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<h3 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.40em; margin-top: 2.40em"><span style="font-size: 120%">Chapter VII. Ilusha</span></h3>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
The doctor came out of the room again, muffled in his fur coat
and with his cap on his head. His face looked almost angry
and disgusted, as though he were afraid of getting dirty. He cast
a cursory glance round the passage, looking sternly at Alyosha and
Kolya as he did so. Alyosha waved from the door to the coachman,
and the carriage that had brought the doctor drove up. The captain
darted out after the doctor, and, bowing apologetically, stopped
him to get the last word. The poor fellow looked utterly crushed;
there was a scared look in his eyes.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Your Excellency, your Excellency ... is it possible?”</span> he began,
but could not go on and clasped his hands in despair. Yet he still
gazed imploringly at the doctor, as though a word from him might
still change the poor boy's fate.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I can't help it, I am not God!”</span> the doctor answered offhand,
though with the customary impressiveness.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Doctor ... your Excellency ... and will it be soon, soon?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You must be prepared for anything,”</span> said the doctor in emphatic
and incisive tones, and dropping his eyes, he was about to
step out to the coach.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Your Excellency, for Christ's sake!”</span> the terror-stricken captain
stopped him again. <span class="tei tei-q">“Your Excellency! but can nothing, absolutely
nothing save him now?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's not in my hands now,”</span> said the doctor impatiently, <span class="tei tei-q">“but
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h'm!...”</span> he stopped suddenly. <span class="tei tei-q">“If you could, for instance ...
send ... your patient ... at once, without delay”</span> (the words
<span class="tei tei-q">“at once, without delay,”</span> the doctor uttered with an almost wrathful
sternness that made the captain start) <span class="tei tei-q">“to Syracuse, the change
to the new be-ne-ficial climatic conditions might possibly effect—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“To Syracuse!”</span> cried the captain, unable to grasp what was said.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Syracuse is in Sicily,”</span> Kolya jerked out suddenly in explanation.
The doctor looked at him.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Sicily! your Excellency,”</span> faltered the captain, <span class="tei tei-q">“but you've seen”</span>—he
spread out his hands, indicating his surroundings—<span class="tei tei-q">“mamma
and my family?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“N—no, Sicily is not the place for the family, the family should
go to Caucasus in the early spring ... your daughter must go to
the Caucasus, and your wife ... after a course of the waters in
the Caucasus for her rheumatism ... must be sent straight to Paris
to the mental specialist Lepelletier; I could give you a note to him,
and then ... there might be a change—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Doctor, doctor! But you see!”</span> The captain flung wide his
hands again despairingly, indicating the bare wooden walls of the
passage.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Well, that's not my business,”</span> grinned the doctor. <span class="tei tei-q">“I have only
told you the answer of medical science to your question as to possible
treatment. As for the rest, to my regret—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Don't be afraid, apothecary, my dog won't bite you,”</span> Kolya
rapped out loudly, noticing the doctor's rather uneasy glance at
Perezvon, who was standing in the doorway. There was a wrathful
note in Kolya's voice. He used the word apothecary instead of
doctor on purpose, and, as he explained afterwards, used it <span class="tei tei-q">“to insult
him.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What's that?”</span> The doctor flung up his head, staring with surprise
at Kolya. <span class="tei tei-q">“Who's this?”</span> he addressed Alyosha, as though asking
him to explain.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's Perezvon's master, don't worry about me,”</span> Kolya said incisively
again.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Perezvon?”</span><SPAN id="noteref_7" name="noteref_7" href="#note_7"><span class="tei tei-noteref"><span style="font-size: 60%; vertical-align: super">7</span></span></SPAN>
repeated the doctor, perplexed.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He hears the bell, but where it is he cannot tell. Good-by, we
shall meet in Syracuse.”</span></p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Who's this? Who's this?”</span> The doctor flew into a terrible rage.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He is a schoolboy, doctor, he is a mischievous boy; take no notice
of him,”</span> said Alyosha, frowning and speaking quickly. <span class="tei tei-q">“Kolya,
hold your tongue!”</span> he cried to Krassotkin. <span class="tei tei-q">“Take no notice of
him, doctor,”</span> he repeated, rather impatiently.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He wants a thrashing, a good thrashing!”</span> The doctor stamped
in a perfect fury.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And you know, apothecary, my Perezvon might bite!”</span> said
Kolya, turning pale, with quivering voice and flashing eyes.
<span class="tei tei-q">“<span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">Ici</span></span>, Perezvon!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Kolya, if you say another word, I'll have nothing more to do
with you,”</span> Alyosha cried peremptorily.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“There is only one man in the world who can command Nikolay
Krassotkin—this is the man”</span>; Kolya pointed to Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“I obey
him, good-by!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
He stepped forward, opened the door, and quickly went into the
inner room. Perezvon flew after him. The doctor stood still for
five seconds in amazement, looking at Alyosha; then, with a curse,
he went out quickly to the carriage, repeating aloud, <span class="tei tei-q">“This is ...
this is ... I don't know what it is!”</span> The captain darted forward
to help him into the carriage. Alyosha followed Kolya into the
room. He was already by Ilusha's bedside. The sick boy was holding
his hand and calling for his father. A minute later the captain,
too, came back.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Father, father, come ... we ...”</span> Ilusha faltered in violent
excitement, but apparently unable to go on, he flung his wasted
arms round his father and Kolya, uniting them in one embrace, and
hugging them as tightly as he could. The captain suddenly began
to shake with dumb sobs, and Kolya's lips and chin twitched.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Father, father! How sorry I am for you!”</span> Ilusha moaned
bitterly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ilusha ... darling ... the doctor said ... you would be all
right ... we shall be happy ... the doctor ...”</span> the captain
began.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ah, father! I know what the new doctor said to you about me....
I saw!”</span> cried Ilusha, and again he hugged them both with
all his strength, hiding his face on his father's shoulder.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Father, don't cry, and when I die get a good boy, another one ...
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choose one of them all, a good one, call him Ilusha and love
him instead of me....”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Hush, old man, you'll get well,”</span> Krassotkin cried suddenly, in
a voice that sounded angry.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But don't ever forget me, father,”</span> Ilusha went on, <span class="tei tei-q">“come to my
grave ... and, father, bury me by our big stone, where we used to
go for our walk, and come to me there with Krassotkin in the evening ...
and Perezvon ... I shall expect you.... Father,
father!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
His voice broke. They were all three silent, still embracing.
Nina was crying quietly in her chair, and at last seeing them all crying,
<span class="tei tei-q">“mamma,”</span> too, burst into tears.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Ilusha! Ilusha!”</span> she exclaimed.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Krassotkin suddenly released himself from Ilusha's embrace.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Good-by, old man, mother expects me back to dinner,”</span> he said
quickly. <span class="tei tei-q">“What a pity I did not tell her! She will be dreadfully
anxious.... But after dinner I'll come back to you for the whole
day, for the whole evening, and I'll tell you all sorts of things, all
sorts of things. And I'll bring Perezvon, but now I will take him
with me, because he will begin to howl when I am away and bother
you. Good-by!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
And he ran out into the passage. He didn't want to cry, but in
the passage he burst into tears. Alyosha found him crying.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Kolya, you must be sure to keep your word and come, or he
will be terribly disappointed,”</span> Alyosha said emphatically.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I will! Oh, how I curse myself for not having come before!”</span>
muttered Kolya, crying, and no longer ashamed of it.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
At that moment the captain flew out of the room, and at once
closed the door behind him. His face looked frenzied, his lips were
trembling. He stood before the two and flung up his arms.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I don't want a good boy! I don't want another boy!”</span> he muttered
in a wild whisper, clenching his teeth. <span class="tei tei-q">“If I forget thee,
Jerusalem, may my tongue—”</span> He broke off with a sob and sank on
his knees before the wooden bench. Pressing his fists against his
head, he began sobbing with absurd whimpering cries, doing his
utmost that his cries should not be heard in the room.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Kolya ran out into the street.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Good-by, Karamazov? Will you come yourself?”</span> he cried
sharply and angrily to Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I will certainly come in the evening.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“What was that he said about Jerusalem?... What did he
mean by that?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's from the Bible. <span class="tei tei-q">‘If I forget thee, Jerusalem,’</span> that is, if I
forget all that is most precious to me, if I let anything take its
place, then may—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I understand, that's enough! Mind you come! <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">Ici</span></span>, Perezvon!”</span>
he cried with positive ferocity to the dog, and with rapid strides
he went home.</p>
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