<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_II" id="CHAPTER_II"></SPAN>CHAPTER II.</h2>
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<p>STRUGGLES FOR LIFE—THE CHOLERA IN JAMAICA—I LEAVE KINGSTON
FOR THE ISTHMUS OF PANAMA—CHAGRES, NAVY BAY, AND
GATUN—LIFE IN PANAMA—UP THE RIVER CHAGRES TO GORGONA
AND CRUCES.</p>
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<p>I had one other great grief to master—the loss of my
mother, and then I was left alone to battle with the world
as best I might. The struggles which it cost me to succeed
in life were sometimes very trying; nor have they
ended yet. But I have always turned a bold front to fortune,
and taken, and shall continue to take, as my brave
friends in the army and navy have shown me how, “my
hurts before.” Although it was no easy thing for a
widow to make ends meet, I never allowed myself to know
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_7" id="Page_7">[Pg 7]</SPAN></span>
what repining or depression was, and so succeeded in gaining
not only my daily bread, but many comforts besides
from the beginning. Indeed, my experience of the world—it
is not finished yet, but I do not think it will give me
reason to change my opinion—leads me to the conclusion
that it is by no means the hard bad world which some
selfish people would have us believe it. It may be as my
editor says—</p>
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<span class="i0">“That gently comes the world to those<br/></span>
<span class="i0">That are cast in gentle mould;”<br/></span></div>
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<p>hinting at the same time, politely, that the rule may apply
to me personally. And perhaps he is right, for although
I was always a hearty, strong woman—plain-spoken people
might say stout—I think my heart is soft enough.</p>
<p>How slowly and gradually I succeeded in life, need
not be told at length. My fortunes underwent the variations
which befall all. Sometimes I was rich one day,
and poor the next. I never thought too exclusively of
money, believing rather that we were born to be happy,
and that the surest way to be wretched is to prize it overmuch.
Had I done so, I should have mourned over many
a promising speculation proving a failure, over many a
pan of preserves or guava jelly burnt in the making; and
perhaps lost my mind when the great fire of 1843, which
devastated Kingston, burnt down my poor home. As it
was, I very nearly lost my life, for I would not leave my
house until every chance of saving it had gone, and it was
wrapped in flames. But, of course, I set to work again in
a humbler way, and rebuilt my house by degrees, and
restocked it, succeeding better than before; for I had gained
a reputation as a skilful nurse and doctress, and my house
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_8" id="Page_8">[Pg 8]</SPAN></span>
was always full of invalid officers and their wives from
Newcastle, or the adjacent Up-Park Camp. Sometimes I
had a naval or military surgeon under my roof, from whom
I never failed to glean instruction, given, when they learned
my love for their profession, with a readiness and kindness
I am never likely to forget. Many of these kind
friends are alive now. I met with some when my adventures
had carried me to the battle-fields of the Crimea; and
to those whose eyes may rest upon these pages I again
offer my acknowledgments for their past kindness, which
helped me to be useful to my kind in many lands.</p>
<p>And here I may take the opportunity of explaining
that it was from a confidence in my own powers, and not
at all from necessity, that I remained an unprotected female.
Indeed, I do not mind confessing to my reader, in a friendly
confidential way, that one of the hardest struggles of my
life in Kingston was to resist the pressing candidates for
the late Mr. Seacole’s shoes.</p>
<p>Officers of high rank sometimes took up their abode in
my house. Others of inferior rank were familiar with me,
long before their bravery, and, alas! too often death, in
the Crimea, made them world famous. There were few
officers of the 97th to whom Mother Seacole was not well
known, before she joined them in front of Sebastopol; and
among the best known was good-hearted, loveable, noble
H—— V——, whose death shocked me so terribly, and
with whose useful heroic life the English public have become
so familiar. I can hear the ring of his boyish laughter
even now.</p>
<p>In the year 1850, the cholera swept over the island of
Jamaica with terrible force. Our idea—perhaps an
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_9" id="Page_9">[Pg 9]</SPAN></span>
unfounded one—was, that a steamer from New Orleans was
the means of introducing it into the island. Anyhow,
they sent some clothes on shore to be washed, and poor
Dolly Johnson, the washerwoman, whom we all knew,
sickened and died of the terrible disease. While the cholera
raged, I had but too many opportunities of watching its
nature, and from a Dr. B——, who was then lodging in
my house, received many hints as to its treatment which
I afterwards found invaluable.</p>
<p>Early in the same year my brother had left Kingston for
the Isthmus of Panama, then the great high-road to and from
golden California, where he had established a considerable
store and hotel. Ever since he had done so, I had found
some difficulty in checking my reviving disposition to roam,
and at last persuading myself that I might be of use to
him (he was far from strong), I resigned my house into
the hands of a cousin, and made arrangements to journey
to Chagres. Having come to this conclusion, I allowed no
grass to grow beneath my feet, but set to work busily, for
I was not going to him empty-handed. My house was
full for weeks, of tailors, making up rough coats, trousers,
etc., and sempstresses cutting out and making shirts. In
addition to these, my kitchen was filled with busy people,
manufacturing preserves, guava jelly, and other delicacies,
while a considerable sum was invested in the purchase of
preserved meats, vegetables, and eggs. It will be as well,
perhaps, if I explain, in as few words as possible, the then
condition of the Isthmus of Panama.</p>
<p>All my readers must know—a glance at the map will show
it to those who do not—that between North America and the
envied shores of California stretches a little neck of land,
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insignificant-looking enough on the map, dividing the Atlantic
from the Pacific. By crossing this, the travellers from
America avoided a long, weary, and dangerous sea voyage
round Cape Horn, or an almost impossible journey by land.</p>
<p>But that journey across the Isthmus, insignificant in
distance as it was, was by no means an easy one. It seemed
as if nature had determined to throw every conceivable
obstacle in the way of those who should seek to join the
two great oceans of the world. I have read and heard
many accounts of old endeavours to effect this important
and gigantic work, and how miserably they failed. It was
reserved for the men of our age to accomplish what so many
had died in attempting, and iron and steam, twin giants, subdued
to man’s will, have put a girdle over rocks and rivers, so
that travellers can glide as smoothly, if not as inexpensively,
over the once terrible Isthmus of Darien, as they can from
London to Brighton. Not yet, however, does civilization,
rule at Panama. The weak sway of the New Granada
Republic, despised by lawless men, and respected by none,
is powerless to control the refuse of every nation which
meet together upon its soil. Whenever they feel inclined
now they overpower the law easily; but seven years ago,
when I visited the Isthmus of Panama, things were much
worse, and a licence existed, compared to which the present
lawless state of affairs is enviable.</p>
<p>When, after passing Chagres, an old-world, tumble-down
town, for about seven miles, the steamer reached
Navy Bay, I thought I had never seen a more luckless,
dreary spot. Three sides of the place were a mere swamp,
and the town itself stood upon a sand-reef, the houses
being built upon piles, which some one told me rotted
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_11" id="Page_11">[Pg 11]</SPAN></span>
regularly every three years. The railway, which now
connects the bay with Panama, was then building, and
ran, as far as we could see, on piles, connected with the
town by a wooden jetty. It seemed as capital a nursery
for ague and fever as Death could hit upon anywhere, and
those on board the steamer who knew it confirmed my
opinion. As we arrived a steady down-pour of rain was
falling from an inky sky; the white men who met us on
the wharf appeared ghostly and wraith-like, and the very
negroes seemed pale and wan. The news which met us
did not tempt me to lose any time in getting up the
country to my brother. According to all accounts, fever
and ague, with some minor diseases, especially dropsy,
were having it all their own way at Navy Bay, and,
although I only stayed one night in the place, my medicine
chest was called into requisition. But the sufferers wanted
remedies which I could not give them—warmth, nourishment,
and fresh air. Beneath leaky tents, damp huts, and
even under broken railway waggons, I saw men dying
from sheer exhaustion. Indeed, I was very glad when,
with the morning, the crowd, as the Yankees called the
bands of pilgrims to and from California, made ready to
ascend to Panama.</p>
<p>The first stage of our journey was by railway to Gatun,
about twelve miles distant. For the greater portion of
that distance the lines ran on piles, over as unhealthy and
wretched a country as the eye could well grow weary of;
but, at last, the country improved, and you caught glimpses
of distant hills and English-like scenery. Every mile of
that fatal railway cost the world thousands of lives. I
was assured that its site was marked thickly by graves,
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_12" id="Page_12">[Pg 12]</SPAN></span>
and that so great was the mortality among the labourers
that three times the survivors struck in a body, and their
places had to be supplied by fresh victims from America,
tempted by unheard-of rates of wages. It is a gigantic
undertaking, and shows what the energy and enterprise of
man can accomplish. Everything requisite for its construction,
even the timber, had to be prepared in, and
brought from, America.</p>
<p>The railway then ran no further than Gatun, and here
we were to take water and ascend the River Chagres to
Gorgona, the next stage on the way to Cruces, where my
brother was. The cars landed us at the bottom of a somewhat
steep cutting through a reddish clay, and deposited
me and my suite, consisting of a black servant, named
“Mac,” and a little girl, in safety in the midst of my many
packages, not altogether satisfied with my prospects; for
the rain was falling heavily and steadily, and the Gatun
porters were possessing themselves of my luggage with
that same avidity which distinguishes their brethren on
the pier of Calais or the quays of Pera. There are two
species of individuals whom I have found alike wherever
my travels have carried me—the reader can guess their
professions—porters and lawyers.</p>
<p>It was as much as I could do to gather my packages
together, sit in the midst with a determined look to awe
the hungry crowd around me, and send “Mac” up the steep
slippery bank to report progress. After a little while he
returned to say that the river-side was not far off, where
boats could be hired for the upward journey. The word
given, the porters threw themselves upon my packages; a
pitched battle ensued, out of which issued the strongest
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_13" id="Page_13">[Pg 13]</SPAN></span>
Spanish Indians, with their hardly earned prizes, and we
commenced the ascent of the clayey bank. Now, although
the surveyors of the Darien highways had considerately
cut steps up the steep incline, they had become worse than
useless, so I floundered about terribly, more than once
losing my footing altogether. And as with that due
regard to personal appearance, which I have always
deemed a duty as well as a pleasure to study, I had, before
leaving Navy Bay, attired myself in a delicate light blue
dress, a white bonnet prettily trimmed, and an equally
chaste shawl, the reader can sympathise with my distress.
However, I gained the summit, and after an arduous
descent, of a few minutes duration, reached the river-side;
in a most piteous plight, however, for my pretty dress,
from its contact with the Gatun clay, looked as red as if,
in the pursuit of science, I had passed it through a strong
solution of muriatic acid.</p>
<p>By the water-side I found my travelling companions
arguing angrily with the shrewd boatmen, and bating down
their fares. Upon collecting my luggage, I found, as I
had expected, that the porters had not neglected the
glorious opportunity of robbing a woman, and that several
articles were missing. Complaints, I knew, would not
avail me, and stronger measures seemed hazardous and
barely advisable in a lawless out-of-the-way spot, where</p>
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<span class="i4">“The simple plan,<br/></span>
<span class="i0">That they should take who have the power,<br/></span>
<span class="i0">And they should keep who can,”<br/></span></div>
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<p>seemed universally practised, and would very likely have
been defended by its practitioners upon principle.</p>
<p>It was not so easy to hire a boat as I had been led to
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expect. The large crowd had made the boatmen somewhat exorbitant
in their demands, and there were several reasons why I
should engage one for my own exclusive use, instead of
sharing one with some of my travelling companions. In the
first place, my luggage was somewhat bulky; and, in the
second place, my experience of travel had not failed to teach
me that Americans (even from the Northern States) are
always uncomfortable in the company of coloured people,
and very often show this feeling in stronger ways than by
sour looks and rude words. I think, if I have a little
prejudice against our cousins across the Atlantic—and I
do confess to a little—it is not unreasonable. I have a few
shades of deeper brown upon my skin which shows me
related—and I am proud of the relationship—to those poor
mortals whom you once held enslaved, and whose bodies
America still owns. And having this bond, and knowing
what slavery is; having seen with my eyes and heard
with my ears proof positive enough of its horrors—let
others affect to doubt them if they will—is it surprising
that I should be somewhat impatient of the airs of
superiority which many Americans have endeavoured to
assume over me? Mind, I am not speaking of all. I have
met with some delightful exceptions.</p>
<p>At length I succeeded in hiring a boat for the modest
consideration of ten pounds, to carry me and my fortunes
to Cruces. My boat was far from uncomfortable. Large
and flat-bottomed, with an awning, dirty it must be confessed,
beneath which swung a hammock, of which I took
immediate possession. By the way, the Central Americans
should adopt the hammock as their national badge; but for
sheer necessity they would never leave it. The master of
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the boat, the padrone, was a fine tall negro, his crew were
four common enough specimens of humanity, with a
marked disregard of the prejudices of society with respect
to clothing. A dirty handkerchief rolled over the head,
and a wisp of something, which might have been linen,
bound round the loins, formed their attire. Perhaps,
however, the thick coating of dirt which covered them
kept them warmer than more civilized clothing, besides
being indisputably more economical.</p>
<p>The boat was generally propelled by paddles, but when
the river was shallow, poles were used to punt us along, as
on English rivers; the black padrone, whose superior position
was indicated by the use of decent clothing, standing
at the helm, gesticulating wildly, and swearing Spanish
oaths with a vehemence that would have put Corporal
Trim’s comrades in Flanders to the blush. Very much
shocked, of course, but finding it perfectly useless to remonstrate
with him, I swung myself in my hammock and
leisurely watched the river scene.</p>
<p>The river Chagres lolled with considerable force, now
between low marshy shores, now narrowing, between steep,
thickly wooded banks. It was liable, as are all rivers in
hilly districts, to sudden and heavy floods; and although
the padrone, on leaving Gatun, had pledged his soul to land
me at Cruces that night, I had not been long afloat before
I saw that he would forfeit his worthless pledge; for the
wind rose to a gale, ruffling the river here and there into
a little sea; the rain came down in torrents, while the
river rose rapidly, bearing down on its swollen stream
trunks of trees, and similar waifs and strays, which it
tossed about like a giant in sport, threatening to snag us
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_16" id="Page_16">[Pg 16]</SPAN></span>
with its playthings every moment. And when we came to
a sheltered reach, and found that the little fleet of boats
which had preceded us had laid to there, I came to the conclusion
that, stiff, tired, and hungry, I should have to pass a
night upon the river Chagres. All I could get to eat was
some guavas, which grew wild upon the banks, and then I
watched the padrone curl his long body up among my luggage,
and listened to the crew, who had rolled together at the
bottom of the boat, snore as peacefully as if they slept between
fair linen sheets, in the purest of calico night-gear,
and the most unexceptionable of nightcaps, until somehow
I fell into a troubled, dreamy sleep.</p>
<p>At daybreak we were enabled to pursue our journey,
and in a short time reached Gorgona. I was glad enough
to go on shore, as you may imagine. Gorgona was a mere
temporary town of bamboo and wood houses, hastily erected
to serve as a station for the crowd. In the present rainy
season, when the river was navigable up to Cruces, the
chief part of the population migrated thither, so that Gorgona
was almost deserted, and looked indescribably damp,
dirty, and dull. With some difficulty I found a bakery and
a butcher’s shop. The meat was not very tempting, for
the Gorgona butchers did not trouble themselves about
joints, but cut the flesh into strips about three inches wide,
and of various lengths. These were hung upon rails, so
that you bought your meat by the yard, and were spared
any difficulty in the choice of joint. I cannot say that I
was favourably impressed with this novel and simple way
of avoiding trouble, but I was far too hungry to be particular,
and buying a strip for a quarter of a real, carried
it off to Mac to cook.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_17" id="Page_17">[Pg 17]</SPAN></span>
Late that afternoon, the padrone and his crew landed
me, tired, wretched, and out of temper, upon the miserable
wharf of Cruces.</p>
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