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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter II. At His Father's</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
First of all, Alyosha went to his father. On the way he remembered
that his father had insisted the day before that he
should come without his brother Ivan seeing him. <span class="tei tei-q">“Why so?”</span> Alyosha
wondered suddenly. <span class="tei tei-q">“Even if my father has something to say
to me alone, why should I go in unseen? Most likely in his excitement
yesterday he meant to say something different,”</span> he decided.
Yet he was very glad when Marfa Ignatyevna, who opened the garden
gate to him (Grigory, it appeared, was ill in bed in the lodge),
told him in answer to his question that Ivan Fyodorovitch had gone
out two hours ago.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And my father?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He is up, taking his coffee,”</span> Marfa answered somewhat dryly.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alyosha went in. The old man was sitting alone at the table
wearing slippers and a little old overcoat. He was amusing himself
by looking through some accounts, rather inattentively however.
He was quite alone in the house, for Smerdyakov too had gone out
marketing. Though he had got up early and was trying to put a
bold face on it, he looked tired and weak. His forehead, upon which
huge purple bruises had come out during the night, was bandaged
with a red handkerchief; his nose too had swollen terribly in the
night, and some smaller bruises covered it in patches, giving his
whole face a peculiarly spiteful and irritable look. The old man
was aware of this, and turned a hostile glance on Alyosha as he
came in.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“The coffee is cold,”</span> he cried harshly; <span class="tei tei-q">“I won't offer you any.
I've ordered nothing but a Lenten fish soup to-day, and I don't
invite any one to share it. Why have you come?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“To find out how you are,”</span> said Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes. Besides, I told you to come yesterday. It's all of no consequence.
You need not have troubled. But I knew you'd come poking
in directly.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He said this with almost hostile feeling. At the same time he
got up and looked anxiously in the looking-glass (perhaps for the
fortieth time that morning) at his nose. He began, too, binding his
red handkerchief more becomingly on his forehead.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Red's better. It's just like the hospital in a white one,”</span> he observed
sententiously. <span class="tei tei-q">“Well, how are things over there? How is
your elder?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He is very bad; he may die to-day,”</span> answered Alyosha. But
his father had not listened, and had forgotten his own question
at once.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ivan's gone out,”</span> he said suddenly. <span class="tei tei-q">“He is doing his utmost
to carry off Mitya's betrothed. That's what he is staying here for,”</span>
he added maliciously, and, twisting his mouth, looked at Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Surely he did not tell you so?”</span> asked Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, he did, long ago. Would you believe it, he told me three
weeks ago? You don't suppose he too came to murder me, do you?
He must have had some object in coming.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What do you mean? Why do you say such things?”</span> said Alyosha,
troubled.</p>
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<span class="tei tei-q">“He doesn't ask for money, it's true, but yet he won't get a farthing
from me. I intend living as long as possible, you may as well
know, my dear Alexey Fyodorovitch, and so I need every farthing,
and the longer I live, the more I shall need it,”</span> he continued, pacing
from one corner of the room to the other, keeping his hands in the
pockets of his loose greasy overcoat made of yellow cotton material.
<span class="tei tei-q">“I can still pass for a man at five and fifty, but I want to pass for
one for another twenty years. As I get older, you know, I shan't be
a pretty object. The wenches won't come to me of their own accord,
so I shall want my money. So I am saving up more and more,
simply for myself, my dear son Alexey Fyodorovitch. You may as
well know. For I mean to go on in my sins to the end, let me tell
you. For sin is sweet; all abuse it, but all men live in it, only others
do it on the sly, and I openly. And so all the other sinners fall
upon me for being so simple. And your paradise, Alexey Fyodorovitch,
is not to my taste, let me tell you that; and it's not the
proper place for a gentleman, your paradise, even if it exists. I
believe that I fall asleep and don't wake up again, and that's all.
You can pray for my soul if you like. And if you don't want to,
don't, damn you! That's my philosophy. Ivan talked well here
yesterday, though we were all drunk. Ivan is a conceited coxcomb,
but he has no particular learning ... nor education either. He
sits silent and smiles at one without speaking—that's what pulls him
through.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alyosha listened to him in silence.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why won't he talk to me? If he does speak, he gives himself
airs. Your Ivan is a scoundrel! And I'll marry Grushenka in a
minute if I want to. For if you've money, Alexey Fyodorovitch,
you have only to want a thing and you can have it. That's what
Ivan is afraid of, he is on the watch to prevent me getting married
and that's why he is egging on Mitya to marry Grushenka himself.
He hopes to keep me from Grushenka by that (as though I should
leave him my money if I don't marry her!). Besides if Mitya marries
Grushenka, Ivan will carry off his rich betrothed, that's what
he's reckoning on! He is a scoundrel, your Ivan!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“How cross you are! It's because of yesterday; you had better
lie down,”</span> said Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“There! you say that,”</span> the old man observed suddenly, as though
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it had struck him for the first time, <span class="tei tei-q">“and I am not angry with you.
But if Ivan said it, I should be angry with him. It is only with you
I have good moments, else you know I am an ill-natured man.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You are not ill-natured, but distorted,”</span> said Alyosha with a
smile.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Listen. I meant this morning to get that ruffian Mitya locked
up and I don't know now what I shall decide about it. Of course
in these fashionable days fathers and mothers are looked upon as a
prejudice, but even now the law does not allow you to drag your
old father about by the hair, to kick him in the face in his own
house, and brag of murdering him outright—all in the presence of
witnesses. If I liked, I could crush him and could have him locked
up at once for what he did yesterday.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Then you don't mean to take proceedings?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ivan has dissuaded me. I shouldn't care about Ivan, but there's
another thing.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And bending down to Alyosha, he went on in a confidential half-whisper.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“If I send the ruffian to prison, she'll hear of it and run to see
him at once. But if she hears that he has beaten me, a weak old
man, within an inch of my life, she may give him up and come to
me.... For that's her way, everything by contraries. I know
her through and through! Won't you have a drop of brandy?
Take some cold coffee and I'll pour a quarter of a glass of brandy
into it, it's delicious, my boy.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, thank you. I'll take that roll with me if I may,”</span> said
Alyosha, and taking a halfpenny French roll he put it in the pocket
of his cassock. <span class="tei tei-q">“And you'd better not have brandy, either,”</span> he
suggested apprehensively, looking into the old man's face.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You are quite right, it irritates my nerves instead of soothing
them. Only one little glass. I'll get it out of the cupboard.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He unlocked the cupboard, poured out a glass, drank it, then
locked the cupboard and put the key back in his pocket.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's enough. One glass won't kill me.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You see you are in a better humor now,”</span> said Alyosha, smiling.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Um! I love you even without the brandy, but with scoundrels
I am a scoundrel. Ivan is not going to Tchermashnya—why is that?
He wants to spy how much I give Grushenka if she comes. They
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are all scoundrels! But I don't recognize Ivan, I don't know him
at all. Where does he come from? He is not one of us in soul. As
though I'd leave him anything! I shan't leave a will at all, you may
as well know. And I'll crush Mitya like a beetle. I squash black-beetles
at night with my slipper; they squelch when you tread on
them. And your Mitya will squelch too. <em class="tei tei-emph"><span style="font-style: italic">Your</span></em> Mitya, for you love
him. Yes, you love him and I am not afraid of your loving him.
But if Ivan loved him I should be afraid for myself at his loving
him. But Ivan loves nobody. Ivan is not one of us. People like
Ivan are not our sort, my boy. They are like a cloud of dust.
When the wind blows, the dust will be gone.... I had a silly idea
in my head when I told you to come to-day; I wanted to find out
from you about Mitya. If I were to hand him over a thousand or
maybe two now, would the beggarly wretch agree to take himself
off altogether for five years or, better still, thirty-five, and without
Grushenka, and give her up once for all, eh?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I—I'll ask him,”</span> muttered Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“If you would give him
three thousand, perhaps he—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's nonsense! You needn't ask him now, no need! I've
changed my mind. It was a nonsensical idea of mine. I won't give
him anything, not a penny, I want my money myself,”</span> cried the old
man, waving his hand. <span class="tei tei-q">“I'll crush him like a beetle without it.
Don't say anything to him or else he will begin hoping. There's
nothing for you to do here, you needn't stay. Is that betrothed of
his, Katerina Ivanovna, whom he has kept so carefully hidden from
me all this time, going to marry him or not? You went to see her
yesterday, I believe?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Nothing will induce her to abandon him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“There you see how dearly these fine young ladies love a rake and
a scoundrel. They are poor creatures I tell you, those pale young
ladies, very different from—Ah, if I had his youth and the looks
I had then (for I was better-looking than he at eight and twenty)
I'd have been a conquering hero just as he is. He is a low cad!
But he shan't have Grushenka, anyway, he shan't! I'll crush him!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
His anger had returned with the last words.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You can go. There's nothing for you to do here to-day,”</span> he
snapped harshly.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alyosha went up to say good-by to him, and kissed him on the
shoulder.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What's that for?”</span> The old man was a little surprised. <span class="tei tei-q">“We
shall see each other again, or do you think we shan't?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Not at all, I didn't mean anything.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Nor did I, I did not mean anything,”</span> said the old man, looking
at him. <span class="tei tei-q">“Listen, listen,”</span> he shouted after him, <span class="tei tei-q">“make haste and
come again and I'll have a fish soup for you, a fine one, not like
to-day. Be sure to come! Come to-morrow, do you hear, to-morrow!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And as soon as Alyosha had gone out of the door, he went to the
cupboard again and poured out another half-glass.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I won't have more!”</span> he muttered, clearing his throat, and again
he locked the cupboard and put the key in his pocket. Then he
went into his bedroom, lay down on the bed, exhausted, and in one
minute he was asleep.</p>
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