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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter V. The Third Ordeal</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Though Mitya spoke sullenly, it was evident that he was trying
more than ever not to forget or miss a single detail of his
story. He told them how he had leapt over the fence into his
father's garden; how he had gone up to the window; told them
all that had passed under the window. Clearly, precisely, distinctly,
he described the feelings that troubled him during those moments
in the garden when he longed so terribly to know whether Grushenka
was with his father or not. But, strange to say, both the
lawyers listened now with a sort of awful reserve, looked coldly at
him, asked few questions. Mitya could gather nothing from their
faces.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“They're angry and offended,”</span> he thought. <span class="tei tei-q">“Well, bother them!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
When he described how he made up his mind at last to make the
<span class="tei tei-q">“signal”</span> to his father that Grushenka had come, so that he should
open the window, the lawyers paid no attention to the word <span class="tei tei-q">“signal,”</span>
as though they entirely failed to grasp the meaning of the
word in this connection: so much so, that Mitya noticed it. Coming
at last to the moment when, seeing his father peering out of the
window, his hatred flared up and he pulled the pestle out of his
pocket, he suddenly, as though of design, stopped short. He sat
gazing at the wall and was aware that their eyes were fixed upon
him.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well?”</span> said the investigating lawyer. <span class="tei tei-q">“You pulled out the
weapon and ... and what happened then?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Then? Why, then I murdered him ... hit him on the head
and cracked his skull.... I suppose that's your story. That's it!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
His eyes suddenly flashed. All his smothered wrath suddenly
flamed up with extraordinary violence in his soul.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Our story?”</span> repeated Nikolay Parfenovitch. <span class="tei tei-q">“Well—and
yours?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya dropped his eyes and was a long time silent.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“My story, gentlemen? Well, it was like this,”</span> he began softly.
<span class="tei tei-q">“Whether it was some one's tears, or my mother prayed to God, or
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page532"></span><SPAN name="Pg532" id="Pg532" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
a good angel kissed me at that instant, I don't know. But the devil
was conquered. I rushed from the window and ran to the fence.
My father was alarmed and, for the first time, he saw me then,
cried out, and sprang back from the window. I remember that
very well. I ran across the garden to the fence ... and there
Grigory caught me, when I was sitting on the fence.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
At that point he raised his eyes at last and looked at his listeners.
They seemed to be staring at him with perfectly unruffled attention.
A sort of paroxysm of indignation seized on Mitya's soul.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why, you're laughing at me at this moment, gentlemen!”</span> he
broke off suddenly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What makes you think that?”</span> observed Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You don't believe one word—that's why! I understand, of
course, that I have come to the vital point. The old man's lying
there now with his skull broken, while I—after dramatically describing
how I wanted to kill him, and how I snatched up the pestle—I
suddenly run away from the window. A romance! Poetry!
As though one could believe a fellow on his word. Ha ha! You are
scoffers, gentlemen!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And he swung round on his chair so that it creaked.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And did you notice,”</span> asked the prosecutor suddenly, as though
not observing Mitya's excitement, <span class="tei tei-q">“did you notice when you ran
away from the window, whether the door into the garden was
open?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, it was not open.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It was not?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It was shut. And who could open it? Bah! the door. Wait a
bit!”</span> he seemed suddenly to bethink himself, and almost with a
start:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why, did you find the door open?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, it was open.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why, who could have opened it if you did not open it yourselves?”</span>
cried Mitya, greatly astonished.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“The door stood open, and your father's murderer undoubtedly
went in at that door, and, having accomplished the crime, went out
again by the same door,”</span> the prosecutor pronounced deliberately,
as though chiseling out each word separately. <span class="tei tei-q">“That is perfectly
clear. The murder was committed in the room and <em class="tei tei-emph"><span style="font-style: italic">not through the
</span><span class="tei tei-pb" id="page533"></span><SPAN name="Pg533" id="Pg533" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN><span style="font-style: italic">
window</span></em>; that is absolutely certain from the examination that has
been made, from the position of the body and everything. There
can be no doubt of that circumstance.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya was absolutely dumbfounded.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But that's utterly impossible!”</span> he cried, completely at a loss.
<span class="tei tei-q">“I ... I didn't go in.... I tell you positively, definitely, the
door was shut the whole time I was in the garden, and when I ran
out of the garden. I only stood at the window and saw him
through the window. That's all, that's all.... I remember to the
last minute. And if I didn't remember, it would be just the same.
I know it, for no one knew the signals except Smerdyakov, and me,
and the dead man. And he wouldn't have opened the door to any
one in the world without the signals.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Signals? What signals?”</span> asked the prosecutor, with greedy,
almost hysterical, curiosity. He instantly lost all trace of his reserve
and dignity. He asked the question with a sort of cringing timidity.
He scented an important fact of which he had known nothing, and
was already filled with dread that Mitya might be unwilling to
disclose it.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“So you didn't know!”</span> Mitya winked at him with a malicious
and mocking smile. <span class="tei tei-q">“What if I won't tell you? From whom could
you find out? No one knew about the signals except my father,
Smerdyakov, and me: that was all. Heaven knew, too, but it won't
tell you. But it's an interesting fact. There's no knowing what you
might build on it. Ha ha! Take comfort, gentlemen, I'll reveal
it. You've some foolish idea in your hearts. You don't know the
man you have to deal with! You have to do with a prisoner who
gives evidence against himself, to his own damage! Yes, for I'm a
man of honor and you—are not.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor swallowed this without a murmur. He was trembling
with impatience to hear the new fact. Minutely and diffusely
Mitya told them everything about the signals invented by Fyodor
Pavlovitch for Smerdyakov. He told them exactly what every tap
on the window meant, tapped the signals on the table, and when
Nikolay Parfenovitch said that he supposed he, Mitya, had tapped
the signal <span class="tei tei-q">“Grushenka has come,”</span> when he tapped to his father,
he answered precisely that he had tapped that signal, that <span class="tei tei-q">“Grushenka
had come.”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“So now you can build up your tower,”</span> Mitya broke off, and
again turned away from them contemptuously.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“So no one knew of the signals but your dead father, you, and
the valet Smerdyakov? And no one else?”</span> Nikolay Parfenovitch
inquired once more.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes. The valet Smerdyakov, and Heaven. Write down about
Heaven. That may be of use. Besides, you will need God yourselves.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And they had already, of course, begun writing it down. But
while they wrote, the prosecutor said suddenly, as though pitching
on a new idea:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But if Smerdyakov also knew of these signals and you absolutely
deny all responsibility for the death of your father, was it
not he, perhaps, who knocked the signal agreed upon, induced your
father to open to him, and then ... committed the crime?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya turned upon him a look of profound irony and intense
hatred. His silent stare lasted so long that it made the prosecutor
blink.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You've caught the fox again,”</span> commented Mitya at last; <span class="tei tei-q">“you've
got the beast by the tail. Ha ha! I see through you, Mr. Prosecutor.
You thought, of course, that I should jump at that, catch at
your prompting, and shout with all my might, <span class="tei tei-q">‘Aie! it's Smerdyakov;
he's the murderer.’</span> Confess that's what you thought. Confess,
and I'll go on.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
But the prosecutor did not confess. He held his tongue and
waited.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You're mistaken. I'm not going to shout <span class="tei tei-q">‘It's Smerdyakov,’</span> ”</span>
said Mitya.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And you don't even suspect him?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why, do you suspect him?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He is suspected, too.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya fixed his eyes on the floor.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Joking apart,”</span> he brought out gloomily. <span class="tei tei-q">“Listen. From the
very beginning, almost from the moment when I ran out to you
from behind the curtain, I've had the thought of Smerdyakov in
my mind. I've been sitting here, shouting that I'm innocent and
thinking all the time <span class="tei tei-q">‘Smerdyakov!’</span> I can't get Smerdyakov out
of my head. In fact, I, too, thought of Smerdyakov just now;
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page535"></span><SPAN name="Pg535" id="Pg535" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
but only for a second. Almost at once I thought, <span class="tei tei-q">‘No, it's not
Smerdyakov.’</span> It's not his doing, gentlemen.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“In that case is there anybody else you suspect?”</span> Nikolay Parfenovitch
inquired cautiously.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I don't know any one it could be, whether it's the hand of
Heaven or Satan, but ... not Smerdyakov,”</span> Mitya jerked out
with decision.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But what makes you affirm so confidently and emphatically that
it's not he?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“From my conviction—my impression. Because Smerdyakov is
a man of the most abject character and a coward. He's not a
coward, he's the epitome of all the cowardice in the world walking
on two legs. He has the heart of a chicken. When he talked to
me, he was always trembling for fear I should kill him, though I
never raised my hand against him. He fell at my feet and blubbered;
he has kissed these very boots, literally, beseeching me <span class="tei tei-q">‘not to
frighten him.’</span> Do you hear? <span class="tei tei-q">‘Not to frighten him.’</span> What a
thing to say! Why, I offered him money. He's a puling chicken—sickly,
epileptic, weak-minded—a child of eight could thrash
him. He has no character worth talking about. It's not Smerdyakov,
gentlemen. He doesn't care for money; he wouldn't take my
presents. Besides, what motive had he for murdering the old man?
Why, he's very likely his son, you know—his natural son. Do you
know that?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We have heard that legend. But you are your father's son, too,
you know; yet you yourself told every one you meant to murder
him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's a thrust! And a nasty, mean one, too! I'm not afraid!
Oh, gentlemen, isn't it too base of you to say that to my face?
It's base, because I told you that myself. I not only wanted to murder
him, but I might have done it. And, what's more, I went out
of my way to tell you of my own accord that I nearly murdered him.
But, you see, I didn't murder him; you see, my guardian angel saved
me—that's what you've not taken into account. And that's why
it's so base of you. For I didn't kill him, I didn't kill him! Do
you hear, I did not kill him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He was almost choking. He had not been so moved before during
the whole interrogation.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And what has he told you, gentlemen—Smerdyakov, I mean?”</span>
he added suddenly, after a pause. <span class="tei tei-q">“May I ask that question?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You may ask any question,”</span> the prosecutor replied with frigid
severity, <span class="tei tei-q">“any question relating to the facts of the case, and we
are, I repeat, bound to answer every inquiry you make. We found
the servant Smerdyakov, concerning whom you inquire, lying unconscious
in his bed, in an epileptic fit of extreme severity, that had
recurred, possibly, ten times. The doctor who was with us told us,
after seeing him, that he may possibly not outlive the night.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, if that's so, the devil must have killed him,”</span> broke suddenly
from Mitya, as though until that moment he had been asking
himself: <span class="tei tei-q">“Was it Smerdyakov or not?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We will come back to this later,”</span> Nikolay Parfenovitch decided.
<span class="tei tei-q">“Now, wouldn't you like to continue your statement?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya asked for a rest. His request was courteously granted.
After resting, he went on with his story. But he was evidently depressed.
He was exhausted, mortified and morally shaken. To make
things worse the prosecutor exasperated him, as though intentionally,
by vexatious interruptions about <span class="tei tei-q">“trifling points.”</span> Scarcely had
Mitya described how, sitting on the wall, he had struck Grigory on
the head with the pestle, while the old man had hold of his left leg,
and how he had then jumped down to look at him, when the prosecutor
stopped him to ask him to describe exactly how he was sitting
on the wall. Mitya was surprised.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, I was sitting like this, astride, one leg on one side of the
wall and one on the other.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And the pestle?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“The pestle was in my hand.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Not in your pocket? Do you remember that precisely? Was it
a violent blow you gave him?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It must have been a violent one. But why do you ask?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Would you mind sitting on the chair just as you sat on the wall
then and showing us just how you moved your arm, and in what
direction?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You're making fun of me, aren't you?”</span> asked Mitya, looking
haughtily at the speaker; but the latter did not flinch.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya turned abruptly, sat astride on his chair, and swung his
arm.</p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page537"></span><SPAN name="Pg537" id="Pg537" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“This was how I struck him! That's how I knocked him down!
What more do you want?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Thank you. May I trouble you now to explain why you jumped
down, with what object, and what you had in view?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, hang it!... I jumped down to look at the man I'd hurt ...
I don't know what for!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Though you were so excited and were running away?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, though I was excited and running away.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You wanted to help him?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Help!... Yes, perhaps I did want to help him.... I don't
remember.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You don't remember? Then you didn't quite know what you
were doing?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Not at all. I remember everything—every detail. I jumped
down to look at him, and wiped his face with my handkerchief.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We have seen your handkerchief. Did you hope to restore him
to consciousness?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I don't know whether I hoped it. I simply wanted to make sure
whether he was alive or not.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ah! You wanted to be sure? Well, what then?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I'm not a doctor. I couldn't decide. I ran away thinking I'd
killed him. And now he's recovered.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Excellent,”</span> commented the prosecutor. <span class="tei tei-q">“Thank you. That's all
I wanted. Kindly proceed.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alas! it never entered Mitya's head to tell them, though he remembered
it, that he had jumped back from pity, and standing over
the prostrate figure had even uttered some words of regret: <span class="tei tei-q">“You've
come to grief, old man—there's no help for it. Well, there you
must lie.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor could only draw one conclusion: that the man
had jumped back <span class="tei tei-q">“at such a moment and in such excitement simply
with the object of ascertaining whether the <em class="tei tei-emph"><span style="font-style: italic">only</span></em> witness of
his crime were dead; that he must therefore have been a man of
great strength, coolness, decision and foresight even at such a moment,”</span> ...
and so on. The prosecutor was satisfied: <span class="tei tei-q">“I've provoked
the nervous fellow by <span class="tei tei-q">‘trifles’</span> and he has said more than he
meant to.”</span></p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page538"></span><SPAN name="Pg538" id="Pg538" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
With painful effort Mitya went on. But this time he was pulled
up immediately by Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“How came you to run to the servant, Fedosya Markovna, with
your hands so covered with blood, and, as it appears, your face,
too?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Why, I didn't notice the blood at all at the time,”</span> answered
Mitya.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's quite likely. It does happen sometimes.”</span> The prosecutor
exchanged glances with Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I simply didn't notice. You're quite right there, prosecutor,”</span>
Mitya assented suddenly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Next came the account of Mitya's sudden determination to <span class="tei tei-q">“step
aside”</span> and make way for their happiness. But he could not make
up his mind to open his heart to them as before, and tell them
about <span class="tei tei-q">“the queen of his soul.”</span> He disliked speaking of her before
these chilly persons <span class="tei tei-q">“who were fastening on him like bugs.”</span> And
so in response to their reiterated questions he answered briefly and
abruptly:</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, I made up my mind to kill myself. What had I left to
live for? That question stared me in the face. Her first rightful
lover had come back, the man who wronged her but who'd hurried
back to offer his love, after five years, and atone for the wrong
with marriage.... So I knew it was all over for me.... And
behind me disgrace, and that blood—Grigory's.... What had I
to live for? So I went to redeem the pistols I had pledged, to load
them and put a bullet in my brain to-morrow.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And a grand feast the night before?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, a grand feast the night before. Damn it all, gentlemen!
Do make haste and finish it. I meant to shoot myself not far from
here, beyond the village, and I'd planned to do it at five o'clock in
the morning. And I had a note in my pocket already. I wrote it
at Perhotin's when I loaded my pistols. Here's the letter. Read it!
It's not for you I tell it,”</span> he added contemptuously. He took it
from his waistcoat pocket and flung it on the table. The lawyers
read it with curiosity, and, as is usual, added it to the papers connected
with the case.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And you didn't even think of washing your hands at Perhotin's?
You were not afraid then of arousing suspicion?”</span></p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page539"></span><SPAN name="Pg539" id="Pg539" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What suspicion? Suspicion or not, I should have galloped here
just the same, and shot myself at five o'clock, and you wouldn't
have been in time to do anything. If it hadn't been for what's
happened to my father, you would have known nothing about it,
and wouldn't have come here. Oh, it's the devil's doing. It was
the devil murdered father, it was through the devil that you found
it out so soon. How did you manage to get here so quick? It's
marvelous, a dream!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Mr. Perhotin informed us that when you came to him, you held
in your hands ... your blood-stained hands ... your money ...
a lot of money ... a bundle of hundred-rouble notes, and
that his servant-boy saw it too.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's true, gentlemen. I remember it was so.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Now, there's one little point presents itself. Can you inform
us,”</span> Nikolay Parfenovitch began, with extreme gentleness, <span class="tei tei-q">“where
did you get so much money all of a sudden, when it appears from
the facts, from the reckoning of time, that you had not been
home?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor's brows contracted at the question being asked
so plainly, but he did not interrupt Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, I didn't go home,”</span> answered Mitya, apparently perfectly
composed, but looking at the floor.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Allow me then to repeat my question,”</span> Nikolay Parfenovitch
went on as though creeping up to the subject. <span class="tei tei-q">“Where were you
able to procure such a sum all at once, when by your own confession,
at five o'clock the same day you—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I was in want of ten roubles and pledged my pistols with Perhotin,
and then went to Madame Hohlakov to borrow three thousand
which she wouldn't give me, and so on, and all the rest of it,”</span>
Mitya interrupted sharply. <span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, gentlemen, I was in want of it,
and suddenly thousands turned up, eh? Do you know, gentlemen,
you're both afraid now <span class="tei tei-q">‘what if he won't tell us where he got it?’</span>
That's just how it is. I'm not going to tell you, gentlemen. You've
guessed right. You'll never know,”</span> said Mitya, chipping out each
word with extraordinary determination. The lawyers were silent for
a moment.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You must understand, Mr. Karamazov, that it is of vital importance
for us to know,”</span> said Nikolay Parfenovitch, softly and suavely.</p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page540"></span><SPAN name="Pg540" id="Pg540" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I understand; but still I won't tell you.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor, too, intervened, and again reminded the prisoner
that he was at liberty to refuse to answer questions, if he thought it
to his interest, and so on. But in view of the damage he might do
himself by his silence, especially in a case of such importance as—</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And so on, gentlemen, and so on. Enough! I've heard that
rigmarole before,”</span> Mitya interrupted again. <span class="tei tei-q">“I can see for myself
how important it is, and that this is the vital point, and still I
won't say.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What is it to us? It's not our business, but yours. You are
doing yourself harm,”</span> observed Nikolay Parfenovitch nervously.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You see, gentlemen, joking apart”</span>—Mitya lifted his eyes and
looked firmly at them both—<span class="tei tei-q">“I had an inkling from the first that
we should come to loggerheads at this point. But at first when I
began to give my evidence, it was all still far away and misty; it
was all floating, and I was so simple that I began with the supposition
of mutual confidence existing between us. Now I can see
for myself that such confidence is out of the question, for in any
case we were bound to come to this cursed stumbling-block. And
now we've come to it! It's impossible and there's an end of it!
But I don't blame you. You can't believe it all simply on my word.
I understand that, of course.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He relapsed into gloomy silence.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Couldn't you, without abandoning your resolution to be silent
about the chief point, could you not, at the same time, give us
some slight hint as to the nature of the motives which are strong
enough to induce you to refuse to answer, at a crisis so full of
danger to you?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Mitya smiled mournfully, almost dreamily.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I'm much more good-natured than you think, gentlemen. I'll
tell you the reason why and give you that hint, though you don't
deserve it. I won't speak of that, gentlemen, because it would be
a stain on my honor. The answer to the question where I got the
money would expose me to far greater disgrace than the murder and
robbing of my father, if I had murdered and robbed him. That's
why I can't tell you. I can't for fear of disgrace. What, gentlemen,
are you going to write that down?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, we'll write it down,”</span> lisped Nikolay Parfenovitch.</p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page541"></span><SPAN name="Pg541" id="Pg541" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You ought not to write that down about <span class="tei tei-q">‘disgrace.’</span> I only told
you that in the goodness of my heart. I needn't have told you. I
made you a present of it, so to speak, and you pounce upon it at
once. Oh, well, write—write what you like,”</span> he concluded, with
scornful disgust. <span class="tei tei-q">“I'm not afraid of you and I can still hold up
my head before you.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And can't you tell us the nature of that disgrace?”</span> Nikolay
Parfenovitch hazarded.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The prosecutor frowned darkly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, no, <span lang="fr" class="tei tei-foreign" xml:lang="fr"><span style="font-style: italic">c'est fini</span></span>,
don't trouble yourselves. It's not worth while
soiling one's hands. I have soiled myself enough through you as it
is. You're not worth it—no one is ... Enough, gentlemen. I'm
not going on.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
This was said too peremptorily. Nikolay Parfenovitch did not
insist further, but from Ippolit Kirillovitch's eyes he saw that he had
not given up hope.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Can you not, at least, tell us what sum you had in your hands
when you went into Mr. Perhotin's—how many roubles exactly?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I can't tell you that.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You spoke to Mr. Perhotin, I believe, of having received three
thousand from Madame Hohlakov.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Perhaps I did. Enough, gentlemen. I won't say how much I
had.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Will you be so good then as to tell us how you came here and
what you have done since you arrived?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh! you might ask the people here about that. But I'll tell you
if you like.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He proceeded to do so, but we won't repeat his story. He told it
dryly and curtly. Of the raptures of his love he said nothing, but
told them that he abandoned his determination to shoot himself,
owing to <span class="tei tei-q">“new factors in the case.”</span> He told the story without going
into motives or details. And this time the lawyers did not worry
him much. It was obvious that there was no essential point of interest
to them here.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We shall verify all that. We will come back to it during the
examination of the witnesses, which will, of course, take place in
your presence,”</span> said Nikolay Parfenovitch in conclusion. <span class="tei tei-q">“And now
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page542"></span><SPAN name="Pg542" id="Pg542" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
allow me to request you to lay on the table everything in your possession,
especially all the money you still have about you.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“My money, gentlemen? Certainly. I understand that that is
necessary. I'm surprised, indeed, that you haven't inquired about
it before. It's true I couldn't get away anywhere. I'm sitting here
where I can be seen. But here's my money—count it—take it.
That's all, I think.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He turned it all out of his pockets; even the small change—two
pieces of twenty copecks—he pulled out of his waistcoat pocket.
They counted the money, which amounted to eight hundred and
thirty-six roubles, and forty copecks.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And is that all?”</span> asked the investigating lawyer.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You stated just now in your evidence that you spent three hundred
roubles at Plotnikovs'. You gave Perhotin ten, your driver
twenty, here you lost two hundred, then....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Nikolay Parfenovitch reckoned it all up. Mitya helped him readily.
They recollected every farthing and included it in the reckoning.
Nikolay Parfenovitch hurriedly added up the total.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“With this eight hundred you must have had about fifteen hundred
at first?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I suppose so,”</span> snapped Mitya.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“How is it they all assert there was much more?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Let them assert it.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But you asserted it yourself.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Yes, I did, too.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“We will compare all this with the evidence of other persons not
yet examined. Don't be anxious about your money. It will be
properly taken care of and be at your disposal at the conclusion of ...
what is beginning ... if it appears, or, so to speak, is proved
that you have undisputed right to it. Well, and now....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Nikolay Parfenovitch suddenly got up, and informed Mitya
firmly that it was his duty and obligation to conduct a minute and
thorough search <span class="tei tei-q">“of your clothes and everything else....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“By all means, gentlemen. I'll turn out all my pockets, if you
like.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And he did, in fact, begin turning out his pockets.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It will be necessary to take off your clothes, too.”</span></p>
<span class="tei tei-pb" id="page543"></span><SPAN name="Pg543" id="Pg543" class="tei tei-anchor"></SPAN>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What! Undress? Ugh! Damn it! Won't you search me as I
am! Can't you?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's utterly impossible, Dmitri Fyodorovitch. You must take
off your clothes.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“As you like,”</span> Mitya submitted gloomily; <span class="tei tei-q">“only, please, not here,
but behind the curtains. Who will search them?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Behind the curtains, of course.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Nikolay Parfenovitch bent his head in assent. His small face
wore an expression of peculiar solemnity.</p>
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