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<h3>CHAPTER XXXIV.</h3>
<h4>ALONE IN THE HOUSE.<br/> </h4>
<p>Young Newton at last found himself alone in the house at Newton
Priory after his father's death. He had sent George Morris away,
becoming very stern in his demand to be left to his solitude as long
as opposition was made to him. Gregory had come down to him from the
parsonage, and had also been dismissed. "Your brother will be here
probably to-day," said Ralph, "and then I will send for you."</p>
<p>"I am thinking more of you than of my brother, just now," answered
the parson.</p>
<p>"Yes, I know,—and though I cannot talk to you, I know how good you
are. I want to see nobody but him. I shall be better alone." Then
Gregory had returned to the parsonage.</p>
<p>As soon as Ralph was alone he crept up to the room in which his
father's body was lying, and stood silently by the bedside for above
an hour. He was struggling to remember the loss he had had in the
man, and to forget the loss in wealth and station. No father had ever
been better to a son than his father had been to him. In every affair
of life his happiness, his prosperity, and his future condition had
given motives to his father's conduct. No lover ever worshipped a
mistress more thoroughly than his father had idolised him. There had
never been love to beat it, never solicitude more perfect and
devoted. And yet, as he had been driven home that day, he had allowed
his mind to revert to the property, and his regrets to settle
themselves on his lost position. It should not be so any longer. He
could not keep his mind from dwelling on the thing, but he would
think of it as a trifle,—as of a thing which he could afford to lose
without sorrow. Whereas he had also lost that which is of all things
the most valuable and most impossible to replace,—a friend whose
love was perfect.</p>
<p>But then there was another loss. He bitterly blamed himself for
having written that letter to Sir Thomas Underwood, before he was
actually in a position to do as he had proposed. It must all be
unwritten now. Every resolution hitherto taken as to his future life
must be abandoned. He must begin again, and plan a new life for
himself. It had all come upon him so suddenly that he was utterly at
a loss to think what he would do with himself or with his days. There
was nothing for him but to go away, and be utterly without
occupation, altogether without friends. Friends, indeed, he
had,—dear, intimate, loving friends. Gregory Newton and George
Morris were his friends. Every tenant on the Newton property was his
friend. There was not a man riding with the hunt, worth having as a
friend, who was not on friendly terms with him. But all these he must
leave altogether. In whatever spot he might find for himself a future
residence, that spot could not be at Peele Newton. After what had
occurred he could not remain there, now that he was not the heir. And
then, again, his thoughts came back from his lost father to his lost
inheritance, and he was very wretched.</p>
<p>Between three and four o'clock he took his hat and walked out. He
sauntered down along a small stream, which, after running through the
gardens, bordered one of the coverts which came up near to the house.
He took this path because he knew that he would be alone there,
unseen. It had occurred to him already that it would be well that he
should give orders to stop the works which his father had commenced,
and there had been a moment in which he had almost told one of the
servants in the house to do so. But he had felt ashamed at seeming to
remember so small a thing. The owner would be there soon, probably in
an hour or two, and could stop or could continue what he pleased.
Then, as he thought of the ownership of the estate, he reflected
that, as the sale had been in truth effected by his namesake, the
money promised by his father would be legally due;—would not now be
his money. As to the estate itself, that, of course, would go to his
namesake as his father's heir. No will had been made leaving the
estate to him, and his namesake would be the heir-at-law. Thus he
would be utterly beggared. It was not that he actually believed that
this would be the case; but his thoughts were morbid, and he took an
unwholesome delight in picturing to himself circumstances in their
blackest hue. Then he would strike the ground with his stick, in his
wrath, because he thought of such things at all. How was it that he
was base enough to think of them while the accident, which had robbed
him of his father, was so recent?</p>
<p>As the dusk grew on, he emerged out of the copse into the park, and,
crossing at the back of the home paddocks, came out upon the road
near to Darvell's farm. He passed a few yards up the lane, till at a
turn he could discern the dismantled house. As far as he could see
through the gloom of the evening, there were no workmen near the
place. Some one, he presumed, had given directions that nothing
further should be done on a day so sad as this. He stood for awhile
looking and listening, and then turned round to enter the park again.</p>
<p>It might be that the new squire was already at the house, and it
would be thought that he ought not to be absent. The road from the
station to the Priory was not that on which he was standing, and
Ralph might have arrived without his knowledge. He wandered slowly
back, but, before he could turn in at the park-gate, he was met by a
man on the road. It was Mr. Walker, the farmer of Brownriggs, an old
man over seventy, who had lived on the property all his life,
succeeding his father in the same farm. Walker had known young Newton
since he had first been brought to the Priory as a boy, and could
speak to him with more freedom than perhaps any other tenant on the
estate. "Oh, Mr. Ralph," he said, "this has been a dreary thing!"
Ralph, for the first time since the accident, burst out into a flood
of tears. "No wonder you take on, Mr. Ralph. He was a good father to
you, and a fine gentleman, and one we all respected." Ralph still
sobbed, but put his hand on the old man's arm and leaned upon him. "I
hope, Mr. Ralph, that things was pretty well settled about the
property." Ralph shook his head, but did not speak. "A bargain is a
bargain, Mr. Ralph, and I suppose that this bargain was made. The
lawyers would know that it had been made."</p>
<p>"It don't matter about that, Mr. Walker," said Ralph; "but the estate
would go to my father's nephew as his heir." The farmer started as
though he had been shot. "You will have another landlord, Mr. Walker.
He can hardly be better than the one you have lost."</p>
<p>"Then, Mr. Ralph, you must bear it manly."</p>
<p>"I think that I can say that I will do that. It is not for the
property that I am crying. I hope you don't think that of me, Mr.
Walker."</p>
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<p>"No, no, no."</p>
<p>"I can bear that;—though it is hard the having to go away and live
among strange people. I think I shall get a farm somewhere, and see
if I can take a lesson from you. I don't know anything else that I
can do."</p>
<p>"You could have the Mordykes, Mr. Ralph," said Mr. Walker, naming a
holding on the Newton property as to which there were rumours that it
would soon be vacant.</p>
<p>"No, Mr. Walker, it mustn't be here. I couldn't stand that. I must go
away from this,—God knows where. I must go away from this, and I
shall never see the old place again!"</p>
<p>"Bear it manly, Mr. Ralph," said the farmer.</p>
<p>"I think I shall, after a bit. Good evening, Mr. Walker. I expect my
father's nephew every hour, and I ought to be up at the house when he
comes. I shall see you again before I go."</p>
<p>"Yes, yes; that's for certain," said the farmer. They were both
thinking of the day on which they would follow the old Squire to his
grave in Newton Peele churchyard.</p>
<p>Ralph re-entered the park, and hurried across to the house as though
he were afraid that he would be too late to receive the heir; but
there had been no arrival, nor had there come any message from the
other Ralph. Indeed up to this hour the news had not reached the
present owner of Newton Priory. The telegram had been duly delivered
at the Moonbeam, where the fortunate youth was staying; but he was
hunting on this day, riding the new horse which he had bought from
Mr. Pepper, and, up to this moment, did not know anything of that
which chance had done for him. Nor did he get back to the Moonbeam
till late at night, having made some engagement for dinner after the
day's sport. It was not till noon on the following day, the Friday,
that a message was received from him at the Priory, saying that he
would at once hurry down to Hampshire.</p>
<p>Ralph sat down to dinner all alone. Let what will happen to break
hearts and ruin fortunes, dinner comes as long as the means last for
providing it. The old butler waited upon him in absolute silence,
fearing to speak a word, lest the word at such a time should be
ill-spoken. No doubt the old man was thinking of the probable
expedience of his retiring upon his savings; feeling, however, that
it became him to show, till the last, every respect to all who bore
the honoured name of Newton. When the meat had been eaten, the old
servant did say a word. "Won't you come round to the fire, Mr.
Ralph?" and he placed comfortably before the hearth one of the heavy
arm-chairs with which the corners of the broad fire-place were
flanked. But Ralph only shook his head, and muttered some refusal.
There he sat, square to the table, with the customary bottle of wine
before him, leaning back with his hands in his pockets, thinking of
his condition in life. The loneliness of the room, the loneliness of
the house, were horrible to him. And yet he would not that his
solitude should be interrupted. He had been so sitting, motionless,
almost overcome by the gloom of the big dark room, for so long a
period that he hardly knew whether it was night or not, when a note
was brought to him from Gregory. "Dear Ralph,—Shall I not come down
to you for an hour?—G. N." He read the note, and sent back a verbal
message. "Tell Mr. Gregory that I had rather not." And so he sat
motionless till the night had really come, till the old butler
brought him his candlestick and absolutely bade him betake himself to
bed. He had watched during the whole of the previous night, and now
had slumbered in his chair from time to time. But his sleeping had
been of that painful, wakeful nature which brings with it no
refreshment. It had been full of dreams, in all of which there had
been some grotesque reference to the property, but in none of them
had there been any memory of the Squire's terrible death. And yet, as
he woke and woke and woke again, it can hardly be said that the truth
had come back upon him as a new blow. Through such dreams there seems
to exist a double memory, and a second identity. The misery of his
isolated position never for a moment left him; and yet there were
repeated to him over and over again those bungling, ill-arranged,
impossible pictures of trivial transactions about the place, which
the slumber of a few seconds sufficed to create in his brain. "Mr.
Ralph, you must go to bed;—you must indeed, sir," said the old
butler, standing over him with a candle during one of these fitful
dreamings.</p>
<p>"Yes, Grey;—yes, I will; directly. Put it down. Thank you. Don't
mind sitting up," said Ralph, rousing himself in his chair.</p>
<p>"It's past twelve," Mr. Ralph.</p>
<p>"You can go to bed, you know, Grey."</p>
<p>"No, sir;—no. I'll see you to bed first. It'll be better so. Why,
Mr. Ralph, the fire's all out, and you're sitting here perished. You
wasn't in bed last night, and you ought to be there now. Come, Mr.
Ralph."</p>
<p>Then Ralph rose from his chair and took the candlestick. It was true
enough that he had better be in bed. As he shook himself, he felt
that he had never been so cold in his life. And then as he moved
there came upon him that terrible feeling that everything was amiss
with him, that there was no consolation on any side. "That'll do,
Grey; good night," he said, as the old man prepared to follow him
up-stairs. But Grey was not to be shaken off. "I'll just see you to
your room, Mr. Ralph." He wanted to accompany his young master past
the door of that chamber in which was lying all that remained of the
old master. But Ralph would open the door. "Not to-night, Mr. Ralph,"
said Grey. But Ralph persisted, and stood again by the bedside. "He
would have given me his flesh and blood;—his very life," said Ralph
to the butler. "I think no father ever so loved a son. And yet, what
has it come to?" Then he stooped down, and put his lips to the cold
clay-blue forehead.</p>
<p>"It ain't come to much surely," said old Grey to himself as he crept
away to his own room; "and I don't suppose it do come to much mostly
when folks go wrong."</p>
<p>Ralph was out again before breakfast, wandering up and down the banks
of the stream where the wood hid him, and then he made up his mind
that he would at once write again to Sir Thomas Underwood. He must
immediately make it understood that that suggestion which he had made
in his ill-assumed pride of position must be abandoned. He had
nothing now to offer to that queenly princess worthy of the
acceptance of any woman. He was a base-born son, about to be turned
out of his father's house because of the disgrace of his birth. In
the eye of the law he was nobody. The law allowed to him not even a
name;—certainly allowed to him the possession of no relative; denied
to him the possibility of any family tie. His father had succeeded
within an ace of giving him that which would have created for him
family ties, relatives, name and all. The old Squire had understood
well how to supersede the law, and to make the harshness of man's
enactments of no avail. Had the Squire quite succeeded, the son would
have stood his ground, would have called himself Newton of Newton,
and nobody would have dared to tell him that he was a nameless
bastard. But now he could not even wait to be told. He must tell it
himself, and must vanish. He had failed to understand it all while
his father was struggling and was yet alive; but he understood it
well now. So he came in to his breakfast, resolved that he would
write that letter at once.</p>
<p>And then there were orders to be given;—hideous orders. And there
was that hideous remembrance that legally he was entitled to give no
orders. Gregory came down to him as he sat at breakfast, making his
way into the parlour without excuse. "My brother cannot have been at
home at either place," he said.</p>
<p>"Perhaps not," said Ralph. "I suppose not."</p>
<p>"The message will be sent after him, and you will hear to-day no
doubt."</p>
<p>"I suppose I shall," said Ralph.</p>
<p>Then Gregory in a low voice made the suggestion in reference to which
he had come across from the parsonage. "I think that perhaps I and
Larkin had better go over to Basingstoke." Larkin was the steward.
Ralph again burst out into tears, but he assented; and in this way
those hideous orders were given.</p>
<p>As soon as Gregory was gone he took himself to his desk, and did
write to Sir Thomas Underwood. His letter, which was perhaps somewhat
too punctilious, ran as
<span class="nowrap">follows:—</span><br/> </p>
<blockquote>
<p class="jright">Newton Priory, 4th November, 186—.</p>
<p><span class="smallcaps">My dear Sir</span>,—</p>
<p>I do not know whether you will have heard before this of
the accident which has made me fatherless. The day before
yesterday my father was killed by a fall from his horse in
the hunting-field. I should not have ventured to trouble
you with a letter on this subject, nor should I myself
have been disposed to write about it at present, were it
not that I feel it to be an imperative duty to refer
without delay to my last letter to you, and to your very
flattering reply. When I wrote to you it was true that my
father had made arrangements for purchasing on my behalf
the reversion to the property. That it was so you
doubtless were aware from your own personal knowledge of
the affairs of Mr. Ralph Newton. Whether that sale was or
was not legally completed I do not know. Probably
not;—and in regard to my own interests it is to be hoped
that it was not completed. But in any event the whole
Newton property will pass to your late ward, as my father
certainly made no such will as would convey it to me even
if the sale were complete.</p>
<p>It is a sad time for explaining all this, when the body of
my poor father is still lying unburied in the house, and
when, as you may imagine, I am ill-fitted to think of
matters of business; but, after what has passed between
us, I conceive myself bound to explain to you that I wrote
my last letter under a false impression, and that I can
make no such claim to Miss Bonner's favour as I then set
up. I am houseless and nameless, and for aught I yet know
to the contrary, absolutely penniless. The blow has hit me
very hard. I have lost my fortune, which I can bear; I
have lost whatever chance I had of gaining your niece's
hand, which I must learn to bear; and I have lost the
kindest father a man ever had,—which is unbearable.</p>
<p class="ind8">Yours very faithfully,</p>
<p class="ind10"><span class="smallcaps">Ralph Newton</span>
(so called).<br/> </p>
</blockquote>
<p>If it be thought that there was something in the letter which should
have been suppressed,—the allusion, for instance, to the possible
but most improbable loss of his father's private means, and his
morbid denial of his own right to a name which he had always borne, a
right which no one would deny him,—it must be remembered that the
circumstances of the hour bore very heavily on him, and that it was
hardly possible that he should not nurse the grievance which
afflicted him. Had he not been alone in these hours he might have
carried himself more bravely. As it was, he struggled hard to carry
himself well. If no one had ever been told how nearly successful the
Squire had been in his struggle to gain the power of leaving the
estate to his son, had there been nothing of the triumph of victory,
he could have left the house in which he had lived and the position
which he had filled almost without sorrow,—certainly without
lamentation. In the midst of calamities caused by the loss of
fortune, it is the knowledge of what the world will say that breaks
us down;—not regret for those enjoyments which wealth can give, and
which had been long anticipated.</p>
<p>At two o'clock on this day he got a telegram. "I will be at the
parsonage this evening, and will come down at once." Ralph the heir,
on his return home late at night, had heard the news, and early on
the following morning had communicated with his brother and with his
namesake. In the afternoon, after his return from Basingstoke,
Gregory again came down to the house, desiring to know whether Ralph
would prefer that the meeting should be at the Priory or at the
parsonage, and on this occasion his cousin bore with him. "Why should
not your brother come to his own house?" asked Ralph.</p>
<p>"I suppose he feels that he should not claim it as his own."</p>
<p>"That is nonsense. It is his own, and he knows it. Does he think that
I am likely to raise any question against his right?"</p>
<p>"I do not suppose that my brother has ever looked at the matter in
that light," said the parson. "He is the last man in the world to do
so. For the present, at any rate, you are living here and he is not.
In such an emergency, perhaps, he feels that it would be better that
he should come to his brother than intrude here."</p>
<p>"It would be no intrusion. I should wish him to feel that I am
prepared to yield to him instantly. Of course the house cannot be
very pleasant for him as yet. He must suffer something of the misery
of the occasion before he can enjoy his inheritance. But it will only
be for a day or so."</p>
<p>"Dear Ralph," said the parson, "I think you somewhat wrong my
brother."</p>
<p>"I endeavour not to do so. I think no ill of him, because I presume
he should look for enjoyment from what is certainly his own. He and
my father were not friends, and this, which has been to me so
terrible a calamity in every way, cannot affect him with serious
sorrow. I shall meet him as a friend; but I would sooner meet him
here than at the parsonage."</p>
<p>It was at last settled that the two brothers should come down to the
great house,—both Ralph the heir, and Gregory the parson; and that
the three young men should remain there, at any rate, till the
funeral was over. And when this was arranged, the two who had really
been fast friends for so many years, were able to talk to each other
in true friendship. The solitude which he had endured had been almost
too much for the one who had been made so desolate; but at last,
warmed by the comfort of companionship, he resumed his manhood, and
was able to look his affairs in the face, free from the morbid
feeling which had oppressed him. Gregory had his own things brought
down from the parsonage, and in order that there might be no
hesitation on his brother's part, sent a servant with a note to the
station desiring his brother to come at once to the Priory. They
resolved to wait dinner for him till after the arrival of a train
leaving London at five <span class="smallcaps">p.m.</span>
By that train the heir came, and between
seven and eight he entered the house which he had not seen since he
was a boy, and which was now his own.</p>
<p>The receipt of the telegram at the Moonbeam had affected Ralph, who
was now in truth the Squire, with absolute awe. He had returned late
from a somewhat jovial dinner, in company with his friend Cox, who
was indeed more jovial than was becoming. Ralph was not given to
drinking more wine than he could carry decently; but his friend, who
was determined to crowd as much enjoyment of life as was possible
into the small time allowed him before his disappearance from the
world that had known him, was noisy and rollicking. Perhaps it may be
acknowledged in plain terms that he was tipsy. They both entered
together the sitting-room which Ralph used, and Cox was already
calling for brandy and water, when the telegram was handed to Newton.
He read it twice before he understood it. His uncle dead!—suddenly
dead! And the inheritance all his own! In doing him justice, however,
we must admit that he did not at the time admit this to be the case.
He did perceive that there must arise some question; but his first
feeling, as regarded the property, was one of intense remorse that he
should have sold his rights at a moment in which they would so soon
have been realised in his own favour. But the awe which struck him
was occasioned by the suddenness of the blow which had fallen upon
his uncle. "What's up now, old fellow?" hiccupped Mr. Cox.</p>
<p>I wonder whether any polite reader, into whose hands this story may
fall, may ever have possessed a drunken friend, and have been struck
by some solemn incident at the moment in which his friend is
exercising the privileges of intoxication. The effect is not
pleasant, nor conducive of good-humour. Ralph turned away in disgust,
and leaned upon the chimney-piece, trying to think of what had
occurred to him. "What ish it, old chap? Shomebody wants shome tin?
I'll stand to you, old fellow."</p>
<p>"Take him away," said Ralph. "He's drunk." Then, without waiting for
further remonstrance from the good-natured but now indignant Cox, he
went off to his own room.</p>
<p>On the following morning he started for London by an early train, and
by noon was with his lawyer. Up to that moment he believed that he
had lost his inheritance. When he sent those two telegrams to his
brother and to his namesake, he hardly doubted but that the entire
property now belonged to his uncle's son. The idea had never occurred
to him that, even were the sale complete, he might still inherit the
property as his uncle's heir-at-law,—and that he would do so unless
his uncle had already bequeathed it to his son. But the attorney soon
put him right. The sale had not been yet made. He, Ralph, had not
signed a single legal document to that effect. He had done nothing
which would have enabled his late uncle to make a will leaving the
Newton estate to his son. "The letters which have been written are
all waste-paper," said the lawyer. "Even if they were to be taken as
binding as agreements for a covenant, they would operate against your
cousin,—not in his favour. In such case you would demand the
specified price and still inherit."</p>
<p>"That is out of the question," said the heir. "Quite out of the
question," said the attorney. "No doubt Mr. Newton left a will, and
under it his son will take whatever property the father had to
leave."</p>
<p>And so Ralph the heir found himself to be the owner of it all just at
the moment in which he thought that he had lost all chance of the
inheritance as the result of his own folly. When he walked out of the
lawyer's office he was almost wild with amazement. This was the prize
to which he had been taught to look forward through all his boyish
days, and all his early manhood;—but to look forward to it, as a
thing that must be very distant, so distant as almost to be lost in
the vagueness of the prospect. Probably his youth would have clean
passed from him, and he would have entered upon the downhill course
of what is called middle life before his inheritance would come to
him. He had been unable to wait, and had wasted everything,—nearly
everything; had, at any rate, ruined all his hopes before he was
seven-and-twenty; and yet, now, at seven-and-twenty, it was, as his
lawyer assured him, all his own. How nearly had he lost it all! How
nearly had he married the breeches-maker's daughter! How close upon
the rocks he had been. But now all was his own, and he was in truth
Newton of Newton, with no embarrassments of any kind which could
impose a feather's weight upon his back.</p>
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