<h2>CHAPTER THREE</h2>
<p>From the spaceport gates, exchanging brief greetings with the guards, I
took a last look at the Kharsa. For a minute I toyed with the notion of
just disappearing down one of those streets. It's not hard to disappear
on Wolf, if you know how. And I knew, or had known once. Loyalty to
Terra? What had Terra given me except a taste of color and adventure,
out there in the Dry-towns, and then taken it away again?</p>
<p>If an Earthman is very lucky and very careful, he lasts about ten years
in Intelligence. I had had two years more than my share. I still knew
enough to leave my Terran identity behind like a worn-out jacket. I
could seek out Rakhal, settle our blood-feud, see Juli again....</p>
<p>How could I see Juli again? As her husband's murderer? No other way.
Blood-feud on Wolf is a terrible and elaborate ritual of the code
duello. And once I stepped outside the borders of Terran law, sooner or
later Rakhal and I would meet. And one of us would die.</p>
<p>I looked back, just once, at the dark rambling streets away from the
square. Then I turned toward the blue-white lights that hurt my eyes,
and the starship that loomed, huge and hateful, before me.</p>
<p>A steward in white took my fingerprint and led me to a coffin-sized
chamber. He brought me coffee and sandwiches—I hadn't, after all, eaten
in the spaceport cafe—then got me into the skyhook and strapped me,
deftly and firmly, into the acceleration cushions, tugging at the
Garensen belts until I ached all over. A long needle went into my
arm—the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_17" id="Page_17"></SPAN></span> narcotic that would keep me safely drowsy all through the
terrible tug of interstellar acceleration.</p>
<p>Doors clanged, buzzers vibrated lower down in the ship, men tramped the
corridors calling to one another in the language of the spaceports. I
understood one word in four. I shut my eyes, not caring. At the end of
the trip there would be another star, another world, another language.
Another life.</p>
<p>I had spent all my adult life on Wolf. Juli had been a child under the
red star. But it was a pair of wide crimson eyes and black hair combed
into ringlets like spun black glass that went down with me into the
bottomless pit of sleep....</p>
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<p>Someone was shaking me.</p>
<p>"Ah, come on, Cargill. Wake up, man. Shake your boots!"</p>
<p>My mouth, foul-tasting and stiff, fumbled at the shapes of words. "Wha'
happened? Wha' y' want?" My eyes throbbed. When I got them open I saw
two men in black leathers bending over me. We were still inside gravity.</p>
<p>"Get out of the skyhook. You're coming with us."</p>
<p>"Wha'—" Even through the layers of the sedative, that got to me. Only a
criminal, under interstellar law, can be removed from a passage-paid
starship once he has formally checked in on board. I was legally, at
this moment, on my "planet of destination."</p>
<p>"I haven't been charged—"</p>
<p>"Did I say you had?" snapped one man.</p>
<p>"Shut up, he's doped," the other said hurriedly. "Look," he continued,
pronouncing every word loudly and distinctly, "get up now, and come with
us. The co-ordinator will hold up blastoff if we don't get off in three
minutes, and Operations will scream. Come on, please."</p>
<p>Then I was stumbling along the lighted, empty corridor, swaying between
the two men, foggily realizing the crew must think me a fugitive caught
trying to leave the planet.</p>
<p>The locks dilated. A uniformed spaceman watched us, fussily regarding a
chronometer. He fretted. "The dispatcher's office—"</p>
<p>"We're doing the best we can," the Spaceforce man said. "Can you walk,
Cargill?"<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_18" id="Page_18"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>I could, though my feet were a little shaky on the ladders. The violet
moonlight had deepened to mauve, and gusty winds spun tendrils of grit
across my face. The Spaceforce men shepherded me, one on either side, to
the gateway.</p>
<p>"What the hell is all this? Is something wrong with my pass?"</p>
<p>The guard shook his head. "How would I know? Magnusson put out the
order, take it up with him."</p>
<p>"Believe me," I muttered, "I will."</p>
<p>They looked at each other. "Hell," said one, "he's not under arrest, we
don't have to haul him around like a convict. Can you walk all right
now, Cargill? You know where the Secret Service office is, don't you?
Floor 38. The Chief wants you, and make it fast."</p>
<p>I knew it made no sense to ask questions, they obviously knew no more
than I did. I asked anyhow.</p>
<p>"Are they holding the ship for me? I'm supposed to be leaving on it."</p>
<p>"Not that one," the guard answered, jerking his head toward the
spaceport. I looked back just in time to see the dust-dimmed ship leap
upward, briefly whitened in the field searchlights, and vanish into the
surging clouds above.</p>
<p>My head was clearing fast, and anger speeded up the process. The HQ
building was empty in the chill silence of just before dawn. I had to
rout out a dozing elevator operator, and as the lift swooped upward my
anger rose with it. I wasn't working for Magnusson any more. What right
had he, or anybody, to grab me off an outbound starship like a criminal?
By the time I barged into his office, I was spoiling for a fight.</p>
<p>The Secret Service office was full of grayish-pink morning and yellow
lights left on from the night before. Magnusson, at his desk, looked as
if he'd slept in his rumpled uniform. He was a big bull of a man, and
his littered desk looked, as always, like the track of a typhoon in the
salt flats.</p>
<p>The clutter was weighted down, here and there, with solidopic cubes of
the five Magnusson youngsters, and as usual, Magnusson was fiddling with
one of the cubes. He said, not looking up, "Sorry to pull this at the
last minute, Race. There was just time to put out a pull order and get
you off the ship, but no time to explain."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_19" id="Page_19"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>I glared at him. "Seems I can't even get off the planet without trouble!
You raised hell all the time I was here, but when I try to leave—what
is this, anyhow? I'm sick of being shoved around!"</p>
<p>Magnusson made a conciliating gesture. "Wait until you hear—" he began,
and broke off, looking at someone who was sitting in the chair in front
of his desk, somebody whose back was turned to me. Then the person
twisted and I stopped cold, blinking and wondering if this were a
hallucination and I'd wake up in the starship's skyhook, far out in
space.</p>
<p>Then the woman cried, "Race, <i>Race</i>! Don't you know me?"</p>
<p>I took one dazed step and another. Then she flew across the space
between us, her thin arms tangling around my neck, and I caught her up,
still disbelieving.</p>
<p>"<i>Juli!</i>"</p>
<p>"Oh, Race, I thought I'd die when Mack told me you were leaving tonight.
It's been the only thing that's kept me alive, knowing—knowing I'd see
you." She sobbed and laughed, her face buried in my shoulder.</p>
<p>I let her cry for a minute, then held my sister at arm's length. For a
moment I had forgotten the six years that lay between us. Now I saw
them, all of them, printed plain on her face. Juli had been a pretty
girl. Six years had fined her face into beauty, but there was tension in
the set of her shoulders, and her gray eyes had looked on horrors.</p>
<p>She looked tiny and thin and unbearably frail under the scanty folds of
her fur robe, a Dry-town woman's robe. Her wrists were manacled, the
jeweled tight bracelets fastened together by the links of a long fine
chain of silvered gilt that clashed a little, thinly, as her hands fell
to her sides.</p>
<p>"What's wrong, Juli? Where's Rakhal?"</p>
<p>She shivered and now I could see that she was in a state of shock.</p>
<p>"Gone. He's gone, that's all I know. And—oh, Race, Race, he took Rindy
with him!"</p>
<p>From the tone of her voice I had thought she was sobbing. Now I realized
that her eyes were dry; she was long past tears. Gently I unclasped her
clenched fingers and put her back in the chair. She sat like a doll, her
hands falling<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_20" id="Page_20"></SPAN></span> to her sides with a thin clash of chains. When I picked
them up and laid them in her lap she let them lie there motionless. I
stood over her and demanded, "Who's Rindy?" She didn't move.</p>
<p>"My daughter, Race. Our little girl."</p>
<p>Magnusson broke in, his voice harsh. "Well, Cargill, should I have let
you leave?"</p>
<p>"Don't be a damn fool!"</p>
<p>"I was afraid you'd tell the poor kid she had to live with her own
mistakes," growled Magnusson. "You're capable of it."</p>
<p>For the first time Juli showed a sign of animation. "I was afraid to
come to you, Mack. You never wanted me to marry Rakhal, either."</p>
<p>"Water under the bridge," Magnusson grunted. "And I've got lads of my
own, Miss Cargill—Mrs.—" he stopped in distress, vaguely remembering
that in the Dry-towns an improper form of address can be a deadly
insult.</p>
<p>But she guessed his predicament.</p>
<p>"You used to call me Juli, Mack. It will do now."</p>
<p>"You've changed," he said quietly. "Juli, then. Tell Race what you told
me. All of it."</p>
<p>She turned to me. "I shouldn't have come for myself—"</p>
<p>I knew that. Juli was proud, and she had always had the courage to live
with her own mistakes. When I first saw her, I knew this wouldn't be
anything so simple as the complaint of an abused wife or even an
abandoned or deserted mother. I took a chair, watching her and
listening.</p>
<p>She began. "You made a mistake when you turned Rakhal out of the
Service, Mack. In his way he was the most loyal man you had on Wolf."</p>
<p>Magnusson had evidently not expected her to take this tack. He scowled
and looked disconcerted, shifting uneasily in his big chair, but when
Juli did not continue, obviously awaiting his answer, he said, "Juli, he
left me no choice. I never knew how his mind worked. That final deal he
engineered—have you any idea how much that cost the Service? And have
you taken a good look at your brother's face, Juli girl?"</p>
<p>Juli raised her eyes slowly, and I saw her flinch. I knew how she felt.
For three years I had kept my mirror covered,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_21" id="Page_21"></SPAN></span> growing an untidy
straggle of beard because it hid the scars and saved me the ordeal of
facing myself to shave.</p>
<p>Juli whispered, "Rakhal's is just as bad. Worse."</p>
<p>"That's some satisfaction," I said, and Mack stared at us, baffled.
"Even now I don't know what it was all about."</p>
<p>"And you never will," I said for the hundredth time. "We've been over
this before. Nobody could understand it unless he'd lived in the
Dry-towns. Let's not talk about it. You talk, Juli. What brought you
here like this? What about the kid?"</p>
<p>"There's no way I can tell you the end without telling you the
beginning," she said reasonably. "At first Rakhal worked as a trader in
Shainsa."</p>
<p>I wasn't surprised. The Dry-towns were the core of Terran trade on Wolf,
and it was through their cooperation that Terra existed here peaceably,
on a world only half human, or less.</p>
<p>The men of the Dry-towns existed strangely poised between two worlds.
They had made dealings with the first Terran ships, and thus gave
entrance to the wedge of the Terran Empire. And yet they stood proud and
apart. They alone had never yielded to the Terranizing which overtakes
all Empire planets sooner or later.</p>
<p>There were no Trade Cities in the Dry-towns; an Earthman who went there
unprotected faced a thousand deaths, each one worse than the last. There
were those who said that the men of Shainsa and Daillon and Ardcarran
had sold the rest of Wolf to the Terrans, to keep the Terrans from their
own door.</p>
<p>Even Rakhal, who had worked with Terra since boyhood, had finally come
to a point of decision and gone his own way. And it was not Terra's way.</p>
<p>That was what Juli was saying now.</p>
<p>"He didn't like what Terra was doing on Wolf. I'm not so sure I like it
myself—"</p>
<p>Magnusson interrupted her again. "Do you know what Wolf was like when we
came here? Have you seen the Slave Colony, the Idiot's Village? Your own
brother went to Shainsa and routed out The Lisse."</p>
<p>"And Rakhal helped him!" Juli reminded him. "Even after he left you, he
tried to keep out of things. He could<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_22" id="Page_22"></SPAN></span> have told them a good deal that
would hurt you, after ten years in Intelligence, you know."</p>
<p>I knew. It was, although I wasn't going to tell Juli this, one reason
why, at the end—during that terrible explosion of violence which no
normal Terran mind could comprehend—I had done my best to kill him. We
had both known that after this, the planet would not hold the two of us.
We could both go on living only by dividing it unevenly. I had been
given the slow death of the Terran Zone. And he had all the rest.</p>
<p>"But he never told them anything! I tell you, he was one of the most
loyal—"</p>
<p>Mack grunted, "Yeah, he's an angel. Go ahead."</p>
<p>She didn't, not immediately. Instead she asked what sounded like an
irrelevant question. "Is it true what he told me? That the Empire has a
standing offer of a reward for a working model of a matter transmitter?"</p>
<p>"That offer's been standing for three hundred years, Terran reckoning.
One million credits cash. Don't tell me he was figuring to invent one?"</p>
<p>"I don't think so. But I think he heard rumors about one. He said with
that kind of money he could bargain the Terrans right out of Shainsa.
That was where it started. He began coming and going at odd times, but
he never said any more about it. He wouldn't talk to me at all."</p>
<p>"When was all this?"</p>
<p>"About four months ago."</p>
<p>"In other words, just about the time of the riots in Charin."</p>
<p>She nodded. "Yes. He was away in Charin when the Ghost Wind blew, and he
came back with knife cuts in his thigh. I asked if he had been mixed-up
in the anti-Terran rioting, but he wouldn't tell me. Race, I don't know
anything about politics. I don't really care. But just about that time,
the Great House in Shainsa changed hands. I'm sure Rakhal had something
to do with that.</p>
<p>"And then—" Juli twisted her chained hands together in her lap—"he
tried to mix Rindy up in it. It was crazy, awful! He'd brought her some
sort of nonhuman toy from one of the lowland towns, Charin I think. It
was a weird thing, scared me. But he'd sit Rindy down in the sunlight<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_23" id="Page_23"></SPAN></span>
and have her look into it, and Rindy would gabble all sorts of nonsense
about little men and birds and a toymaker."</p>
<p>The chains about Juli's wrists clashed as she twisted her hands
together. I stared somberly at the fetters. The chain, which was long,
did not really hamper her movements much. Such chains were symbolic
ornaments, and most Dry-town women went all their lives with fettered
hands. But even after the years I'd spent in the Dry-towns, the sight
still brought an uneasiness to my throat, a vague discomfort.</p>
<p>"We had a terrible fight over that," Juli went on. "I was afraid, afraid
of what it was doing to Rindy. I threw it out, and Rindy woke up and
screamed—" Juli checked herself and caught at vanishing self-control.</p>
<p>"But you don't want to hear about that. It was then I threatened to
leave him and take Rindy. The next day—" Suddenly the hysteria Juli had
been forcing back broke free, and she rocked back and forth in her
chair, shaken and strangled with sobs. "He took Rindy! Oh, Race, he's
crazy, crazy. I think he hates Rindy, he—he, Race, <i>he smashed her
toys</i>. He took every toy the child had and broke them one by one,
smashed them into powder, every toy the child had—"</p>
<p>"Juli, please, please," Magnusson pleaded, shaken. "If we're dealing
with a maniac—"</p>
<p>"I don't dare think he'd harm her! He warned me not to come here, or I'd
never see her again, but if it meant war against Terra I had to come.
But Mack, please, don't do anything against him, please, please. He's
got my baby, he's got my little girl...." Her voice failed and she
buried her face in her hands.</p>
<p>Mack picked up the solidopic cube of his five-year-old son, and turned
it between his pudgy fingers, saying unhappily, "Juli, we'll take every
precaution. But can't you see, we've got to get him? If there's a
question of a matter transmitter, or anything like that, in the hands of
Terra's enemies—"</p>
<p>I could see that, too, but Juli's agonized face came between me and the
picture of disaster. I clenched my fist around the chair arm, not
surprised to see the fragile plastic buckle, crack and split under my
grip. <i>If it had been Rakhal's neck....</i><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_24" id="Page_24"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Mack, let me handle this. Juli, shall I find Rindy for you?"</p>
<p>A hope was born in her ravaged face, and died, while I looked. "Race,
he'd kill you. Or have you killed."</p>
<p>"He'd try," I admitted. The moment Rakhal knew I was outside the Terran
zone, I'd walk with death. I had accepted the code during my years in
Shainsa. But now I was an Earthman and felt only contempt.</p>
<p>"Can't you see? Once he knows I'm at large, that very code of his will
force him to abandon any intrigue, whatever you call it, conspiracy, and
come after me first. That way we do two things: we get him out of
hiding, and we get him out of the conspiracy, if there is one."</p>
<p>I looked at the shaking Juli and something snapped. I stooped and lifted
her, not gently, my hands biting her shoulders. "And I won't kill him,
do you hear? He may wish I had; by the time I get through with him—I'll
beat the living hell out of him; I'll cram my fists down his throat. But
I'll settle it with him like an Earthman. I won't kill him. <i>Hear me,
Juli?</i> Because that's the worst thing I could do to him—catch him and
let him live afterward!"</p>
<p>Magnusson stepped toward me and pried my crushing hands off her arms.
Juli rubbed the bruises mechanically, not knowing she was doing it. Mack
said, "You can't do it, Cargill. You wouldn't get as far as Daillon. You
haven't been out of the zone in six years. Besides—"</p>
<p>His eyes rested full on my face. "I hate to say this, Race, but damn it,
man, go and take a good look at yourself in a mirror. Do you think I'd
ever have pulled you off the Secret Service otherwise? How in hell can
you disguise yourself now?"</p>
<p>"There are plenty of <ins class="correction"
title="Transcriber's note: original reads 'scared'">scarred</ins> men in the Dry-towns," I said. "Rakhal will
remember my scars, but I don't think anyone else would look twice."</p>
<p>Magnusson walked to the window. His huge form bulked against the light,
perceptibly darkening the office. He looked over the faraway panorama,
the neat bright Trade City below and the vast wilderness lying outside.
I could almost hear the wheels grinding in his head. Finally he swung
around.</p>
<p>"Race, I've heard these rumors before. But you're the only man I could
have sent to track them down, and I wouldn't<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_25" id="Page_25"></SPAN></span> send you out in cold blood
to be killed. I won't now. Spaceforce will pick him up."</p>
<p>I heard the harsh inward gasp of Juli's breath and said, "Damn it, no.
The first move you make—" I couldn't finish. Rindy was in his hands,
and when I knew Rakhal, he hadn't been given to making idle threats. We
all three knew what Rakhal might do at the first hint of the long arm of
Terran law reaching out for him.</p>
<p>I said, "For God's sake let's keep Spaceforce out of it. Let it look
like a personal matter between Rakhal and me, and let us settle it on
those terms. Remember he's got the kid."</p>
<p>Magnusson sighed. Again he picked up one of the cubes and stared into
the clear plastic, where the three-dimensional image of a nine-year-old
girl looked out at him, smiling and innocent. His face was transparent
as the plastic cube. Mack acts tough, but he has five kids and he is as
soft as a dish of pudding where a kid is concerned.</p>
<p>"I know. Another thing, too. If we send out Spaceforce, after all the
riots—how many Terrans are on this planet? A few thousand, no more.
What chance would we have, if it turned into a full-scale rebellion?
None at all, unless we wanted to order a massacre. Sure, we have bombs
and dis-guns and all that.</p>
<p>"But would we dare to use them? And where would we be after that? We're
here to keep the pot from boiling over, to keep out of planetary
incidents, not push them along to a point where bluff won't work. That's
why we've got to pick up Rakhal before this gets out of hand."</p>
<p>I said, "Give me a month. Then you can move in, if you have to. Rakhal
can't do much against Terra in that time. And I might be able to keep
Rindy out of it."</p>
<p>Magnusson stared at me, hard-eyed. "If you do this against my advice, I
won't be able to step in and pull you out of a jam later on, you know.
And God help you if you start up the machines and can't stop them."</p>
<p>I knew that. A month wasn't much. Wolf is forty thousand miles of
diameter, at least half unexplored; mountain and forest swarming with
nonhuman and semi-human cities where Terrans had never been.</p>
<p>Finding Rakhal, or any one man, would be like picking<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_26" id="Page_26"></SPAN></span> out one star in
the Andromeda nebula. Not impossible. Not <i>quite</i> impossible.</p>
<p>Mack's eyes wandered again to his child's face, deep in the transparent
cube. He turned it in his hands. "Okay, Cargill," he said slowly, "so
we're all crazy. I'll be crazy too. Try it your way."</p>
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