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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter IV. The Second Ordeal</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You don't know how you encourage us, Dmitri Fyodorovitch,
by your readiness to answer,”</span> said Nikolay Parfenovitch,
with an animated air, and obvious satisfaction beaming in his very
prominent, short-sighted, light gray eyes, from which he had removed
his spectacles a moment before. <span class="tei tei-q">“And you have made a
very just remark about the mutual confidence, without which it is
sometimes positively impossible to get on in cases of such importance,
if the suspected party really hopes and desires to defend himself and
is in a position to do so. We, on our side, will do everything
in our power, and you can see for yourself how we are conducting
the case. You approve, Ippolit Kirillovitch?”</span> He turned to the
prosecutor.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, undoubtedly,”</span> replied the prosecutor. His tone was somewhat
cold, compared with Nikolay Parfenovitch's impulsiveness.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
I will note once for all that Nikolay Parfenovitch, who had but
lately arrived among us, had from the first felt marked respect
for Ippolit Kirillovitch, our prosecutor, and had become almost his
bosom friend. He was almost the only person who put implicit
faith in Ippolit Kirillovitch's extraordinary talents as a psychologist
and orator and in the justice of his grievance. He had heard of him
in Petersburg. On the other hand, young Nikolay Parfenovitch
was the only person in the whole world whom our <span class="tei tei-q">“unappreciated”</span>
prosecutor genuinely liked. On their way to Mokroe they had
time to come to an understanding about the present case. And now
as they sat at the table, the sharp-witted junior caught and interpreted
every indication on his senior colleague's face—half a word,
a glance, or a wink.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Gentlemen, only let me tell my own story and don't interrupt
me with trivial questions and I'll tell you everything in a moment,”</span>
said Mitya excitedly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Excellent! Thank you. But before we proceed to listen to your
communication, will you allow me to inquire as to another little
fact of great interest to us? I mean the ten roubles you borrowed
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yesterday at about five o'clock on the security of your pistols, from
your friend, Pyotr Ilyitch Perhotin.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I pledged them, gentlemen. I pledged them for ten roubles.
What more? That's all about it. As soon as I got back to town I
pledged them.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You got back to town? Then you had been out of town?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, I went a journey of forty versts into the country. Didn't
you know?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor and Nikolay Parfenovitch exchanged glances.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, how would it be if you began your story with a systematic
description of all you did yesterday, from the morning
onwards? Allow us, for instance, to inquire why you were absent
from the town, and just when you left and when you came back—all
those facts.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You should have asked me like that from the beginning,”</span> cried
Mitya, laughing aloud, <span class="tei tei-q">“and, if you like, we won't begin from yesterday,
but from the morning of the day before; then you'll understand
how, why, and where I went. I went the day before yesterday,
gentlemen, to a merchant of the town, called Samsonov, to
borrow three thousand roubles from him on safe security. It was
a pressing matter, gentlemen, it was a sudden necessity.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Allow me to interrupt you,”</span> the prosecutor put in politely.
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why were you in such pressing need for just that sum, three
thousand?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, gentlemen, you needn't go into details, how, when and why,
and why just so much money, and not so much, and all that rigmarole.
Why, it'll run to three volumes, and then you'll want an
epilogue!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya said all this with the good-natured but impatient familiarity
of a man who is anxious to tell the whole truth and is full
of the best intentions.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Gentlemen!”</span>—he corrected himself hurriedly—<span class="tei tei-q">“don't be vexed
with me for my restiveness, I beg you again. Believe me once more,
I feel the greatest respect for you and understand the true position
of affairs. Don't think I'm drunk. I'm quite sober now. And,
besides, being drunk would be no hindrance. It's with me, you
know, like the saying: <span class="tei tei-q">‘When he is sober, he is a fool; when he is
drunk, he is a wise man.’</span> Ha ha! But I see, gentlemen, it's not the
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proper thing to make jokes to you, till we've had our explanation, I
mean. And I've my own dignity to keep up, too. I quite understand
the difference for the moment. I am, after all, in the position
of a criminal, and so, far from being on equal terms with you. And
it's your business to watch me. I can't expect you to pat me on the
head for what I did to Grigory, for one can't break old men's heads
with impunity. I suppose you'll put me away for him for six
months, or a year perhaps, in a house of correction. I don't know
what the punishment is—but it will be without loss of the rights
of my rank, without loss of my rank, won't it? So you see, gentlemen,
I understand the distinction between us.... But you
must see that you could puzzle God Himself with such questions.
<span class="tei tei-q">‘How did you step? Where did you step? When did you step?
And on what did you step?’</span> I shall get mixed up, if you go on like
this, and you will put it all down against me. And what will that
lead to? To nothing! And even if it's nonsense I'm talking now,
let me finish, and you, gentlemen, being men of honor and refinement,
will forgive me! I'll finish by asking you, gentlemen, to
drop that conventional method of questioning. I mean, beginning
from some miserable trifle, how I got up, what I had for breakfast,
how I spat, and where I spat, and so distracting the attention of
the criminal, suddenly stun him with an overwhelming question,
<span class="tei tei-q">‘Whom did you murder? Whom did you rob?’</span> Ha ha! That's
your regulation method, that's where all your cunning comes in.
You can put peasants off their guard like that, but not me. I know
the tricks. I've been in the service, too. Ha ha ha! You're not
angry, gentlemen? You forgive my impertinence?”</span> he cried, looking
at them with a good-nature that was almost surprising. <span class="tei tei-q">“It's
only Mitya Karamazov, you know, so you can overlook it. It would
be inexcusable in a sensible man; but you can forgive it in Mitya.
Ha ha!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Nikolay Parfenovitch listened, and laughed too. Though the
prosecutor did not laugh, he kept his eyes fixed keenly on Mitya,
as though anxious not to miss the least syllable, the slightest movement,
the smallest twitch of any feature of his face.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's how we have treated you from the beginning,”</span> said
Nikolay Parfenovitch, still laughing. <span class="tei tei-q">“We haven't tried to put you
out by asking how you got up in the morning and what you had for
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breakfast. We began, indeed, with questions of the greatest
importance.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I understand. I saw it and appreciated it, and I appreciate still
more your present kindness to me, an unprecedented kindness,
worthy of your noble hearts. We three here are gentlemen, and let
everything be on the footing of mutual confidence between educated,
well-bred people, who have the common bond of noble birth
and honor. In any case, allow me to look upon you as my best
friends at this moment of my life, at this moment when my honor
is assailed. That's no offense to you, gentlemen, is it?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“On the contrary. You've expressed all that so well, Dmitri Fyodorovitch,”</span>
Nikolay Parfenovitch answered with dignified approbation.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And enough of those trivial questions, gentlemen, all those
tricky questions!”</span> cried Mitya enthusiastically. <span class="tei tei-q">“Or there's simply
no knowing where we shall get to! Is there?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I will follow your sensible advice entirely,”</span> the prosecutor interposed,
addressing Mitya. <span class="tei tei-q">“I don't withdraw my question, however.
It is now vitally important for us to know exactly why you
needed that sum, I mean precisely three thousand.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why I needed it?... Oh, for one thing and another....
Well, it was to pay a debt.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“A debt to whom?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That I absolutely refuse to answer, gentlemen. Not because I
couldn't, or because I shouldn't dare, or because it would be damaging,
for it's all a paltry matter and absolutely trifling, but—I won't,
because it's a matter of principle: that's my private life, and I won't
allow any intrusion into my private life. That's my principle. Your
question has no bearing on the case, and whatever has nothing to do
with the case is my private affair. I wanted to pay a debt. I wanted
to pay a debt of honor but to whom I won't say.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Allow me to make a note of that,”</span> said the prosecutor.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“By all means. Write down that I won't say, that I won't.
Write that I should think it dishonorable to say. Ech! you can
write it; you've nothing else to do with your time.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Allow me to caution you, sir, and to remind you once more, if
you are unaware of it,”</span> the prosecutor began, with a peculiar and
stern impressiveness, <span class="tei tei-q">“that you have a perfect right not to answer
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the questions put to you now, and we on our side have no right to
extort an answer from you, if you decline to give it for one reason
or another. That is entirely a matter for your personal decision.
But it is our duty, on the other hand, in such cases as the present, to
explain and set before you the degree of injury you will be doing
yourself by refusing to give this or that piece of evidence. After
which I will beg you to continue.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Gentlemen, I'm not angry ... I ...”</span> Mitya muttered in a
rather disconcerted tone. <span class="tei tei-q">“Well, gentlemen, you see, that Samsonov
to whom I went then ...”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
We will, of course, not reproduce his account of what is known
to the reader already. Mitya was impatiently anxious not to omit
the slightest detail. At the same time he was in a hurry to get it
over. But as he gave his evidence it was written down, and therefore
they had continually to pull him up. Mitya disliked this, but
submitted; got angry, though still good-humoredly. He did, it is
true, exclaim, from time to time, <span class="tei tei-q">“Gentlemen, that's enough to
make an angel out of patience!”</span> Or, <span class="tei tei-q">“Gentlemen, it's no good
your irritating me.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
But even though he exclaimed he still preserved for a time his
genially expansive mood. So he told them how Samsonov had made
a fool of him two days before. (He had completely realized by now
that he had been fooled.) The sale of his watch for six roubles
to obtain money for the journey was something new to the lawyers.
They were at once greatly interested, and even, to Mitya's intense
indignation, thought it necessary to write the fact down as a secondary
confirmation of the circumstance that he had hardly a farthing
in his pocket at the time. Little by little Mitya began to grow
surly. Then, after describing his journey to see Lyagavy, the night
spent in the stifling hut, and so on, he came to his return to the
town. Here he began, without being particularly urged, to give a
minute account of the agonies of jealousy he endured on Grushenka's
account.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He was heard with silent attention. They inquired particularly
into the circumstance of his having a place of ambush in Marya
Kondratyevna's house at the back of Fyodor Pavlovitch's garden to
keep watch on Grushenka, and of Smerdyakov's bringing him information.
They laid particular stress on this, and noted it down.
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Of his jealousy he spoke warmly and at length, and though inwardly
ashamed at exposing his most intimate feelings to <span class="tei tei-q">“public ignominy,”</span>
so to speak, he evidently overcame his shame in order to
tell the truth. The frigid severity, with which the investigating
lawyer, and still more the prosecutor, stared intently at him as he
told his story, disconcerted him at last considerably.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That boy, Nikolay Parfenovitch, to whom I was talking nonsense
about women only a few days ago, and that sickly prosecutor are
not worth my telling this to,”</span> he reflected mournfully. <span class="tei tei-q">“It's ignominious.
<span class="tei tei-q">‘Be patient, humble, hold thy peace.’</span> ”</span> He wound up his
reflections with that line. But he pulled himself together to go on
again. When he came to telling of his visit to Madame Hohlakov,
he regained his spirits and even wished to tell a little anecdote of that
lady which had nothing to do with the case. But the investigating
lawyer stopped him, and civilly suggested that he should pass on to
<span class="tei tei-q">“more essential matters.”</span> At last, when he described his despair and
told them how, when he left Madame Hohlakov's, he thought that
he'd <span class="tei tei-q">“get three thousand if he had to murder some one to do it,”</span>
they stopped him again and noted down that he had <span class="tei tei-q">“meant to
murder some one.”</span> Mitya let them write it without protest. At
last he reached the point in his story when he learned that Grushenka
had deceived him and had returned from Samsonov's as soon as he
left her there, though she had said that she would stay there till
midnight.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“If I didn't kill Fenya then, gentlemen, it was only because I
hadn't time,”</span> broke from him suddenly at that point in his story.
That, too, was carefully written down. Mitya waited gloomily, and
was beginning to tell how he ran into his father's garden when the
investigating lawyer suddenly stopped him, and opening the big
portfolio that lay on the sofa beside him he brought out the brass
pestle.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Do you recognize this object?”</span> he asked, showing it to Mitya.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, yes,”</span> he laughed gloomily. <span class="tei tei-q">“Of course I recognize it. Let
me have a look at it.... Damn it, never mind!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You have forgotten to mention it,”</span> observed the investigating
lawyer.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Hang it all, I shouldn't have concealed it from you. Do you
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suppose I could have managed without it? It simply escaped my
memory.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Be so good as to tell us precisely how you came to arm yourself
with it.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Certainly I will be so good, gentlemen.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And Mitya described how he took the pestle and ran.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But what object had you in view in arming yourself with such
a weapon?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What object? No object. I just picked it up and ran off.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What for, if you had no object?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya's wrath flared up. He looked intently at <span class="tei tei-q">“the boy”</span> and
smiled gloomily and malignantly. He was feeling more and more
ashamed at having told <span class="tei tei-q">“such people”</span> the story of his jealousy so
sincerely and spontaneously.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Bother the pestle!”</span> broke from him suddenly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But still—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, to keep off dogs.... Oh, because it was dark.... In
case anything turned up.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But have you ever on previous occasions taken a weapon with
you when you went out, since you're afraid of the dark?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ugh! damn it all, gentlemen! There's positively no talking to
you!”</span> cried Mitya, exasperated beyond endurance, and turning to
the secretary, crimson with anger, he said quickly, with a note of
fury in his voice:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Write down at once ... at once ... <span class="tei tei-q">‘that I snatched up the
pestle to go and kill my father ... Fyodor Pavlovitch ... by
hitting him on the head with it!’</span> Well, now are you satisfied, gentlemen?
Are your minds relieved?”</span> he said, glaring defiantly at the
lawyers.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We quite understand that you made that statement just now
through exasperation with us and the questions we put to you,
which you consider trivial, though they are, in fact, essential,”</span> the
prosecutor remarked dryly in reply.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, upon my word, gentlemen! Yes, I took the pestle....
What does one pick things up for at such moments? I don't know
what for. I snatched it up and ran—that's all. For to me, gentlemen,
<span lang="fr" class="tei tei-foreign" xml:lang="fr"><span style="font-style: italic">passons</span></span>, or I declare
I won't tell you any more.”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He sat with his elbows on the table and his head in his hand. He
sat sideways to them and gazed at the wall, struggling against a
feeling of nausea. He had, in fact, an awful inclination to get up
and declare that he wouldn't say another word, <span class="tei tei-q">“not if you hang
me for it.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You see, gentlemen,”</span> he said at last, with difficulty controlling
himself, <span class="tei tei-q">“you see. I listen to you and am haunted by a dream....
It's a dream I have sometimes, you know.... I often dream it—it's
always the same ... that some one is hunting me, some one
I'm awfully afraid of ... that he's hunting me in the dark, in the
night ... tracking me, and I hide somewhere from him, behind a
door or cupboard, hide in a degrading way, and the worst of it is, he
always knows where I am, but he pretends not to know where I am
on purpose, to prolong my agony, to enjoy my terror.... That's
just what you're doing now. It's just like that!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Is that the sort of thing you dream about?”</span> inquired the prosecutor.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, it is. Don't you want to write it down?”</span> said Mitya, with
a distorted smile.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No; no need to write it down. But still you do have curious
dreams.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's not a question of dreams now, gentlemen—this is realism,
this is real life! I'm a wolf and you're the hunters. Well, hunt
him down!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You are wrong to make such comparisons ...”</span> began Nikolay
Parfenovitch, with extraordinary softness.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, I'm not wrong, not at all!”</span> Mitya flared up again, though
his outburst of wrath had obviously relieved his heart. He grew
more good-humored at every word. <span class="tei tei-q">“You may not trust a criminal
or a man on trial tortured by your questions, but an honorable man,
the honorable impulses of the heart (I say that boldly!)—no! That
you must believe you have no right indeed ... but—</span></p>
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<div class="tei tei-lg" style="margin-bottom: 0.90em; margin-top: 0.90em">
<div class="tei tei-l" style="text-align: left"><span style="font-size: 90%">Be silent, heart,</span></div>
<div class="tei tei-l" style="text-align: left"><span style="font-size: 90%">Be patient, humble, hold thy peace.</span></div>
</div></div>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">Well, shall I go on?”</span> he broke off gloomily.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“If you'll be so kind,”</span> answered Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
</div>
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