<h2><SPAN name="chap38"></SPAN>XXXVIII.</h2>
<p>The proceedings had been brief—too brief—to Lucetta whom an
intoxicating <i>Weltlust</i> had fairly mastered; but they had brought her a
great triumph nevertheless. The shake of the Royal hand still lingered in her
fingers; and the chit-chat she had overheard, that her husband might possibly
receive the honour of knighthood, though idle to a degree, seemed not the
wildest vision; stranger things had occurred to men so good and captivating as
her Scotchman was.</p>
<p>After the collision with the Mayor, Henchard had withdrawn behind the
ladies’ stand; and there he stood, regarding with a stare of abstraction
the spot on the lapel of his coat where Farfrae’s hand had seized it. He
put his own hand there, as if he could hardly realize such an outrage from one
whom it had once been his wont to treat with ardent generosity. While pausing
in this half-stupefied state the conversation of Lucetta with the other ladies
reached his ears; and he distinctly heard her deny him—deny that he had
assisted Donald, that he was anything more than a common journeyman.</p>
<p>He moved on homeward, and met Jopp in the archway to the Bull Stake. “So
you’ve had a snub,” said Jopp.</p>
<p>“And what if I have?” answered Henchard sternly.</p>
<p>“Why, I’ve had one too, so we are both under the same cold
shade.” He briefly related his attempt to win Lucetta’s
intercession.</p>
<p>Henchard merely heard his story, without taking it deeply in. His own relation
to Farfrae and Lucetta overshadowed all kindred ones. He went on saying
brokenly to himself, “She has supplicated to me in her time; and now her
tongue won’t own me nor her eyes see me!... And he—how angry he
looked. He drove me back as if I were a bull breaking fence.... I took it like
a lamb, for I saw it could not be settled there. He can rub brine on a green
wound!... But he shall pay for it, and she shall be sorry. It must come to a
tussle—face to face; and then we’ll see how a coxcomb can front a
man!”</p>
<p>Without further reflection the fallen merchant, bent on some wild purpose, ate
a hasty dinner and went forth to find Farfrae. After being injured by him as a
rival, and snubbed by him as a journeyman, the crowning degradation had been
reserved for this day—that he should be shaken at the collar by him as a
vagabond in the face of the whole town.</p>
<p>The crowds had dispersed. But for the green arches which still stood as they
were erected Casterbridge life had resumed its ordinary shape. Henchard went
down Corn Street till he came to Farfrae’s house, where he knocked, and
left a message that he would be glad to see his employer at the granaries as
soon as he conveniently could come there. Having done this he proceeded round
to the back and entered the yard.</p>
<p>Nobody was present, for, as he had been aware, the labourers and carters were
enjoying a half-holiday on account of the events of the morning—though
the carters would have to return for a short time later on, to feed and litter
down the horses. He had reached the granary steps and was about to ascend, when
he said to himself aloud, “I’m stronger than he.”</p>
<p>Henchard returned to a shed, where he selected a short piece of rope from
several pieces that were lying about; hitching one end of this to a nail, he
took the other in his right hand and turned himself bodily round, while keeping
his arm against his side; by this contrivance he pinioned the arm effectively.
He now went up the ladders to the top floor of the corn-stores.</p>
<p>It was empty except of a few sacks, and at the further end was the door often
mentioned, opening under the cathead and chain that hoisted the sacks. He fixed
the door open and looked over the sill. There was a depth of thirty or forty
feet to the ground; here was the spot on which he had been standing with
Farfrae when Elizabeth-Jane had seen him lift his arm, with many misgivings as
to what the movement portended.</p>
<p>He retired a few steps into the loft and waited. From this elevated perch his
eyes could sweep the roofs round about, the upper parts of the luxurious
chestnut trees, now delicate in leaves of a week’s age, and the drooping
boughs of the lines; Farfrae’s garden and the green door leading
therefrom. In course of time—he could not say how long—that green
door opened and Farfrae came through. He was dressed as if for a journey. The
low light of the nearing evening caught his head and face when he emerged from
the shadow of the wall, warming them to a complexion of flame-colour. Henchard
watched him with his mouth firmly set, the squareness of his jaw and the
verticality of his profile being unduly marked.</p>
<p>Farfrae came on with one hand in his pocket, and humming a tune in a way which
told that the words were most in his mind. They were those of the song he had
sung when he arrived years before at the Three Mariners, a poor young man,
adventuring for life and fortune, and scarcely knowing witherward:—</p>
<p class="poem">
“And here’s a hand, my trusty fiere,<br/>
And gie’s a hand o’ thine.”</p>
<p>Nothing moved Henchard like an old melody. He sank back. “No; I
can’t do it!” he gasped. “Why does the infernal fool begin
that now!”</p>
<p>At length Farfrae was silent, and Henchard looked out of the loft door.
“Will ye come up here?” he said.</p>
<p>“Ay, man,” said Farfrae. “I couldn’t see ye.
What’s wrang?”</p>
<p>A minute later Henchard heard his feet on the lowest ladder. He heard him land
on the first floor, ascend and land on the second, begin the ascent to the
third. And then his head rose through the trap behind.</p>
<p>“What are you doing up here at this time?” he asked, coming
forward. “Why didn’t ye take your holiday like the rest of the
men?” He spoke in a tone which had just severity enough in it to show
that he remembered the untoward event of the forenoon, and his conviction that
Henchard had been drinking.</p>
<p>Henchard said nothing; but going back he closed the stair hatchway, and stamped
upon it so that it went tight into its frame; he next turned to the wondering
young man, who by this time observed that one of Henchard’s arms was
bound to his side.</p>
<p>“Now,” said Henchard quietly, “we stand face to
face—man and man. Your money and your fine wife no longer lift ’ee
above me as they did but now, and my poverty does not press me down.”</p>
<p>“What does it all mean?” asked Farfrae simply.</p>
<p>“Wait a bit, my lad. You should ha’ thought twice before you
affronted to extremes a man who had nothing to lose. I’ve stood your
rivalry, which ruined me, and your snubbing, which humbled me; but your
hustling, that disgraced me, I won’t stand!”</p>
<p>Farfrae warmed a little at this. “Ye’d no business there,” he
said.</p>
<p>“As much as any one among ye! What, you forward stripling, tell a man of
my age he’d no business there!” The anger-vein swelled in his
forehead as he spoke.</p>
<p>“You insulted Royalty, Henchard; and ’twas my duty, as the chief
magistrate, to stop you.”</p>
<p>“Royalty be damned,” said Henchard. “I am as loyal as you,
come to that!”</p>
<p>“I am not here to argue. Wait till you cool doon, wait till you cool; and
you will see things the same way as I do.”</p>
<p>“You may be the one to cool first,” said Henchard grimly.
“Now this is the case. Here be we, in this four-square loft, to finish
out that little wrestle you began this morning. There’s the door, forty
foot above ground. One of us two puts the other out by that door—the
master stays inside. If he likes he may go down afterwards and give the alarm
that the other has fallen out by accident—or he may tell the
truth—that’s his business. As the strongest man I’ve tied one
arm to take no advantage of ’ee. D’ye understand? Then here’s
at ’ee!”</p>
<p>There was no time for Farfrae to do aught but one thing, to close with
Henchard, for the latter had come on at once. It was a wrestling match, the
object of each being to give his antagonist a back fall; and on
Henchard’s part, unquestionably, that it should be through the door.</p>
<p>At the outset Henchard’s hold by his only free hand, the right, was on
the left side of Farfrae’s collar, which he firmly grappled, the latter
holding Henchard by his collar with the contrary hand. With his right he
endeavoured to get hold of his antagonist’s left arm, which, however, he
could not do, so adroitly did Henchard keep it in the rear as he gazed upon the
lowered eyes of his fair and slim antagonist.</p>
<p>Henchard planted the first toe forward, Farfrae crossing him with his; and thus
far the struggle had very much the appearance of the ordinary wrestling of
those parts. Several minutes were passed by them in this attitude, the pair
rocking and writhing like trees in a gale, both preserving an absolute silence.
By this time their breathing could be heard. Then Farfrae tried to get hold of
the other side of Henchard’s collar, which was resisted by the larger man
exerting all his force in a wrenching movement, and this part of the struggle
ended by his forcing Farfrae down on his knees by sheer pressure of one of his
muscular arms. Hampered as he was, however, he could not keep him there, and
Farfrae finding his feet again the struggle proceeded as before.</p>
<p>By a whirl Henchard brought Donald dangerously near the precipice; seeing his
position the Scotchman for the first time locked himself to his adversary, and
all the efforts of that infuriated Prince of Darkness—as he might have
been called from his appearance just now—were inadequate to lift or
loosen Farfrae for a time. By an extraordinary effort he succeeded at last,
though not until they had got far back again from the fatal door. In doing so
Henchard contrived to turn Farfrae a complete somersault. Had Henchard’s
other arm been free it would have been all over with Farfrae then. But again he
regained his feet, wrenching Henchard’s arm considerably, and causing him
sharp pain, as could be seen from the twitching of his face. He instantly
delivered the younger man an annihilating turn by the left fore-hip, as it used
to be expressed, and following up his advantage thrust him towards the door,
never loosening his hold till Farfrae’s fair head was hanging over the
window-sill, and his arm dangling down outside the wall.</p>
<p>“Now,” said Henchard between his gasps, “this is the end of
what you began this morning. Your life is in my hands.”</p>
<p>“Then take it, take it!” said Farfrae. “Ye’ve wished to
long enough!”</p>
<p>Henchard looked down upon him in silence, and their eyes met. “O
Farfrae!—that’s not true!” he said bitterly. “God is my
witness that no man ever loved another as I did thee at one time.... And
now—though I came here to kill ’ee, I cannot hurt thee! Go and give
me in charge—do what you will—I care nothing for what comes of
me!”</p>
<p>He withdrew to the back part of the loft, loosened his arm, and flung himself
in a corner upon some sacks, in the abandonment of remorse. Farfrae regarded
him in silence; then went to the hatch and descended through it. Henchard would
fain have recalled him, but his tongue failed in its task, and the young
man’s steps died on his ear.</p>
<p>Henchard took his full measure of shame and self-reproach. The scenes of his
first acquaintance with Farfrae rushed back upon him—that time when the
curious mixture of romance and thrift in the young man’s composition so
commanded his heart that Farfrae could play upon him as on an instrument. So
thoroughly subdued was he that he remained on the sacks in a crouching
attitude, unusual for a man, and for such a man. Its womanliness sat tragically
on the figure of so stern a piece of virility. He heard a conversation below,
the opening of the coach-house door, and the putting in of a horse, but took no
notice.</p>
<p>Here he stayed till the thin shades thickened to opaque obscurity, and the
loft-door became an oblong of gray light—the only visible shape around.
At length he arose, shook the dust from his clothes wearily, felt his way to
the hatch, and gropingly descended the steps till he stood in the yard.</p>
<p>“He thought highly of me once,” he murmured. “Now he’ll
hate me and despise me for ever!”</p>
<p>He became possessed by an overpowering wish to see Farfrae again that night,
and by some desperate pleading to attempt the well-nigh impossible task of
winning pardon for his late mad attack. But as he walked towards
Farfrae’s door he recalled the unheeded doings in the yard while he had
lain above in a sort of stupor. Farfrae he remembered had gone to the stable
and put the horse into the gig; while doing so Whittle had brought him a
letter; Farfrae had then said that he would not go towards Budmouth as he had
intended—that he was unexpectedly summoned to Weatherbury, and meant to
call at Mellstock on his way thither, that place lying but one or two miles out
of his course.</p>
<p>He must have come prepared for a journey when he first arrived in the yard,
unsuspecting enmity; and he must have driven off (though in a changed
direction) without saying a word to any one on what had occurred between
themselves.</p>
<p>It would therefore be useless to call at Farfrae’s house till very late.</p>
<p>There was no help for it but to wait till his return, though waiting was almost
torture to his restless and self-accusing soul. He walked about the streets and
outskirts of the town, lingering here and there till he reached the stone
bridge of which mention has been made, an accustomed halting-place with him
now. Here he spent a long time, the purl of waters through the weirs meeting
his ear, and the Casterbridge lights glimmering at no great distance off.</p>
<p>While leaning thus upon the parapet his listless attention was awakened by
sounds of an unaccustomed kind from the town quarter. They were a confusion of
rhythmical noises, to which the streets added yet more confusion by encumbering
them with echoes. His first incurious thought that the clangour arose from the
town band, engaged in an attempt to round off a memorable day in a burst of
evening harmony, was contradicted by certain peculiarities of reverberation.
But inexplicability did not rouse him to more than a cursory heed; his sense of
degradation was too strong for the admission of foreign ideas; and he leant
against the parapet as before.</p>
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