<h2>CHAPTER VI.</h2>
<h3>CHRISTMAS CAROLS</h3>
<p>"<span class="smcap">This</span> is the worst time of all the yeah to be
sick," fretted the Little Colonel, pausing in her restless
journey around the room. She had been pacing
from window to fireplace in the nurse's office, and
from fireplace to window again, watching the clock
and the slowly westering sun, as if watching would
hasten the day to its close.</p>
<p>Miss Gilmer, who was placidly knitting, changed
needles without looking up. "That is what people
always say. I've never yet found one whose calendar
had a time when illness would be convenient."</p>
<p>"But now, just befoah the holidays, a thousand
things are waiting to be done. I'm behind a whole
week with my studies, and my Christmas presents
that I'm going to make are scarcely begun. You
haven't even let me look at the material. I feel
like a caged lion, and I'd like to roah and claw and
ramp around till I'd smashed my bah's."<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[122]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"You'll have your liberty soon," laughed Miss
Gilmer. "I think it will be safe to let you go down
to the dining-room this evening, and I'll give you
your honourable discharge in the morning. But,
if I were in your place, I would make no attempt
to catch up with the classes this term. I would
lock the unfinished presents away in a drawer, and
not give any this Christmas. You ought to spend
the holidays as quietly as possible, doing nothing
but rest."</p>
<p>Lloyd turned toward her with an exclamation of
dismay.</p>
<p>"Oh, Miss Gilmer! That's impossible! We've
planned for a gayer Christmas vacation than we've
evah had befoah. Every day will be full to the
brim. And I <i>must</i> make up the recitations I have
missed. I've had such good repoah'ts all term that
I can't beah to spoil everything right at the end.
When I was in bed, feeling so bad, I made up my
mind I wouldn't worry about them, but now I feel
as good as new, only a little weak, and one always
feels weak aftah fevah. It's to be expected. You
know I wasn't dangerously ill."</p>
<p>"No," admitted Miss Gilmer, "but your little
illness has left you with less strength than you think
you have. You are like an ice-pond that is just<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[123]</SPAN></span>
beginning to freeze over. A very light weight will
break it through at that stage, but if there is no
strain until it has frozen properly, it can bear the
weight of the most heavily loaded wagons."</p>
<p>Lloyd slipped into a chair and stared dismally
at the fire.</p>
<p>"But I am strongah than you think, Miss Gilmer.
Except one time when I had the measles, I'd never
been sick in my life till last week. I don't believe
it's good for people to coddle themselves and worry
all the time for feah they are going to be ill."</p>
<p>"Oh," answered the nurse, "I fully agree with
you in that, still I should not be doing my duty if
I did not put up a warning signal when I see danger
ahead. I do see it now. You are getting on
very nicely, but the ice is very thin,—far too thin
for any such extra weights as double study hours
and holiday dissipations. If you don't walk lightly,
there'll be a nervous breakdown."</p>
<p>Some one called Miss Gilmer away before she
could finish her warning, and Lloyd sat facing the
fire and this unpleasant bit of counsel for nearly
half an hour. A verse from her favourite carol
came echoing through the halls from the distant
music-room, for it was practice hour again, but this
time it did not fit her mood, and it brought no cheer.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[124]</SPAN></span>
It was all well enough for those girls up-stairs,
happy and well and able to do as they pleased, to
be singing "Let <i>nothing</i> you dismay," but she
couldn't help being dismayed at Miss Gilmer's opinion
of her condition. She was ready to cry, thinking
how all her holidays would be spoiled should
she follow the nurse's advice.</p>
<p>With her chin in her hand and her elbow on the
arm of the chair, she sat picturing her doleful
Christmas if she could have no part in the giving,
and must be left out of all the merrymaking they
had planned. Tears welled up into her eyes, and
her miserable reverie might have ended in a downpour
had it not been interrupted by the entrance
of Gay and Betty. Having taken a hasty run across
the terraces, they had obtained permission to spend
the rest of the recreation hour with Lloyd.</p>
<p>"We can't waste a minute now," exclaimed Gay,
as she pulled out her knitting-work and began clicking
her ivory needles through a rainbow shawl she
was making. "I believe Betty sleeps with her embroidery
hoops under her pillow, and I know that
Allison paints in her sleep."</p>
<p>"What would you do if you were in my place?"
mourned Lloyd. She repeated the nurse's dismal
warning.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[125]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Boo! She magnifies her office," said Gay,
glancing over her shoulder to make sure that they
were alone. "I suppose it is perfectly natural that
she should. When you're with Miss White, she
makes you feel that there's nothing in life to live
for but Latin. When you're with Miss Hooker,
mathematics is the chief end of man. With Professor
Stroebel the violin is the one and only. So
of course a professional nurse is in duty bound to
make hygiene the first consideration. Don't listen
to them, listen to me. I change my mind a dozen
times a day, and have a new fad every fortnight,
so it stands to reason that my advice is more broad-minded
than the advice of a person who rides only
one hobby, and rides that in a rut."</p>
<p>Lloyd laughed at Gay's foolishness, but groaned
when Betty told her how far the classes had advanced
during her absence from recitations.</p>
<p>"I'll have to work like a beavah this next week
to catch up. I stah'ted out to have perfect repoah'ts,
and I feel that I must stick to it, as Ederyn did
when he heard the king's call. It is an obligation
that I <i>must</i> meet. I must keep tryst or die."</p>
<p>Gay looked at her admiringly. "I knew you
were like that," she exclaimed. "If there is anything
I envy it is strength of character."<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_126" id="Page_126">[126]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>The admiring glance and Gay's remark carried
greater weight than all the nurse's warning. There
was another reason now for persevering in her determination.
Gay expected it of her, and she could
not fall below Gay's expectation of what a strong
character should accomplish.</p>
<p>Gay, having finished a white stripe across the
shawl, opened the sweet-grass Indian basket hanging
on her chair-post, and took out several skeins
of zephyr of a delicate sea-shell pink.</p>
<p>"Let me hold it while you wind," begged Lloyd.
"It's such an exquisite shade, like the heart of a
la France rose. It makes me think of the stories
mothah used to tell me. Everything in them had
to be pink, from the little girl's dress to the bow
on her kitten's neck. Her slippahs, parasol, flowahs
in the garden, papah on the wall, icing on the cake,
everything had to be pink."</p>
<p>"What a funny little creature you must have
been," laughed Gay, secretly making note of Lloyd's
favourite colour, and resolving to change the names
on two packages laid away in her trunk. The blue
sachet-bag with the forget-me-nots should go to
Betty instead of Lloyd, as she had originally intended.
Lloyd should have the one with the garlands
of pink rosebuds.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_127" id="Page_127">[127]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"My room at home is furnished in pink," Lloyd
went on. "Oh, Gay, I'm wild for you to see Locust.
I'm going to have you and the Walton girls and
Katie Mallard, one of our neighbahs, spend two
days and nights with us. While I've been cooped
up heah getting well, I've planned some of the loveliest
things to do that you evah dreamed of. It's
going to be the gayest vacation that evah was."</p>
<p>When Miss Gilmer returned at the end of the
hour, Lloyd looked so much brighter and better
that she gave her an unexpected furlough.</p>
<p>"There, run along to your room with the other
girls. I'll expect you back at bedtime, for I want
to keep you under my wing one more night, but
you're at liberty till then on one condition,—you're
not to look into a book."</p>
<p>"I'll promise! Oh, I'll promise!" cried Lloyd,
impetuously throwing her arms around the nurse.
"You're <i>such</i> a deah! Not that I'm anxious to
get away from you," she added, fearing that her
delight might be misunderstood. "But I just want
to get <i>out!</i>"</p>
<p>True to her promise, Lloyd opened no books,
but, flying to her room, she took out one of the
uncompleted Christmas gifts, a pair of bedroom
slippers, and worked with feverish haste until dinner<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_128" id="Page_128">[128]</SPAN></span>
was ready. It was good to be at the table again
with the other girls after her week of solitary meals
in the nursery. Afterward it was a temptation to
linger in the library talking with them, but the
thought of the many tasks undone sent her hurrying
back to her room.</p>
<p>Betty followed presently with the Walton girls,
and they all worked steadily on their various gifts
until the bell rang for the evening study hour.
Then Allison and Kitty reluctantly departed, and
Betty took out her algebra. Lloyd crocheted in
silence for half an hour longer, her fingers flying
faster and faster in her eagerness to complete the
task. Finally she laid it down with a sigh of relief.</p>
<p>"There!" she exclaimed aloud. "That's done.
They're all ready for the bows. Now, thank fortune,
I can check them off my list."</p>
<p>Betty looked up with an absent-minded smile,
nodded approvingly at the finished slippers standing
on the table, and then went on with her problems.
Lloyd opened her bureau-drawer to search
for the ribbon which she had bought for the bows.
As she rummaged through it, her hand touched the
little sandalwood box that held the unfinished rosary.
She glanced over her shoulder. Betty was
deep in her algebra. So, taking out the string of<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_129" id="Page_129">[129]</SPAN></span>
beads, she passed it slowly through her fingers.
Then she held it up, and, looping it around her
throat, looked in the mirror.</p>
<p>"I suppose it's mighty childish of me," she said
to herself, "but I can't enjoy my vacation if I go
home with a single one of this term's pearls missing.
I've <i>got</i> to make up those lessons, no mattah
what the nurse says. I can rest aftahward."</p>
<p>A few minutes later she presented herself at Miss
Gilmer's door with the announcement that she
would go to bed an hour earlier than usual, in order
to get a good start for the next day.</p>
<p>All that week she worked with a restless energy
that kept her keyed to the highest pitch of effort.
She scarcely ate, and her sleep was broken, but
her eyes were so bright and her manner so animated,
that Betty wrote home that Lloyd's little
spell of illness seemed to have done her good.</p>
<p>By studying before breakfast, and snatching
every minute she could spare from other duties,
she managed to have perfect recitations in each
study, and at the same time to make up the lessons
she had missed. Five o'clock Saturday afternoon
found her with the last task done. She slipped
ten more little Roman pearls over the silken cord;
five for the week's advance work, and five for the<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_130" id="Page_130">[130]</SPAN></span>
days she had missed. Then with a sigh of relief
she put the sandalwood box into her trunk,
already partly packed for home-going, and flung
herself wearily across the bed.</p>
<p>The mock Christmas tree had been lighted the
evening before, and the gifts distributed. She had
not enjoyed it as she had expected to, although
some of the jokes were excruciatingly funny, and
the girls had laughed until they were limp. She
was too tired to laugh much. She was glad that
Sunday was coming before the day of leave-taking.
She made up her mind that she would skip dinner,
and ask Betty just to slip her something from the
table.</p>
<p>Then she remembered that this was the night the
carols were to be sung in the chapel. She could
not miss that. It was the prettiest service of all
the year, the old girls said. Some one had told
her it was a custom for everybody to wear white
to the carol-singing, but it was hard to remember
things, maybe she had only dreamed it. She wished
that she did not have to remember things, but
could lie there without moving, until morning.
What was it her mother used to sing to her?
"Asleep in the arms of the slow-swinging seas."
Oh! The white seal's lullaby. That was what she<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_131" id="Page_131">[131]</SPAN></span>
wanted. How good it would feel to be rocked by
the restful motion of the waves, to be caught in that
long sleepy sweep of the slow-swinging seas.</p>
<p>When she opened her eyes again it was to find
the room lighted, and Betty dressing for the carol
service. She had slept an hour.</p>
<p>"It'll never do to miss the carols," Betty assured
her, when she suggested skipping dinner.
"Come on, I'll help you dress. Just tell me what
you want to wear, and I'll lay out your things
while you're shaking your wits together. You'll
feel better after you've had a hot dinner." So
struggling with the weariness which nearly overpowered
her, Lloyd forced herself to follow Betty's
example, and go down to the dining-room when
the bell rang. An hour later she fell into line
with the other girls, as, all in white, they filed into
the chapel.</p>
<p>"How Christmasey it looks and smells," she
whispered to Allison, as the doors swung open and
a breath from the pine woods greeted them. The
chancel was wreathed and festooned with masses
of evergreen. To-night tall white candles furnished
the only light. Far down the dim aisles they twinkled
like stars against the dark background of cedar
and hemlock.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_132" id="Page_132">[132]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>Betty was glad that they had entered early. The
deep silence of those moments of waiting, the dim
light of the Christmas tapers, and the fragrance of
the pine seemed as much a part of the service as
anything which followed. In the expectant hush
that filled the little chapel, she pictured the three
kings riding through the night, until she could
almost see the shadowy desert and hear the tread
of the camels who bore the wise men on their starlit
quest. She saw the hillside of Judea, where the
shepherds kept their night-watch by their flocks,
and all the mystery and wonder of the first great
Christmastide seemed to vibrate through her heart,
as the deep organ prelude suddenly filled the air
with the jubilant chords of "Joy to the world, the
Lord has come."</p>
<p>Presently the music changed, and the girls looked
around expectantly. From far down distant halls
and corridors came a chorus of girlish voices: "Oh,
little town of Bethlehem." So sweet and far away
it was, the audience in the chapel involuntarily
leaned forward to listen. Across the campus it
sounded, gradually drawing nearer and clearer,
until, with a triumphant burst of melody, the doors
swung open and the white-robed choir swept in.</p>
<p>Only the best voices in the school had been chosen<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_133" id="Page_133">[133]</SPAN></span>
for this choir, and weeks of training preceded the
service. One after another they sang the sweet
old tunes of the Christmas waits until they reached
Lloyd's favourite, "Let nothing you dismay." She
listened to it with pleasure now, since her greatest
cause for dismay had been removed. She had kept
tryst with the term's obligations, as the last pearl
on the rosary could testify.</p>
<p>In the hush that followed that carol, an old man,
with silvery hair and benign face, rose under the
tall candles of the chancel.</p>
<p>"It's the bishop," whispered Gay to Lloyd.
"Old Bishop Chartley. He is Madam's uncle, and
he always comes down for this service."</p>
<p>Then even her irrepressible tongue grew still, for,
in a deep voice that filled the chapel, he began to
read the story of the three wise men who followed
the star with their gifts of gold and frankincense
and myrrh, until it led them to Bethlehem's manger.
An old, old story, but it bloomed anew once more,
as it has bloomed every year since first the wondering
wise men started on their quest.</p>
<p>The bishop closed the Book. "How shall we
keep the King's birthday?" he asked. "What gifts
shall we bring? To-day in a quaint old tale, beloved
in boyhood, I found the answer. It is the<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_134" id="Page_134">[134]</SPAN></span>
story of a strange country called Cathay, and this
is the way it runs:</p>
<p>"'The ruler thereof is one Kublan Khan, a
mighty warrior. His government is both wise and
just, and is administered to rich and poor alike,
without fear or favour. On the king's birthday
the people observe what is called the White Feast.
Then are the king and his court assembled in a
great room of the palace, which is all white, the
floor of marble and the walls hung with curtains
of white silk. All are in white apparel, and they
offer unto the king white gifts, to show that their
love and loyalty are without a stain. The rich bring
to their lord pearls, carvings of ivory, white chargers,
and costly broidered garments. The poor present
white pigeons and handfuls of rice. Nor doth
the great king regard one gift above another, so
long as all be white. And so do they keep the king's
birthday.'"</p>
<p>Lloyd, leaning forward, listened with such breathless
interest that it attracted Gay's attention.
"That's just like your pink story," she whispered.
Lloyd gave her fingers a responsive squeeze, but
never took her eyes from the benign old face. The
bishop was applying the story to the audience before
him.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_135" id="Page_135">[135]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"As these pagans of Cathay kept the feast of
Kublan Kahn, so we may make of Christmas a
White Feast, whose offerings are without stain.
We need make no weary pilgrimages across the
trackless sands, as did those Eastern sages. 'Inasmuch
as ye have done it unto the least of these my
brethren' (these are the King's own words), 'ye have
done it unto me.' At our very doors we may give
to Him, through His poor and needy.</p>
<p>"But there is another way. You are all familiar
with the motto of this house, and the legend which
gave rise to it. Clad in the white garments of
Righteousness, we may keep the tryst as Ederyn
kept it, and bring to the King the white pearls of
a well-spent life. Days unstained by selfishness,
days filled up with duties faithfully performed.
It matters not how small and commonplace our
efforts seem, the rice and the pigeons of the poor
showed Kublan Kahn his subjects' loyalty as fully
as the ivory carvings and the costly broidered garment.
Nor doth the great King regard one gift
of ours above another, so long as all be white. If
only on our breasts the tokens Duty gives us spell
out the words, '<i>semper fidelis</i>,' then ours will be
the royal accolade: 'Well done, thou good and
faithful servant. Enter thou into the joy of thy<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_136" id="Page_136">[136]</SPAN></span>
Lord.' To give <i>ourselves</i>, unstained and gladly,
thus may we keep the White Feast on the birthday
of the King."</p>
<p>Then the choir stood again, but Lloyd scarcely
noticed what it sang. She was thinking of the
bishop's story, and her secret hidden away in the
sandalwood box. She was so glad now that she
had strung the pearls. She had begun it because
it pleased her fancy to act out the story of Ederyn,
but now the sacred meaning the old bishop gave
the story thrilled her through and through. The
King's call suddenly seemed very sweet and personal.
Henceforth she would string the pearls in
answer to that call.</p>
<p>When they all knelt in the closing prayer, she
fervently echoed the bishop's petition: "Grant
that we make of this Christmastide a White Feast,
and that all our days may be worthy of thy acceptance,
unstained by selfishness and full of deeds
to show our love and loyalty."</p>
<p>The white-robed choir filed slowly out, their
music sounding fainter and fainter until it died
away across the campus, and the white-robed audience
was left kneeling in silence. There were tears
in Gay's eyes when she arose. Such music always
stirred her to the depths. Kitty went back to her<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_137" id="Page_137">[137]</SPAN></span>
room humming one of the carols, and Betty stole
away to write the bishop's sermon in her little white
record, while the memory of it was still warm in
her heart.</p>
<p>At Miss Gilmer's request, Lloyd waited a moment
in the vestibule. At first she wished that Miss
Gilmer had not detained her. She wanted to go
on with Allison, who had her by the arm. Afterward,
however, she was glad of the waiting. It
gave her an opportunity to meet the venerable
bishop.</p>
<p>"So you are going home to-morrow for the holidays,"
he said, genially, as he held out his hand.
"Godspeed, daughter. May you keep the White
Feast with joy."</p>
<p>It seemed to Lloyd that that "Godspeed" followed
her like a benediction.</p>
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