<h2>CHAPTER XI.</h2>
<h3>IN THE ATTIC</h3>
<p><span class="smcap">If</span> the sun had been shining next morning, it
would have been easier for Lloyd to keep her resolution,
and face the family bravely at breakfast.
But the rain was pouring against the windows;
a slow, monotonous rain that ran in little rivers
over the lawn, melting the snow, and turning the
white landscape into a dreary scene of mud and
bare branches.</p>
<p>Twice on the way down-stairs she paused, thinking
that she could not possibly sit through the meal
without crying, and that it would be better to go
back and breakfast alone in her room than to be
a damper on the spirits of the family. Even so
slight a thing as the tone of sympathy in her grandfather's
"good morning" made the tears spring
to her eyes, but she winked them back, and answered
almost cheerfully his question as to how she felt.</p>
<p>"Oh, just like the weathah, grandfathah. All
gray and drippy; but I'll clean up aftah awhile."<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_219" id="Page_219">[219]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>She could not smile as she said it, but the effort
she made to be cheerful made the next attempt easier,
and presently she acknowledged to herself that
Mary was right. It did help, to swallow one's sobs.</p>
<p>After breakfast she stood at the window, watching
her father drive away to the station in the rain.
As the carriage disappeared and there was nothing
more to watch, she wondered dully how she could
spend the long morning.</p>
<p>"Some one wants you at the telephone, Lloyd,"
called the Colonel, on his way to his den.</p>
<p>"Oh, good! I hope it is Kitty," she exclaimed,
anticipating a long visit over the wire.</p>
<p>But it was Malcolm MacIntyre who had rung
her up, to bid her good-bye. He and Keith were
about to start home. They had intended to go up
to Locust, he told her, for a short call before train
time, but it was raining too hard. Would she please
make their adieus to her mother and the rest of the
family. He had heard that she was not going back
to school. Was it true? She was in luck. No?
She was disappointed? Well, that was too bad.
He was awfully sorry. But she mustn't worry over
missing a few months of school. It wouldn't
amount to much in the long run. For his part,
if he were a girl and didn't have to fit himself for<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_220" id="Page_220">[220]</SPAN></span>
a profession, he would be glad to have such a postscript
added to his Christmas vacation. He'd noticed
that usually the postscript to a girl's letter
had more in it than the letter itself. Possibly it
would be that way with her vacation. He hoped so.</p>
<p>Although it was in the most cordial tone that
he expressed his regret at her disappointment, and
bade Princess Winsome good-bye until the "good
old summer-time," it was with a vague feeling of
disappointment that Lloyd hung up the receiver
and turned away from the telephone.</p>
<p>"He doesn't undahstand at all!" she thought.
"He hasn't the faintest idea how much it means
to me to give up school. He thinks that, because
I'm a girl, I haven't any ambition, and that it doesn't
hurt me as it would him. Maybe it wouldn't have
sounded quite the same if I could have seen him
say it, but ovah the telephone, somehow—although
he was mighty nice and polite—it sounded sawt
of patronizing."</p>
<p>She went into the library to deliver Malcolm's
farewell messages to her mother. "He seems so
much moah grown up this time than he evah has
befoah," she added. "I don't like him half as much
that way as the way he used to be."</p>
<p>Mrs. Sherman was busy about the house all morning,<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_221" id="Page_221">[221]</SPAN></span>
so Lloyd found entertainment following her
from room to room, as she inspected the linen closet,
superintended the weekly cleaning of the pantry,
and rearranged some of the library shelves to make
room for the Christmas books. But in the afternoon
she had a number of letters to write, acknowledging
the gifts which had been sent her by distant
friends, and Lloyd was left to her own amusement.</p>
<div class="figright"> <ANTIMG src="images/i005.jpg" width-obs="264" height-obs="500" alt=""ONE OF THE BOYS HAD DARED HIM TO CARRY IT."" title=""ONE OF THE BOYS HAD DARED HIM TO CARRY IT."" /> <span class="caption">"ONE OF THE BOYS HAD DARED HIM TO CARRY IT."</span></div>
<p>The doctor did not want her to read long at a
time. The rain was pouring too hard for her to
venture out-of-doors, and about the middle of the
afternoon the silence and loneliness of the big house
seemed more than she could endure.</p>
<p>"I could scream, I'm so nervous and ti'ahed of
being by myself," she exclaimed. "If just a piece
of a day is so hah'd to drag through as this has
been, how can I stand all the rest of the wintah?"</p>
<p>She was counting up the weeks ahead of her on
the big library calendar, when, through the window,
she caught sight of Rob coming toward the house.
The rain was running in streams from the bottom
of his mackintosh, and from a huge umbrella that
spread over him like a tent. It was an enormous
advertising umbrella, taken from one of the delivery
wagons at the store. One of the boys had
dared him to carry it. "<i>Groceries, Dry Goods,</i><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_222" id="Page_222">[222]</SPAN></span>
<i>Boots and</i>" appeared in black letters on the yellow
side turned toward Lloyd. "<i>Shoes. Jayne's Emporium</i>,"
she called, supplying the rest of the familiar
advertisement from memory.</p>
<p>"What on earth are you doing with that wagon-top
ovah you?" she asked from the front door,
where she stood watching his approach. He was
striding along whistling as cheerily as if it were
a midsummer day. He looked up and smiled in
response to her call, and twirled the umbrella till
the rain-drops flew in every direction in a fine spray.
Lloyd felt as if the sun had suddenly come out from
behind the clouds.</p>
<p>"I've come to finish my Christmas hunt," he said,
as he stepped up on the porch and shook himself
like a great water-spaniel.</p>
<p>"Oh," cried Lloyd, "I intended to ask Betty
befoah she went away where she had hidden yoah
present, and she left next mawning so early that
I was still asleep. Maybe mothah knows."</p>
<p>But Mrs. Sherman, busy with her letters, shook
her head. "I haven't the faintest idea," she answered.
"But I remember she said something
about Rob's being the hardest one of all to find,
so you'll probably be kept busy the rest of the day.
Don't you children bother either Mom Beck or<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_223" id="Page_223">[223]</SPAN></span>
Cindy to help you hunt," she called after them.
"They have all they can attend to to-day."</p>
<p>"Let's see that verse again, Rob," said Lloyd, as
they went out of the library into the drawing-room.
He fumbled in several pockets and finally produced
the card.</p>
<div class='poem'>
"I know a bank where the wild thyme grows.<br/>
<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">Unseen it lies, unsung by bard.</span><br/>
<span style="margin-left: 0.5em;">Something keeps watch there, no man knows,</span><br/>
<span style="margin-left: 1.5em;">And over your gift it's standing guard."</span><br/></div>
<p>As on Christmas Day, the only bank the verse
suggested was in the conservatory, a long, narrow
ledge of ferns and maidenhair, green with overhanging
vines and graceful fronds. For nearly
half an hour they poked around in it, lifting the
ferns from the warm, moist earth to see if anything
lay hidden at their roots. It was like April
in the conservatory, steamy and warm, and the
fragrance of hyacinths and white violets made it
a delightful place in which to linger.</p>
<p>"Bank—bank—" repeated Lloyd, puzzling over
the verse again, when they had given up the search
in the conservatory and gone back to the drawing-room.
"It might mean a savings-bank, but there
hasn't been one in the house since that little red
tin one of mine that you dropped into the well with<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_224" id="Page_224">[224]</SPAN></span>
my three precious dimes in it. I've felt all these
yeahs that you owed me thirty cents."</p>
<p>"Now, Lloyd Sherman, there's no use in bringing
up that old quarrel again," he laughed. "You
know we were playing that robbers were coming,
and we had to lower our gold and jewels into the
well, and you tied the fishing-line around the bank
your own self. So I am not to blame if the knot
came untied at the very first jerk. We've wasted
enough breath arguing that point to start a small
cyclone."</p>
<p>They laughed again over the recollection of their
old quarrel, then Rob read the verse once more.
Presently he stopped drumming on the table with
his thumbs, and said, slowly, as if trying to recall
something long forgotten: "Don't you remember,—it
seems ages before we dropped your red bank
in the well,—that I had a remarkable penny savings-bank?
It was some sort of a slot machine in
the shape of a little iron dog. Daddy brought it to
me from New York. There was some kind of an
indicator on the side of it that looked like the face
of a watch. That was my introduction to puns,
for Daddy said it was a <i>watch</i> dog, made to guard
my pennies. Surely you haven't forgotten old
Watch, for after the indicator was broken I brought<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_225" id="Page_225">[225]</SPAN></span>
the safe over here, and we kept it on the door-mat
in front of your playhouse, to guard the premises."</p>
<p>"I should say I do remembah!" answered Lloyd.
"Probably it's up in the attic now. But what has
that to do with the rhyme?"</p>
<p>"Don't you see? That must be the 'bank'
where the wild thyme grows. I don't know whether
Betty refers to the wild time we used to have playing
in the attic, or the wild time that the watch
kept. But I'm certain that that is the bank she
means."</p>
<p>"Come on, then," cried Lloyd. "Let's go up
to the attic and hunt for it. I haven't been up there
for ovah a yeah."</p>
<p>Rob led the way to the upper hall, and then up
the attic stairs, taking the steep steps two at a time
in long leaps.</p>
<p>"That isn't the way you used to climb these
stairs," laughed Lloyd. "Don't you know you
had to weah little long-sleeved aprons when you
came ovah to play with me, to keep yoahself clean?
You always stepped on the front of them and stumbled
going up these steps."</p>
<p>A headless and tailless hobby-horse of Rob's, on
which they had ridden many imaginary miles, stood<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_226" id="Page_226">[226]</SPAN></span>
in one corner, and he crossed over to examine it,
with an amused smile.</p>
<p>"It certainly didn't take much to amuse us in
those days," he said, touching the rockers with his
foot, and starting the disabled beast to bobbing
back and forth. "How long has it been since we
used to ride this thing? Is my hair white? I declare
I never had anything make me feel so ancient
as the sight of this old hobby-horse. I feel older
than grandfather."</p>
<p>Lloyd had opened a dilapidated hair-covered
trunk, and was bending over a family of dolls
stowed away inside. "Heah is old Belinda!" she
exclaimed. "And Carrie Belle May, and Rosalie,
the Prairie Flowah! 'And, oh, Rob! Look at poah
Nelly Bly, all wah-paint and feathahs, just as you
fixed her up for a squaw that day we had an Indian
massacre in the grape arbour. I had forgotten that
we left her in such a fix!"</p>
<p>"I'll never forget that day," answered Rob.
"Don't you remember how sore I made my arm,
trying to tattoo an anchor on it with a darning-needle
and clothes bluing? What else have you
buried in that old trunk?"</p>
<p>Despite his six feet and seventeen years, Rob
dropped down on a roll of carpet beside the trunk,<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_227" id="Page_227">[227]</SPAN></span>
and watched with interest as Lloyd lifted out one
article after another over which they had quarrelled,
or in whose pleasure they had shared in what now
seemed a dim and far-away playtime. Don't you
remember this? Don't you remember that? they
asked each other, finding so many things to laugh
over and recall that they quite forgot the object
of their search.</p>
<p>Lloyd was sitting with her back against the
warm chimney, which ran up through the middle
of the attic, but presently she began to feel chilly,
and sent Rob over to a chest, away back under the
eaves, for something to put around her. It was
packed full of old finery they had used on various
occasions for tableaux and plays. The first thing
he pulled out was a gorgeous red velvet cloak covered
with spangles.</p>
<p>"That will do," she said, as he held it up inquiringly.
"It's good and warm."</p>
<p>He pushed the chest back into place. Then,
straightening up, his glance fell on the discarded
playhouse, standing back in a dim corner. With
a whoop he pounced upon it.</p>
<p>"Here's old Watch!" he exclaimed, holding up
the little iron dog. "And he is the bank where the
wild time grows, for here is the gift he is standing<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_228" id="Page_228">[228]</SPAN></span>
guard over." Throwing the spangled cloak over
Lloyd's shoulders, he seated himself again on the
roll of carpet, and began to untie the little package
fastened to the dog's neck with a bit of ribbon. Inside
many layers of tissue-paper, he came at last
to a memorandum-book, small enough to fit in his
vest-pocket. It was bound in soft gray kid, and
on the back Betty had burned in old English letters,
with her pyrography-needle, the motto of
Warwick Hall: "I keep the tryst." Over it was
the crest, a heart, out of which rose a mailed arm,
grasping a spear.</p>
<p>"Betty did that," said Lloyd. "She traced the
letters on first with tracing-papah, and then burnt
them. I remembah now, she made it a few days
befoah we came home. She thought we would
have our usual tree, and she intended to hang this
on it for you. Then when we had the hunt instead
of a tree, she took this way of giving it to
you. That is an appropriate motto for a memorandum-book,
isn't it? You'll appreciate it moah
when she tells you the story about it. Miss Chilton
read it to the English class one day, and had us
write it from memory for the next lesson."</p>
<p>"Then what's the matter with your telling it
to me?" asked Rob, eying the mailed hand and<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_229" id="Page_229">[229]</SPAN></span>
the spear with interest. "I'll be gone before Betty
gets back. Go on and tell it. This is an ideal time
and place for story-telling."</p>
<p>He leaned comfortably back against the warm
chimney and half-closed his eyes. The patter of
the rain on the roof made him drowsy.</p>
<p>"Well," assented Lloyd, "I can't tell it with
as many frills and flourishes as Betty could, but
I remembah it bettah than most stories, because I
had to write it from memory." Drawing the
glittering cloak closer around her, she began as
if she were reading it, in the very words of the
green and gold volume:</p>
<div class="blockquot"><p>"'Now there was a troubadour in the kingdom
of Arthur, who, strolling through the land with only
his minstrelsy to win him a way, found in every
baron's hall and cotter's hut a ready welcome.'"</p>
</div>
<p>Here and there she stumbled over some part of
it, or told it hesitatingly in her own words, but
at last she ended it as well as Betty herself could
have done:</p>
<div class="blockquot"><p>"So Ederyn won his sovereign's favour, and,
by his sovereign's grace permitted, went back to<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_230" id="Page_230">[230]</SPAN></span>
woo the maiden and win her for his bride. Then
henceforth blazoned on his shield and helmet he
bore the crest, a heart with hand that grasped a
spear, and, underneath, the words, 'I keep the
tryst.'"</p>
</div>
<p>"That's a corking good motto," said Rob as she
paused. "I like that story, Lloyd, and I'll remember
it when I keep the engagements that I put down
in this little book."</p>
<p>He sat a moment, flipping the leaves and whistling
a bar from "The Old Oaken Bucket."</p>
<p>"Stop!" commanded Lloyd, suddenly, clapping
her hands over her ears, and making a wry face.
"You're off the key. Haven't I told you a thousand
times that it doesn't go that way? This
is it."</p>
<p>Puckering up her lips, she whistled the tune
correctly, and he joined in. At the end of the
chorus he looked at his watch.</p>
<p>"It's been like old times this afternoon," he
said. "I'll tell you what, Lloyd, let's come up
here once a year after this, just to keep tryst with
our old playtimes. I'll put that down as the first
engagement in my memorandum-book. A year
from to-day we'll take another look at these things."<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_231" id="Page_231">[231]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"All right," assented Lloyd, cheerfully. Then
a wistful expression crept into her eyes as she
peered through the tiny attic window. Twilight
was falling early on account of the rain. A deep
gloom began to settle over her spirits also.</p>
<p>"Rob," she said, slowly, "I haven't told you
yet. I didn't want to spoil our aftahnoon by thinking
about it any moah than I could help, and you
made me almost forget it for a little while. I
couldn't talk about it when you first came without
crying,—this yeah is going to be <i>such</i> a long, hah'd
one. They aren't going to let me go back to school
aftah the holidays. The doctah says I am not
strong enough, and it is such an awful Dungeon
of Disappointment that it just breaks my hah't to
think about it."</p>
<p>To Rob's consternation she laid her head down
on old Belinda, who still lay limply across her lap,
and began to sob. He sat in embarrassed silence
for a moment, scarcely knowing her for the same
little companion whom he had taught to meet hurts
like a boy. He remembered the many times she
had winked back the tears over the bruises and
bumps and cuts she had encountered in following
his lead. He was bewildered by the unfamiliar
mood, and it hurt him to see her so grieved.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_232" id="Page_232">[232]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"There! there! Don't cry, Lloyd!" he begged,
hurt by the sight of the fair head bowed so dismally
over the old doll. "I know how it would
knock me out to have to stop now, just when I've
got into the swing of things, so I know just how
you feel. I'm mighty sorry."</p>
<p>Then, as the sobs continued: "I'd go off and
whip somebody if it would do any good, but it
won't. You'll have to brace up as Ederyn did, and
you'll get out of your dungeon all right."</p>
<p>There was no answer. School was so very dear,
and the disappointment so very bitter. It had all
surged over her again in a great wave. He tried
again.</p>
<p>"It's tough, I know, but it will be easier if you
take it as all the Lloyds have taken their troubles,
with your teeth set and your head up. Somehow,
that's the way I've always thought you would take
things. Don't cry, Lloyd. Don't! It breaks me
all up to see you this way, when you've always been
so game."</p>
<p>She straightened up and wiped her eyes, announcing
suddenly: "And I'm going to be game now.
If there's one thing I nevah could beah, it was for
you to think I was a coward, and I can't have you
thinking it now. It's a sawt of tryst I've kept all<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_233" id="Page_233">[233]</SPAN></span>
these yeahs, unconsciously, I suppose. Ever since
I was a little thing, if I thought 'Bobby expects it
of me,' I'd do it, no mattah what it was, from jumping
a fence to climbing on the chimney. I've lived
up to yoah expectations many a time at the risk
of killing myself."</p>
<p>"Indeed you have," he answered, in a tone of
hearty admiration. There was a tender light in
his gray eyes which she did not see, she was so
busy wiping her own.</p>
<p>"I'm done crying now," she announced, springing
to her feet and thrusting Belinda back into the
trunk. "Come on, let's go down and pop some
cawn ovah the library fiah. Put this cloak away
first."</p>
<p>He pushed the chest back to its place under the
eaves and started after her, pulling out his handkerchief
as he went, to wipe away a stray cobweb
into which he had thrust his hand. It reminded him
of the story.</p>
<p>"You know," he suggested, consolingly, "there's
bound to be some way out of your dungeon. I'll
spend all the rest of the vacation helping you twist
cobwebs for your rope, if you like."</p>
<p>She made no answer then to his offer of assistance.
She felt that she could not steady her voice<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_234" id="Page_234">[234]</SPAN></span>
if she tried to speak her appreciation of his sympathy.</p>
<p>So she called out, as she dashed past him: "As
Joyce used to say at the house pah'ty, 'the last one
down is a jibbering Ornithorhynchus!'"</p>
<p>Away they went in a mad race, whose noisy
clatter made it seem to the old Colonel in his den
that the rafters were falling in. But on the landing
she paused an instant.</p>
<p>"It—it helps a lot, Rob," she said, wistfully,
"to have you undahstand,—to know that you
know how it hurts."</p>
<p>"I wish I could really help you," he answered,
earnestly. "You're a game little chum!"</p>
<p>She flashed back a grateful smile from under her
wet eyelashes, and led the race on down the next
flight of stairs.</p>
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