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<h2 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.88em; margin-top: 2.88em"><span style="font-size: 144%">Book VI. The Russian Monk</span></h2>
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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter I. Father Zossima And His Visitors</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
When with an anxious and aching heart Alyosha went into
his elder's cell, he stood still almost astonished. Instead of a
sick man at his last gasp, perhaps unconscious, as he had feared to
find him, he saw him sitting up in his chair and, though weak and
exhausted, his face was bright and cheerful, he was surrounded by
visitors and engaged in a quiet and joyful conversation. But he
had only got up from his bed a quarter of an hour before Alyosha's
arrival; his visitors had gathered together in his cell earlier, waiting
for him to wake, having received a most confident assurance from
Father Païssy that <span class="tei tei-q">“the teacher would get up, and as he had himself
promised in the morning, converse once more with those dear to his
heart.”</span> This promise and indeed every word of the dying elder
Father Païssy put implicit trust in. If he had seen him unconscious,
if he had seen him breathe his last, and yet had his promise
that he would rise up and say good-by to him, he would not have
believed perhaps even in death, but would still have expected the
dead man to recover and fulfill his promise. In the morning as he
lay down to sleep, Father Zossima had told him positively: <span class="tei tei-q">“I shall
not die without the delight of another conversation with you, beloved
of my heart. I shall look once more on your dear face and
pour out my heart to you once again.”</span> The monks, who had
gathered for this probably last conversation with Father Zossima,
had all been his devoted friends for many years. There were four
of them: Father Iosif and Father Païssy, Father Mihaïl, the warden
of the hermitage, a man not very old and far from being learned.
He was of humble origin, of strong will and steadfast faith, of
austere appearance, but of deep tenderness, though he obviously concealed
it as though he were almost ashamed of it. The fourth,
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Father Anfim, was a very old and humble little monk of the poorest
peasant class. He was almost illiterate, and very quiet, scarcely
speaking to any one. He was the humblest of the humble, and
looked as though he had been frightened by something great and
awful beyond the scope of his intelligence. Father Zossima had a
great affection for this timorous man, and always treated him with
marked respect, though perhaps there was no one he had known to
whom he had said less, in spite of the fact that he had spent years
wandering about holy Russia with him. That was very long ago,
forty years before, when Father Zossima first began his life as a monk
in a poor and little monastery at Kostroma, and when, shortly after,
he had accompanied Father Anfim on his pilgrimage to collect alms
for their poor monastery.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The whole party were in the bedroom which, as we mentioned
before, was very small, so that there was scarcely room for the four
of them (in addition to Porfiry, the novice, who stood) to sit
round Father Zossima on chairs brought from the sitting-room. It
was already beginning to get dark, the room was lighted up by the
lamps and the candles before the ikons.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Seeing Alyosha standing embarrassed in the doorway, Father
Zossima smiled at him joyfully and held out his hand.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Welcome, my quiet one, welcome, my dear, here you are too.
I knew you would come.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alyosha went up to him, bowed down before him to the ground
and wept. Something surged up from his heart, his soul was quivering,
he wanted to sob.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Come, don't weep over me yet,”</span> Father Zossima smiled, laying
his right hand on his head. <span class="tei tei-q">“You see I am sitting up talking; maybe
I shall live another twenty years yet, as that dear good woman from
Vishegorye, with her little Lizaveta in her arms, wished me yesterday.
God bless the mother and the little girl Lizaveta,”</span> he crossed himself.
<span class="tei tei-q">“Porfiry, did you take her offering where I told you?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He meant the sixty copecks brought him the day before by the
good-humored woman to be given <span class="tei tei-q">“to some one poorer than me.”</span>
Such offerings, always of money gained by personal toil, are made by
way of penance voluntarily undertaken. The elder had sent Porfiry
the evening before to a widow, whose house had been burnt down
lately, and who after the fire had gone with her children begging
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alms. Porfiry hastened to reply that he had given the money, as he
had been instructed, <span class="tei tei-q">“from an unknown benefactress.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Get up, my dear boy,”</span> the elder went on to Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“Let me
look at you. Have you been home and seen your brother?”</span> It
seemed strange to Alyosha that he asked so confidently and precisely,
about one of his brothers only—but which one? Then perhaps he
had sent him out both yesterday and to-day for the sake of that
brother.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I have seen one of my brothers,”</span> answered Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I mean the elder one, to whom I bowed down.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I only saw him yesterday and could not find him to-day,”</span> said
Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Make haste to find him, go again to-morrow and make haste,
leave everything and make haste. Perhaps you may still have time
to prevent something terrible. I bowed down yesterday to the
great suffering in store for him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He was suddenly silent and seemed to be pondering. The words
were strange. Father Iosif, who had witnessed the scene yesterday,
exchanged glances with Father Païssy. Alyosha could not resist
asking:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Father and teacher,”</span> he began with extreme emotion, <span class="tei tei-q">“your
words are too obscure.... What is this suffering in store for
him?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Don't inquire. I seemed to see something terrible yesterday ... as
though his whole future were expressed in his eyes. A look
came into his eyes—so that I was instantly horror-stricken at what
that man is preparing for himself. Once or twice in my life I've
seen such a look in a man's face ... reflecting as it were his future
fate, and that fate, alas, came to pass. I sent you to him, Alexey,
for I thought your brotherly face would help him. But everything
and all our fates are from the Lord. <span class="tei tei-q">‘Except a corn of wheat fall
into the ground and die, it abideth alone; but if it die, it bringeth
forth much fruit.’</span> Remember that. You, Alexey, I've many times
silently blessed for your face, know that,”</span> added the elder with a
gentle smile. <span class="tei tei-q">“This is what I think of you, you will go forth from
these walls, but will live like a monk in the world. You will have
many enemies, but even your foes will love you. Life will bring
you many misfortunes, but you will find your happiness in them,
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and will bless life and will make others bless it—which is what
matters most. Well, that is your character. Fathers and teachers,”</span>
he addressed his friends with a tender smile, <span class="tei tei-q">“I have never till to-day
told even him why the face of this youth is so dear to me. Now I
will tell you. His face has been as it were a remembrance and a
prophecy for me. At the dawn of my life when I was a child I had
an elder brother who died before my eyes at seventeen. And later on
in the course of my life I gradually became convinced that that
brother had been for a guidance and a sign from on high for me. For
had he not come into my life, I should never perhaps, so I fancy at
least, have become a monk and entered on this precious path. He
appeared first to me in my childhood, and here, at the end of my
pilgrimage, he seems to have come to me over again. It is marvelous,
fathers and teachers, that Alexey, who has some, though not
a great, resemblance in face, seems to me so like him spiritually, that
many times I have taken him for that young man, my brother,
mysteriously come back to me at the end of my pilgrimage, as a
reminder and an inspiration. So that I positively wondered at so
strange a dream in myself. Do you hear this, Porfiry?”</span> he turned to
the novice who waited on him. <span class="tei tei-q">“Many times I've seen in your face
as it were a look of mortification that I love Alexey more than you.
Now you know why that was so, but I love you too, know that, and
many times I grieved at your mortification. I should like to tell
you, dear friends, of that youth, my brother, for there has been no
presence in my life more precious, more significant and touching.
My heart is full of tenderness, and I look at my whole life at this
moment as though living through it again.”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Here I must observe that this last conversation of Father Zossima
with the friends who visited him on the last day of his life has been
partly preserved in writing. Alexey Fyodorovitch Karamazov wrote
it down from memory, some time after his elder's death. But
whether this was only the conversation that took place then, or
whether he added to it his notes of parts of former conversations
with his teacher, I cannot determine. In his account, Father
Zossima's talk goes on without interruption, as though he told his
life to his friends in the form of a story, though there is no doubt,
from other accounts of it, that the conversation that evening was
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general. Though the guests did not interrupt Father Zossima much,
yet they too talked, perhaps even told something themselves. Besides,
Father Zossima could not have carried on an uninterrupted narrative,
for he was sometimes gasping for breath, his voice failed
him, and he even lay down to rest on his bed, though he did not fall
asleep and his visitors did not leave their seats. Once or twice the
conversation was interrupted by Father Païssy's reading the Gospel.
It is worthy of note, too, that no one of them supposed that he would
die that night, for on that evening of his life after his deep sleep in
the day he seemed suddenly to have found new strength, which kept
him up through this long conversation. It was like a last effort of
love which gave him marvelous energy; only for a little time, however,
for his life was cut short immediately.... But of that later.
I will only add now that I have preferred to confine myself to the
account given by Alexey Fyodorovitch Karamazov. It will be
shorter and not so fatiguing, though of course, as I must repeat,
Alyosha took a great deal from previous conversations and added
them to it.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Notes of the Life of the deceased Priest and Monk, the Elder Zossima,
taken from his own words by Alexey Fyodorovitch Karamazov.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-variant: small-caps">Biographical Notes</span></span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">(a)</span></span> <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">Father Zossima's Brother</span></span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Beloved fathers and teachers, I was born in a distant province in
the north, in the town of V. My father was a gentleman by birth,
but of no great consequence or position. He died when I was only
two years old, and I don't remember him at all. He left my mother
a small house built of wood, and a fortune, not large, but sufficient
to keep her and her children in comfort. There were two of us,
my elder brother Markel and I. He was eight years older than I
was, of hasty irritable temperament, but kind-hearted and never
ironical. He was remarkably silent, especially at home with me,
his mother, and the servants. He did well at school, but did not get
on with his schoolfellows, though he never quarreled, at least so my
mother has told me. Six months before his death, when he was
seventeen, he made friends with a political exile who had been
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banished from Moscow to our town for freethinking, and led a
solitary existence there. He was a good scholar who had gained
distinction in philosophy in the university. Something made him
take a fancy to Markel, and he used to ask him to see him. The
young man would spend whole evenings with him during that
winter, till the exile was summoned to Petersburg to take up his
post again at his own request, as he had powerful friends.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
It was the beginning of Lent, and Markel would not fast, he was
rude and laughed at it. <span class="tei tei-q">“That's all silly twaddle, and there is no
God,”</span> he said, horrifying my mother, the servants, and me too.
For though I was only nine, I too was aghast at hearing such words.
We had four servants, all serfs. I remember my mother selling one
of the four, the cook Afimya, who was lame and elderly, for sixty
paper roubles, and hiring a free servant to take her place.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
In the sixth week in Lent, my brother, who was never strong and
had a tendency to consumption, was taken ill. He was tall but thin
and delicate-looking, and of very pleasing countenance. I suppose
he caught cold, anyway the doctor, who came, soon whispered to
my mother that it was galloping consumption, that he would not
live through the spring. My mother began weeping, and, careful
not to alarm my brother, she entreated him to go to church, to confess
and take the sacrament, as he was still able to move about. This
made him angry, and he said something profane about the church.
He grew thoughtful, however; he guessed at once that he was seriously
ill, and that that was why his mother was begging him to
confess and take the sacrament. He had been aware, indeed, for a
long time past, that he was far from well, and had a year before
coolly observed at dinner to our mother and me, <span class="tei tei-q">“My life won't be
long among you, I may not live another year,”</span> which seemed now
like a prophecy.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Three days passed and Holy Week had come. And on Tuesday
morning my brother began going to church. <span class="tei tei-q">“I am doing this
simply for your sake, mother, to please and comfort you,”</span> he said.
My mother wept with joy and grief. <span class="tei tei-q">“His end must be near,”</span> she
thought, <span class="tei tei-q">“if there's such a change in him.”</span> But he was not able to
go to church long, he took to his bed, so he had to confess and take
the sacrament at home.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
It was a late Easter, and the days were bright, fine, and full of
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fragrance. I remember he used to cough all night and sleep badly,
but in the morning he dressed and tried to sit up in an arm-chair.
That's how I remember him sitting, sweet and gentle, smiling, his
face bright and joyous, in spite of his illness. A marvelous change
passed over him, his spirit seemed transformed. The old nurse would
come in and say, <span class="tei tei-q">“Let me light the lamp before the holy image, my
dear.”</span> And once he would not have allowed it and would have
blown it out.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Light it, light it, dear, I was a wretch to have prevented you
doing it. You are praying when you light the lamp, and I am praying
when I rejoice seeing you. So we are praying to the same God.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Those words seemed strange to us, and mother would go to her
room and weep, but when she went in to him she wiped her eyes
and looked cheerful. <span class="tei tei-q">“Mother, don't weep, darling,”</span> he would say,
<span class="tei tei-q">“I've long to live yet, long to rejoice with you, and life is glad and
joyful.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ah, dear boy, how can you talk of joy when you lie feverish
at night, coughing as though you would tear yourself to pieces.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Don't cry, mother,”</span> he would answer, <span class="tei tei-q">“life is paradise, and we
are all in paradise, but we won't see it, if we would, we should
have heaven on earth the next day.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Every one wondered at his words, he spoke so strangely and positively;
we were all touched and wept. Friends came to see us.
<span class="tei tei-q">“Dear ones,”</span> he would say to them, <span class="tei tei-q">“what have I done that you
should love me so, how can you love any one like me, and how was
it I did not know, I did not appreciate it before?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
When the servants came in to him he would say continually,
<span class="tei tei-q">“Dear, kind people, why are you doing so much for me, do I deserve
to be waited on? If it were God's will for me to live, I would wait
on you, for all men should wait on one another.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mother shook her head as she listened. <span class="tei tei-q">“My darling, it's your illness
makes you talk like that.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Mother, darling,”</span> he would say, <span class="tei tei-q">“there must be servants and
masters, but if so I will be the servant of my servants, the same as
they are to me. And another thing, mother, every one of us has
sinned against all men, and I more than any.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mother positively smiled at that, smiled through her tears. <span class="tei tei-q">“Why,
how could you have sinned against all men, more than all? Robbers
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and murderers have done that, but what sin have you committed
yet, that you hold yourself more guilty than all?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Mother, little heart of mine,”</span> he said (he had begun using such
strange caressing words at that time), <span class="tei tei-q">“little heart of mine, my
joy, believe me, every one is really responsible to all men for all men
and for everything. I don't know how to explain it to you, but I
feel it is so, painfully even. And how is it we went on then living,
getting angry and not knowing?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
So he would get up every day, more and more sweet and joyous
and full of love. When the doctor, an old German called Eisenschmidt,
came:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, doctor, have I another day in this world?”</span> he would ask,
joking.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You'll live many days yet,”</span> the doctor would answer, <span class="tei tei-q">“and
months and years too.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Months and years!”</span> he would exclaim. <span class="tei tei-q">“Why reckon the days?
One day is enough for a man to know all happiness. My dear ones,
why do we quarrel, try to outshine each other and keep grudges
against each other? Let's go straight into the garden, walk and
play there, love, appreciate, and kiss each other, and glorify life.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Your son cannot last long,”</span> the doctor told my mother, as she
accompanied him to the door. <span class="tei tei-q">“The disease is affecting his brain.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The windows of his room looked out into the garden, and our
garden was a shady one, with old trees in it which were coming into
bud. The first birds of spring were flitting in the branches, chirruping
and singing at the windows. And looking at them and admiring
them, he began suddenly begging their forgiveness too: <span class="tei tei-q">“Birds
of heaven, happy birds, forgive me, for I have sinned against you
too.”</span> None of us could understand that at the time, but he shed
tears of joy. <span class="tei tei-q">“Yes,”</span> he said, <span class="tei tei-q">“there was such a glory of God all
about me: birds, trees, meadows, sky; only I lived in shame and dishonored
it all and did not notice the beauty and glory.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You take too many sins on yourself,”</span> mother used to say,
weeping.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Mother, darling, it's for joy, not for grief I am crying. Though
I can't explain it to you, I like to humble myself before them, for
I don't know how to love them enough. If I have sinned against
every one, yet all forgive me, too, and that's heaven. Am I not in
heaven now?”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And there was a great deal more I don't remember. I remember
I went once into his room when there was no one else there. It was
a bright evening, the sun was setting, and the whole room was
lighted up. He beckoned me, and I went up to him. He put his
hands on my shoulders and looked into my face tenderly, lovingly;
he said nothing for a minute, only looked at me like that.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well,”</span> he said, <span class="tei tei-q">“run and play now, enjoy life for me too.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
I went out then and ran to play. And many times in my life
afterwards I remembered even with tears how he told me to enjoy
life for him too. There were many other marvelous and beautiful
sayings of his, though we did not understand them at the time.
He died the third week after Easter. He was fully conscious
though he could not talk; up to his last hour he did not change.
He looked happy, his eyes beamed and sought us, he smiled at us,
beckoned us. There was a great deal of talk even in the town about
his death. I was impressed by all this at the time, but not too much
so, though I cried a good deal at his funeral. I was young then,
a child, but a lasting impression, a hidden feeling of it all, remained
in my heart, ready to rise up and respond when the time
came. So indeed it happened.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">(b) Of the Holy Scriptures in the Life of Father Zossima</span></span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
I was left alone with my mother. Her friends began advising her
to send me to Petersburg as other parents did. <span class="tei tei-q">“You have only one
son now,”</span> they said, <span class="tei tei-q">“and have a fair income, and you will be
depriving him perhaps of a brilliant career if you keep him here.”</span>
They suggested I should be sent to Petersburg to the Cadet Corps,
that I might afterwards enter the Imperial Guard. My mother
hesitated for a long time, it was awful to part with her only child,
but she made up her mind to it at last, though not without many
tears, believing she was acting for my happiness. She brought me
to Petersburg and put me into the Cadet Corps, and I never saw
her again. For she too died three years afterwards. She spent those
three years mourning and grieving for both of us.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
From the house of my childhood I have brought nothing but
precious memories, for there are no memories more precious than
those of early childhood in one's first home. And that is almost
always so if there is any love and harmony in the family at all.
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Indeed, precious memories may remain even of a bad home, if only
the heart knows how to find what is precious. With my memories
of home I count, too, my memories of the Bible, which, child as I
was, I was very eager to read at home. I had a book of Scripture
history then with excellent pictures, called <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">A Hundred and Four
Stories from the Old and New Testament</span></span>, and I learned to read
from it. I have it lying on my shelf now, I keep it as a precious
relic of the past. But even before I learned to read, I remember
first being moved to devotional feeling at eight years old. My
mother took me alone to mass (I don't remember where my brother
was at the time) on the Monday before Easter. It was a fine day,
and I remember to-day, as though I saw it now, how the incense
rose from the censer and softly floated upwards and, overhead in
the cupola, mingled in rising waves with the sunlight that streamed
in at the little window. I was stirred by the sight, and for the first
time in my life I consciously received the seed of God's word in my
heart. A youth came out into the middle of the church carrying a
big book, so large that at the time I fancied he could scarcely carry
it. He laid it on the reading desk, opened it, and began reading,
and suddenly for the first time I understood something read in the
church of God. In the land of Uz, there lived a man, righteous
and God-fearing, and he had great wealth, so many camels, so many
sheep and asses, and his children feasted, and he loved them very
much and prayed for them. <span class="tei tei-q">“It may be that my sons have sinned
in their feasting.”</span> Now the devil came before the Lord together
with the sons of God, and said to the Lord that he had gone up and
down the earth and under the earth. <span class="tei tei-q">“And hast thou considered
my servant Job?”</span> God asked of him. And God boasted to the devil,
pointing to his great and holy servant. And the devil laughed at
God's words. <span class="tei tei-q">“Give him over to me and Thou wilt see that Thy
servant will murmur against Thee and curse Thy name.”</span> And
God gave up the just man He loved so, to the devil. And the devil
smote his children and his cattle and scattered his wealth, all of a
sudden like a thunderbolt from heaven. And Job rent his mantle
and fell down upon the ground and cried aloud, <span class="tei tei-q">“Naked came I
out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return into the earth;
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the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name
of the Lord for ever and ever.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Fathers and teachers, forgive my tears now, for all my childhood
rises up again before me, and I breathe now as I breathed then, with
the breast of a little child of eight, and I feel as I did then, awe and
wonder and gladness. The camels at that time caught my imagination,
and Satan, who talked like that with God, and God who gave
His servant up to destruction, and His servant crying out: <span class="tei tei-q">“Blessed
be Thy name although Thou dost punish me,”</span> and then the soft
and sweet singing in the church: <span class="tei tei-q">“Let my prayer rise up before
Thee,”</span> and again incense from the priest's censer and the kneeling
and the prayer. Ever since then—only yesterday I took it up—I've
never been able to read that sacred tale without tears. And how
much that is great, mysterious and unfathomable there is in it!
Afterwards I heard the words of mockery and blame, proud words,
<span class="tei tei-q">“How could God give up the most loved of His saints for the diversion
of the devil, take from him his children, smite him with sore
boils so that he cleansed the corruption from his sores with a pot-sherd—and
for no object except to boast to the devil! <span class="tei tei-q">‘See what
My saint can suffer for My sake.’</span> ”</span> But the greatness of it lies just
in the fact that it is a mystery—that the passing earthly show
and the eternal verity are brought together in it. In the face of
the earthly truth, the eternal truth is accomplished. The Creator,
just as on the first days of creation He ended each day with praise:
<span class="tei tei-q">“That is good that I have created,”</span> looks upon Job and again praises
His creation. And Job, praising the Lord, serves not only Him but
all His creation for generations and generations, and for ever and
ever, since for that he was ordained. Good heavens, what a book
it is, and what lessons there are in it! What a book the Bible is,
what a miracle, what strength is given with it to man! It is like a
mold cast of the world and man and human nature, everything is
there, and a law for everything for all the ages. And what mysteries
are solved and revealed! God raises Job again, gives him
wealth again. Many years pass by, and he has other children and
loves them. But how could he love those new ones when those
first children are no more, when he has lost them? Remembering
them, how could he be fully happy with those new ones, however
dear the new ones might be? But he could, he could. It's the great
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mystery of human life that old grief passes gradually into quiet,
tender joy. The mild serenity of age takes the place of the riotous
blood of youth. I bless the rising sun each day, and, as before,
my hearts sings to meet it, but now I love even more its setting, its
long slanting rays and the soft, tender, gentle memories that come
with them, the dear images from the whole of my long, happy life—and
over all the Divine Truth, softening, reconciling, forgiving!
My life is ending, I know that well, but every day that is left me I
feel how my earthly life is in touch with a new infinite, unknown,
that approaching life, the nearness of which sets my soul quivering
with rapture, my mind glowing and my heart weeping with joy.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Friends and teachers, I have heard more than once, and of late
one may hear it more often, that the priests, and above all the village
priests, are complaining on all sides of their miserable income
and their humiliating lot. They plainly state, even in print—I've
read it myself—that they are unable to teach the Scriptures to the
people because of the smallness of their means, and if Lutherans
and heretics come and lead the flock astray, they let them lead
them astray because they have so little to live upon. May the
Lord increase the sustenance that is so precious to them, for their
complaint is just, too. But of a truth I say, if any one is to blame
in the matter, half the fault is ours. For he may be short of time,
he may say truly that he is overwhelmed all the while with work
and services, but still it's not all the time, even he has an hour a
week to remember God. And he does not work the whole year
round. Let him gather round him once a week, some hour in the
evening, if only the children at first—the fathers will hear of it and
they too will begin to come. There's no need to build halls for this,
let him take them into his own cottage. They won't spoil his cottage,
they would only be there one hour. Let him open that book
and begin reading it without grand words or superciliousness, without
condescension to them, but gently and kindly, being glad that
he is reading to them and that they are listening with attention,
loving the words himself, only stopping from time to time to explain
words that are not understood by the peasants. Don't be anxious,
they will understand everything, the orthodox heart will understand
all! Let him read them about Abraham and Sarah, about Isaac
and Rebecca, of how Jacob went to Laban and wrestled with the
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Lord in his dream and said, <span class="tei tei-q">“This place is holy”</span>—and he will impress
the devout mind of the peasant. Let him read, especially to the
children, how the brothers sold Joseph, the tender boy, the dreamer
and prophet, into bondage, and told their father that a wild beast
had devoured him, and showed him his blood-stained clothes. Let
him read them how the brothers afterwards journeyed into Egypt
for corn, and Joseph, already a great ruler, unrecognized by them,
tormented them, accused them, kept his brother Benjamin, and all
through love: <span class="tei tei-q">“I love you, and loving you I torment you.”</span> For
he remembered all his life how they had sold him to the merchants
in the burning desert by the well, and how, wringing his hands, he
had wept and besought his brothers not to sell him as a slave in a
strange land. And how, seeing them again after many years, he
loved them beyond measure, but he harassed and tormented them
in love. He left them at last not able to bear the suffering of his
heart, flung himself on his bed and wept. Then, wiping his tears
away, he went out to them joyful and told them, <span class="tei tei-q">“Brothers, I am
your brother Joseph!”</span> Let him read them further how happy old
Jacob was on learning that his darling boy was still alive, and how
he went to Egypt leaving his own country, and died in a foreign
land, bequeathing his great prophecy that had lain mysteriously
hidden in his meek and timid heart all his life, that from his offspring,
from Judah, will come the great hope of the world, the
Messiah and Saviour.</p>
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Fathers and teachers, forgive me and don't be angry, that like a
little child I've been babbling of what you know long ago, and can
teach me a hundred times more skillfully. I only speak from rapture,
and forgive my tears, for I love the Bible. Let him too weep,
the priest of God, and be sure that the hearts of his listeners will
throb in response. Only a little tiny seed is needed—drop it into
the heart of the peasant and it won't die, it will live in his soul
all his life, it will be hidden in the midst of his darkness and sin,
like a bright spot, like a great reminder. And there's no need of
much teaching or explanation, he will understand it all simply. Do
you suppose that the peasants don't understand? Try reading them
the touching story of the fair Esther and the haughty Vashti; or
the miraculous story of Jonah in the whale. Don't forget either the
parables of Our Lord, choose especially from the Gospel of St. Luke
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(that is what I did), and then from the Acts of the Apostles the
conversion of St. Paul (that you mustn't leave out on any account),
and from the <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">Lives of the Saints</span></span>, for instance, the life of
Alexey, the man of God and, greatest of all, the happy martyr and the seer
of God, Mary of Egypt—and you will penetrate their hearts with
these simple tales. Give one hour a week to it in spite of your
poverty, only one little hour. And you will see for yourselves that
our people is gracious and grateful, and will repay you a hundred-fold.
Mindful of the kindness of their priest and the moving words
they have heard from him, they will of their own accord help him
in his fields and in his house, and will treat him with more respect
than before—so that it will even increase his worldly well-being too.
The thing is so simple that sometimes one is even afraid to put it
into words, for fear of being laughed at, and yet how true it is!
One who does not believe in God will not believe in God's people.
He who believes in God's people will see His Holiness too, even
though he had not believed in it till then. Only the people and
their future spiritual power will convert our atheists, who have torn
themselves away from their native soil.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And what is the use of Christ's words, unless we set an example?
The people is lost without the Word of God, for its soul is athirst
for the Word and for all that is good.</p>
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In my youth, long ago, nearly forty years ago, I traveled all over
Russia with Father Anfim, collecting funds for our monastery, and
we stayed one night on the bank of a great navigable river with
some fishermen. A good-looking peasant lad, about eighteen, joined
us; he had to hurry back next morning to pull a merchant's barge
along the bank. I noticed him looking straight before him with
clear and tender eyes. It was a bright, warm, still, July night, a
cool mist rose from the broad river, we could hear the plash of a
fish, the birds were still, all was hushed and beautiful, everything
praying to God. Only we two were not sleeping, the lad and I,
and we talked of the beauty of this world of God's and of the great
mystery of it. Every blade of grass, every insect, ant, and golden
bee, all so marvelously know their path, though they have not intelligence,
they bear witness to the mystery of God and continually
accomplish it themselves. I saw the dear lad's heart was moved. He
told me that he loved the forest and the forest birds. He was a
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bird-catcher, knew the note of each of them, could call each bird.
<span class="tei tei-q">“I know nothing better than to be in the forest,”</span> said he, <span class="tei tei-q">“though
all things are good.”</span></p>
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<span class="tei tei-q">“Truly,”</span> I answered him, <span class="tei tei-q">“all things are good and fair, because
all is truth. Look,”</span> said I, <span class="tei tei-q">“at the horse, that great beast that is so
near to man; or the lowly, pensive ox, which feeds him and works
for him; look at their faces, what meekness, what devotion to man,
who often beats them mercilessly. What gentleness, what confidence
and what beauty! It's touching to know that there's no sin
in them, for all, all except man, is sinless, and Christ has been
with them before us.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why,”</span> asked the boy, <span class="tei tei-q">“is Christ with them too?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It cannot but be so,”</span> said I, <span class="tei tei-q">“since the Word is for all. All
creation and all creatures, every leaf is striving to the Word, singing
glory to God, weeping to Christ, unconsciously accomplishing
this by the mystery of their sinless life. Yonder,”</span> said I, <span class="tei tei-q">“in the
forest wanders the dreadful bear, fierce and menacing, and yet innocent
in it.”</span> And I told him how once a bear came to a great
saint who had taken refuge in a tiny cell in the wood. And the
great saint pitied him, went up to him without fear and gave him
a piece of bread. <span class="tei tei-q">“Go along,”</span> said he, <span class="tei tei-q">“Christ be with you,”</span> and
the savage beast walked away meekly and obediently, doing no harm.
And the lad was delighted that the bear had walked away without
hurting the saint, and that Christ was with him too. <span class="tei tei-q">“Ah,”</span> said
he, <span class="tei tei-q">“how good that is, how good and beautiful is all God's work!”</span>
He sat musing softly and sweetly. I saw he understood. And he
slept beside me a light and sinless sleep. May God bless youth!
And I prayed for him as I went to sleep. Lord, send peace and light
to Thy people!</p>
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