<h2><SPAN name="chap27"></SPAN>CHAPTER XXVII.<br/> THE HÔTEL CRÉCY.</h2>
<p>The morrow turned out a more lively and busy day than we—or than I, at
least—had anticipated. It seems it was the birthday of one of the young
princes of Labassecour—the eldest, I think, the Duc de Dindonneau, and a
general holiday was given in his honour at the schools, and especially at the
principal “Athénée,” or college. The youth of that institution had
also concocted, and were to present a loyal address; for which purpose they
were to be assembled in the public building where the yearly examinations were
conducted, and the prizes distributed. After the ceremony of presentation, an
oration, or “discours,” was to follow from one of the professors.</p>
<p>Several of M. de Bassompierre’s friends—the savants—being
more or less connected with the Athénée, they were expected to attend on this
occasion; together with the worshipful municipality of Villette, M. le
Chevalier Staas, the burgomaster, and the parents and kinsfolk of the Athenians
in general. M. de Bassompierre was engaged by his friends to accompany them;
his fair daughter would, of course, be of the party, and she wrote a little
note to Ginevra and myself, bidding us come early that we might join her.</p>
<p>As Miss Fanshawe and I were dressing in the dormitory of the Rue Fossette, she
(Miss F.) suddenly burst into a laugh.</p>
<p>“What now?” I asked; for she had suspended the operation of
arranging her attire, and was gazing at me.</p>
<p>“It seems so odd,” she replied, with her usual half-honest
half-insolent unreserve, “that you and I should now be so much on a
level, visiting in the same sphere; having the same connections.”</p>
<p>“Why, yes,” said I; “I had not much respect for the
connections you chiefly frequented awhile ago: Mrs. Cholmondeley and Co. would
never have suited me at all.”</p>
<p>“Who <i>are</i> you, Miss Snowe?” she inquired, in a tone of such
undisguised and unsophisticated curiosity, as made me laugh in my turn.</p>
<p>“You used to call yourself a nursery governess; when you first came here
you really had the care of the children in this house: I have seen you carry
little Georgette in your arms, like a bonne—few governesses would have
condescended so far—and now Madame Beck treats you with more courtesy
than she treats the Parisienne, St. Pierre; and that proud chit, my cousin,
makes you her bosom friend!”</p>
<p>“Wonderful!” I agreed, much amused at her mystification. “Who
am I indeed? Perhaps a personage in disguise. Pity I don’t look the
character.”</p>
<p>“I wonder you are not more flattered by all this,” she went on;
“you take it with strange composure. If you really are the nobody I once
thought you, you must be a cool hand.”</p>
<p>“The nobody you once thought me!” I repeated, and my face grew a
little hot; but I would not be angry: of what importance was a
school-girl’s crude use of the terms nobody and somebody? I confined
myself, therefore, to the remark that I had merely met with civility; and asked
“what she saw in civility to throw the recipient into a fever of
confusion?”</p>
<p>“One can’t help wondering at some things,” she persisted.</p>
<p>“Wondering at marvels of your own manufacture. Are you ready at
last?”</p>
<p>“Yes; let me take your arm.”</p>
<p>“I would rather not: we will walk side by side.”</p>
<p>When she took my arm, she always leaned upon me her whole weight; and, as I was
not a gentleman, or her lover, I did not like it.</p>
<p>“There, again!” she cried. “I thought, by offering to take
your arm, to intimate approbation of your dress and general appearance: I meant
it as a compliment.”</p>
<p>“You did? You meant, in short, to express that you are not ashamed to be
seen in the street with me? That if Mrs. Cholmondeley should be fondling her
lapdog at some window, or Colonel de Hamal picking his teeth in a balcony, and
should catch a glimpse of us, you would not quite blush for your
companion?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” said she, with that directness which was her best
point—which gave an honest plainness to her very fibs when she told
them—which was, in short, the salt, the sole preservative ingredient of a
character otherwise not formed to keep.</p>
<p>I delegated the trouble of commenting on this “yes” to my
countenance; or rather, my under-lip voluntarily anticipated my tongue of
course, reverence and solemnity were not the feelings expressed in the look I
gave her.</p>
<p>“Scornful, sneering creature!” she went on, as we crossed a great
square, and entered the quiet, pleasant park, our nearest way to the Rue Crécy.
“Nobody in this world was ever such a Turk to me as you are!”</p>
<p>“You bring it on yourself: let me alone: have the sense to be quiet: I
will let you alone.”</p>
<p>“As if one <i>could</i> let you alone, when you are so peculiar and so
mysterious!”</p>
<p>“The mystery and peculiarity being entirely the conception of your own
brain—maggots—neither more nor less, be so good as to keep them out
of my sight.”</p>
<p>“But <i>are</i> you anybody?” persevered she, pushing her hand, in
spite of me, under my arm; and that arm pressed itself with inhospitable
closeness against my side, by way of keeping out the intruder.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said, “I am a rising character: once an old
lady’s companion, then a nursery-governess, now a school-teacher.”</p>
<p>“Do—<i>do</i> tell me who you are? I’ll not repeat it,”
she urged, adhering with ludicrous tenacity to the wise notion of an incognito
she had got hold of; and she squeezed the arm of which she had now obtained
full possession, and coaxed and conjured till I was obliged to pause in the
park to laugh. Throughout our walk she rang the most fanciful changes on this
theme; proving, by her obstinate credulity, or incredulity, her incapacity to
conceive how any person not bolstered up by birth or wealth, not supported by
some consciousness of name or connection, could maintain an attitude of
reasonable integrity. As for me, it quite sufficed to my mental tranquillity
that I was known where it imported that known I should be; the rest sat on me
easily: pedigree, social position, and recondite intellectual acquisition,
occupied about the same space and place in my interests and thoughts; they were
my third-class lodgers—to whom could be assigned only the small
sitting-room and the little back bedroom: even if the dining and drawing-rooms
stood empty, I never confessed it to them, as thinking minor accommodations
better suited to their circumstances. The world, I soon learned, held a
different estimate: and I make no doubt, the world is very right in its view,
yet believe also that I am not quite wrong in mine.</p>
<p>There are people whom a lowered position degrades morally, to whom loss of
connection costs loss of self-respect: are not these justified in placing the
highest value on that station and association which is their safeguard from
debasement? If a man feels that he would become contemptible in his own eyes
were it generally known that his ancestry were simple and not gentle, poor and
not rich, workers and not capitalists, would it be right severely to blame him
for keeping these fatal facts out of sight—for starting, trembling,
quailing at the chance which threatens exposure? The longer we live, the more
our experience widens; the less prone are we to judge our neighbour’s
conduct, to question the world’s wisdom: wherever an accumulation of
small defences is found, whether surrounding the prude’s virtue or the
man of the world’s respectability, there, be sure, it is needed.</p>
<p>We reached the Hôtel Crécy; Paulina was ready; Mrs. Bretton was with her; and,
under her escort and that of M. de Bassompierre, we were soon conducted to the
place of assembly, and seated in good seats, at a convenient distance from the
Tribune. The youth of the Athénée were marshalled before us, the municipality
and their bourgmestre were in places of honour, the young princes, with their
tutors, occupied a conspicuous position, and the body of the building was
crowded with the aristocracy and first burghers of the town.</p>
<p>Concerning the identity of the professor by whom the “discours” was
to be delivered, I had as yet entertained neither care nor question. Some vague
expectation I had that a savant would stand up and deliver a formal speech,
half dogmatism to the Athenians, half flattery to the princes.</p>
<p>The Tribune was yet empty when we entered, but in ten minutes after it was
filled; suddenly, in a second of time, a head, chest, and arms grew above the
crimson desk. This head I knew: its colour, shape, port, expression, were
familiar both to me and Miss Fanshawe; the blackness and closeness of cranium,
the amplitude and paleness of brow, the blueness and fire of glance, were
details so domesticated in the memory, and so knit with many a whimsical
association, as almost by this their sudden apparition, to tickle fancy to a
laugh. Indeed, I confess, for my part, I did laugh till I was warm; but then I
bent my head, and made my handkerchief and a lowered veil the sole confidants
of my mirth.</p>
<p>I think I was glad to see M. Paul; I think it was rather pleasant than
otherwise, to behold him set up there, fierce and frank, dark and candid, testy
and fearless, as when regnant on his estrade in class. His presence was such a
surprise: I had not once thought of expecting him, though I knew he filled the
chair of Belles Lettres in the college. With <i>him</i> in that Tribune, I felt
sure that neither formalism nor flattery would be our doom; but for what was
vouchsafed us, for what was poured suddenly, rapidly, continuously, on our
heads—I own I was not prepared.</p>
<p>He spoke to the princes, the nobles, the magistrates, and the burghers, with
just the same ease, with almost the same pointed, choleric earnestness, with
which he was wont to harangue the three divisions of the Rue Fossette. The
collegians he addressed, not as schoolboys, but as future citizens and embryo
patriots. The times which have since come on Europe had not been foretold yet,
and M. Emanuel’s spirit seemed new to me. Who would have thought the flat
and fat soil of Labassecour could yield political convictions and national
feelings, such as were now strongly expressed? Of the bearing of his opinions I
need here give no special indication; yet it may be permitted me to say that I
believed the little man not more earnest than right in what he said: with all
his fire he was severe and sensible; he trampled Utopian theories under his
heel; he rejected wild dreams with scorn;—but when he looked in the face
of tyranny—oh, then there opened a light in his eye worth seeing; and
when he spoke of injustice, his voice gave no uncertain sound, but reminded me
rather of the band-trumpet, ringing at twilight from the park.</p>
<p>I do not think his audience were generally susceptible of sharing his flame in
its purity; but some of the college youth caught fire as he eloquently told
them what should be their path and endeavour in their country’s and in
Europe’s future. They gave him a long, loud, ringing cheer, as he
concluded: with all his fierceness, he was their favourite professor.</p>
<p>As our party left the Hall, he stood at the entrance; he saw and knew me, and
lifted his hat; he offered his hand in passing, and uttered the words
“Qu’en dites vous?”—question eminently characteristic,
and reminding me, even in this his moment of triumph, of that inquisitive
restlessness, that absence of what I considered desirable self-control, which
were amongst his faults. He should not have cared just then to ask what I
thought, or what anybody thought, but he <i>did</i> care, and he was too
natural to conceal, too impulsive to repress his wish. Well! if I blamed his
over-eagerness, I liked his <i>naiveté</i>. I would have praised him: I had
plenty of praise in my heart; but, alas! no words on my lips. Who <i>has</i>
words at the right moment? I stammered some lame expressions; but was truly
glad when other people, coming up with profuse congratulations, covered my
deficiency by their redundancy.</p>
<p>A gentleman introduced him to M. de Bassompierre; and the Count, who had
likewise been highly gratified, asked him to join his friends (for the most
part M. Emanuel’s likewise), and to dine with them at the Hôtel Crécy. He
declined dinner, for he was a man always somewhat shy at meeting the advances
of the wealthy: there was a strength of sturdy independence in the stringing of
his sinews—not obtrusive, but pleasant enough to discover as one advanced
in knowledge of his character; he promised, however, to step in with his
friend, M. A——, a French Academician, in the course of the evening.</p>
<p>At dinner that day, Ginevra and Paulina each looked, in her own way, very
beautiful; the former, perhaps, boasted the advantage in material charms, but
the latter shone pre-eminent for attractions more subtle and spiritual: for
light and eloquence of eye, for grace of mien, for winning variety of
expression. Ginevra’s dress of deep crimson relieved well her light
curls, and harmonized with her rose-like bloom. Paulina’s attire—in
fashion close, though faultlessly neat, but in texture clear and
white—made the eye grateful for the delicate life of her complexion, for
the soft animation of her countenance, for the tender depth of her eyes, for
the brown shadow and bounteous flow of her hair—darker than that of her
Saxon cousin, as were also her eyebrows, her eyelashes, her full irids, and
large mobile pupils. Nature having traced all these details slightly, and with
a careless hand, in Miss Fanshawe’s case; and in Miss de
Bassompierre’s, wrought them to a high and delicate finish.</p>
<p>Paulina was awed by the savants, but not quite to mutism: she conversed
modestly, diffidently; not without effort, but with so true a sweetness, so
fine and penetrating a sense, that her father more than once suspended his own
discourse to listen, and fixed on her an eye of proud delight. It was a polite
Frenchman, M. Z——, a very learned, but quite a courtly man, who had
drawn her into discourse. I was charmed with her French; it was
faultless—the structure correct, the idioms true, the accent pure;
Ginevra, who had lived half her life on the Continent, could do nothing like it
not that words ever failed Miss Fanshawe, but real accuracy and purity she
neither possessed, nor in any number of years would acquire. Here, too, M. de
Bassompierre was gratified; for, on the point of language, he was critical.</p>
<p>Another listener and observer there was; one who, detained by some exigency of
his profession, had come in late to dinner. Both ladies were quietly scanned by
Dr. Bretton, at the moment of taking his seat at the table; and that guarded
survey was more than once renewed. His arrival roused Miss Fanshawe, who had
hitherto appeared listless: she now became smiling and complacent,
talked—though what she said was rarely to the purpose—or rather,
was of a purpose somewhat mortifyingly below the standard of the occasion. Her
light, disconnected prattle might have gratified Graham once; perhaps it
pleased him still: perhaps it was only fancy which suggested the thought that,
while his eye was filled and his ear fed, his taste, his keen zest, his lively
intelligence, were not equally consulted and regaled. It is certain that,
restless and exacting as seemed the demand on his attention, he yielded
courteously all that was required: his manner showed neither pique nor
coolness: Ginevra was his neighbour, and to her, during dinner, he almost
exclusively confined his notice. She appeared satisfied, and passed to the
drawing-room in very good spirits.</p>
<p>Yet, no sooner had we reached that place of refuge, than she again became flat
and listless: throwing herself on a couch, she denounced both the
“discours” and the dinner as stupid affairs, and inquired of her
cousin how she could hear such a set of prosaic “gros-bonnets” as
her father gathered about him. The moment the gentlemen were heard to move, her
railings ceased: she started up, flew to the piano, and dashed at it with
spirit. Dr. Bretton entering, one of the first, took up his station beside her.
I thought he would not long maintain that post: there was a position near the
hearth to which I expected to see him attracted: this position he only scanned
with his eye; while <i>he</i> looked, others drew in. The grace and mind of
Paulina charmed these thoughtful Frenchmen: the fineness of her beauty, the
soft courtesy of her manner, her immature, but real and inbred tact, pleased
their national taste; they clustered about her, not indeed to talk science;
which would have rendered her dumb, but to touch on many subjects in letters,
in arts, in actual life, on which it soon appeared that she had both read and
reflected. I listened. I am sure that though Graham stood aloof, he listened
too: his hearing as well as his vision was very fine, quick, discriminating. I
knew he gathered the conversation; I felt that the mode in which it was
sustained suited him exquisitely—pleased him almost to pain.</p>
<p>In Paulina there was more force, both of feeling and character; than most
people thought—than Graham himself imagined—than she would ever
show to those who did not wish to see it. To speak truth, reader, there is no
excellent beauty, no accomplished grace, no reliable refinement, without
strength as excellent, as complete, as trustworthy. As well might you look for
good fruit and blossom on a rootless and sapless tree, as for charms that will
endure in a feeble and relaxed nature. For a little while, the blooming
semblance of beauty may flourish round weakness; but it cannot bear a blast: it
soon fades, even in serenest sunshine. Graham would have started had any
suggestive spirit whispered of the sinew and the stamina sustaining that
delicate nature; but I who had known her as a child, knew or guessed by what a
good and strong root her graces held to the firm soil of reality.</p>
<p>While Dr. Bretton listened, and waited an opening in the magic circle, his
glance restlessly sweeping the room at intervals, lighted by chance on me,
where I sat in a quiet nook not far from my godmother and M. de Bassompierre,
who, as usual, were engaged in what Mr. Home called “a two-handed
crack:” what the Count would have interpreted as a tête-à-tête. Graham
smiled recognition, crossed the room, asked me how I was, told me I looked
pale. I also had my own smile at my own thought: it was now about three months
since Dr. John had spoken to me—a lapse of which he was not even
conscious. He sat down, and became silent. His wish was rather to look than
converse. Ginevra and Paulina were now opposite to him: he could gaze his fill:
he surveyed both forms—studied both faces.</p>
<p>Several new guests, ladies as well as gentlemen, had entered the room since
dinner, dropping in for the evening conversation; and amongst the gentlemen, I
may incidentally observe, I had already noticed by glimpses, a severe, dark,
professorial outline, hovering aloof in an inner saloon, seen only in vista. M.
Emanuel knew many of the gentlemen present, but I think was a stranger to most
of the ladies, excepting myself; in looking towards the hearth, he could not
but see me, and naturally made a movement to approach; seeing, however, Dr.
Bretton also, he changed his mind and held back. If that had been all, there
would have been no cause for quarrel; but not satisfied with holding back, he
puckered up his eyebrows, protruded his lip, and looked so ugly that I averted
my eyes from the displeasing spectacle. M. Joseph Emanuel had arrived, as well
as his austere brother, and at this very moment was relieving Ginevra at the
piano. What a master-touch succeeded her school-girl jingle! In what grand,
grateful tones the instrument acknowledged the hand of the true artist!</p>
<p>“Lucy,” began Dr. Bretton, breaking silence and smiling, as Ginevra
glided before him, casting a glance as she passed by, “Miss Fanshawe is
certainly a fine girl.”</p>
<p>Of course I assented.</p>
<p>“Is there,” he pursued, “another in the room as
lovely?”</p>
<p>“I think there is not another as handsome.”</p>
<p>“I agree with you, Lucy: you and I do often agree in opinion, in taste, I
think; or at least in judgment.”</p>
<p>“Do we?” I said, somewhat doubtfully.</p>
<p>“I believe if you had been a boy, Lucy, instead of a girl—my
mother’s god-son instead of her god-daughter, we should have been good
friends: our opinions would have melted into each other.”</p>
<p>He had assumed a bantering air: a light, half-caressing, half-ironic, shone
aslant in his eye. Ah, Graham! I have given more than one solitary moment to
thoughts and calculations of your estimate of Lucy Snowe: was it always kind or
just? Had Lucy been intrinsically the same but possessing the additional
advantages of wealth and station, would your manner to her, your value for her,
have been quite what they actually were? And yet by these questions I would not
seriously infer blame. No; you might sadden and trouble me sometimes; but then
mine was a soon-depressed, an easily-deranged temperament—it fell if a
cloud crossed the sun. Perhaps before the eye of severe equity I should stand
more at fault than you.</p>
<p>Trying, then, to keep down the unreasonable pain which thrilled my heart, on
thus being made to feel that while Graham could devote to others the most grave
and earnest, the manliest interest, he had no more than light raillery for
Lucy, the friend of lang syne, I inquired calmly,—“On what points
are we so closely in accordance?”</p>
<p>“We each have an observant faculty. You, perhaps, don’t give me
credit for the possession; yet I have it.”</p>
<p>“But you were speaking of tastes: we may see the same objects, yet
estimate them differently?”</p>
<p>“Let us bring it to the test. Of course, you cannot but render homage to
the merits of Miss Fanshawe: now, what do you think of others in the
room?—my mother, for instance; or the lions yonder, Messieurs
A—— and Z——; or, let us say, that pale little lady,
Miss de Bassompierre?”</p>
<p>“You know what I think of your mother. I have not thought of Messieurs
A—— and Z——.”</p>
<p>“And the other?”</p>
<p>“I think she is, as you say, a pale little lady—pale, certainly,
just now, when she is fatigued with over-excitement.”</p>
<p>“You don’t remember her as a child?”</p>
<p>“I wonder, sometimes, whether you do.”</p>
<p>“I had forgotten her; but it is noticeable, that circumstances, persons,
even words and looks, that had slipped your memory, may, under certain
conditions, certain aspects of your own or another’s mind, revive.”</p>
<p>“That is possible enough.”</p>
<p>“Yet,” he continued, “the revival is imperfect—needs
confirmation, partakes so much of the dim character of a dream, or of the airy
one of a fancy, that the testimony of a witness becomes necessary for
corroboration. Were you not a guest at Bretton ten years ago, when Mr. Home
brought his little girl, whom we then called ‘little Polly,’ to
stay with mamma?”</p>
<p>“I was there the night she came, and also the morning she went
away.”</p>
<p>“Rather a peculiar child, was she not? I wonder how I treated her. Was I
fond of children in those days? Was there anything gracious or kindly about
me—great, reckless, schoolboy as I was? But you don’t recollect me,
of course?”</p>
<p>“You have seen your own picture at La Terrasse. It is like you
personally. In manner, you were almost the same yesterday as to-day.”</p>
<p>“But, Lucy, how is that? Such an oracle really whets my curiosity. What
am I to-day? What was I the yesterday of ten years back?”</p>
<p>“Gracious to whatever pleased you—unkindly or cruel to
nothing.”</p>
<p>“There you are wrong; I think I was almost a brute to <i>you</i>, for
instance.”</p>
<p>“A brute! No, Graham: I should never have patiently endured
brutality.”</p>
<p>“<i>This</i>, however, I <i>do</i> remember: quiet Lucy Snowe tasted
nothing of my grace.”</p>
<p>“As little of your cruelty.”</p>
<p>“Why, had I been Nero himself, I could not have tormented a being
inoffensive as a shadow.”</p>
<p>I smiled; but I also hushed a groan. Oh!—I just wished he would let me
alone—cease allusion to me. These epithets—these attributes I put
from me. His “quiet Lucy Snowe,” his “inoffensive
shadow,” I gave him back; not with scorn, but with extreme weariness:
theirs was the coldness and the pressure of lead; let him whelm me with no such
weight. Happily, he was soon on another theme.</p>
<p>“On what terms were ‘little Polly’ and I? Unless my
recollections deceive me, we were not foes—”</p>
<p>“You speak very vaguely. Do you think little Polly’s memory, not
more definite?”</p>
<p>“Oh! we don’t talk of ‘little Polly’ <i>now</i>. Pray
say, Miss de Bassompierre; and, of course, such a stately personage remembers
nothing of Bretton. Look at her large eyes, Lucy; can they read a word in the
page of memory? Are they the same which I used to direct to a horn-book? She
does not know that I partly taught her to read.”</p>
<p>“In the Bible on Sunday nights?”</p>
<p>“She has a calm, delicate, rather fine profile now: once what a little
restless, anxious countenance was hers! What a thing is a child’s
preference—what a bubble! Would you believe it? that lady was fond of
me!”</p>
<p>“I think she was in some measure fond of you,” said I, moderately.</p>
<p>“You don’t remember then? <i>I</i> had forgotten; but I remember
<i>now</i>. She liked me the best of whatever there was at Bretton.”</p>
<p>“You thought so.”</p>
<p>“I quite well recall it. I wish I could tell her all I recall; or rather,
I wish some one, you for instance, would go behind and whisper it all in her
ear, and I could have the delight—here, as I sit—of watching her
look under the intelligence. Could you manage that, think you, Lucy, and make
me ever grateful?”</p>
<p>“Could I manage to make you ever grateful?” said I. “No, <i>I
could not</i>.” And I felt my fingers work and my hands interlock: I
felt, too, an inward courage, warm and resistant. In this matter I was not
disposed to gratify Dr. John: not at all. With now welcome force, I realized
his entire misapprehension of my character and nature. He wanted always to give
me a role not mine. Nature and I opposed him. He did not at all guess what I
felt: he did not read my eyes, or face, or gestures; though, I doubt not, all
spoke. Leaning towards me coaxingly, he said, softly, “<i>Do</i> content
me, Lucy.”</p>
<p>And I would have contented, or, at least, I would clearly have enlightened him,
and taught him well never again to expect of me the part of officious soubrette
in a love drama; when, following his, soft, eager, murmur, meeting almost his
pleading, mellow—“<i>Do</i> content me, Lucy!” a sharp hiss
pierced my ear on the other side.</p>
<p>“Petite chatte, doucerette, coquette!” sibillated the sudden
boa-constrictor; “vous avez l’air bien triste, soumis, rêveur, mais
vous ne l’êtes pas: c’est moi qui vous le dis: Sauvage! la flamme à
l’âme, l’éclair aux yeux!”</p>
<p>“Oui; j’ai la flamme à l’âme, et je dois
l’avoir!” retorted I, turning in just wrath: but Professor Emanuel
had hissed his insult and was gone.</p>
<p>The worst of the matter was, that Dr. Bretton, whose ears, as I have said, were
quick and fine, caught every word of this apostrophe; he put his handkerchief
to his face, and laughed till he shook.</p>
<p>“Well done, Lucy,” cried he; “capital! petite chatte, petite
coquette! Oh, I must tell my mother! Is it true, Lucy, or half-true? I believe
it is: you redden to the colour of Miss Fanshawe’s gown. And really, by
my word, now I examine him, that is the same little man who was so savage with
you at the concert: the very same, and in his soul he is frantic at this moment
because he sees me laughing. Oh! I must tease him.”</p>
<p>And Graham, yielding to his bent for mischief, laughed, jested, and whispered
on till I could bear no more, and my eyes filled.</p>
<p>Suddenly he was sobered: a vacant space appeared near Miss de Bassompierre; the
circle surrounding her seemed about to dissolve. This movement was instantly
caught by Graham’s eye—ever-vigilant, even while laughing; he rose,
took his courage in both hands, crossed the room, and made the advantage his
own. Dr. John, throughout his whole life, was a man of luck—a man of
success. And why? Because he had the eye to see his opportunity, the heart to
prompt to well-timed action, the nerve to consummate a perfect work. And no
tyrant-passion dragged him back; no enthusiasms, no foibles encumbered his way.
How well he looked at this very moment! When Paulina looked up as he reached
her side, her glance mingled at once with an encountering glance, animated, yet
modest; his colour, as he spoke to her, became half a blush, half a glow. He
stood in her presence brave and bashful: subdued and unobtrusive, yet decided
in his purpose and devoted in his ardour. I gathered all this by one view. I
did not prolong my observation—time failed me, had inclination served:
the night wore late; Ginevra and I ought already to have been in the Rue
Fossette. I rose, and bade good-night to my godmother and M. de Bassompierre.</p>
<p>I know not whether Professor Emanuel had noticed my reluctant acceptance of Dr.
Bretton’s badinage, or whether he perceived that I was pained, and that,
on the whole, the evening had not been one flow of exultant enjoyment for the
volatile, pleasure-loving Mademoiselle Lucie; but, as I was leaving the room,
he stepped up and inquired whether I had any one to attend me to the Rue
Fossette. The professor <i>now</i> spoke politely, and even deferentially, and
he looked apologetic and repentant; but I could not recognise his civility at a
word, nor meet his contrition with crude, premature oblivion. Never hitherto
had I felt seriously disposed to resent his brusqueries, or freeze before his
fierceness; what he had said to-night, however, I considered unwarranted: my
extreme disapprobation of the proceeding must be marked, however slightly. I
merely said:—“I am provided with attendance.”</p>
<p>Which was true, as Ginevra and I were to be sent home in the carriage; and I
passed him with the sliding obeisance with which he was wont to be saluted in
classe by pupils crossing his estrade.</p>
<p>Having sought my shawl, I returned to the vestibule. M. Emanuel stood there as
if waiting. He observed that the night was fine.</p>
<p>“Is it?” I said, with a tone and manner whose consummate chariness
and frostiness I could not but applaud. It was so seldom I could properly act
out my own resolution to be reserved and cool where I had been grieved or hurt,
that I felt almost proud of this one successful effort. That “Is
it?” sounded just like the manner of other people. I had heard hundreds
of such little minced, docked, dry phrases, from the pursed-up coral lips of a
score of self-possessed, self-sufficing misses and mesdemoiselles. That M. Paul
would not stand any prolonged experience of this sort of dialogue I knew; but
he certainly merited a sample of the curt and arid. I believe he thought so
himself, for he took the dose quietly. He looked at my shawl and objected to
its lightness. I decidedly told him it was as heavy as I wished. Receding
aloof, and standing apart, I leaned on the banister of the stairs, folded my
shawl about me, and fixed my eyes on a dreary religious painting darkening the
wall.</p>
<p>Ginevra was long in coming: tedious seemed her loitering. M. Paul was still
there; my ear expected from his lips an angry tone. He came nearer. “Now
for another hiss!” thought I: had not the action been too uncivil I could
have, stopped my ears with my fingers in terror of the thrill. Nothing happens
as we expect: listen for a coo or a murmur; it is then you will hear a cry of
prey or pain. Await a piercing shriek, an angry threat, and welcome an amicable
greeting, a low kind whisper. M. Paul spoke
gently:—“Friends,” said he, “do not quarrel for a word.
Tell me, was it I or ce grand fat d’Anglais” (so he profanely
denominated Dr. Bretton), “who made your eyes so humid, and your cheeks
so hot as they are even now?”</p>
<p>“I am not conscious of you, monsieur, or of any other having excited such
emotion as you indicate,” was my answer; and in giving it, I again
surpassed my usual self, and achieved a neat, frosty falsehood.</p>
<p>“But what did I say?” he pursued; “tell me: I was angry: I
have forgotten my words; what were they?”</p>
<p>“Such as it is best to forget!” said I, still quite calm and chill.</p>
<p>“Then it was <i>my</i> words which wounded you? Consider them unsaid:
permit my retractation; accord my pardon.”</p>
<p>“I am not angry, Monsieur.”</p>
<p>“Then you are worse than angry—grieved. Forgive me, Miss
Lucy.”</p>
<p>“M. Emanuel, I <i>do</i> forgive you.”</p>
<p>“Let me hear you say, in the voice natural to you, and not in that alien
tone, ‘Mon ami, je vous pardonne.’”</p>
<p>He made me smile. Who could help smiling at his wistfulness, his simplicity,
his earnestness?</p>
<p>“Bon!” he cried. “Voilà que le jour va poindre! Dites donc,
mon ami.”</p>
<p>“Monsieur Paul, je vous pardonne.”</p>
<p>“I will have no monsieur: speak the other word, or I shall not believe
you sincere: another effort—<i>mon ami</i>, or else in English,—my
friend!”</p>
<p>Now, “my friend” had rather another sound and significancy than
“<i>mon ami</i>;” it did not breathe the same sense of domestic and
intimate affection; “<i>mon ami</i>” I could <i>not</i> say to M.
Paul; “my friend,” I could, and did say without difficulty. This
distinction existed not for him, however, and he was quite satisfied with the
English phrase. He smiled. You should have seen him smile, reader; and you
should have marked the difference between his countenance now, and that he wore
half an hour ago. I cannot affirm that I had ever witnessed the smile of
pleasure, or content, or kindness round M. Paul’s lips, or in his eyes
before. The ironic, the sarcastic, the disdainful, the passionately exultant, I
had hundreds of times seen him express by what he called a smile, but any
illuminated sign of milder or warmer feelings struck me as wholly new in his
visage. It changed it as from a mask to a face: the deep lines left his
features; the very complexion seemed clearer and fresher; that swart, sallow,
southern darkness which spoke his Spanish blood, became displaced by a lighter
hue. I know not that I have ever seen in any other human face an equal
metamorphosis from a similar cause. He now took me to the carriage: at the same
moment M. de Bassompierre came out with his niece.</p>
<p>In a pretty humour was Mistress Fanshawe; she had found the evening a grand
failure: completely upset as to temper, she gave way to the most uncontrolled
moroseness as soon as we were seated, and the carriage-door closed. Her
invectives against Dr. Bretton had something venomous in them. Having found
herself impotent either to charm or sting him, hatred was her only resource;
and this hatred she expressed in terms so unmeasured and proportion so
monstrous, that, after listening for a while with assumed stoicism, my outraged
sense of justice at last and suddenly caught fire. An explosion ensued: for I
could be passionate, too; especially with my present fair but faulty associate,
who never failed to stir the worst dregs of me. It was well that the
carriage-wheels made a tremendous rattle over the flinty Choseville pavement,
for I can assure the reader there was neither dead silence nor calm discussion
within the vehicle. Half in earnest, half in seeming, I made it my business to
storm down Ginevra. She had set out rampant from the Rue Crécy; it was
necessary to tame her before we reached the Rue Fossette: to this end it was
indispensable to show up her sterling value and high deserts; and this must be
done in language of which the fidelity and homeliness might challenge
comparison with the compliments of a John Knox to a Mary Stuart. This was the
right discipline for Ginevra; it suited her. I am quite sure she went to bed
that night all the better and more settled in mind and mood, and slept all the
more sweetly for having undergone a sound moral drubbing.</p>
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