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<h1 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 3.46em; margin-top: 3.46em"><span style="font-size: 173%">Epilogue</span></h1>
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<h2 class="tei tei-head" style="text-align: left; margin-bottom: 2.88em; margin-top: 2.88em"><span style="font-size: 144%">Chapter I. Plans For Mitya's Escape</span></h2>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Very early, at nine o'clock in the morning, five days after the
trial, Alyosha went to Katerina Ivanovna's to talk over a matter
of great importance to both of them, and to give her a message.
She sat and talked to him in the very room in which she had once
received Grushenka. In the next room Ivan Fyodorovitch lay unconscious
in a high fever. Katerina Ivanovna had immediately after
the scene at the trial ordered the sick and unconscious man to be
carried to her house, disregarding the inevitable gossip and general
disapproval of the public. One of the two relations who lived with
her had departed to Moscow immediately after the scene in court,
the other remained. But if both had gone away, Katerina Ivanovna
would have adhered to her resolution, and would have gone on
nursing the sick man and sitting by him day and night. Varvinsky
and Herzenstube were attending him. The famous doctor had gone
back to Moscow, refusing to give an opinion as to the probable end
of the illness. Though the doctors encouraged Katerina Ivanovna
and Alyosha, it was evident that they could not yet give them
positive hopes of recovery.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Alyosha came to see his sick brother twice a day. But this time
he had specially urgent business, and he foresaw how difficult it
would be to approach the subject, yet he was in great haste. He
had another engagement that could not be put off for that same
morning, and there was need of haste.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
They had been talking for a quarter of an hour. Katerina Ivanovna
was pale and terribly fatigued, yet at the same time in a state
of hysterical excitement. She had a presentiment of the reason why
Alyosha had come to her.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Don't worry about his decision,”</span> she said, with confident emphasis
to Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“One way or another he is bound to come to it.
He must escape. That unhappy man, that hero of honor and principle—not
he, not Dmitri Fyodorovitch, but the man lying the
other side of that door, who has sacrificed himself for his brother,”</span>
Katya added, with flashing eyes—<span class="tei tei-q">“told me the whole plan of escape
long ago. You know he has already entered into negotiations....
I've told you something already.... You see, it will probably come
off at the third <span class="tei tei-foreign"><span style="font-style: italic">étape</span></span> from
here, when the party of prisoners is being
taken to Siberia. Oh, it's a long way off yet. Ivan Fyodorovitch has
already visited the superintendent of the third <span class="tei tei-foreign"><span style="font-style: italic">étape</span></span>.
But we don't know yet who will be in charge of the party, and it's impossible
to find that out so long beforehand. To-morrow perhaps I will
show you in detail the whole plan which Ivan Fyodorovitch left me
on the eve of the trial in case of need.... That was when—do
you remember?—you found us quarreling. He had just gone down-stairs,
but seeing you I made him come back; do you remember?
Do you know what we were quarreling about then?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, I don't,”</span> said Alyosha.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Of course he did not tell you. It was about that plan of escape.
He had told me the main idea three days before, and we began
quarreling about it at once and quarreled for three days. We quarreled
because, when he told me that if Dmitri Fyodorovitch were
convicted he would escape abroad with that creature, I felt furious
at once—I can't tell you why, I don't know myself why.... Oh,
of course, I was furious then about that creature, and that she, too,
should go abroad with Dmitri!”</span> Katerina Ivanovna exclaimed suddenly,
her lips quivering with anger. <span class="tei tei-q">“As soon as Ivan Fyodorovitch
saw that I was furious about that woman, he instantly imagined I
was jealous of Dmitri and that I still loved Dmitri. That is how
our first quarrel began. I would not give an explanation, I could
not ask forgiveness. I could not bear to think that such a man
could suspect me of still loving that ... and when I myself had
told him long before that I did not love Dmitri, that I loved no one
but him! It was only resentment against that creature that made
me angry with him. Three days later, on the evening you came,
he brought me a sealed envelope, which I was to open at once, if
anything happened to him. Oh, he foresaw his illness! He told me
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that the envelope contained the details of the escape, and that if he
died or was taken dangerously ill, I was to save Mitya alone. Then
he left me money, nearly ten thousand—those notes to which the
prosecutor referred in his speech, having learnt from some one that
he had sent them to be changed. I was tremendously impressed to
find that Ivan Fyodorovitch had not given up his idea of saving his
brother, and was confiding this plan of escape to me, though he was
still jealous of me and still convinced that I loved Mitya. Oh, that
was a sacrifice! No, you cannot understand the greatness of such
self-sacrifice, Alexey Fyodorovitch. I wanted to fall at his feet in
reverence, but I thought at once that he would take it only for
my joy at the thought of Mitya's being saved (and he certainly
would have imagined that!), and I was so exasperated at the mere
possibility of such an unjust thought on his part that I lost my
temper again, and instead of kissing his feet, flew into a fury again!
Oh, I am unhappy! It's my character, my awful, unhappy character!
Oh, you will see, I shall end by driving him, too, to abandon
me for another with whom he can get on better, like Dmitri. But ... no,
I could not bear it, I should kill myself. And when you
came in then, and when I called to you and told him to come back,
I was so enraged by the look of contempt and hatred he turned on
me that—do you remember?—I cried out to you that it was he, he
alone who had persuaded me that his brother Dmitri was a murderer!
I said that malicious thing on purpose to wound him again.
He had never, never persuaded me that his brother was a murderer.
On the contrary, it was I who persuaded him! Oh, my vile temper
was the cause of everything! I paved the way to that hideous scene
at the trial. He wanted to show me that he was an honorable man,
and that, even if I loved his brother, he would not ruin him for
revenge or jealousy. So he came to the court ... I am the cause
of it all, I alone am to blame!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Katya never had made such confessions to Alyosha before, and
he felt that she was now at that stage of unbearable suffering when
even the proudest heart painfully crushes its pride and falls vanquished
by grief. Oh, Alyosha knew another terrible reason of her
present misery, though she had carefully concealed it from him
during those days since the trial; but it would have been for some
reason too painful to him if she had been brought so low as to speak
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to him now about that. She was suffering for her <span class="tei tei-q">“treachery”</span> at
the trial, and Alyosha felt that her conscience was impelling her to
confess it to him, to him, Alyosha, with tears and cries and hysterical
writhings on the floor. But he dreaded that moment and longed
to spare her. It made the commission on which he had come even
more difficult. He spoke of Mitya again.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's all right, it's all right, don't be anxious about him!”</span> she
began again, sharply and stubbornly. <span class="tei tei-q">“All that is only momentary,
I know him, I know his heart only too well. You may be sure he
will consent to escape. It's not as though it would be immediately;
he will have time to make up his mind to it. Ivan Fyodorovitch will
be well by that time and will manage it all himself, so that I shall
have nothing to do with it. Don't be anxious; he will consent to
run away. He has agreed already: do you suppose he would give up
that creature? And they won't let her go to him, so he is bound to
escape. It's you he's most afraid of, he is afraid you won't approve
of his escape on moral grounds. But you must generously <em class="tei tei-emph"><span style="font-style: italic">allow</span></em> it,
if your sanction is so necessary,”</span> Katya added viciously. She
paused and smiled.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“He talks about some hymn,”</span> she went on again, <span class="tei tei-q">“some cross he
has to bear, some duty; I remember Ivan Fyodorovitch told me a
great deal about it, and if you knew how he talked!”</span> Katya cried
suddenly, with feeling she could not repress, <span class="tei tei-q">“if you knew how
he loved that wretched man at the moment he told me, and how he
hated him, perhaps, at the same moment. And I heard his story
and his tears with sneering disdain. Brute! Yes, I am a brute. I
am responsible for his fever. But that man in prison is incapable of
suffering,”</span> Katya concluded irritably. <span class="tei tei-q">“Can such a man suffer?
Men like him never suffer!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
There was a note of hatred and contemptuous repulsion in her
words. And yet it was she who had betrayed him. <span class="tei tei-q">“Perhaps because
she feels how she's wronged him she hates him at moments,”</span> Alyosha
thought to himself. He hoped that it was only <span class="tei tei-q">“at moments.”</span> In
Katya's last words he detected a challenging note, but he did not
take it up.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I sent for you this morning to make you promise to persuade
him yourself. Or do you, too, consider that to escape would be dishonorable,
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cowardly, or something ... unchristian, perhaps?”</span>
Katya added, even more defiantly.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Oh, no. I'll tell him everything,”</span> muttered Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“He asks
you to come and see him to-day,”</span> he blurted out suddenly, looking
her steadily in the face. She started, and drew back a little from
him on the sofa.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Me? Can that be?”</span> she faltered, turning pale.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It can and ought to be!”</span> Alyosha began emphatically, growing
more animated. <span class="tei tei-q">“He needs you particularly just now. I would
not have opened the subject and worried you, if it were not necessary.
He is ill, he is beside himself, he keeps asking for you. It is
not to be reconciled with you that he wants you, but only that you
would go and show yourself at his door. So much has happened to
him since that day. He realizes that he has injured you beyond all
reckoning. He does not ask your forgiveness—<span class="tei tei-q">‘It's impossible to
forgive me,’</span> he says himself—but only that you would show yourself
in his doorway.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“It's so sudden....”</span> faltered Katya. <span class="tei tei-q">“I've had a presentiment
all these days that you would come with that message. I knew he
would ask me to come. It's impossible!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Let it be impossible, but do it. Only think, he realizes for the
first time how he has wounded you, the first time in his life; he had
never grasped it before so fully. He said, <span class="tei tei-q">‘If she refuses to come I
shall be unhappy all my life.’</span> Do you hear? though he is condemned
to penal servitude for twenty years, he is still planning to be happy—is
not that piteous? Think—you must visit him; though he is
ruined, he is innocent,”</span> broke like a challenge from Alyosha. <span class="tei tei-q">“His
hands are clean, there is no blood on them! For the sake of his
infinite sufferings in the future visit him now. Go, greet him on
his way into the darkness—stand at his door, that is all.... You
ought to do it, you ought to!”</span> Alyosha concluded, laying immense
stress on the word <span class="tei tei-q">“ought.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“I ought to ... but I cannot....”</span> Katya moaned. <span class="tei tei-q">“He will
look at me.... I can't.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Your eyes ought to meet. How will you live all your life, if you
don't make up your mind to do it now?”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Better suffer all my life.”</span></p>
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<span class="tei tei-q">“You ought to go, you ought to go,”</span> Alyosha repeated with
merciless emphasis.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“But why to-day, why at once?... I can't leave our patient—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“You can for a moment. It will only be a moment. If you don't
come, he will be in delirium by to-night. I would not tell you a lie;
have pity on him!”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Have pity on <em class="tei tei-emph"><span style="font-style: italic">me!</span></em>”</span> Katya said, with bitter reproach, and she
burst into tears.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“Then you will come,”</span> said Alyosha firmly, seeing her tears. <span class="tei tei-q">“I'll
go and tell him you will come directly.”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“No, don't tell him so on any account,”</span> cried Katya in alarm.
<span class="tei tei-q">“I will come, but don't tell him beforehand, for perhaps I may go,
but not go in.... I don't know yet—”</span></p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
Her voice failed her. She gasped for breath. Alyosha got up
to go.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“And what if I meet any one?”</span> she said suddenly, in a low voice,
turning white again.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">
<span class="tei tei-q">“That's just why you must go now, to avoid meeting any one.
There will be no one there, I can tell you that for certain. We will
expect you,”</span> he concluded emphatically, and went out of the room.</p>
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