow: to see her pale, dejected countenance, and heavy
eyes: and I yielded, in the faint hope that Linton himself might prove, by his
reception of us, how little of the tale was founded on fact.</p>
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