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<h2> CHAPTER XXVIII </h2>
<p>Adela allowed a week to pass before speaking of her desire to visit Mrs.
Westlake. In Mutimer a fit of sullenness had followed upon his settlement
in lodgings. He was away from home a good deal, but his hours of return
were always uncertain, and Adela could not help thinking that he presented
himself at unlikely times, merely for the sake of surprising her and
discovering her occupation. Once or twice she had no knowledge of his
approach until he opened the door of the room; when she remarked on his
having ascended the stairs so quietly, he professed not to understand her.
On one of those occasions she was engaged on a letter to her mother; he
inquired to whom she was writing, and for reply she merely held out the
sheet for his perusal. He glanced at the superscription, and handed it
back. Breathing this atmosphere of suspicion, she shrank from irritating
him by a mention of Stella, and to go without his express permission was
impossible. Stella did not write; Adela began to fear lest her illness had
become more serious. When she spoke at length, it was in one of the
moments of indignation, almost of revolt, which at intervals came to her,
she knew not at what impulse. At Wanley her resource at such times had
been to quit the house, and pace her chosen walk in the garden till she
was weary. In London she had no refuge, and the result of her loss of
fresh air had speedily shown itself in moods of impatience which she found
it very difficult to conquer. Her husband came home one afternoon about
five o’clock, and, refusing to have any tea, sat for several hours in
complete silence; occasionally he pretended to look at a pamphlet which he
had brought in with him, but for the most part he sat, with his legs
crossed, frowning at vacancy. Adela grew feverish beneath the oppression
of this brooding ill-temper; her endeavour to read was vain; the silence
was a constraint upon her moving, her breathing. She spoke before she was
conscious of an intention to do so.</p>
<p>‘I think I must go and see Mrs. Westlake to-morrow morning.’</p>
<p>Mutimer vouchsafed no answer, gave no sign of having heard. She repeated
the words.</p>
<p>‘If you must, you must.’</p>
<p>‘I wish to,’ Adela said with an emphasis she could not help. ‘Do you
object to my going?’</p>
<p>He was surprised at her tone.</p>
<p>‘I don’t object. I’ve told you I think you get no good there. But go if
you like.’</p>
<p>She said after a silence:</p>
<p>‘I have no other friend in London; and if it were only on account of her
kindness to me, I owe her a visit.’</p>
<p>‘All right, don’t talk about it any more; I’m thinking of something.’</p>
<p>The evening wore on. At ten o’clock the servant brought up a jug of beer,
which she fetched for Mutimer every night; he said he could not sleep
without this sedative. It was always the sign for Adela to go to bed.</p>
<p>She visited Stella in the morning, and found her still suffering. They
talked for an hour, then it was time for Adela to hasten homewards, in
order to have dinner ready by half-past one. From Stella she had no
secret, save the one which she did her best to make a secret even to
herself; she spoke freely of her mode of life, though without comment.
Stella made no comments in her replies.</p>
<p>‘And you cannot have lunch with me?’ she asked when her friend rose.</p>
<p>‘I cannot; dear.’</p>
<p>‘May I write to you?’ Stella said with a meaning look.</p>
<p>‘Yes, to tell me how you are.’</p>
<p>Adela had not got far from the house when she saw her husband walking
towards her. She looked at him steadily.</p>
<p>‘I happened to be near,’ he explained, ‘and thought I might as well go
home with you.’</p>
<p>‘I might have been gone.’</p>
<p>‘Oh, I shouldn’t have waited long.’</p>
<p>The form of his reply discovered that he had no intention of calling at
the house; Adela understood that he had been in Avenue Road for some time,
probably had reached it very soon after her.</p>
<p>The next morning there arrived for Mutimer a letter from Alice. She
desired to see him; her husband would be from home all day, and she would
be found at any hour; her business was of importance—underlined.</p>
<p>Mutimer went shortly after breakfast, and Alice received him very much as
she would have done in the days before the catastrophe. She had arrayed
herself with special care; he found her leaning on cushions, her feet on a
stool, the eternal novel on her lap. Her brother had to stifle anger at
seeing her thus in appearance unaffected by the storm which had swept away
his own happiness and luxuries.</p>
<p>‘What is it you want?’ he asked at once, without preliminary greeting.</p>
<p>‘You are not very polite,’ Alice returned. ‘Perhaps you’ll take a chair.’</p>
<p>‘I haven’t much time, so please don’t waste what I can afford.’</p>
<p>‘Are you so busy? Have you found something to do?’</p>
<p>‘I’m likely to have enough to do with people who keep what doesn’t belong
to them.’</p>
<p>‘It isn’t my doing, Dick,’ she said more seriously.</p>
<p>‘I don’t suppose it is.’</p>
<p>‘Then you oughtn’t to be angry with me.’</p>
<p>‘I’m not angry. What do you want?’</p>
<p>‘I went to see mother yesterday. I think she wants you to go; it looked
like it.’</p>
<p>‘I’ll go some day.’</p>
<p>‘It’s too bad that she should have to keep ‘Arry in idleness.’</p>
<p>‘She hasn’t to keep him. I send her money.’</p>
<p>‘But how are you to afford that?’</p>
<p>‘That’s not your business.’</p>
<p>Alice looked indignant.</p>
<p>‘I think you might speak more politely to me in my own house.’</p>
<p>‘It isn’t your own house.’</p>
<p>‘It is as long as I live in it. I suppose you’d like to see me go back to
a workroom. It’s all very well for you; if you live in lodgings, that
doesn’t say you’ve got no money. We have to do the best we can for
ourselves; we haven’t got your chances of making a good bargain.’</p>
<p>It was said with much intention; Alice hall closed her eyes and curled her
lips in a disdainful smile.</p>
<p>‘What chances? What do you mean?’</p>
<p>‘Perhaps if <i>I</i>’d been a particular friend of Mr. Eldon’s—never
mind.’</p>
<p>He flashed a look at her.</p>
<p>‘What are you talking about? Just speak plainly, will you? What do you
mean by “particular friend”? I’m no more a friend of Eldon’s than you are,
and I’ve made no bargain with him.’</p>
<p>‘I didn’t say <i>you</i>.’</p>
<p>‘Who then?’ he exclaimed sternly.</p>
<p>‘Don’t you know? Some one is so very proper, and such a fine lady, I
shouldn’t have thought she’d have done things without your knowing.’</p>
<p>He turned pale, and seemed to crush the floor with his foot, that he might
stand firm.</p>
<p>‘You’re talking of Adela?’</p>
<p>Alice nodded.</p>
<p>‘What about her? Say at once what you’ve got to say.’</p>
<p>Inwardly she was a little frightened, perhaps half wished that she had not
begun. Yet it was sweet to foresee the thunderbolt that would fall on her
enemy’s head. That her brother would suffer torments did not affect her
imagination; she had never credited him with strong feeling for his wife;
and it was too late to draw back.</p>
<p>‘You know that she met Mr. Eldon in the wood at Wanley on the day after
she found the will?’</p>
<p>Mutimer knitted his brows to regard her. But in speaking he was more
self-governed than before.</p>
<p>‘Who told you that?’</p>
<p>‘My husband. He saw them together.’</p>
<p>‘And heard them talking?’</p>
<p>‘Yes.’</p>
<p>Rodman had only implied this. Alice’s subsequent interrogation had failed
to elicit more from him than dark hints.</p>
<p>Mutimer drew a quick breath.</p>
<p>‘He must be good at spying. Next time I hope he’ll find out something
worth talking about.’</p>
<p>Alice was surprised.</p>
<p>‘You know about it?’</p>
<p>‘Just as much as Rodman, do you understand that?’</p>
<p>‘You don’t believe?’</p>
<p>She herself had doubts.</p>
<p>‘It’s nothing to you whether I believe it or not. Just be good enough in
future to mind your own business; you’ll have plenty of it before long. I
suppose that’s what you brought me here for?’</p>
<p>She made no answer; she was vexed and puzzled.</p>
<p>‘Have you anything else to say?’</p>
<p>Alice maintained a stubborn silence.</p>
<p>‘Alice, have you anything more to tell me about Adela?’</p>
<p>‘No, I haven’t.’</p>
<p>‘Then you might have spared me the trouble. Tell Rodman with my
compliments that it would be as well for him to keep out of my way.’</p>
<p>He left her.</p>
<p>On quitting the house he walked at a great pace for a quarter of a mile
before he remembered the necessity of taking either train or omnibus. The
latter was at hand, but when he had ridden for ten minutes the constant
stoppages so irritated him that he jumped out and sought a hansom. Even
thus he did not travel fast enough; it seemed an endless time before the
ascent of Pentonville Hill began. He descended a little distance from his
lodgings.</p>
<p>As he was paying the driver another hansom went by; he by chance saw the
occupant, and it was Hubert Eldon. At least he felt convinced of it, and
he was in no mind to balance the possibilities of mistake. The hansom had
come from the street which Mutimer was just entering.</p>
<p>He found Adela engaged in cooking the dinner; she wore an apron, and the
sleeves of her dress were pushed up. As he came into the room she looked
at him with her patient smile; finding that he was in one of his worst
tempers, she said nothing and went on with her work. A coarse cloth was
thrown over the table; on it lay a bowl of vegetables which she was
preparing for the saucepan.</p>
<p>Perhaps it was the sight of her occupation, of the cheerful simplicity
with which she addressed herself to work so unworthy of her; he could not
speak at once as he had meant to. He examined her with eyes of angry, half
foiled suspicion. She had occasion to pass him; he caught her arm and
stayed her before him.</p>
<p>‘What has Eldon been doing here?’</p>
<p>She paused and shrank a little.</p>
<p>‘Mr. Eldon has not been here.’</p>
<p>He thought her face betrayed a guilty agitation.</p>
<p>‘I happen to have met him going away. I think you’d better tell me the
truth.’</p>
<p>‘I have told you the truth. If Mr. Eldon has been to the house, I was not
aware of it.’</p>
<p>He looked at her in silence for a moment, then asked:</p>
<p>‘Are you the greatest hypocrite living?’</p>
<p>Adela drew farther away. She kept her eyes down. Long ago she had
suspected what was in Mutimer’s mind, but she had only been apprehensive
of the results of jealousy on his temper and on their relations to each
other; it had not entered her thought that she might have to defend
herself against an accusation. This violent question affected her
strangely. For a moment she referred it entirely to the secrets of her
heart, and it seemed impossible to deny what was imputed to her,
impossible even to resent his way of speaking. Was she not a hypocrite?
Had she not many, many times concealed with look and voice an inward state
which was equivalent to infidelity? Was not her whole life a pretence, an
affectation of wifely virtues? But the hypocrisy was involuntary; her
nature had no power to extirpate its causes and put in their place the
perfect dignity of uprightness.</p>
<p>‘Why do you ask me that?’ she said at length, raising her eyes for an
instant.</p>
<p>‘Because it seems to me I’ve good cause. I don’t know whether to believe a
word you say.’</p>
<p>‘I can’t remember to have told you falsehoods.’ Her cheeks flushed. ‘Yes,
one; that I confessed to you.’</p>
<p>It brought to his mind the story of the wedding ring.</p>
<p>‘There’s such a thing as lying when you tell the truth. Do you remember
that I met you coming back to the Manor that Monday afternoon, a month
ago, and asked you where you’d been?’</p>
<p>Her heart stood still.</p>
<p>‘Answer me, will you?’</p>
<p>‘I remember it.’</p>
<p>‘You told me you’d been for a walk in the wood. You forgot to say who it
was you went to meet.’</p>
<p>How did he know of this? But that thought came to her only to pass. She
understood at length the whole extent of his suspicion. It was not only
her secret feelings that he called in question, he accused her of actual
dishonour as it is defined by the world—that clumsy world with its
topsy-turvydom of moral judgments. To have this certainty flashed upon her
was, as soon as she had recovered from the shock, a sensible assuagement
of her misery. In face of this she could stand her ground. Her womanhood
was in arms; she faced him scornfully.</p>
<p>‘Will you please to make plain your charge against me?’</p>
<p>‘I think it’s plain enough. If a married woman makes appointments in quiet
places with a man she has no business to see anywhere, what’s that called?
I fancy I’ve seen something of that kind before now in cases before the
Divorce Court.’</p>
<p>It angered him that she was not overwhelmed. He saw that she did not mean
to deny having met Eldon, and to have Alice’s story thus confirmed
inflamed his jealousy beyond endurance.</p>
<p>‘You must believe of me what you like,’ Adela replied in a slow, subdued
voice. ‘My word would be vain against that of my accuser, whoever it is.’</p>
<p>‘Your accuser, as you say, happened not only to see you, but to hear you
talking.’</p>
<p>He waited for her surrender before this evidence. Instead of that Adela
smiled.</p>
<p>‘If my words were reported to you, what fault have you to find with me?’</p>
<p>Her confidence, together with his actual ignorance of what Rodman had
heard, troubled him with doubt.</p>
<p>‘Answer this question,’ he said. ‘Did you make an appointment with that
man?’</p>
<p>‘I did not.’</p>
<p>‘You did not? Yet you met him?’</p>
<p>‘Unexpectedly.’</p>
<p>‘But you talked with him?’</p>
<p>‘How can you ask? You know that I did.’</p>
<p>He collected his thoughts.</p>
<p>‘Repeat to me what you talked about.’</p>
<p>‘That I refuse to do.’</p>
<p>‘Of course you do!’ he cried, driven to frenzy. ‘And you think I shall let
this rest where it is? Have you forgotten that I came to the Westlakes and
found Eldon there with you? And what was he doing in this street this
morning if he hadn’t come to see you? I begin to understand why you were
so precious eager about giving up the will. That was your fine sense of
honesty, of course! You are full of fine senses, but your mistake is to
think I’ve no sense at all. What do you take me for?’</p>
<p>The thin crust of refinement was shattered; the very man came to light,
coarse, violent, whipped into fury by his passions, of which injured
self-love was not the least. Whether he believed his wife guilty or not he
could not have said; enough that she had kept things secret from him, and
that he could not overawe her. Whensoever he had shown anger in
conversation with her, she had made him sensible of her superiority; at
length he fell back upon his brute force and resolved to bring her to his
feet, if need be by outrage. Even his accent deteriorated as he flung out
his passionate words; he spoke like any London mechanic, with defect and
excess of aspirates, with neglect of g’s at the end of words, and so on.
Adela could not bear it; she moved to the door. But he caught her and
thrust her back; it was all but a blow. Her face half recalled him to his
senses.</p>
<p>‘Where are you going?’ he stammered.</p>
<p>‘Anywhere, anywhere, away from this house and from you!’ Adela replied.
Effort to command herself was vain; his heavy hand had completed the
effect of his language, and she, too, spoke as nature impelled her. ‘Let
me pass! I would rather die than remain here!’</p>
<p>‘All the same, you’ll stay where you are!’</p>
<p>‘Yes, your strength is greater than mine. You can hold me by force. But
you have insulted me beyond forgiveness, and we are as much strangers as
if we had never met. You have broken every bond that bound me to you. You
can make me your prisoner, but like a prisoner my one thought will be of
escape. I will touch no food whilst I remain here. I have no duties to
you, and you no claim upon me!’</p>
<p>‘All the same, you stay!’</p>
<p>Before her sobbing vehemence he had grown calm. These words were so
unimaginable on her lips that he could make no reply save stubborn
repetition of his refusal. And having uttered that he went from the room,
changing the key to the outside and locking her in. Fear lest he might be
unable to withhold himself from laying hands upon her was the cause of his
retreat. The lust of cruelty was boiling in him, as once or twice before.
Her beauty in revolt made a savage of him. He went into the bedroom and
there waited.</p>
<p>Adela sat alone, sobbing still, but tearless. Her high-spirited nature
once thoroughly aroused, it was some time before she could reason on what
had come to pass. The possibility of such an end to her miseries had never
presented itself even in her darkest hours; endurance was all she could
ever look forward to. As her blood fell into calmer flow she found it hard
to believe that she had not dreamt this scene of agony. She looked about
the room. There on the table were the vegetables she had been preparing;
her hands bore the traces of the work she had done this morning. It seemed
as though she had only to rise and go on with her duties as usual.</p>
<p>Her arm was painful, just below the shoulder. Yes, that was where he had
seized her with his hard hand to push her away from the door.</p>
<p>What had she said in her distraction? She had broken away from him, and
repudiated her wifehood. Was it not well done? If he believed her
unfaithful to him—</p>
<p>At an earlier period of her married life such a charge would have held her
mute with horror. Its effect now was not quite the same; she could face
the thought, interrogate herself as to its meaning, with a shudder,
indeed, but a shudder which came of fear as well as loathing. Life was no
longer an untried country, its difficulties and perils to be met with the
sole aid of a few instincts and a few maxims; she had sounded the depths
of misery and was invested with the woeful knowledge of what we poor
mortals call the facts of existence. And sitting here, as on the desert
bed of a river whose water had of a sudden ceased to flow, she could
regard her own relation to truths, however desolating, with the mind which
had rather brave all than any longer seek to deceive itself.</p>
<p>Of that which he imputed to her she was incapable; that such suspicion of
her could enter his mind branded him with baseness. But his jealousy was
justified; howsoever it had awakened in him, it was sustained by truth.
Was it her duty to tell him that, and so to render it impossible for him
to seek to detain her?</p>
<p>But would the confession have any such result? Did he not already believe
her criminal, and yet forbid her to leave him? On what terms did she stand
with a man whose thought was devoid of delicacy, who had again and again
proved himself without understanding of the principles of honour? And
could she indeed make an admission which would compel her at the same time
to guard against revolting misconceptions?</p>
<p>The question of how he had obtained this knowledge recurred to her. It was
evident that the spy had intentionally calumniated her, professing to have
heard her speak incriminating words. She thought of Rodman. He had
troubled her by his private request that she would appeal to Eldon on
Alice’s behalf, a request which was almost an insult. Could he have been
led to make it in consequence of his being aware of that meeting in the
wood? That might well be; she distrusted him and believed him capable even
of a dastardly revenge.</p>
<p>What was the troublesome thought that hung darkly in her mind and would
not come to consciousness? She held it at last; Mutimer had said that he
met Hubert in the street below. How to explain that? Hubert so near to
her, perhaps still in the neighbourhood?</p>
<p>Again she shrank with fear. What might it mean, if he had really come in
hope of seeing her? That was unworthy of him. Had she betrayed herself in
her conversation with him? Then he was worse than cruel to her.</p>
<p>It seemed to her that hours passed. From time to time she heard a movement
in the next room; Mutimer was still there. There sounded at the house door
a loud postman’s knock, and in a few minutes someone came up the stairs,
doubtless to bring a letter. The bedroom door opened; she heard her
husband thank the servant and again shut himself in.</p>
<p>The fire which she had been about to use for cooking was all but dead. She
rose and put fresh coals on. There was a small oblong mirror over the
mantelpiece; it showed her so ghastly a face that she turned quickly away.</p>
<p>If she succeeded in escaping from her prison, whither should she go? Her
mother would receive her, but it was impossible to go to Wanley, to live
near the Manor. Impossible, too, to take refuge with Stella. If she fled
and hid herself in some other part of London, how was life to be
supported? But there were graver obstacles. Openly to flee from her
husband was to subject herself to injurious suspicions—it might be,
considering Mutimer’s character, to involve Hubert in some intolerable
public shame. Or, if that worst extremity were avoided’, would it not be
said that she had deserted her husband because he had suddenly become
poor?</p>
<p>That last thought brought the blood to her cheeks.</p>
<p>But to live with him after this, to smear over a deadly wound and pretend
it was healed, to read hourly in his face the cowardly triumph over her
weakness, to submit herself—Oh, what rescue from this hideous
degradation! She went to the window, as if it had been possible to escape
by that way; she turned again and stood moaning, with her hands about her
head. When was the worst to come in this life so long since bereft of
hope, so forsaken of support from man or God? The thought of death came to
her; she subdued the tumult of her agony to weigh it well Whom would she
wrong by killing herself? Herself, it might be; perchance not even death
would be sacred against outrage.</p>
<p>She heard a neighbouring clock strike five, and shortly after her husband
entered the room. Had she looked at him she would have seen an
inexplicable animation in his face. He paced the floor once or twice in
silence, then asked in a hard voice, though the tone was quite other than
before:</p>
<p>‘Will you tell me what it was you talked of that day in the wood?’</p>
<p>She did not reply.</p>
<p>‘I suppose by refusing to speak you confess that you dare not let me
know?’</p>
<p>Physical torture could not have wrung a word from her. She felt her heart
surge with hatred.</p>
<p>He went to the cupboard in which food was kept, took out a loaf of bread,
and cut a slice. He ate it, standing before the window. Then he cleared
the table and sat down to write a letter; it occupied him for
hall-an-hour. When it was finished, he put it in his pocket and began
again to pace the room.</p>
<p>‘Are you going to, sit like that all night?’ he asked suddenly.</p>
<p>She drew a deep sigh and rose from her seat. He saw that she no longer
thought of escaping him. She began to make preparations for tea. As
helpless in his hands as though he had purchased her in a slave market, of
what avail to sit like a perverse child? The force of her hatred warned
her to keep watch lest she brought herself to his level. Without defence
against indignities which were bitter as death, by law his chattel, as
likely as not to feel the weight of his hand if she again roused his
anger, what remained but to surrender all outward things to unthinking
habit, and to keep her soul apart, nourishing in silence the fire of its
revolt? It was the most pity-moving of all tragedies, a noble nature
overcome by sordid circumstances. She was deficient in the strength of
character which will subdue all circumstances; her strength was of the
kind that supports endurance rather than breaks a way to freedom. Every
day, every hour, is some such tragedy played through; it is the inevitable
result of our social state. Adela could have wept tears of blood; her
shame was like a branding iron upon her flesh.</p>
<p>She was on the second floor of a lodging-house in Pentonville, making tea
for her husband.</p>
<p>That husband appeared to have undergone a change since lie quitted her a
few hours ago. He was still venomous towards her, but his countenance no
longer lowered dangerously. Something distinct from his domestic troubles
seemed to be occupying him, something of a pleasant nature. He all but
smiled now and then; the glances he cast at Adela were not wholly occupied
with her. He plainly wished to speak, but could not bring himself to do
so.</p>
<p>He ate and drank of what she put before him. Adela took a cup of tea, but
had no appetite for food. When he had satisfied himself, she removed the
things.</p>
<p>Another half-hour passed. Mutimer was pretending to read. Adela at length
broke the silence.</p>
<p>‘I think,’ she said, ‘I was wrong in refusing to tell you what passed
between Mr. Eldon and myself when I by chance met him. Someone seems to
have misled you. He began by hoping that we should not think ourselves
hound to leave the Manor until we had had full time to make the necessary
arrangements. I thanked him for his kindness, and then asked something
further. It was that, if he could by any means do so, he would continue
the works at New Wanley without any change, maintaining the principles on
which they had been begun. He said that was impossible, and explained to
me what his intentions were, and why he had formed them. That was our
conversation.’</p>
<p>Mutimer observed her with a smile which affected incredulity.</p>
<p>‘Will you take your oath that that is true?’ he asked.</p>
<p>‘No. I have told you because I now see that the explanation was owing,
since you have been deceived. If you disbelieve me, it is no concern of
mine.’</p>
<p>She had taken up some sewing, and, having spoken, went on with it. Mutimer
kept his eyes fixed upon her. His suspicions never resisted a direct word
from Adela’s lips, though other feelings might exasperate him. What he had
just heard he believed the more readily because it so surprised him; it
was one of those revelations of his wife’s superiority which abashed him
without causing evil feeling. They always had the result of restoring to
him for a moment something of the reverence with which he had approached
her in the early days of their acquaintance. Even now he could not escape
the impression.</p>
<p>‘What was Eldon doing about here to-day?’ he asked after a pause.</p>
<p>‘I have told you that I did not even know he had been near.’</p>
<p>‘Perhaps not. Now, will you just tell me this: Have you written to Eldon,
or had any letter from him since our marriage?’</p>
<p>Her fingers would not continue their work. A deadening sensation of
disgust made her close her eyes as if to shut out the meaning of his
question. Her silence revived his distrust.</p>
<p>‘You had rather not answer?’ he said significantly.</p>
<p>‘Cannot you see that it degrades me to answer such a question? What is
your opinion of me? Have I behaved so as to lead you to think that I am an
abandoned woman?’</p>
<p>After hesitating he muttered: ‘You don’t give a plain yes or no.’</p>
<p>‘You must not expect it. If you think I use arts to deceive you—if
you have no faith whatever in my purity—it was your duty to let me
go from you when I would have done so. It is horrible for us to live
together from the moment that there is such a doubt on either side. It
makes me something lower than your servant—something that has no
name!’</p>
<p>She shuddered. Had not that been true of her from the very morrow of their
marriage? Her life was cast away upon shoals of debasement; no sanctity of
womanhood remained in her. Was not her indignation half a mockery? She
could not even defend her honesty, her honour in the vulgarest sense of
the word, without involving herself in a kind of falsehood, which was
desolation to her spirit. It had begun in her advocacy of uprightness
after her discovery of the will; it was imbuing her whole nature, making
her to her own conscience that which he had called her—a very
hypocrite.</p>
<p>He spoke more conciliatingly.</p>
<p>‘Well, there’s one thing, at all events, that you can’t refuse to explain.
Why didn’t you tell me that you had met Eldon, and what he meant to do?’</p>
<p>She had not prepared herself for the question, and it went to the root of
her thoughts; none the less she replied instantly, careless how he
understood the truth.</p>
<p>‘I kept silence because the meeting had given me pain, because it
distressed me to have to speak with Mr. Eldon at that place and at that
time, because I <i>knew</i> how you regard him, and was afraid to mention
him to you.’</p>
<p>Mutimer was at a loss. If Adela had calculated her reply with the deepest
art she could not have chosen words better fitted to silence him.</p>
<p>‘And you have told me every word that passed between you?’ he asked.</p>
<p>‘That would be impossible. I have told you the substance of the
conversation.’</p>
<p>‘Why did you ask him to keep the works going on my plan?’</p>
<p>‘I can tell you no more.’</p>
<p>Her strength was spent. She put aside her sewing and moved towards the
door.</p>
<p>‘Where are you going?’</p>
<p>‘I don’t feel well. I must rest.’</p>
<p>‘Just stop a minute. I’ve something here I want to show you.’</p>
<p>She turned wearily. Mutimer took a letter from his pocket.</p>
<p>‘Will you read that?’</p>
<p>She took it. It was written in a very clear, delicate hand, and ran thus:—</p>
<p>‘DEAR SIR,—I who address you have lain for two years on a bed from
which I shall never move till I am carried to my grave. My age is
three-and-twenty; an accident which happened to me a few days after my
twenty-first birthday left me without the use of my limbs; it often seems
to me that it would have been better if I had died, but there is no
arguing with fate, and the wise thing is to accept cheerfully whatever
befalls us. I hoped at one time to take an active part in life, and my
interest in the world’s progress is as strong as ever, especially in
everything that concerns social reform. I have for some time known your
name, and have constantly sought information about your grand work at New
Wanley. Now I venture to write (by the hand of a dear friend), to express
my admiration for your high endeavour, and my grief at the circumstances
which have made you powerless to continue it.</p>
<p>‘I am possessed of means, and, as you see, can spend but little on myself.
I ask you, with much earnestness, to let me be of some small use to the
cause of social justice, by putting, in your hands the sum of five hundred
pounds, to be employed as may seem good to you. I need not affect to be
ignorant of your position, and it is my great fear lest you should be
unable to work for Socialism with your undivided energies. Will you accept
this money, and continue by means of public lecturing to spread the gospel
of emancipation? That I am convinced is your first desire. If you will do
me this great kindness, I shall ask your permission to arrange that the
same sum be paid to you annually, for the next ten years, whether I still
live or not. To be helping in this indirect way would cheer me more than
you can think. I enclose a draft on Messrs.—.</p>
<p>‘As I do not know your private address, I send this to the office of the
“Piery Cross.” Pardon me for desiring to remain anonymous; many reasons
necessitate it. If you grant me this favour, will you advertise the word
“Accepted” in the “Times” newspaper within ten days?</p>
<p>‘With heartfelt sympathy and admiration, ‘I sign myself, ‘A FRIEND.’</p>
<p>Adela was unmoved; she returned the letter as if it had no interest for
her.</p>
<p>‘What do you think of that?’ said Mutimer, forgetting their differences in
his exultation.</p>
<p>‘I am glad you can continue your work,’ Adela replied absently.</p>
<p>She was moving away when he again stopped her.</p>
<p>‘Look here, Adela.’ He hesitated. ‘Are you still angry with me?’</p>
<p>She was silent.</p>
<p>‘I am sorry I lost my temper. I didn’t mean all I said to you. Will you
try and forget it?’</p>
<p>Her lips spoke for her.</p>
<p>‘I will try.’</p>
<p>‘You needn’t go on doing housework now,’ he said assuringly. ‘Are you
going? Come and say good-night.’</p>
<p>He approached her and laid his hand upon her shoulder. Adela shrank from
his touch, and for an instant gazed at him with wide eyes of fear.</p>
<p>He dropped his hands and let her go.</p>
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