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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter VI. Why Is Such A Man Alive?</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Dmitri Fyodorovitch, a young man of eight and twenty,
of medium height and agreeable countenance, looked older
than his years. He was muscular, and showed signs of considerable
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physical strength. Yet there was something not healthy in his face.
It was rather thin, his cheeks were hollow, and there was an unhealthy
sallowness in their color. His rather large, prominent, dark
eyes had an expression of firm determination, and yet there was a
vague look in them, too. Even when he was excited and talking
irritably, his eyes somehow did not follow his mood, but betrayed
something else, sometimes quite incongruous with what was passing.
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's hard to tell what he's thinking,”</span> those who talked to him
sometimes declared. People who saw something pensive and sullen
in his eyes were startled by his sudden laugh, which bore witness
to mirthful and light-hearted thoughts at the very time when his
eyes were so gloomy. A certain strained look in his face was easy
to understand at this moment. Every one knew, or had heard of,
the extremely restless and dissipated life which he had been leading
of late, as well as of the violent anger to which he had been roused
in his quarrels with his father. There were several stories current
in the town about it. It is true that he was irascible by nature, <span class="tei tei-q">“of
an unstable and unbalanced mind,”</span> as our justice of the peace,
Katchalnikov, happily described him.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He was stylishly and irreproachably dressed in a carefully buttoned
frock-coat. He wore black gloves and carried a top-hat.
Having only lately left the army, he still had mustaches and no
beard. His dark brown hair was cropped short, and combed forward
on his temples. He had the long, determined stride of a
military man. He stood still for a moment on the threshold, and
glancing at the whole party went straight up to the elder, guessing
him to be their host. He made him a low bow, and asked his blessing.
Father Zossima, rising in his chair, blessed him. Dmitri kissed
his hand respectfully, and with intense feeling, almost anger, he
said:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Be so generous as to forgive me for having kept you waiting so
long, but Smerdyakov, the valet sent me by my father, in reply to
my inquiries, told me twice over that the appointment was for one.
Now I suddenly learn—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Don't disturb yourself,”</span> interposed the elder. <span class="tei tei-q">“No matter. You
are a little late. It's of no consequence....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I'm extremely obliged to you, and expected no less from your
goodness.”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Saying this, Dmitri bowed once more. Then, turning suddenly
towards his father, made him, too, a similarly low and respectful
bow. He had evidently considered it beforehand, and made this
bow in all seriousness, thinking it his duty to show his respect and
good intentions.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Although Fyodor Pavlovitch was taken unawares, he was equal
to the occasion. In response to Dmitri's bow he jumped up from his
chair and made his son a bow as low in return. His face was suddenly
solemn and impressive, which gave him a positively malignant
look. Dmitri bowed generally to all present, and without a word
walked to the window with his long, resolute stride, sat down on the
only empty chair, near Father Païssy, and, bending forward, prepared
to listen to the conversation he had interrupted.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Dmitri's entrance had taken no more than two minutes, and the
conversation was resumed. But this time Miüsov thought it unnecessary
to reply to Father Païssy's persistent and almost irritable
question.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Allow me to withdraw from this discussion,”</span> he observed with
a certain well-bred nonchalance. <span class="tei tei-q">“It's a subtle question, too. Here
Ivan Fyodorovitch is smiling at us. He must have something interesting
to say about that also. Ask him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Nothing special, except one little remark,”</span> Ivan replied at once.
<span class="tei tei-q">“European Liberals in general, and even our liberal dilettanti, often
mix up the final results of socialism with those of Christianity.
This wild notion is, of course, a characteristic feature. But it's not
only Liberals and dilettanti who mix up socialism and Christianity,
but, in many cases, it appears, the police—the foreign police, of
course—do the same. Your Paris anecdote is rather to the point,
Pyotr Alexandrovitch.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I ask your permission to drop this subject altogether,”</span> Miüsov
repeated. <span class="tei tei-q">“I will tell you instead, gentlemen, another interesting
and rather characteristic anecdote of Ivan Fyodorovitch himself.
Only five days ago, in a gathering here, principally of ladies, he
solemnly declared in argument that there was nothing in the whole
world to make men love their neighbors. That there was no law
of nature that man should love mankind, and that, if there had
been any love on earth hitherto, it was not owing to a natural law,
but simply because men have believed in immortality. Ivan Fyodorovitch
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added in parenthesis that the whole natural law lies in that
faith, and that if you were to destroy in mankind the belief in immortality,
not only love but every living force maintaining the
life of the world would at once be dried up. Moreover, nothing
then would be immoral, everything would be lawful, even cannibalism.
That's not all. He ended by asserting that for every individual,
like ourselves, who does not believe in God or immortality,
the moral law of nature must immediately be changed into the exact
contrary of the former religious law, and that egoism, even to crime,
must become not only lawful but even recognized as the inevitable,
the most rational, even honorable outcome of his position. From
this paradox, gentlemen, you can judge of the rest of our eccentric
and paradoxical friend Ivan Fyodorovitch's theories.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Excuse me,”</span> Dmitri cried suddenly; <span class="tei tei-q">“if I've heard aright, crime
must not only be permitted but even recognized as the inevitable
and the most rational outcome of his position for every infidel!
Is that so or not?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Quite so,”</span> said Father Païssy.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I'll remember it.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Having uttered these words Dmitri ceased speaking as suddenly
as he had begun. Every one looked at him with curiosity.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Is that really your conviction as to the consequences of the
disappearance of the faith in immortality?”</span> the elder asked Ivan
suddenly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes. That was my contention. There is no virtue if there is
no immortality.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You are blessed in believing that, or else most unhappy.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why unhappy?”</span> Ivan asked smiling.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Because, in all probability you don't believe yourself in the immortality
of your soul, nor in what you have written yourself in
your article on Church jurisdiction.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Perhaps you are right! ... But I wasn't altogether joking,”</span>
Ivan suddenly and strangely confessed, flushing quickly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You were not altogether joking. That's true. The question
is still fretting your heart, and not answered. But the martyr likes
sometimes to divert himself with his despair, as it were driven to it
by despair itself. Meanwhile, in your despair, you, too, divert yourself
with magazine articles, and discussions in society, though you
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don't believe your own arguments, and with an aching heart mock
at them inwardly.... That question you have not answered, and
it is your great grief, for it clamors for an answer.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But can it be answered by me? Answered in the affirmative?”</span>
Ivan went on asking strangely, still looking at the elder with the
same inexplicable smile.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“If it can't be decided in the affirmative, it will never be decided
in the negative. You know that that is the peculiarity of your
heart, and all its suffering is due to it. But thank the Creator who
has given you a lofty heart capable of such suffering; of thinking
and seeking higher things, for our dwelling is in the heavens. God
grant that your heart will attain the answer on earth, and may God
bless your path.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The elder raised his hand and would have made the sign of the
cross over Ivan from where he stood. But the latter rose from his
seat, went up to him, received his blessing, and kissing his hand
went back to his place in silence. His face looked firm and earnest.
This action and all the preceding conversation, which was so surprising
from Ivan, impressed every one by its strangeness and a certain
solemnity, so that all were silent for a moment, and there was a
look almost of apprehension in Alyosha's face. But Miüsov suddenly
shrugged his shoulders. And at the same moment Fyodor
Pavlovitch jumped up from his seat.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Most pious and holy elder,”</span> he cried, pointing to Ivan, <span class="tei tei-q">“that is
my son, flesh of my flesh, the dearest of my flesh! He is my most
dutiful Karl Moor, so to speak, while this son who has just come in,
Dmitri, against whom I am seeking justice from you, is the undutiful
Franz Moor—they are both out of Schiller's <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">Robbers</span></span>, and so
I am the reigning Count von Moor! Judge and save us! We need not
only your prayers but your prophecies!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Speak without buffoonery, and don't begin by insulting the
members of your family,”</span> answered the elder, in a faint, exhausted
voice. He was obviously getting more and more fatigued, and his
strength was failing.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“An unseemly farce which I foresaw when I came here!”</span> cried
Dmitri indignantly. He too leapt up. <span class="tei tei-q">“Forgive it, reverend
Father,”</span> he added, addressing the elder. <span class="tei tei-q">“I am not a cultivated
man, and I don't even know how to address you properly, but you
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have been deceived and you have been too good-natured in letting
us meet here. All my father wants is a scandal. Why he wants it
only he can tell. He always has some motive. But I believe I
know why—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“They all blame me, all of them!”</span> cried Fyodor Pavlovitch in his
turn. <span class="tei tei-q">“Pyotr Alexandrovitch here blames me too. You have been
blaming me, Pyotr Alexandrovitch, you have!”</span> he turned suddenly
to Miüsov, although the latter was not dreaming of interrupting
him. <span class="tei tei-q">“They all accuse me of having hidden the children's money
in my boots, and cheated them, but isn't there a court of law?
There they will reckon out for you, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, from
your notes, your letters, and your agreements, how much money
you had, how much you have spent, and how much you have left.
Why does Pyotr Alexandrovitch refuse to pass judgment? Dmitri
is not a stranger to him. Because they are all against me, while
Dmitri Fyodorovitch is in debt to me, and not a little, but some
thousands of which I have documentary proof. The whole town is
echoing with his debaucheries. And where he was stationed before,
he several times spent a thousand or two for the seduction of some
respectable girl; we know all about that, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, in its
most secret details. I'll prove it.... Would you believe it, holy
Father, he has captivated the heart of the most honorable of young
ladies of good family and fortune, daughter of a gallant colonel,
formerly his superior officer, who had received many honors and
had the Anna Order on his breast. He compromised the girl by
his promise of marriage, now she is an orphan and here; she is betrothed
to him, yet before her very eyes he is dancing attendance on
a certain enchantress. And although this enchantress has lived in,
so to speak, civil marriage with a respectable man, yet she is of an
independent character, an unapproachable fortress for everybody,
just like a legal wife—for she is virtuous, yes, holy Fathers, she is
virtuous. Dmitri Fyodorovitch wants to open this fortress with a
golden key, and that's why he is insolent to me now, trying to get
money from me, though he has wasted thousands on this enchantress
already. He's continually borrowing money for the purpose. From
whom do you think? Shall I say, Mitya?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Be silent!”</span> cried Dmitri, <span class="tei tei-q">“wait till I'm gone. Don't dare in my
presence to asperse the good name of an honorable girl! That you
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should utter a word about her is an outrage, and I won't permit it!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He was breathless.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Mitya! Mitya!”</span> cried Fyodor Pavlovitch hysterically, squeezing
out a tear. <span class="tei tei-q">“And is your father's blessing nothing to you? If
I curse you, what then?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Shameless hypocrite!”</span> exclaimed Dmitri furiously.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He says that to his father! his father! What would he be with
others? Gentlemen, only fancy; there's a poor but honorable man
living here, burdened with a numerous family, a captain who got
into trouble and was discharged from the army, but not publicly,
not by court-martial, with no slur on his honor. And three weeks
ago, Dmitri seized him by the beard in a tavern, dragged him out
into the street and beat him publicly, and all because he is an agent
in a little business of mine.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's all a lie! Outwardly it's the truth, but inwardly a lie!”</span>
Dmitri was trembling with rage. <span class="tei tei-q">“Father, I don't justify my action.
Yes, I confess it publicly, I behaved like a brute to that captain, and
I regret it now, and I'm disgusted with myself for my brutal rage.
But this captain, this agent of yours, went to that lady whom you
call an enchantress, and suggested to her from you, that she should
take I.O.U.'s of mine which were in your possession, and should sue
me for the money so as to get me into prison by means of them, if
I persisted in claiming an account from you of my property. Now
you reproach me for having a weakness for that lady when you
yourself incited her to captivate me! She told me so to my face....
She told me the story and laughed at you.... You wanted to
put me in prison because you are jealous of me with her, because
you'd begun to force your attentions upon her; and I know all
about that, too; she laughed at you for that as well—you hear—she
laughed at you as she described it. So here you have this man, this
father who reproaches his profligate son! Gentlemen, forgive my
anger, but I foresaw that this crafty old man would only bring you
together to create a scandal. I had come to forgive him if he held
out his hand; to forgive him, and ask forgiveness! But as he has just
this minute insulted not only me, but an honorable young lady,
for whom I feel such reverence that I dare not take her name in
vain, I have made up my mind to show up his game, though he is
my father....”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He could not go on. His eyes were glittering and he breathed
with difficulty. But every one in the cell was stirred. All except
Father Zossima got up from their seats uneasily. The monks looked
austere but waited for guidance from the elder. He sat still, pale,
not from excitement but from the weakness of disease. An imploring
smile lighted up his face; from time to time he raised his
hand, as though to check the storm, and, of course, a gesture from
him would have been enough to end the scene; but he seemed to be
waiting for something and watched them intently as though trying
to make out something which was not perfectly clear to him. At
last Miüsov felt completely humiliated and disgraced.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We are all to blame for this scandalous scene,”</span> he said hotly.
<span class="tei tei-q">“But I did not foresee it when I came, though I knew with whom
I had to deal. This must be stopped at once! Believe me, your
reverence, I had no precise knowledge of the details that have just
come to light, I was unwilling to believe them, and I learn for the
first time.... A father is jealous of his son's relations with a
woman of loose behavior and intrigues with the creature to get his
son into prison! This is the company in which I have been forced
to be present! I was deceived. I declare to you all that I was as
much deceived as any one.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Dmitri Fyodorovitch,”</span> yelled Fyodor Pavlovitch suddenly, in
an unnatural voice, <span class="tei tei-q">“if you were not my son I would challenge you
this instant to a duel ... with pistols, at three paces ... across a
handkerchief,”</span> he ended, stamping with both feet.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
With old liars who have been acting all their lives there are moments
when they enter so completely into their part that they
tremble or shed tears of emotion in earnest, although at that very
moment, or a second later, they are able to whisper to themselves,
<span class="tei tei-q">“You know you are lying, you shameless old sinner! You're acting
now, in spite of your <span class="tei tei-q">‘holy’</span> wrath.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Dmitri frowned painfully, and looked with unutterable contempt
at his father.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I thought ... I thought,”</span> he said, in a soft and, as it were,
controlled voice, <span class="tei tei-q">“that I was coming to my native place with the
angel of my heart, my betrothed, to cherish his old age, and I find
nothing but a depraved profligate, a despicable clown!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“A duel!”</span> yelled the old wretch again, breathless and spluttering
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at each syllable. <span class="tei tei-q">“And you, Pyotr Alexandrovitch Miüsov, let me
tell you that there has never been in all your family a loftier, and
more honest—you hear—more honest woman than this <span class="tei tei-q">‘creature,’</span>
as you have dared to call her! And you, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, have
abandoned your betrothed for that <span class="tei tei-q">‘creature,’</span> so you must yourself
have thought that your betrothed couldn't hold a candle to her.
That's the woman called a <span class="tei tei-q">‘creature’</span>!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Shameful!”</span> broke from Father Iosif.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Shameful and disgraceful!”</span> Kalganov, flushing crimson, cried in
a boyish voice, trembling with emotion. He had been silent till
that moment.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why is such a man alive?”</span> Dmitri, beside himself with rage,
growled in a hollow voice, hunching up his shoulders till he looked
almost deformed. <span class="tei tei-q">“Tell me, can he be allowed to go on defiling
the earth?”</span> He looked round at every one and pointed at the old
man. He spoke evenly and deliberately.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Listen, listen, monks, to the parricide!”</span> cried Fyodor Pavlovitch,
rushing up to Father Iosif. <span class="tei tei-q">“That's the answer to your <span class="tei tei-q">‘shameful!’</span>
What is shameful? That <span class="tei tei-q">‘creature,’</span> that <span class="tei tei-q">‘woman of loose behavior’</span>
is perhaps holier than you are yourselves, you monks who are seeking
salvation! She fell perhaps in her youth, ruined by her environment.
But she loved much, and Christ himself forgave the woman
<span class="tei tei-q">‘who loved much.’</span> ”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It was not for such love Christ forgave her,”</span> broke impatiently
from the gentle Father Iosif.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, it was for such, monks, it was! You save your souls here,
eating cabbage, and think you are the righteous. You eat a gudgeon
a day, and you think you bribe God with gudgeon.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“This is unendurable!”</span> was heard on all sides in the cell.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
But this unseemly scene was cut short in a most unexpected way.
Father Zossima rose suddenly from his seat. Almost distracted with
anxiety for the elder and every one else, Alyosha succeeded, however,
in supporting him by the arm. Father Zossima moved towards
Dmitri and reaching him sank on his knees before him. Alyosha
thought that he had fallen from weakness, but this was not so. The
elder distinctly and deliberately bowed down at Dmitri's feet till
his forehead touched the floor. Alyosha was so astounded that he
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failed to assist him when he got up again. There was a faint smile
on his lips.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Good-by! Forgive me, all of you!”</span> he said, bowing on all sides
to his guests.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Dmitri stood for a few moments in amazement. Bowing down
to him—what did it mean? Suddenly he cried aloud, <span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, God!”</span>
hid his face in his hands, and rushed out of the room. All the
guests flocked out after him, in their confusion not saying good-by,
or bowing to their host. Only the monks went up to him again
for a blessing.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What did it mean, falling at his feet like that? Was it symbolic
or what?”</span> said Fyodor Pavlovitch, suddenly quieted and trying to
reopen conversation without venturing to address anybody in particular.
They were all passing out of the precincts of the hermitage
at the moment.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I can't answer for a madhouse and for madmen,”</span> Miüsov answered
at once ill-humoredly, <span class="tei tei-q">“but I will spare myself your company,
Fyodor Pavlovitch, and, trust me, for ever. Where's that
monk?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That monk,”</span> that is, the monk who had invited them to dine
with the Superior, did not keep them waiting. He met them as
soon as they came down the steps from the elder's cell, as though
he had been waiting for them all the time.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Reverend Father, kindly do me a favor. Convey my deepest
respect to the Father Superior, apologize for me, personally, Miüsov,
to his reverence, telling him that I deeply regret that owing to unforeseen
circumstances I am unable to have the honor of being
present at his table, greatly as I should desire to do so,”</span> Miüsov
said irritably to the monk.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And that unforeseen circumstance, of course, is myself,”</span> Fyodor
Pavlovitch cut in immediately. <span class="tei tei-q">“Do you hear, Father; this gentleman
doesn't want to remain in my company or else he'd come at
once. And you shall go, Pyotr Alexandrovitch, pray go to the
Father Superior and good appetite to you. I will decline, and not
you. Home, home, I'll eat at home, I don't feel equal to it here,
Pyotr Alexandrovitch, my amiable relative.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I am not your relative and never have been, you contemptible
man!”</span></p>
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<span class="tei tei-q">“I said it on purpose to madden you, because you always disclaim
the relationship, though you really are a relation in spite of your
shuffling. I'll prove it by the church calendar. As for you, Ivan,
stay if you like. I'll send the horses for you later. Propriety requires
you to go to the Father Superior, Pyotr Alexandrovitch, to
apologize for the disturbance we've been making....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Is it true that you are going home? Aren't you lying?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Pyotr Alexandrovitch! How could I dare after what's happened!
Forgive me, gentlemen, I was carried away! And upset
besides! And, indeed, I am ashamed. Gentlemen, one man has
the heart of Alexander of Macedon and another the heart of the
little dog Fido. Mine is that of the little dog Fido. I am ashamed!
After such an escapade how can I go to dinner, to gobble up the
monastery's sauces? I am ashamed, I can't. You must excuse
me!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“The devil only knows, what if he deceives us?”</span> thought Miüsov,
still hesitating, and watching the retreating buffoon with distrustful
eyes. The latter turned round, and noticing that Miüsov was
watching him, waved him a kiss.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, are you coming to the Superior?”</span> Miüsov asked Ivan
abruptly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why not? I was especially invited yesterday.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Unfortunately I feel myself compelled to go to this confounded
dinner,”</span> said Miüsov with the same irritability, regardless of the
fact that the monk was listening. <span class="tei tei-q">“We ought, at least, to apologize
for the disturbance, and explain that it was not our doing. What
do you think?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, we must explain that it wasn't our doing. Besides, father
won't be there,”</span> observed Ivan.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, I should hope not! Confound this dinner!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
They all walked on, however. The monk listened in silence. On
the road through the copse he made one observation however—that
the Father Superior had been waiting a long time, and that they
were more than half an hour late. He received no answer. Miüsov
looked with hatred at Ivan.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Here he is, going to the dinner as though nothing had happened,”</span>
he thought. <span class="tei tei-q">“A brazen face, and the conscience of a
Karamazov!”</span></p>
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