<h2><SPAN name="XX" id="XX"></SPAN>XX</h2>
<p>The next day there were races, and in the evening another dance, on the
day following a <i>rodeo</i> and <i>merienda</i>.</p>
<p>“How long do they keep this thing up without breaking down?” asked
Thorpe, on the evening of the sixth day, and after another race where
the women had screamed themselves hoarse, and one man had stabbed
another. All were now fraternal and enthusiastic in a <i>cascarone</i>
frolic.</p>
<p>“They are made of elastic, as far as pleasure is concerned,” replied
Estenega. “If they had to work six hours out of twenty-four, they would
be haggard, and weak in the knees.”</p>
<p>Thorpe entered the sala. The furniture, with the exception of the
tables, had been <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[Pg 169]</SPAN></span>removed; and men and women, with the abandon of
children, were breaking eggshells, filled with cologne, tinsel, and
flour, on the back of each other’s heads. Black hair was flowing to the
floor; white teeth were set behind arch tense lips; black eyes were
snapping; nostrils were dilating. Even Doña Eustaquia and Chonita had
joined in the romp. Prudencia, alone, ever mindful of her dignity, stood
in a corner, the back of her head protected by the wall. She raised her
fan to Thorpe, and he made his way to her under a shower of
<i>cascarones</i>. The cologne ran down his neck, and made a paste of flour
and tinsel on his head.</p>
<p>“Ay, señor!” exclaimed the châtelaine of Casa Grande, as he bowed before
her. “No is unbecome at all. How you like the way we make the fun?”</p>
<p>Thorpe assured her that life was unmitigated amusement for the first
time.</p>
<p>“No? You no laughing at us, señor?”</p>
<p>“It has been my good fortune to laugh with you for six days.”</p>
<p>“Si: I theenk you like. I watching you.” Prudencia gave her head a
coquettish toss. <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[Pg 170]</SPAN></span>She was still a very pretty woman, despite her flesh.</p>
<p>“Oh, now you flatter me awfully. Why should you watch your most
insignificant guest?”</p>
<p>“You no are the more—how you call him?—eens—<i>bueno! no importa</i>. You
are the more honour guest I have. Si you like California, Señor Torp,
why you no living here?”</p>
<p>“Oh—I—” He had heard that question before, in different circumstances.
He was standing with his back to the wall. The brilliant picture before
him became the mise-en-scène of an opera, the babble of voices its
chorus. To his reversed vision, it crowded backward and cohered. And
upon its shifting front, upon the wall of light and laughter and beauty,
was projected the tragic figure of Nina Randolph.</p>
<p>Thorpe felt that his dark face was visibly paling. A small angry fist
seemed to strike his heart, and all his being ached with sudden pity and
longing.</p>
<p>A soft hand brushed his. He turned with a start and looked down into the
coquettish <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[Pg 171]</SPAN></span>eyes of his hostess. He noted mechanically that she had a
very determined mouth, and that her colour was higher than usual.</p>
<p>“I beg pardon?” he stammered.</p>
<p>“Why you no stay here?” whispered Prudencia.</p>
<p>“Well, I may, you know; my plans are very unsettled.”</p>
<p>“You ever been marry, señor?”</p>
<p>“No, señora.”</p>
<p>“I have; and I love the husband, before; but so many years that ees now.
You think ees possiblee keep on love when the other have been dead
twenty years?”</p>
<p>“I think so.”</p>
<p>“Ay! So I theenk once. But no was intend, I theenk, to live ’lone
alway.”</p>
<p>“Then why have you never married again, dear señora!” Thorpe found the
conversation very tiresome.</p>
<p>“Ay! The men here—all are alike the one to the other. Never I marry
another Californian.”</p>
<p>“Ah!”</p>
<p>“No!”</p>
<p>His restless eyes suddenly encountered <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[Pg 172]</SPAN></span>hers. He felt the blood climb to
his hair, his breath come short. His hands desperately sought his
pockets.</p>
<p>“I am sure, if you went to San Francisco, you would be overwhelmed with
offers—from Americans. This room is frightfully warm, don’t you think
so, señora? Shall I open the door? Ah, what a nuisance! here comes Don
Adan Menendez to talk to you, and two other admirers are in his wake. I
must release you for the moment. <i>Hasta luego</i>, dear señora!”</p>
<p>He made his way rapidly down the room, and out of the house.</p>
<p>“Great heaven!” he thought. “It is well the week is over. Good God, what
a travesty!” and he laughed aloud.</p>
<p>He passed through the screaming crowd, which also had its <i>cascarones</i>,
and walked rapidly and aimlessly up the valley until the white placid
walls of the Mission were so close that he could count its arches. He
sat down on a rock, and pressed his hands against his head.</p>
<p>He resented the quiet and beauty of the night, the repose of the
Mission, the dark-blue <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[Pg 173]</SPAN></span>spangled sky, the soft sobbing of the ocean. If
Queen Mab and her train had come down to dance on the brink of hell, the
antithesis could not have jarred more hatefully than the night upon his
thoughts. He felt a desire to strike something, and hit the rock with
his fist. He dug his heel into the ground, then thought of the flour and
tinsel on his hair, and laughed aloud. After a time he put his face into
his hands and wept. The sobs convulsed him, straining his muscles; the
tears seemed wrung from some inner frozen fountain.</p>
<p>The storm passed. Calmer, he sat and thought. His love for Nina
Randolph, during this interval of quiescence, had lost nothing of its
iron. Idealised, she came back to him. Or, rather, he told himself he
looked through the husk that the hideous circumstances of her life had
bundled into shape, to the soul which spoke to his own. He worshipped
her courage. He forgot himself and suffered with her. He hated himself
for not having guessed the truth at once, and borne her burden. True,
she had lied to him; but the lie was pardonable, <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[Pg 174]</SPAN></span>and he attached no
significance to it. If she had loved him less, she would have confessed
the truth, indifferently. Others knew.</p>
<p>Her moods passed in review, with keen allurement. He wondered that he
had ever wished her a woman of even and tangible temperament. The
thought of her variety intoxicated him. The very equilibrium of the
world might be disturbed, but he would have her.</p>
<p>The horror of her impending fate jibbered at him. He set his teeth, and
compelled his mind to practical deduction. Her mother was only insane at
intervals; there was no reason why the daughter should be affected in a
dissimilar manner. Why, indeed, should not her attacks be far less
frequent, if she were happy and her life were alternately peaceful and
diversified? He would have the best advice in Europe, and guard her
unremittingly.</p>
<p>His impulse was to return to her at once. He cogitated until dawn, then
concluded to take her father’s advice in part; he would remain away a
month, then come down upon <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[Pg 175]</SPAN></span>her unexpectedly. But he went to his room
and wrote her a letter, begging for a word in return.</p>
<hr class="large" /><h2>XXI</h2>
<p>Early in the forenoon he started northward with the Brothertons and
Estenegas. Reinaldo kissed him on both cheeks, much to his
embarrassment; but Prudencia accepted his farewells with chilling
dignity, and did not invite him to return.</p>
<p>The Rancho de los Pinos was some ten miles from Monterey. Behind the
house was a pine forest whose outposts were scattered along the edge of
the Pacific; facing it were some eight thousand acres of rolling land,
cut with willowed creeks, studded with groves of oaks, dazzling, at this
season, with the gold of June. Thousands of cattle wandered about in
languid content; the air lay soft and heavy on unquiet pulses.</p>
<p>The Brothertons and their guests “horse-backed” in the morning, but
spent the greater part of the day in the hammocks swung across <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[Pg 176]</SPAN></span>the long
cool corridors. After supper, they rambled through the woods, sometimes
as far as the ocean, where they sat on the rocks until midnight. The
conversation rarely wandered from politics; for it was the summer of
1860, and the approaching national earthquake rumbled loudly.
Nevertheless, life on the Rancho de los Pinos was less in touch with the
world than any part of the strange new land which Thorpe had visited;
and he hardly felt an impulse to speed the lagging moments. Doña
Eustaquia, who had been one of the very pulses of the old régime, still
beat with loud and undiminished vigour; but Chonita was very restful,
and the country enfolded one with a large sleepy content. He received
nothing from Nina Randolph, but her father wrote once or twice saying
that she was well, but taking little interest in the summer gaieties.</p>
<p>On the first of July, he took the boat from Monterey to San José. There
he was the guest of Don Tiburcio Castro for a few days, and attended a
bull fight, a race at which the men bet the very clothes off their
backs, a religious festival, and three balls; then took <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[Pg 177]</SPAN></span>the stage which
passed Redwoods on its way to San Francisco. It was a ride of thirty
miles under a blistering sun, through dust twelve inches deep which the
heavy hoofs of the horses and the wheels of the lumbering coach tossed
ten feet in the air, half smothering the inside passengers, and coating
those on top within and without. Thorpe had secured the seat by the
driver, thinking to forget the physical discomforts in the scenery. But
the tame prettiness of the valley was obliterated by the shifting wall
of dust about the stage; and Thorpe closed his eyes, and resigned
himself to misery. Even the driver would not talk, beyond observing that
it was “the goldarndest hottest day he’d ever knowed, and that was
saying a darned sight, <i>you</i> bet!” It was late in the afternoon when the
stage pulled up at the “hotel” of a little village.</p>
<p>“That there’s Redwoods,” said the driver, pointing with his whip toward
a mass of trees on rising ground. “Evenin’. I wish I wuz you.”</p>
<p>The hotel seemed principally saloon; but the proprietor, who was chewing
vigorously, <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[Pg 178]</SPAN></span>told Thorpe he guessed he could accommodate him, and led
him to a small room whose very walls were crackling with the heat.
Thorpe distinctly saw the fleas jumping on the bare boards, and
shuddered.</p>
<p>“Can I have a bath?” he asked.</p>
<p>“A what?”</p>
<p>“A bath.”</p>
<p>“Oh!—we don’t pronounce it that way in these parts. And bath-tubs is a
luxury you’ll have to go to ’Frisco for, I guess.”</p>
<p>“Hav’n’t you any sort of a tub you could bring me? I have a call to pay,
and I must clean up.”</p>
<p>“Perhaps the ole woman’d let you have one of her wash-tubs. I’ll ask
her.”</p>
<p>“Do. And I should like supper as soon after as possible.”</p>
<p>The old woman contributed the tub. It leaked, and it was redolent of
coarse soap and the indigo that escapes from overalls. Thorpe got rid of
his dust; but the smells, and the hot room, and the cloud of dust that
sprang back from his clothes as he shook them out of the window,
improved neither his aching <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[Pg 179]</SPAN></span>head nor his temper. To make matters worse,
the steak for his supper was fried, the potatoes were swimming in
grease, the butter was rancid, and the piecrust hung down with its own
weight. He ate what little of this typical repast he could in a close
low room, crowded with men in their shirt-sleeves, who expectorated
freely, mopped their faces and necks with their napkins, and smelt. The
flies swarmed, a million strong, and invaded the very plates; a previous
battalion lay, gasping or dead, on the tables, some overcome by the
heat, others by the sharp assaults of angry napkins. When Thorpe left
the room, he had half made up his mind not to call on Nina Randolph that
evening; he felt in anything but a loverlike mood. Moreover, such an
introduction to a reunion was grotesque; but after he had smoked his
cigar in the open air, he felt better, concluded not to be a romantic
ass, and started for the house.</p>
<p>He climbed the dusty road toward the two tall redwoods (the only ones in
the valley) that gave her home its name, then turned into a long cool
avenue. Beside it ran a <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[Pg 180]</SPAN></span>creek, dry already, its sides thick with
fragrant shrubs. So closely planted was the avenue that he did not catch
a glimpse of the house until he came suddenly upon it; then he paused a
moment, regarding it with pleasure. It looked like a fairy castle, so
light and delicate and mediæval of structure was it. The yellow plaster
of its walls, the vivid bloom of the terrace on which it stood, were
plainly visible in the moonlight. The dark mountains, covered with their
redwood forests, seemed almost directly behind, although they were
twenty miles away. Thorpe was glad he had come. The hideous afternoon
and evening slipped out of his thought.</p>
<p>The front doors were open. Cochrane was walking up and down the hall,
his hands clasped behind him, his head bent. He looked like a man who
was listlessly awaiting a summons.</p>
<p>Light streamed from open windows to the verandah on the right of the
house. Thorpe, conceiving that Nina was there, determined to look upon
her for a moment unobserved. He skirted the house, and heard Nina’s
voice. <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[Pg 181]</SPAN></span>To command a view of the interior, he must reach the verandah.
He mounted the steps softly, but other sounds rose high above his
footfalls as he walked toward the window. A peal of coarse laughter
burst forth. The light swept obliquely across the verandah; he stood in
the shadows just beyond it, and looked into the room.</p>
<p>Nina sat in a corner, her elbows on her knees, her eyes fixed on the
floor. Her black dress was destitute of any feminine device. Mrs.
Randolph and Mrs. Reinhardt sat on opposite sides of a table. Between
them was a steaming bowl of punch. There were two unopened
brandy-bottles on the table. The faces of both women were flushed, and
their hair was disordered.</p>
<p>“Tha’t a fool, Nina,” remarked Mrs. Randolph, in a remarkably steady
tone. “Coom and ’ave a glass. My word! it’s good.”</p>
<p>Nina made no reply.</p>
<p>“Such nonsense,” wheedlingly. “It’s the best a iver made, and the Lord
knows a’ve made mony. Coom and try just one glass.”</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[Pg 182]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“I am sitting here to test my strength. I shall not touch it.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Randolph laughed, coarsely and loudly. “Tha’t a fool. Tha doon’t
knoo what tha’t talking aboot. It strikes me a ’ve ’eard thot before.
Coom. Tha mought as well give in, fust as last.”</p>
<p>Nina made no reply.</p>
<p>Mrs. Randolph’s evil eyes sparkled. She filled an empty glass with the
punch, and walked steadily over to where her daughter sat. Nina sprang
from her chair, overturning it, thrusting out her hands in a gesture
eloquent with terror, and attempted to reach the door. Mrs. Randolph was
too quick for her; with a dexterous swoop, she possessed herself of the
girl’s small hands and pressed the goblet to her nostrils. Nina gave a
quick gasp, and, throwing back her head, staggered slightly, the glass
still against her face. Outside Thorpe reeled for a moment as if he too
were drunk. The blood pounded in his ears; his fingers drew inward,
rigid, in their desire to get about the throat of some one, he did not
much care whom.</p>
<p>Nina wrenched one hand free, snatched <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[Pg 183]</SPAN></span>the goblet and held it with
crooked elbow, staring at her mother. Mrs. Randolph laughed. Mrs.
Reinhardt held her breath in drunken awe at the tragedy in the girl’s
face. Nina brought the goblet half way to her lips, her eyes moving to
its warm brown surface with devouring greed. Then she flung it at her
mother’s breast, and sank once more to her chair, covering her face with
her hands.</p>
<p>Mrs. Randolph, cursing, returned to the table and consoled herself with
a brimming glass. Outside, the man’s imagination played him an ugly
trick. A picture flashed upon it, vivid as one snatched from the dark by
the blaze of lightning. A struggling distorted foaming thing was on the
floor, held down by the strong arms of two men, and the face of the
thing was not the face of Mrs. Randolph. She stood apart, looking down
upon her perfected work with a low continuous ripple of contented
laughter. The vision passed. Thorpe leaped from the verandah and
wandered aimlessly about the grounds. He cursed audibly and repeatedly,
not caring whether he might be overheard or not. He <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[Pg 184]</SPAN></span>felt as if every
nerve in his body were a separate devil. He hated the thought of the
next day’s sunlight, and wondered if it would shine on a murderer or a
suicide; he felt capable of crime of the blackest variety.</p>
<p>Fascinated, he returned to the verandah. Mrs. Randolph had fallen
forward on the table. The man Cochrane entered and took her by the
shoulders. She flung out her arm and struck him.</p>
<p>“Give oop! Give oop!” she muttered. But he jerked her backward, and half
dragged, half carried her from the room. Mrs. Reinhardt staggered after,
slamming the door behind her. Then Nina rose and came forward, and
leaned her finger-tips heavily on the table.</p>
<p>“Come in,” she said; and Thorpe entered.</p>
<p>They faced each other in silence. For a moment Thorpe was conscious only
of the change in her. Her cheeks were sunken and without colour; her
eyes patched about with black. The features were so controlled that they
were almost expressionless.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[Pg 185]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“Sit down,” she said. “I will tell you the story.”</p>
<p>He took the chair Mrs. Reinhardt had occupied, Nina her mother’s. She
pressed her knuckles against her cheeks, and began speaking rapidly, but
without excitement.</p>
<p>“My father’s home in Yorkshire was near the town of Keighley, which is a
few miles from Haworth, the village where the Brontës lived. He and
Branwell Brontë were great friends, and used to meet at the Lord Rodney
Inn in Keighley, as Haworth is an almost inaccessible place. They were
both very brilliant young men; and many other young men used to drop in
on Saturday evenings to hear them talk politics. Of course the night
ended in a bout, which usually lasted over Sunday. My mother was
bar-maid at that inn. She made up her mind to marry my father. It is
said that at that time she was handsome. She had an insatiable thirst
for liquor, but was clever enough to keep my father from suspecting it.
Once my father—who cared little for drink, beyond the conviviality of
it—and Brontë went on a prolonged <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[Pg 186]</SPAN></span>spree, the result of a bet. When he
came to himself, he found that he had married her before the registrar.
He belonged to one of the oldest families in the county. He had married
a woman who could neither read nor write, and who talked at all times as
she does now when she is drunk. Nevertheless, he determined to stand by
her, because he thought he deserved his fate, and because he thought she
loved him. But he left the country. To introduce her to his people and
friends was more than he was equal to. To bury himself with her on his
estate, denying himself all society but hers, was equally unthinkable,
to say nothing of the fact that he was ashamed to introduce her to the
servants. He wished to go away and be forgotten, begin life over in a
new land where social conditions were as the builders made them. He came
to California. She was furious. She had married him for the position she
had fancied such a marriage would give her: she wanted to be a lady. Her
mind was somewhat diverted by travel, and she kept her peace until she
reached San Francisco—Yerba <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[Pg 187]</SPAN></span>Buena, it was called then. It was a tiny
place: a few adobe houses about the plaza, and a warehouse or two at the
docks. Then there was a frightful scene between the two. My father
learned why she had married him, and that she had instigated the wager
which led to the spree which enabled her to accomplish her purpose. She
ordered him to take her back to England at once, threatening to punish
him if he did not. He refused, and she went on a prolonged drinking
bout. This was shortly before my birth. They were the guests of Mr.
Leese, a German who had married a native Californian and settled in the
country. These people were very kind; but it was horribly mortifying for
my father. He built her a house as quickly as possible, in order to hide
her in it. I forgot to say that he had brought over Cochrane, who took
charge of his household affairs. At the end of a year there was another
scene, in which my father made her understand that he would never return
to England; and that, were it not for me, he would turn her <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[Pg 188]</SPAN></span>out of the
house and let her go to the devil as fast as she liked. It was the
mistake of his life that he did not, both for himself and for me. He
should have taken or sent me back to England, and left her with a
subsistence in the new country. But he is a very proud man. He feared
that she would follow him home, and publish the story. There is no
getting away from a woman like that.</p>
<p>“She was forced to accept the position; but she hated him mortally, and
no less than he hated her. She had threatened again to make him rue his
refusal to return to England, but refused to explain her meaning. This
is what she did. He idolised me. She put whisky in my baby food until I
would not drink or eat anything that was not flavoured with it. She was
very cunning: she habituated my system to it gradually, so that it never
upset me. She also gave it to me for every ailment. My father suspected
nothing. There were depths of depravity that neither his imagination nor
his observation plumbed. When I was about thirteen, he left us in
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[Pg 189]</SPAN></span>charge of Cochrane—who had more influence over my mother than any
one—and went off to the Crimean war, rejoining his old regiment. The
necessity to get away from her for a time overrode his paternal
instinct—everything. Moreover, he wanted to fight somebody. He
distinguished himself. Just after his return, he discovered what my
mother had made of me. His rage was awful; he beat her like a navvy. For
once she was cowed. I went off my head altogether. When I came to, he
was crouching in a corner as if some one had flung him there, sobbing
and gasping. It was awful—awful! Then he sent me to the Hathaways to
study with the girls. They knew, and promised to keep me away from her,
and to see that I had nothing to drink. My mother sent me a bottle of
whisky every week in my clean clothes. I did not tell him, for I wanted
it. He found that out, too, and then debated whether he had not better
send me away from the country. But he knew that the cry was in my blood,
and that if I went to his people in England the chances were I would
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[Pg 190]</SPAN></span>disgrace him. Then he made his second mistake: he did not throw her
out. He ordered her to go, and she laughed in his face and asked him how
he would like to read every morning in the <i>Golden Era</i> that James
Randolph’s wife had spent the night in the calaboose. Now, only two or
three people besides the Hathaways and Shropshires even suspected it, so
carefully had Cochrane watched her.</p>
<p>“He sent me to boarding-school. She kept me in money, and I got what I
wanted, although my father’s pride was in me, and I never took enough to
betray my secret. It was not until I had finished school that I really
gave way to the appetite. My father, closely as he watched me, did not
suspect for a long time. He was very busy,—he threw himself heart and
soul into the development of the city,—and when the appetite mastered
me, I either feigned illness or went to the country. At last he found it
out. There have been many bitter hours in my life, but that was
incomparably the bitterest. I had always loved him devotedly. When he
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_191" id="Page_191">[Pg 191]</SPAN></span>went down on his knees and begged me to stop, of course I swore that I
would. I kept my promise for six months, she doing all she could to
entice me the while. Then I yielded. After that, after another interview
with my father, I restrained the intolerable craving for another six
months. Then it went on irregularly. I don’t know that I began to think
much, to look into the future, until about a year ago—it was when I
first saw her as you saw her that night. Then I aged suddenly. My moral
sense awakened, my sense of personal responsibility. I loathed myself. I
looked upon what I had become with horror. I struggled fiercely,—but
with indifferent success,—although, I must add, there were weeks at a
time when I never thought of it; for I have the <i>joie de vivre</i>, and
there are many distractions in society. Then you came. For a time I was
happy and excited, and the thing was in abeyance. I touched nothing:
that was my only chance. I fought it under,—after that first
night,—and the desire did not come again until I drank the mescal at
Don Tiburcio’s <i>merienda</i>. But I had known that <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_192" id="Page_192">[Pg 192]</SPAN></span>it would come back
sooner or later, and was determined not to marry you, nor to let myself
fall seriously in love with you. But after that first night out on the
strawberry patches I knew that I loved you, and, as I am not a
light-minded person, irrevocably. But I made up my mind to enjoy that
week, and look no farther. You know the rest. What I have suffered since
perhaps you can divine, if you love me. If you don’t, it doesn’t
matter.” Her monotonous calm left her suddenly. She brought her fist
down on the table. “This room is full of the smell of it!” she cried.
“And I want it! I want it!”</p>
<p>She pushed back her chair. “Come,” she said, “let us go outside.”</p>
<p>She ran out to the verandah. He followed, and she grasped his arm. “Let
us go for a ride,” she said. “I shall go off my head, if I keep still
another moment. I want motion. Are you tired?”</p>
<p>“No, I am not tired.”</p>
<p>She led the way to the stables. The men in charge had gone to bed. She
and Thorpe <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_193" id="Page_193">[Pg 193]</SPAN></span>saddled two strong mustangs, rode rapidly down the avenue
and out into the high road. For some time they followed the stage-route,
then struck into a side road leading to the mountains. Nina did not
speak, nor did Thorpe. He was thankful for the respite. Once he touched
his cheek mechanically, wondering if it had fallen into wrinkles.</p>
<p>They rode at a break-neck pace. The night had become very dark: a great
ocean of fog had swept in from the Pacific, blotting out mountains and
stars. The mustangs moderated their pace as they began to ascend the
foot-hills. The long rush through the valley had quickened Thorpe’s
blood without calming his brain. He did not speak. There seemed to be a
thousand words struggling in his brain, but they would not combine
properly. He could have cursed them free, but although he was too bitter
and excited to have tenderness or pity for the woman beside him, he
considered her in a half blind way; she was the one woman on earth who
had ever sent him utterly beside himself. They ascended, two black spots
of shifting outline <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_194" id="Page_194">[Pg 194]</SPAN></span>in the fog, for an hour or more. Neither below nor
above could an object be seen, not a sound came to them. It was unreal,
and ghostly, and portentous. Then, almost abruptly, they emerged, the
mustangs trotting on to the flat summit of a hill. Nina sprang to the
ground.</p>
<p>“Tie the horses,” she said; and Thorpe led them to a tree some yards
away.</p>
<p>Nina stood with her back to him, her hands hanging listlessly at her
sides, looking downward. Thorpe, after he had tethered the horses,
paused also.</p>
<p>The world below was gone. In its place was a vast ocean of frothy
milk-white fog. On each side, melting into the horizon in front, until
it washed the slopes of the Contra Costa range, lay this illimitable
ocean pillowed lightly on sleeping millions. Now calm and peaceful, now
distorted in frozen wrath, it was so shadowy, so unreal, that a puff of
wind might have blown it to the stars. Out of it rose the hill-tops,
bare weather-beaten islands. Against them the sea had hurled itself,
then clung, powerless to retreat. Upon some it <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_195" id="Page_195">[Pg 195]</SPAN></span>had cast its spray half
way to the crest, over others it rushed in mighty motionless torrents;
here and there it but half concealed the jagged points of ugly rocks.
Beating against solitary reefs were huge, still, angry breakers,
sounding no roar. A terrible death-arrested storm was there in
mid-ocean,—a storm which appalled by its very silent wrath. On one of
the highest and barest of the crags an old building looked, in that
sunless light, like a castle in ruin. Above, the cold blue sky was
thickly set with shivering stars. The grinning moon hung low.</p>
<p>There was not a sound; not a living creature was awake but themselves.
They might have been in the shadowy hereafter, with all space about
them; in the twilight of eternity. Where they rested, the air was clear
as a polar noon; not a stray wreath of that idle froth floated about
them.</p>
<p>“I came here,” said Nina, turning to Thorpe, “because I knew it would be
like this. It will be easier to hear what you think of me, than it would
have been down there.”</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_196" id="Page_196">[Pg 196]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>He brought his hands down on her shoulders, gripping them as if
possessed of the instinct to hurt.</p>
<p>“Once or twice I could have killed you as you spoke,” he said. “I shall
marry you and cure you, or go to hell with you. As I feel now, it does
not matter much which.”</p>
<p>And then he caught her in his arms and kissed her, with the desire which
was consuming him.</p>
<p>“But even you cannot conquer me,” she said to him an hour later. “I
shall not marry you until I have conquered myself. I believe now that I
can. I got your letter. I very nearly knew that you would say what you
have done, after I told you the truth. I won’t marry you, knowing that,
in spite of your love, which I do not doubt, at the bottom of your
intelligence, you despise me. I have always felt that if I could make a
year’s successful fight, I should never fall again. There may be no
reason for this belief; but we are more or less controlled by
imagination. There is no doubt <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_197" id="Page_197">[Pg 197]</SPAN></span>in my mind on this point. If I win
alone, you will respect me again, and love me better.”</p>
<p>“I do not despise you. I hardly know what I felt for you five weeks ago.
But I have only sympathy for you now—and love! You must let me do the
fighting. It will knit us the more closely—”</p>
<p>“It would wear me out, kill me, knowing that you were watching my
struggles, no matter how lovingly. Besides, I know myself; my moods are
unbearable at such times. I cannot control my temper. Before the year
was over, we should have bickered our love into ruins. We could not
begin over again. If you will do as I wish, I believe we can be happy.
It is not long to wait—we are both young. Cannot you see that I am
right?”</p>
<p>“I don’t want to leave you, not for a day again!”</p>
<p>“And I don’t want you to go! But I know that it is our only chance. If
you marry me now, you will hate me before the year is over; and, what is
worse, I shall hate <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_198" id="Page_198">[Pg 198]</SPAN></span>you. The steamer sails to-morrow. Will you go?”</p>
<p>He hesitated, and argued, a long while; but finally he said: “I will
go.”</p>
<p>“Don’t go all the way back to England. I should like to think you were
in America; that would help me.”</p>
<p>“I will stay in New Orleans, and write by every steamer.”</p>
<p>“Oh, do, do! And if I do not write as regularly, you will understand.
There will be times when I simply cannot write. But promise that, no
matter what you hear, you will not lose faith in me.”</p>
<p>“I promise.” Involuntarily his mouth curled into a grin. The ghosts of a
respectable company of extorted promises capered across his brain, as
small irreverent ghosts have a habit of doing in great moments. But his
mouth was close upon hers, and she did not see it.</p>
<p>An hour later she pointed outward. Far away, above the Eastern
mountains, was a line of flame. The sun rose slowly. It smiled down upon
the phantom ocean and flung <span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_199" id="Page_199">[Pg 199]</SPAN></span>bubbles of a thousand hues to the very feet
of the mortals on the heights.</p>
<p>Then slowly, softly, the ocean moved. It quivered as if a mighty hand
struck it from its foundations, swayed, rose, fled back to the sea that
had given it birth.</p>
<p>A moment more and the world was visible again, awake, and awaiting them.</p>
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<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_203" id="Page_203">[Pg 200-3]</SPAN></span></p>
<h2><SPAN name="BOOK_II" id="BOOK_II"></SPAN>BOOK II</h2>
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